Jasmine slowly got up, the shock on her face undiminished, and I knew that it was my excesses that made her feel incredible.

She walked slowly to my side, as if to reach out to pull me, and I subconsciously shrank back in fear.

Jasmine's hand froze suddenly, and the surprise on her face gradually closed, replaced by a faint sadness.

She slowly lowered her hand, lowered her eyes slightly, stood in front of me and said faintly: "Brother Asheng, do you hate me so much?" Did you know that the moment I first saw you on the docks, I was hooked? Don't think that I am a frivolous woman when I behave like this to you, I know that we foreign women have always been abusive in the eyes of you Chinese, but I can tell you very responsibly, I have never been so obsessed with a man, I know that I am in love with you, don't you have a little feeling for me? Why are you so afraid of me? ”

Jasmine's eyes were filled with tears, where was there still a trace of the free and easy appearance of the past!

Jasmine's words brought me back to my senses a little, and I knew that my dodge had broken her heart, but I had to say that those were my subconscious actions, and they were not my intention, even if I were to be sane I would not have been able to accept Jasmine's enthusiasm.

The experience of these years has made me feel as if there is an invisible curse on me, which has been cursing me, and once I am the slightest emotional, it will end up tragically.

At the beginning, not long after I had a relationship with Mu Xichun, I thought that I could resist all the pressure and be able to go to the future with her, but I immediately encountered a catastrophe that changed my life!

I thought I would have a chance to be happy again, but the truth quickly gave me the answer, this time even more tragic, at the cost of Anne's life......

I'm really scared, I'm afraid that if I get a little emotional, this curse that has been placed on my life will come again! I'm afraid I'm going to get into trouble with the people around me again......

So I have been secretly telling myself in my heart that I can't live too well, I can't make myself too comfortable, and I can only avoid triggering this curse by sticking to this uncrossable red line, living the simplest life like an ascetic monk, and forgetting the seven emotions and six desires.

In fact, I also did it, I lived alone in an old house away from the crowd, and I lived a simple life of coarse tea, light rice, food and drink, in order not to cross this red line!

However, tonight, Jasmine's behavior seems to be outside the red line, how can it not make me feel panic or even horror?

These have long been an inherent cognition in my mind, so I will show great resistance and fear to Jasmine when I realize Jasmine's behavior, which is not controlled by my own mind!

But how can these jasmines know......

I sat up slowly, got out of bed and walked over to Jasmine.

"Jasmine, I'm sorry!" I said in a deep voice.

"It's not your fault! I don't hate you, and I don't fear you......"

"Why the hell?"

Jasmine suddenly said loudly. The corners of her mouth twitched slightly, and her eyes could no longer hold back the tears, and they flowed silently.

……

"It's my problem, it's none of your business!"

I was silent for a long time and finally spoke.

"I've already told you my story, I'm an ominous person, I don't want to have any emotional ties, all those who are close to me won't end well, I don't want to hurt you!"

“

I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid! Jasmine pounced with tears in her eyes and hugged me from behind with a stubborn expression!

I slowly closed my eyes, and my heart, which had been calm for a long time, began to cramp again.

I felt Jasmine's slightly trembling body, and said silently in my heart: Jasmine, I'm sorry, I've lost the ability to love people, I can't give you what you want! I don't know if the curse on me really exists, but I can't give it the slightest chance to manifest itself. Jasmine, sorry!

After a long time, I finally slowly broke Jasmine's hand, and walked out step by step without looking back.

I heard Jasmine crying silently behind me until I walked out of her house completely. Although I didn't look back, I could imagine how sad her expression was at the moment. But Jasmine, I have no choice but to minimize the damage......

I walked back with a heavy heart, the moon had risen from the sea to the sky, and the sea breeze in early autumn was already a little cool, blowing on my body could not help but make me shiver, and the night was already very deep.

After that night's events, I thought that the way I and Jasmine got along would be different, or at least her attitude towards me would change.

But I didn't expect that Jasmine would go to my place to eat as soon as she had time, as if nothing had happened, and even the way she looked at me remained the same, and even the emotion in her eyes was even more unobstructed.

Although I always deliberately avoided her gaze, she didn't feel frustrated at all, at least on the surface.

I know that she doesn't give up so easily, which makes me very distressed, but I can't avoid her, she can always find work and run to my yard.

Just when I was struggling and didn't know how to deal with my relationship with Jasmine, the arrival of a person helped me solve this problem.

I was re-tying my bamboo raft with hemp rope at the pier that day. It was at this time that the poet Tang Wenxuan appeared in front of me.

He was carrying the same canvas bag as I had been, and his short hair was a sign that he had only recently come out of that compound.

He hadn't seen him for years, but he had become thinner, with high raised cheekbones and sunken eye sockets, as well as thick stubble around his lips, giving him the charm of a mature man.

He was dressed in a light-colored casual jacket and a pair of faded blue jeans with the zipper of the jacket open. He has one hand in his pocket and the other carrying a canvas bag.

When I found him, he was already standing a few meters away from me, we looked at each other for a second, and then we both laughed!

It's no coincidence that Don Jr. was able to find me, I thought of Don Jr. a few months ago after the company became more stable, and I thought about what Don Jr. said to me when I was released from prison, he said let me go to the business first, and when he came out, he would come to me, and I joked that I would leave the best food for him even if I was begging.

I didn't expect that I really had some small achievements now, and it was almost time for Xiao Tang, so I wrote a letter to the prison, telling him about my situation here, and if he had nowhere to go, he could come to me. And now he came.

At this moment, I suddenly remembered that classic American movie, when the old Morgan found Andy, it was also a sunny noon, Andy was repairing his boat, and the old Morgan appeared in front of him, and the camera of the movie gradually zoomed out on the golden beach, and the world gradually became vast, and the movie ended here.

I think the director is probably using this artistic technique to express the freedom that people want, no matter what we do

No matter how much life we have left at that time, as long as we are free, we are happy.

My encounter with Don Jr. is almost a real-life version of Morgan Sr. and Andy, the difference is that Don Jr. is not as old as Morgan, and I am luckier than Andy because I don't have to hide my identity.

Xiao Tang and I looked at each other and smiled, Xiao Tang still called me Brother Sheng, familiar and natural, just like a family member who had been separated for many years, after each experienced reincarnation, they met again, except for being a little older, in fact, nothing has changed!

Don Jr. and I sat on the dock facing the endless sea and chatted for an afternoon, telling each other about our experiences after parting.

Don told me that in the second year after I left, the prison was closed, and they were sent to the mountains in the southwest of the motherland, where they tended to dozens of acres of ecological gardens.

This is a national forestry project, and they need to plant unnamed saplings in the ground in the spring, and dig up the saplings in the following spring. No one knows what this mission means, and no one will explain it to them.

The reason why this seemingly easy task falls on their heads is because it is inaccessible and the conditions are extremely difficult, and no one in a normal person will go there.

Don Jr. told me that two months after I went there, someone tried to escape, and as soon as he escaped, he was found and killed on the spot while chasing without warning. The idea has not been thought of since. Don Jr. stayed there until he was released from prison, that is, he came back from there not long ago.

Don Jr. didn't talk about how hard life was there, but I could imagine what kind of life he had lived all these years from his emaciated figure and increasingly silent state.

I also told Don about my experience over the years.

I told him about Wei Lai and Anne, Da Bin and General Wei, the silversmith shop and the bar, and the old monk!

I talked all the way to the point where I came here from Tibet, to the villagers who raised money to buy a truck for me, and to the village director who led people to block the door and get me a business permit......

Xiao Tang listened quietly, and when I talked about Anne and Wei Lai, he slowly turned his head away, and it was a long time before I saw him slowly turn his head with red circles under his eyes.

"Have you ever gone to her?" I asked Don Jr. I didn't say who she was, but Don Jr. could understand who I was talking about. "Have you figured out why?"

Xiao Tang sighed, and after a few seconds, he said, "I've found it, she's doing well, and she also told me about the things back then." But it couldn't be simpler! ”

"The moment we met, it was a scam, a scam designed specifically for me, for my father. It's just to make a scandal and lose my father, that's all! She didn't even really love me! ”

"She said she struggled the day she called the police, and she didn't want to do it, but she didn't hesitate to call the police when she learned that her real boyfriend was being controlled by someone else!"

"The most ridiculous thing is that my father really thinks that I am involved in his career, thinks that I am really a gentleman who does not learn and does not know how to learn, and thinks that I am a stain on his life! How ridiculous it is that he never visited me in all the years that I was imprisoned, and even after I was released from prison, he did not want to see me! ”

Xiao Tang whispered, his tone was as calm as a stagnant water, but I could clearly hear the desperate cry in his heart!