Huai En hadn't been seen in my yard since she had come to me that night, and she probably knew in her heart that the love between me and her was nothing more than a love affair between her alone.

For her, this is tantamount to a grand firework, no matter how gorgeous it is, it can't be worth a fleeting fate.

She knew that no one would be on her side in this relationship, and she was alone after all......

It's just that she often appears on the beach at dusk, sometimes I can sail in the sea and cast nets to catch fish, shrimp and crabs that are too late to get home, and sometimes I patrol the beach to pick up shells and clams that have been forgotten in the beach by the tide.

Huaien no longer uses his hands to bracket like before, and calls me uncle unscrupulously under the bright sun, and will never jump and dance beside me like a colorful butterfly!

She would just sit quietly on the reef of the pier, facing in my direction, silently watching.

The chilling sea breeze blew her short hair wildly, and she didn't realize that the occasional gulls and herons flew in front of her in the sunset, and they could not take her gaze.

She is no longer like before, like a cold plum that is tenacious in the wind, proudly independent from wind and rain.

She became silent......

Although she said that night that she didn't love me anymore and wouldn't bother me anymore, I clearly knew that the most uncontrollable thing for people is feelings, and how can they be free! She's just grieving alone!

Every time I think of Huai Eun, her grief-stricken expression and heart-rending words that night, it makes my soul tremble.

For many sleepless nights, I wanted to get dressed and walk through the cold night to see her at school, and although I couldn't bear her sadness, I wanted to know what kind of damage I had done her! I remembered what Professor Fang said to me, he said that Huai En was a child with a strong personality and a rebellious heart, and he was afraid of extreme behavior, which made me kick and uneasy all day long.

In fact, I have no intention of going to the sea to fish and pick up crabs, just so that the cold wind can blow my guilt away for a moment, but in my heart, I can't say that I also want to take a look at Huai En from a distance, God knows!

So every time I see her lonely on the dock, my heart will be steady for no reason, I vaguely know that what I am waiting for is probably this look of peace of mind, even if she is still sad, but at least I know that she is okay, and the rest can only be left to time.

Although there are some things that time can't do, it can always polish the sadness a little and become less sharp, so that even if the pain is still there when we think about it, it will no longer be cut, which is probably the last comfort for the guilt in the heart of the disappointed!

When the early winter is approaching, Huai En finally stood in front of me again, maybe the love that the rivers and lakes forgot made people too powerless, or maybe the love that could not be loved was not worth cherishing. After a period of silence, Huai En finally regained her mood and stood in front of me again, her face showing a heartbreaking smile again......

It was another evening, and she still came to the pier and quietly looked at me on the beach, the weather was getting colder and colder, except that I no longer had anyone to catch the sea, and I was just used to coming to the beach.

I like to be alone in the face of the vast sea, this vast feeling will make me feel my own insignificance, make me feel that if a person is really no different from the sand under his feet compared to this world, then this person's joys and sorrows are nothing.

The universe is eternal, silent for billions of years, all in the same posture of peace. And we, who have only lived on this lonely planet for decades, have only seen a square inch of the world, and experienced only a flash of time, so we should not be sad for a little thing in our hearts

Sad autumn.

You must know that the end of life is just a piece of loess, you and I are the same, this is a fate that no one can escape. Although it is inevitable that it will be more desperate to think about it this way, it can also gain some calmness.

Huaien did not leave in a hurry before me when he saw me returning, as usual, but waited quietly for me to gradually approach from the beach.

When I got to the dock, Huai En looked at me, and after a few seconds she finally smiled again, but this smile made me feel inexplicably heartbroken, because I clearly saw the deep sadness in her eyes, but I didn't have the courage to hold on to that trace of sadness, pretending to smile back unconsciously, but I didn't know how to be calm when I could hold back my smile, and I was a little overwhelmed to freeze the smile on my face.

"Uncle! Long time no see! She smiled slightly.

It's just that her understatement almost broke me down, long time no see? Is it really a long time no see? Or did she think it would make me think that she was already talking, really doing what she had promised before, and no longer have illusions about me?

But what else can I do but try to cooperate with her performance and pretend that I don't know what to do? Poor Huaien, do you know that your acting skills are already full of flaws because you work too hard? Or do you already know my psychology and know that I have no other way but to cooperate with you in putting on this clumsy play?

Then it's an honor that you really succeeded!

I pretended to be relaxed and reached out to tighten her velvet scarf, and said with a smile, "Long time no see, Miss Huaien!" ”

"Uncle, I don't love you anymore, will you still drive me away?" She looked at me and smiled.

"I think you're greedy! What do you want to eat? Uncle did it for you? "I pretend to know everything.

Huai En smiled again, revealing neat teeth and two cute little dimples.

"I want to eat big crab and lobster, as well as saury and sautéed scallops!" She sensibly followed my prompts.

In fact, we all know in our hearts that we are just saying lines against our will, but none of us have the courage to pierce this thin layer of window paper that can keep us safe and sound.

"I have big crabs and lobsters, and I also have scallops, but this saury...... Not really! You know that saury won't be able to move offshore this season! I'm afraid Miss Huaien won't be able to eat it! "I'm pretending to be a joke.

"Are there any other fish? I haven't eaten fish in a long time! She looked hopeful.

"No, but if Miss Huaien really wants to eat, I don't mind going out to sea to fish for you now, you see that the boat and the net are ready-made!" I gestured to the canoe moored next to the pier.

Huai En suddenly became excited when he heard this, clapped his hands and shouted: "Okay, okay, I almost forgot, this is our Riding the Wind and Waves, you are still my first mate!" ”

After she said this, we both froze at the same time, she or unintentionally, but these words undoubtedly evoked the memories we both shared at the same time, I couldn't help but think of the scene of her holding a paintbrush to inscribe on the canoe, she said: "I hope you can forget the past and find your new life on this ship that rides the wind and waves!" "She was so fashionable and didn't know that I had already arrived in my own life when I came here, but it was her appearance that made my life swaying again.

At the same time, I remembered the scene when she and I went out to sea in a canoe for the first time, when we both fell into the sea, and she asked me in a whisper, "Uncle, will we die?" Later, she stood on the bow of the ship and said to me heroically: "From now on, I will be the captain of the Wind and Waves, and you will be my first mate!" ”

The scenes were clearly displayed in front of me again because of her defenseless words, and I suddenly found that every bit of the past is a great happiness in life, and it takes a lifetime to slowly reminisce.

It's just that now is clearly not the time to revisit the past, and the barrier we have carefully maintained did not expect to be broken down so easily......

Huai En suddenly became melancholy, she stood there and trembled violently, and I could clearly see the outline of her cheeks as a result of the intense bite of her teeth.

I knew that her heart must be aching from the memory of her unintentional words, because I was the same, the difference was that my pain had nothing to do with memory, only because of her pain!

Huai En slowly lowered his head, and his tone became gloomy: "Uncle, let's go home, there is no fish if there is no fish, it's almost dark, so let's stop fishing!" ”

I felt a sour feeling in my heart, and suddenly I was stubborn, as if I was competing with someone, and as if I wanted to make up for something, I said to Huai En: "Huai En, you wait for me for a while, you will have fish to eat tonight!" ”

After speaking, without waiting for Huai En to answer, I turned around and was about to walk down the dock, but I heard Huai En sneezing violently behind me, and I looked back to see that she was dressed thinly, and her little face had been crimson by the sea breeze, most likely because she couldn't bear the sea breeze.

I was afraid that if she waited too long, she would catch a cold, so I took off my coat and draped it over Huai'en, and helped her button it tightly, and then turned around and went down the dock to the canoe that swayed with the waves.

I rowed the canoe into the sea, and even cast a few nets but nothing came of it, probably because the water was cold in winter, and the fish went to the deep sea. I paddled the canoe toward the center of the bay again, and finally caught a few palm-sized whitebait fish in the deepest part of the bay. Only then did the net return.

When I went up to the pier to show off the fish in my hand, I noticed that her eyes were red and there seemed to be undried tears on her eyelashes, which made my slightly excited about catching a fish disappear in an instant.

Huai En watched me silently, tears flowing uncontrollably.

She turned her face to wipe away her tears, turned her head, and continued to look at me, her eyes shattered with sadness.

She no longer seemed able to pretend to be strong, could no longer act, and said to me with trembling lips:

"Uncle, since you don't love me, why are you so nice to me? I just sneezed and you gave me your clothes, I just casually said that if you want to eat fish, you can go into the sea and call me immediately, why can't you just love me? ”

Huai'en's eyes looked at me eagerly and sadly, and the tears that had just been wiped away gushed out again, and the moment they slipped down, they were swept into the depths of the sky by the sea breeze like a knife!

I reached out to wipe the tears from her face, sighed wordlessly, took her hand in my hand, and pulled her back.

"Huaien, I know this will hurt you, but there are some things I think I need to say again, I am good to you because I have always treated you as a little sister, I actually ......"

"Uncle, don't say any more! I know, I know! I also said, I won't love you anymore, I'm already trying to do it now, and I'm on the verge of success, you believe me, I'm going to be able to do it! ”

Huai En interrupted me, a poignant smile on his face with undried tears on his face. In addition to sighing in my heart, all I could do was to clench her cold hand harder. I was a little stunned in my heart, I don't know if this interrupted drama can continue......