In the following days, I went to Paris, which is known as the romantic city, but I didn't actually feel the romantic atmosphere here. I didn't think the legendary Mona Lisa's smile was mysterious, but I felt inexplicably uncomfortable when I saw the Chinese painter Gu Kaizhi's female history and the ancient Chinese blue and white porcelain.

Time passed safely in my aimless walk, I went to the Eiffel Tower, to the Arc de Triomphe, to the Seine, to the Alps.

Then I went to Italy, to Germany, to Sweden and Norway.

When I was in Italy, just in time for Christmas, I walked to a small village, and an Italian villager who had gone to a bakery to buy roast goose in the snowstorm saw me as a wanderer and warmly invited me to spend Christmas with them.

I readily agreed, and sitting in the villager's house with a camel hair carpet and watching the beautiful Italian girl enthusiastically cut the roast goose for me, I felt like I had traveled back in time to the time of Shakespeare. Outside, the wind and snow were falling, but inside the house was laughter.

After the meal, the eldest daughter of this villager performed a classic Western-style traditional dance for us in his living room, and warmly extended her hand to invite me to dance with her, and then everyone in the family danced in the living room.

I used to have some of the reservedness of outsiders, but then I was infected by them, and I learned to dance in circles in the living room.

It was a special night that made me realize that romance in the West seems to come from the bones, and that a campfire, a battered tambourine, or an old accordion is enough to ignite the passion in their blood. At this point, the Orientals lack some talent.

As the New Year's bell rang, I was rowing in the town of Louvain, on the Rhine River in Germany, for a local winter fishing competition. It's a traditional festival in their area, and I've never heard of it.

Unexpectedly, I won the third place among hundreds of people, and the result was judged by the weight of the largest fish I caught, the largest one I caught weighed 10 kilograms, and the first place was a gray-haired old man who caught a big fish weighing 15 kilograms.

The organizers solemnly presented me with a trophy and rewarded me with the big fish, but I didn't ask for it, but gave it to a very frustrated German boy, because his one was only half a pound smaller than mine and missed the award.

The young man happily accepted my gift and took a picture with me holding the fish. For many years since, I have kept this picture and this little trophy on my desk.

The lower right corner of the photo taken by Polaroid shows the time at that time, and when I took the photo, I suddenly thought that my hometown was probably eating Chinese New Year's Eve dinner at this moment!

Leaving Europe, I began to walk selectively towards the East, via Greece and then to Turkey. In Istanbul, I would often ride through the empty city on a tram, mostly alone, to the square of the mosque, where I would sit on a bench and watch a group of children playing pulley sprint through the square, startling the flocks of foraging pigeons.

The entire European sky, shrouded in haze, finally cleared up after I arrived in Istanbul.

I sat alone in the mosque square, watching the sun go down and the children on the rollers went home.

The pigeons in the square also fluttered their wings and flew to roost in the branches and leaves of the cedar trees, which were still covered with snow.

Looking at the smoke wafting from the farmhouse in the distance, I suddenly felt a sense of loneliness, and for a moment, I missed my homeland so much.

I miss my yard, I miss my canoe, I miss my dock, and that sea! And my trellises and my friends!

More than three months of time quietly passed in my flight from the north and south of the world, at first I didn't realize it, but once I had that trace of nostalgia, it was like a bean fire that instantly ignited the entire grassland, so that I couldn't stay for a moment.

When I returned to the hotel, I immediately called the travel agency to arrange a return ticket for me.

I secretly calculated the time in my heart, if the time was tighter, maybe I could go back before the Lantern Festival.

I didn't return for months, I don't know if my canoe had broken free and drifted into the depths of the sea alone, and I wondered if the squirrel had returned to the home I had no intention of destroying......

Thinking of this, I can't help but become more anxious, the so-called return to the heart is like an arrow, probably nothing more than that.

The flight was scheduled for the next morning, and when the plane flew smoothly into the air at an altitude of several thousand meters, I had no intention of admiring the marshmallow-like clouds outside the window. I felt a little tired after wandering, so I leaned back in the comfortable seat and closed my eyes.

I don't know what shocking news I am about to face!

It was already evening when the plane landed, and the seven or eight hours of flying made me feel a little weightless, but I was in a bit of a trance when I stood on the land of the motherland.

After months of traveling abroad, I saw all aliens who were incompatible with me, and there was an inexplicable intimacy when I saw the same human beings as me again, and people have to return to their roots after all, even if today's technology can make a person reach the other side of the world in a moment, but there is only one place that can give them a sense of belonging.

It was already night when I took a taxi from the provincial capital back to the village, and I didn't disturb anyone, and gently opened the door of my long-lost courtyard, and a familiar earthy smell came to my face, which made me extremely intoxicated.

I opened the door, and after a brief tidying up, I suddenly felt hungry, and I was about to cook something to eat, but I tragically found that the rice and noodles in the bag were already moldy, and I couldn't help but feel a little annoyed that I had left in a hurry and didn't pack them up.

Fortunately, a few of the fish kept in the tank are still alive, and I don't know how they have been kept alive for months.

I had to use them as food. I plucked a few garlic sprouts from the yard, made a fire and made a fried white fish, and poured half a bottle of white wine to a little more comfortable.

After this simple dinner, I heated the kang again, washed up, and then prepared to go to bed.

At this moment, I suddenly heard a knock on the door of the courtyard, which made me wonder, thinking that I had just come back for a while, and I didn't know who already knew.

When I went out and opened the courtyard door with doubts, what made me even more puzzled was that the person who came was actually the young man named Lin Junsheng.

"Junsheng? What are you doing here? Come on in! "I asked sideways.

Lin Junsheng stood still, his eyes kept looking at me, and he didn't speak, and then I noticed that his breathing was very rapid, as if he had just done some strenuous exercise.

"Mr. Wei, are you ...... You're finally back! His tone trembled slightly.

I vaguely felt that something was wrong, and hurriedly asked, "Junsheng, what happened?" ”

"You come with me and go...... Go see Huai En......" His tone suddenly choked, as if he couldn't speak.

I hurriedly asked, "Huaien?" Huai En, what's wrong with her? ”

"She ......" Junsheng tilted his head slowly, biting his lip, as if he couldn't bear to say more.

"What's wrong with Huaien? Say it quickly! I put my hands on Junsheng's shoulders and asked in a loud and eager tone. I already vaguely understood in my heart that something was probably wrong with Huaien, but I couldn't guess what it was.

Junsheng slowly turned his head to look at me, and there were already tears flashing in his eyes: "Huaien, she's sick......"

"What's wrong with her?" I was breathing fast.

"Leukemia, she has leukemia!" Junsheng seemed to muster up all the strength of his body before finally saying these words!

I only felt a thud in my brain, and I felt a momentary loss of feeling, like being struck by a bolt of lightning, unable to move, and my whole body felt like falling into an ice cave.

"Junsheng! Don't lie to me, I'm only gone for a few months, Huai En was fine when I left, how could she ......"

"How could I be joking about such a thing!" Junsheng suddenly interrupted me.

"Huai En fell ill the day after you left, she had acute leukemia, at first she thought it was a cold, she didn't tell anyone, but then she had an inexplicable nosebleed, and it was difficult to stop, she had a high fever and almost couldn't get out of bed before she called Uncle Fang, who went to the hospital to know......" Junsheng's lips trembled, and he couldn't say it anymore.

As I listened to Junsheng's words, my legs couldn't help but tremble, and my heart felt like I was stuffed with a piece of ice, which almost made my heart unable to beat, and even my breathing became a little difficult.

"These days, Huaien is waiting for your return all the time, and the first thing she says whenever she wakes up is to ask if you have come back......"

"But we don't even get a shred of your message! Mr. Wei, how can you treat her like this, how can you bear it! Junsheng's tone became agitated.

"Junsheng, I'm sorry, I don't know ......"

"Of course you don't know, you obviously know Huaien's heart for you, she has agreed to go to the United States, why do you still treat her like this, don't you even want to give her a good memory? Even if you don't love her, you don't have the right to hurt her like this! Junsheng became angry.

I stuck out next door to support the hospital wall, and I couldn't support my body anymore. In the face of Junsheng's questioning, I was speechless!

Junsheng looked at me, closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, obviously trying to restrain his emotions.

"At first, I hated you very much when I saw Huaien's appearance, I felt unworthy for Huaien, but gradually I was able to understand Huaien's heart, she didn't care if you loved her or not, she told me that it was enough for her to love you, she just wanted to look at you in the last moment!"

"So I'll come here every night to see if you've come back, every day ......"

Hearing Junsheng say this, I suddenly felt like I had returned to my soul, and my body instantly gained strength, I turned to look at Junsheng and said eagerly: "Junsheng, hurry up and take me to see Huaien, I want to see her!" ”

Seeing that Junsheng was still standing, I reached out to pull him.

Junsheng suddenly stared at me with blazing eyes: "So you know what to do?" ”

I was stunned and didn't understand what Junsheng meant.

"The doctor said that Huai's condition has reached the point of terminal illness, and the blood cells are transformed too quickly, and drug treatment and chemotherapy have no effect......" Junsheng's tone gradually became low, and his expression became sad.

"No, there must be a way, there must be a way, I will definitely find a way to save Huai En, Huai En will not die, she will not die......" My brain was once again shocked by Junsheng's words in a trance, and I said incoherently, looking around with my eyes out of focus, it seemed that I could find a way to save Huai En in this square inch.

Probably because of my six gods and masterless appearance and self-indulgent words, which angered Junsheng, who was already trying his best to endure, he grabbed the front of my clothes and leaned his face close to me, and said angrily, "Who do you think you are? Do you want to save Huai Eun? You tell me how you saved her! She's hopeless, she's dying! ”

He almost yelled at me at the end, and when he said that, he shoved me so hard that I fell to the ground with a stumble.

The angry Junsheng was already out of control, and he came up and raised his fist to hit me again, but the raised fist did not fall.

His chest heaved violently, and he took another deep breath. Then he grabbed me by the hem of my shirt and pulled me off the ground.

"I'm not asking you to go to her, you can't save her, I want you to make her happier in her last days, you know?"

At this moment, my brain has lost the ability to think, so I was stunned for a moment and nodded blankly!