Teacher Zheng got up and said, "I haven't eaten yet, you accompany me to have a drink, I haven't drunk for a long time, and I don't like to drink, since you brought me Moutai, then I have to drink, I haven't drunk, you can't bring it back if you want it back, it's useless for me to ask for it myself, let's drink one, and we should accompany me for the New Year."

Zhao Mingyang got up and took off his clothes, got up late from the sleeves of his shirt and said, "Okay, I'll cook a few dishes for you, and I'll handle the seafood."

"Do you know how to cook?" Teacher Zheng looked at Zhao Mingyang and said.

"That's not it, you can see my craft." Zhao Mingyang opened the foam box and began to cook.

In the kitchen, two men were busy.

Zhao Mingyang asked Xiao Hulu to go to eat first, he wanted to eat with the teacher and go back later.

Xiao Hulu chatted with his sister and sisters in the car, and sent a few red envelopes in the family group, the group red envelopes can be sent with a large amount, he sent 2015 for the family to grab the red envelopes, and sent ten 2015, he also asked his sister to look at the house, he bought a small apartment for his sister before marriage, and his sister also had to have a set, and he wanted the family's old house himself.

Xiao Hulu also lives for his family, he attaches too much importance to family affection, because there is no father and mother, only sister and sister, and he doesn't want the two of them to suffer a bit of grievance.

As long as he saw them doing well, he was extremely happy and happy.

Since he was a child, his parents told Xiaohulu that he was a boy, and that he had to take care of his sister and sister and protect them, and he fulfilled his promise to his parents.

An hour later, Zhao Mingyang and Teacher Zheng were drinking wine, eight dishes, four hot dishes, and four cold dishes.

Teacher Zheng picked up the wine glass and said to Zhao Mingyang, "Do you know what the Spring Festival in China, Christmas in the West, and other regions have in common?"

"It's not very clear, teacher." Zhao Mingyang picked up his wine glass and touched a glass with Mr. Zheng.

Teacher Zheng took a sip of wine and said: "It's very simple, human beings have found a way to give themselves hope and relief, the earth is rotating, the sun is rising as usual, and the concept of time is the crystallization of human wisdom, but have you found it, going to school, from kindergarten to primary school, the first and second grades of primary school, and so on to middle school, just like the fledgling in martial arts to the shock side, this is all incremental, just like a game to break through, after the first level, people will look forward to the second level in their hearts, and they will feel physically and mentally happy.

It's the same for this New Year, a year is a time cycle, just like a level, whether the people in this level play smoothly or not, they have passed, this level has passed, they have passed, and they have reached the second level, that is, after the New Year.

Everyone will be full of new hope and hope for the second year, if there is no New Year, people will not see hope and no expectations, this is terrible, most people can not withstand this pressure, the New Year is the best way to relieve pressure.

If everyone is in the same level and can never pass the level, how many people do you say will continue to play?

Everyone needs hope, is hope, so you said that the New Year is not one of the greatest inventions in human history?

What a great invention this is, the traditional Chinese festival is the greatest crystallization of wisdom left by the ancestors, if you don't pay attention to festivals, especially festivals like the Spring Festival, then this person basically has no hope, no hope means that there is no hope, no hope will always be trapped in an emotion can not get out.

Staying in one level forever, I'm trapped in this level, I've been paying attention to the New Year all these years, and I don't want to stay in this level anymore.

Therefore, this festival still needs to be taken seriously, and the people at the bottom have no hope, which is very scary. I'm alone now, and my only hope is that the days are getting better and better, and I want to live a good life and watch the changes of the times, everything will be fine, come to you, and go again."

Zhao Mingyang picked up the wine glass and touched a glass with Mr. Zheng, it is really a threesome must have my teacher, just Mr. Zheng's words made Zhao Mingyang suddenly open his mouth again, and he had a new understanding of the New Year, and he was ready to celebrate the New Year.

"Mingyang, the era you live in now is good, it's really good, you have a choice, we really don't have a choice.

The girl I liked, she was

We don't have a choice, we are afraid of being locked by a shackle and lose a lot of courage, and even have no ego, she has no ego, and I have no ego.

When she got married, I hugged my head and cried alone, our love was ignorant, innocent, and not mixed with any substance, but in the end I chose to escape.

In the winter of my junior year of high school, she got married, and I drank a bottle of liquor on the hillside near her mother-in-law's house by myself, and watched her enter the groom's house step by step.

If I had chosen not to study and marry her, she would have married me, and I would have helped her family support her, and we could at least be together."

Teacher Zheng sighed, drank the wine in the glass, Zhao Mingyang poured him full, he covered his face with his hands and said, "She came to me before she got married, asked me to study hard to prepare for the exam, go to a good university, and go to the outside world for her.

I had a little courage at that time, just a little bit of courage, I chose to keep her, the outside world can be seen at any time, but missing a person is a lifetime, but I don't have the courage, I didn't dare to speak, my lost back can be seen now.

I was afraid that my parents would blame me and disappoint my family, I knew that my family was proud of me, because I was a high school student, and I was going to take the college entrance examination, and there were not many people in the town who could take the college entrance examination, and all the faces of my parents were supported by me, a prospective college student.

I retreated, I also wanted to see the outside world, I was more afraid of taking responsibility, I was going to marry her and I didn't know how to support her.

I thought that I would be fine when I went to college, but when the college notice arrived home that year, our family was very happy, and my parents' faces were all smiling and confident and proud that had never appeared before, and my dad's waist was straight and walking.

I wanted to share my joy with her, but I didn't dare to go, I was afraid to go, I didn't know how to say these things to her, I didn't deserve it.

What do you say I say to her? I couldn't say anything, I saw her once before I went to college, and her eyes were gone, as if she had aged a decade in an instant, and her hands had become rough.

She smiled at me, didn't speak, and left quickly, looking at her back, my words were in my throat, I couldn't say it, I couldn't say it~ I wanted her to go with me, fly away with me, and go with me to see the outside world, but I didn't have the courage to say it, what about after leaving? Where do I take her? What to do with livelihoods? How to make the family face the gossip?

After that, I went to college, I saw a lot of the world, I wrote everything I saw and heard into a letter to send to her, but I wrote dozens of letters, I didn't send a single one, I didn't dare to send it, I was afraid, I was really afraid, I didn't know what I was afraid of, I was afraid, maybe I was afraid of what other people would think, right? Will the gossip say that I am Ximenqing.

When I came home during the summer vacation of my freshman year, I heard that she was doing very badly, very badly, because she was not pregnant with a child, and she was treated coldly by her in-laws, plus her mother's family didn't care, it is said that she was often beaten and scolded by her husband.

I didn't even have the courage to complain about her, I was still afraid, afraid that I would go like this, and that people would spread gossip and lose people to my parents, and I was afraid that my parents would not be able to withstand the harm caused by this kind of gossip.

Because of my cowardice, I indirectly harmed her, she jumped into the river when I was a sophomore, it is said that she couldn't stand the beating, and some people said that her husband lost the gambling money and sold her as a bargaining chip, and she couldn't bear the humiliation.

Some people said that she went to the school to take a look before leaving, and our high school school also sent me a letter, a farewell letter, and she still asked me to go to school and see the world for her.

Farewell, this time it's goodbye, I don't have to be afraid of what consequences and bad effects I will have because of her, I don't have to worry about some problems anymore.

It's liberated, don't think about it so much, you know, in fact, my family is also poor, the shoes I wore when I was a freshman in high school were still sewn with needles and threads, and they would break after a few steps, I didn't dare to run, my clothes were patched, and the clothes of several children in the family were pieced together, which looked like in film and television dramas

The beggars wore the same rags.

At that time, I had low self-esteem, from the small town to the county town to go to high school, to be precise, from the small village to the county town to go to high school, as if I had traveled to another world, there was no electricity and candles in our village at that time, I had never seen a street lamp.

There were fewer poor people in school than me, so my family gritted their teeth to provide for my school, and my family put all their hopes on me, especially my parents and older siblings.

Their words again and again are shackles one by one, especially it is not easy for me to study, I must study hard, don't let my family down, this sentence suffocates me.

In addition to studying, I basically read books in school, I don't dare to delay a minute or a second, I have no friends, I don't like to talk to people, and I don't have a sense of participation in what my classmates say, until I met her, she and I are in the next class, we are in the same place, we are all along the way home, and her family is also poor.

The two of us are so poor together, because only the two of us eat about the same food every day, steamed buns, pickles, rice porridge, there were many people who ate this in our era, and they couldn't afford to eat a little bit, so they all looked yellow and thin, and they were malnourished.

I remember that she and I both loved the vegetable soup in the cafeteria, and I could drink three bowls of free vegetable soup in the school cafeteria, because there was a little oil and water in it, and there was some vegetables, and she also loved to drink vegetable soup.

The two of us from the beginning of the strange, the same inferiority, to start chatting, there is an endless chat, the last two classes merged into one class, we became classmates, because the teacher left several, it is said that they all went to the city to teach, the remaining teachers are not enough, can only merge the class,

It was the happiest time of my life, we wrote some secrets to each other in a notebook, and gradually, we knew what love was, what friendship was, we were not friendship, we were love.

Later, we made a promise to go to the same university together, and then we worked together to make our family better.

We also vowed to marry each other for the rest of our lives, and in the second semester of our sophomore year, she kissed me on the night of the second month, and I was completely overwhelmed and extremely excited, and I imagined the days after us, which guests to be invited to get married, and what the names of the children were.

But the next day, the school said that she was no longer going to school, and when she went home, I learned that it was called kissing goodbye, and a farewell was a lifetime.

Later, when she died, my love ended, it ended forever, I won't love anyone anymore, I feel extremely guilty, I live in guilt.

A few years after she left, her husband married another daughter-in-law, but he was still not pregnant, and he was asked to go for a check-up, but the result was his problem, the man's infertility, which gave back the innocence of the girl I loved, but who still remembers her?

Her grave was a small mound of earth, and if I didn't remove the weeds for her, no one would go, but who knew I removed it late at night?

Later, after graduating from university, I worked in the field for a few years, and I wanted to come back because I was not sure and uneasy.

At that time, I came back to us as a teacher and was demoted and reduced salary, the junior high school you studied in was our high school before, the county and some areas in the urban area were merged, the original county high school became the urban middle school, and our village became an industrial park, the only thing left was that school, and the one-third of the acre of land was still there, which proved the memory of her visit.

I'm in this school, my heart is very steady, I walk around the school every day, although the school has changed, but the playground hasn't changed much, I like to sit alone on the playground in a daze.

All the money I earned later went to my family, and the house was divided into units, and I didn't buy a house. All the money I earned myself was given to my parents and other siblings, and whatever they distributed, it could be regarded as a kind of repayment, after all, they provided me with education, otherwise what use would it be for them to study? You're right.

I also made a will early in the house where I live now, and one day I will be gone, and the house will be distributed to my brothers and sisters, so I should pay off their kindness for me to study, right? People, sometimes one wrong choice is a lifetime.

You said that if she didn't have that kind of family, how beautiful her life would be, maybe it's all fate, the fate of the people at the bottom is sometimes so cruel, so cruel that she has no choice

For example, there are ten blind boxes, 100 yuan can be drawn once, one is empty, and one has 10,000 in it, and the children of poor families only have one chance, either win or not.

If you win, you will earn, if you don't win, it will be difficult to turn over, and if you have nothing, the more you mix, the worse it gets, it depends on luck.

And the children with family backgrounds directly took a thousand yuan to open one by one, then they must have won, people don't need luck, for them that is called the number of trial and error, nine trial and error, one success, people will succeed, and what about us? One failure is over.

I was lucky to succeed once and took 10,000, but in the next round, whether to draw 10,000 once, or ten blind boxes, we have to bet on luck again, how many people can survive this round?

Most people don't play directly, they accept it when they see it, they don't dare to play, they stay at 10,000, and this time there are 1 million in the blind box, and they have to fight luck, and those who have a family background are trial and error.

As a result, there may be people who are lucky enough to earn a million, and they will have to go through the next round, but their next round can be played with a million once, or ten chances, but there is a hundred million there, and the remaining nine still have three or four knives in it, and if they win, they may be stabbed.

At this time, no one dares to bet on luck, it is a gamble on life, and another group of people give up, and the lucky bet wins, and what about the group of people with backgrounds? Someone has resisted for them when they draw the knife, continue to draw, continue to trial and error, and the last 100 million is still theirs.

Similarly, the Lao Tzu of this group of people also came over like this, at the beginning they were all fighting luck, only their juniors can not need luck, Mingyang, I said this, do you understand? No matter how well you mix now, you're gambling on luck, so you can't do something blindly, be cautious.

Unless you have the opportunity for trial and error, you are not afraid to do something, otherwise you can only be cautious and accept it when you see it, and don't dislike the teacher for being too long-winded."

"Got it, thank you for the reminder, I'll pay attention, teacher, I respect you." Zhao Mingyang picked up the wine glass and toasted a glass of wine, Mr. Zheng was not very drunk, and after drinking a few glasses of wine, he squinted and fell asleep.

Zhao Mingyang carried him to bed to rest, he might really need to get drunk, his family might blame him for not getting married, humiliate him, and even say something worse than outsiders.

The age is different, everyone's situation is different, maybe he chose not to go to college at the beginning, it was not a correct choice, he was not because of love these years, but guilt, he couldn't convince himself to forget this guilt.

Maybe he has such a good temper, he not only encourages Zhao Mingyang in class, but also encourages many people, hoping that every child will not go the wrong way, in this era, everyone has more choices, but many people don't want to study, but how difficult it was to want to study at the beginning, especially the girl he loved.

Zhao Mingyang closed the door of the teacher's house and left, his life ended early because of a choice, maybe he and the girl stayed permanently at the age of eighteen, she left, he was helping her see the world, and after reading it, he went to the grave to tell her.

Maybe now he dares to talk to her without fear of anyone's strange eyes and discussions, after all, no one remembers her, only he remembers her.

Zhao Mingyang walked downstairs, heard a cheer of children and firecrackers, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, It's the New Year, it's good, a new beginning has arrived.

If she lives in this day and age. The ending will be different, right? Would it?

Who knows? Maybe he'll choose to stay for her, right? Would it? Will it?

Zhao Mingyang walked into the car, picked up his mobile phone and took a look, he sent a message out.