The past is as vivid as yesterday. And I'm graduating on the same day.

I didn't have any feelings about graduating, because the pain in my heart was difficult to get rid of in a short period of time, and when I returned to the campus after a long absence, it really smelled like people going to empty buildings.

I think that at the beginning, Yejiang, Chen Ziyue and Longlou, we left a lot of unforgettable memories here, and now, they have all left me, leaving me alone in the memory.

But I have lost more than them.

The sun is scorching. Take graduation photos, put on bachelor's uniforms, stand in line, and wait until you are sweating, "Oh my God, it's finally here." "It seems to be more difficult than four years of college.

Compared to the classmates around me, graduation does not mean anything to me, I haven't taken a class for a long time, and it is a great blessing to get this graduation certificate. In my impression, there is always such a color after graduating from college, everyone happily throws their hats into the sky, so happy, pulling their boyfriends, girlfriends, and family members to take pictures desperately.

It was only me, after throwing the hat into the sky, bent down to pick it up, and then ran away for fear of being hit by the gorgeous hat that fell from the sky.

These days, I have dreamed many times that I was hit on the head by the hat of my bachelor's gown, and in the middle of the night I would sit up sweating profusely and pat my chest and tell myself that this was a dream, this was a dream

I knew I was afraid of being hit in the head by four years of college.

Now, many students have begun to participate in various activities, actively expand their networks, and do something to train themselves, all for future employment. They seem to be very old mentally and mature in their hearts, but they can't connect with reality. After all, the elite can only be a few, in addition to those who are full of youthful sunshine and vitality, there are countless sentient beings.

I aspire to be like that.

When I was a sophomore, I remember that the school invited an American to take a class, but a boy from the logistics department volunteered to audit. In class, the boy desperately talked to the foreign teacher and practiced speaking, I sat in the back, and I couldn't figure it out, what kind of psychology this boy was? Is it just for the limelight? Then, interacting with the teacher, the students came on stage to say three things in English, three things about themselves, and asked the students to guess which thing was true and which thing was false. For example, a boy said that I had never done my homework, that I had never washed my socks, that I had never seen a third-level film, and that when he said the last thing, he was kicked off the stage in the midst of a heckle from the whole class.

The logistics boy immediately went up, and he was very shy and said, I don't have a girlfriend, everyone guess it's real or fake.

To say such things on such an occasion is clearly to grandstand.

Everybody is looking for their own performance, looking for all kinds of opportunities to express themselves.

Later, when I was in the library, I also met the boy in logistics, the entrance of the library needs to use a student card to punch in to enter, and those who don't have a card need to sign at the door, I saw the boy signing at the door, and then said to the uncle who guarded the door: "I just want to have a good relationship with you." ”

Social relationships are very important, a successful person is to have a good relationship with everyone, and to walk in society is to have a variety of contacts and relationships. Contemporary college students are going to the university to learn interpersonal communication, have interpersonal relationships, from the various meetings before college admission, we have been instilled with this truth countless times, many people go to college with such a purpose.

But, I don't know why, I especially look down on the boy in logistics, does he even have to do a good job with the doorman at the school gate? The first time I saw it, interpersonal relationships have become such a deliberate thing, if I don't deliberately get along with others, there will be no connections, and there will be no success, then I would rather choose not to succeed.

At the end of the day, it's still me who wants to sink.

I want friends, I don't want to live, I am willing to fall and have no quarrel with the world.

The best thing is that no one remembers me, and no one knows who I am, so that I am left like this and left to die.

After I got my diploma, I started looking for a job, wearing a white shirt that I rarely wore once in 800 years, standing in front of the mirror, I always felt a little ironic, I was going to go to the interview, I was going to start going out into society.

The first one was to go directly to a company for an interview, there was another man waiting at the door of the conference room, waited a little long, we chatted, he asked me for an interview or something, while hooking his head to look at the resume in my hand, I generously took out the resume and put it on the table, and asked, "What about you?" ”

He smiled and seemed a little proud and said, "I have a double degree in administration and law." ”

"Oh." This kind of arrogance makes me very unhappy.

His face sank.

Before he could say anything, the interviewer came out to call someone, I went in first, and after I came out, he went in, and when he passed by, I also said to him, the interviewer is so old. I read a book that said that when the delicate heroine went to the interview, she saw that the interviewer of the company was an old and fat woman with freckles on her face, she regretted it, and left after taking the resume from the old woman's hand, she said that she went to work in their company, will she become an old woman in the future, she was scared, or forget it.

I was waiting for him at the door, ready to exchange some news with him, and when he came out, I greeted him, "What did the interviewer say to you?" Does it mean to get back to you as soon as possible? ”

"No, he told me that he was looking forward to working with you." I walked away a little awkwardly.

Later, I switched to the talent market and sat back and forth from scratch from one grid to another. A supermarket chain was hiring, and after reading my resume, he asked me if I would like to start as a cashier, and I grabbed my resume from his hand and went to the next one.

A good company asked me if I was married after reading my resume, I was a little surprised and said that I was married, and he asked me again, what do you do at home, I thought about it and said, open a real estate company, he returned the resume to me, and said, thank you, we don't need it for the time being. I was shocked, what my family was doing, and it affected me, I didn't get up, and continued: "Why? What does my family do and what does it matter to me? ”

He still didn't have any expression, and said, "Your family is too rich to work at all, and after we recruited you, you can't put in serious work." ”

I almost had a nosebleed and said, "No, I was born illegally, my family never gave money, I lived a difficult life, I had to work hard to live, I never ate bitterness, this identity made me understand since I was a child that only struggle can get ahead." ”

He still shook his head and said, "That's even worse, this society can't do without a little background." ”

I almost wanted to hit him.

After reading my resume, he said to me with a smile: "You are very energetic in this dress, which brand you usually buy." I looked at him, smiled and said, "I usually buy Paul." ”

He smiled at me and said, "I'm sorry, please find another job, we have a regular big company here." ”

I walked away with my resume and didn't look back, and I still didn't bother to do it.

After asking some professional questions, he asked me, "Are you married?" I was shocked to think that it was the same question again, and this time, I smiled and said, "Not yet." The other party was surprised and said, "No, or I haven't been in a relationship." ”

I thought about it for a while, I don't know what the other party wants to ask, if I say that the conversation has collapsed, does the other party want to say that I only talk about love and can't work, so I said, "I haven't been in love yet." ”

The other party frowned, returned the resume to me, and said, "I'm sorry." We're not going to need you. ”

I was discouraged and asked him, "Why?" Because I've never been in a relationship? ”

He looked at me and said: "Our work needs people with more active thinking, and now there are still college students who have never been in love, which means that they can't keep up with the pace of social development. ”

I packed up my things and was about to leave, he suddenly asked me very curiously, "Don't you think that other people finish college, take graduation photos, hold how many flowers are sent by people, a few classmates, a few people of the opposite sex, all put on the circle of friends, what a thing to show off, such a university is useful, but you who are immersed in hard study, your face is full of acne, your ears don't hear anything outside the window, when you graduate, some parents took a train for two days and two nights to come, and some parents didn't come, so they found a girlfriend to take a photo, Just stand there and say 'yes'. Don't you feel sad? Well, what do you really think in your hearts when you compare yourself to others? ”

I looked at the other person, and he knew so much about the university, and he waited for my answer with wide eyes, "What do you say about the kind of people who are different from you?" ”

I looked at him and said, "Playing hard." ”

He looked at me with his mouth open and said, "Don't you think you're sour grapes?" ”

I shook my head and said, "I don't think so." ”

He nodded and said, "It's really amazing, you see, you don't." ”

At the end, I picked up my things and left, and he also gave me a suggestion, the most important thing in college is to have a good relationship, I nodded to him, "I'm sorry, in fact, there is more than one wife of Lao Tzu, and the children can play soy sauce." ”

After the interview, I have completely given up looking for a job, just think I am participating in social practice, do a social survey, there is an interviewer is even more powerful, after reading the resume, directly said: "The most important thing to find a job is three things, one is to study hard, the second is to fall in love, and the third is to travel well." Tell us what you think about these three things. Then he looked at me.

There is another one, who doesn't even look at the resume, and just says, "Say, what experience do you have?" I asked him, "What kind of experience would you like to hear?" The other party was a man who looked at me with wide eyes: "What kind of experience do you want to talk about?" I said, "I'd like to tell you about the experience of a student living in college." He didn't know what he was thinking, so he shuddered and said, "Then, then you can say it." ”