When I woke up, I saw a familiar ceiling.

I sat up and looked down at the pink pajamas with the smiling faces of cartoon characters.

It's not that I hate pink, and I don't hate the cartoon characters, it's just that I liked them when I was very young.

I sighed, rolled over and got out of bed, putting on some of the big cotton slippers.

The air in the early morning is very cold, because I often don't sleep well at night, and my hands and feet are already cold, so I can get a little warmth by stuffing my feet into a cotton slipper.

I've heard that many people don't want to get up when they wake up because they're afraid of the cold, but I looked at the already cold bedding and didn't understand what these things were worth nostalgic for.

"Xiao Ni, help me boil hot water." A cold voice came out of my mouth, and it sounded so cold that I couldn't believe it was my own voice.

At this point now, my adoptive parents may have already gone to work, so the only person who can talk to me at home is the smart assistant at home.

"Okay, little master~"

Xiao Ni's voice is different from the unique machine sound in those movies decades ago, but a very crisp and beautiful female voice.

There was a little bit of playfulness in her words, which made me feel a little better, and I was ready to face the despair that followed all day.

"Thank you."

As a courtesy, I thanked me back.

I've been taught to say thank you since I was a child, so it's not a strange thing to say thank you to a robot.

I walked into the bathroom, turned on the faucet, grabbed a glass of water, and started brushing my teeth, before asking Ni to help me prepare hot water for washing my face.

It is said that after washing your face every time, your appearance is usually a little higher.

I looked at myself in the mirror, not boasting, I still had some confidence in my face.

Fair skin, good facial features, and a pair of big eyes are always thought to be P pictures by friends on the Internet, but I don't want to argue about anything, and even hint intentionally or unintentionally that I use a photo that is not my own.

If you have a perfect smile, this face will be even more perfect.

With that in mind, I began to try to prepare the smile I was going to use today.

This kind of thing is already familiar with the road, and you can reach a good state by trying it a few times, so just keep it that way and get used to it.

I wiped the water on my face with a towel, the bangs on the front end were slightly wet, and I reached out to stroke it.

it, beauty you who!

It's not that I'm boasting, the so-called "clear water out of hibiscus" is nothing more than that.

As if amused by my own thoughts, I laughed out loud, and this should be the truest smile today.

……

I entertained myself for a while, and my mood gradually improved a lot.

I looked at my watch, and it was still quite a bit of school time.

Walk into the room, change your clothes, and then walk out again.

When I came to the restaurant, breakfast was ready.

"Xiao Ni, what did you have for breakfast today?"

"You don't seem to be in a good mood lately, I have prepared yam glutinous rice porridge for you."

I smiled, I didn't expect that the one who cared about me the most now was actually an artificial intelligence.

Unfortunately, if I hadn't set it myself, I might have been happier now.

I walked to the table, looked at the steaming porridge on the table, sat down, picked up the spoon, and began to put the porridge in the bowl into my mouth like a machine, spoonful by spoonful, then chewed, and then swallowed.

This will make me eat faster, the food is not so delicious that I need to taste it slowly, and even because I have become accustomed to the taste because I eat it regularly, then the pursuit of efficiency is what I have always been used to.

Soon, I finished my breakfast and looked at the time again, well, there was still an hour left.

Education in the 50s has been improved several times, and now it is an elite education, especially in my own school, which is one of the best middle schools in the city, and the schedule is very relaxed, and I do not go to school until nine o'clock.

It's really hard to imagine that students from decades ago had to get up at four or five o'clock, and such a high load of work and rest time would not affect efficiency.

I thought so in my mind.

Out of boredom, I picked up the tablet on the side and started to look at the news at random.

"So we say, what about this game, this problem, it actually belongs to a historical problem, we can actually look at the news from decades ago, as early as the beginning of the 21st century, many education experts were aware of this problem, but unfortunately, this problem has not been taken seriously, but allowed the game industry to develop for so many years."

"As a person with a conscience and social morality in the middle of the 21st century, I think we should start to really pay attention to this issue now, pay attention to the education of our next generation, resist electronic duck films, and return a beautiful childhood to children!"

……

Damn, I saw this kind of thing early in the morning, bad luck.

I snorted viciously, pretending to spit on myself to express my disdain, no way, a beautiful girl would not do such a rude thing.

With a look of eating a fly, I turned off the live news with a gloomy face, and then opened the game community.

I wanted to go to Miyoho's original demon community to see what new news there was, but I was suddenly attracted by a push on the homepage.

[The cross-era immersive game "Xiantu" is about to be tested in a fully closed beta, with a countdown: 15 days. 】

I know this game.,I saw his promotional trailer some time ago.,Draw a thief's big pie.,Say something cross-era.,The first truly fully immersive game.,Support a lot of players online at the same time,Each NPC has an autonomous AI ......

Anyway, this game is going to go to the sky.,I just don't know what the specific content is.。

I thought the maker was going to slip away after drawing the cake.,I actually released the internal test so quickly.,It seems that this game will be launched soon.。

At that time, I was so naïve that I didn't realize how sinister this society was.

I went to make up for it again, and no matter how I looked at it, it was a game trailer that drew cakes, and I finally had nothing to do.

Looking at my watch, there are still forty minutes left before the school time, and even if the twenty minutes on the road are excluded, there are still twenty minutes left.

There was a deathly silence inside, and I couldn't hear the outside because the house was so well insulated.

I finally panicked, took off my cotton slippers, put my feet on a chair, put on my headphones, hugged my calves with my arms, and buried my head in them.

Just for a while, wait a little longer, and I can go to school, and I will definitely ...... when the time comes.

It won't be so lonely, right?

……

"Xiaoxiao, morning!" The first person to greet me was Lu Qian.

"Sissi, it's early!" I responded with a smile, like seeing my best friend.

"Wow-Xiaoxiao, how do I feel that you are more beautiful today!" Lu Qian sighed in an exaggerated tone that can only be seen on TV.

I just looked at Lu Qian with a faint smile on my face.

Sissi, in fact, I've always known about it - Lu Qian, many of the rumors about me in the class actually came from you.

"Damn, I'm so envious, why are your skin so good!"

I took a look at Lu Qian's face, in fact, her facial features are not bad, but she always wears a lot of makeup, and her face is covered with a lot of powder, which should be used to cover her skin in a very bad state.

I smiled, thinking that this might be the only truth she had ever said today.

A girl next to her also came over and joined the farce.

"Really, but Sissi, you also have to pay attention to it, usually stay up less late, I recommend a skin care liquid to you, it's super easy to use!"

It began, and I smiled in my heart, and it was time for my favorite part.

The girl who just came over is called Chen Wen, I looked at her no-makeup face, well, confirmed, this is at least an hour to draw "no-makeup".

The girl took out a small bottle of skin care liquid from her bag and began to introduce Lu Qian to how good this bottle of skin care liquid was, and at the same time showed Lu Qian how good her skin was.

In her heart, her skin was really good, although her ostentatious behavior had obviously caused Lu Qian's disgust.

'What is this bitch pretending to be, her skin is a little better, she doesn't look as good as her mother!' ’

I dubbed Lu Qian in my heart, and I suddenly felt that the conversation between the two of them was more interesting.

When I saw Lu Qian take the bottle and look at it carefully, it was obvious that it was a cheap cosmetic product, and the disgust in her eyes flashed.

However, I also noticed that when she looked at Chen Wen's face, and then carefully looked at the less than half of the liquid in the bottle (which is the trace of use), it was obvious that she had a little movement, and it seemed that her skin problem had been bothering her for a long time.

When I saw that momentary movement, I knew that Chen Wen's plan had succeeded.

No matter how careful Lu Qian is, she will definitely not be relieved until she sees Chen Wen smearing the bottle of liquid on her face, and it is destined to be in Chen Wen's plan.

Alas, Sissi, Sissi, don't learn to be green tea if you don't have any IQ, how can there be such cheap and easy-to-use skin care products, I'm afraid that the liquid in that small bottle has already been replaced by Chen Wen.

The reason why I am so sure is very simple, because I have seen that brand of skin care lotion in Chen Wen's bag before.

I remember that time, Sissi, you laughed at Chen Wen's skin state behind your back, and now it seems that everyone remembers it.

As for why Chen Wen's skin condition has been so good recently, Sissi, just because people can spend more than an hour to paint a "no makeup", how can those Kaizi outside the school be her opponents?

I was unexpectedly happy in my heart, it seems that loving to watch the excitement is a hobby engraved into the genes of human beings, let me first imagine the appearance of Lu Qian wiping that "skin care liquid", in case I can't help laughing at that time.

I imagined this, and then looked at Lu Qian, who was so fooled by Chen Wen that I was about to believe it, and suddenly felt a little bored.

Ignoring the two men any longer, I walked into the class and found my seat and sat down.

Looking at the noisy classmates around me, I suddenly felt a sense of alienation.

I never blamed either of them, even though they have now become an important part of the tragedy of my life.

Because I knew from the beginning that it was an inevitability.

Like I said before, it's not that I'm boasting, I'm beautiful.

Looking down at my somewhat flat chest, I pouted, except here.

Not only am I beautiful, but I'm also smart.

You may think this is a good thing, but it is not.

I didn't want to live an ordinary life like the main character in the comics, who had great abilities and just wanted to live an ordinary life.

For me, it doesn't matter if life is extraordinary.

The real tragedy, however, is that I am beautiful, but not beautiful enough; I'm smart, but I'm not smart enough.

Every school has a lot of so-called "school flowers", but which of them can stand out from others with their beauty?

Every school has the kind of top student who is the first in almost every exam even if he doesn't study very well, but which of them can really rely on wisdom to transcend others?

I'm beautiful, but it's still a little far from the country and the city; I'm smart, but I'm still a little far from the real genius of Einstein.

I sighed at the thought of this.

If I'm a little better, or almost fine.

If I were a little better, then I would no longer have to dwell on these mundane interactions, and people are always very tolerant of geniuses; Or almost, then you can freely associate with other people, because people want to associate with people like themselves.

And now, even if I'm good enough in the eyes of many people, so what?

Even if you become the best in the whole school, or even the whole city, the world is still so big.

And now, my excellence can only become a stepping stone for others to show off.

I lay on the table and watched the lively conversation next to me, like two sisters.

Maybe in their eyes, I'm just a good-looking and good-looking fool who doesn't know how to communicate at all.

And such fools are destined to only become their stepping stones.

No matter what kind of achievements I go, they can rely on the sentence "Zhou Xiaoxiao?" That's my good sister! "Forcibly take away my achievements.

I used to be angry, but I quickly got tired.

Forget it, there's no need to argue with them, I told myself.

In fact, there weren't many people like this when I was a student, but the irony is that because I'm good, or not good enough, I automatically attract such people.

Already a little tired, I lay on the table and buried my head in it, trying to isolate myself from the outside world.

I really don't want to smile at these stinky bitches anymore!

I want to slap that lust-obsessed physics teacher, I want to pull the hair of those two stinky bitches hard, I want to laugh and cry out loud, and I want to get angry when I'm angry......

Want to say goodbye to this fake world that disgusts me!

After class, I didn't stay in class, but took my tablet and walked to the side of the study hall alone.

That's probably the only good thing about being good anymore – privilege.

Although I also know, I'm afraid there are a bunch of classmates who want to enjoy privileges but can't.

"What are you pretending, it's amazing that your grades are better!" I continue to voice them.

I'm sorry, classmates, good grades are amazing!

……

The empty study hall also made me feel bad.

It's ironic, I feel lonely when I'm alone, and I feel hypocritical when I'm with other people.

I sighed, picked up my tablet and put on my headphones, listened to music and watched videos, and looked forward to the day as soon as it passed.

……

"Xiaoxiao, are you going back? We have an event in the evening, aren't you going? ”

I shook my head and looked at them and smiled.

"I'm not going, I can't play those activities."

Lu Qian hugged my arm and made a very intimate appearance.

"Oh, there must be a first time, you can try it too, there are a lot of handsome guys!"

I looked at my watch quietly, and then tried to break free as gently as I could, but I still met her disgruntled eyes.

I smiled in my heart, if my sister cares about you, you will have a ghost.

"I'm sorry, Sissi, I really have something going on at home."

I said this and walked away without looking back.

By the way, I can imagine what kind of expression Lu Qian should have behind me now, which makes me feel a little happier.

……

I rushed into the apartment building, and several times along the way I met my neighbors who greeted me, and I showed the smile that almost made me vomit, responded quickly, and continued to run in the direction of home.

As I ran, it seemed like the images around me were losing their color.

I felt like a monster was chasing me behind me, and if there was, it must have a smiley, a disgusting smile.

I rushed to the elevator and pressed the button a few times, and the elevator showed that it was on the twenty-third floor.

I subconsciously turned my head, and even though there was nothing behind me now, I still felt that something was chasing me.

I couldn't wait any longer, so I rushed to the side of the stairs and decided to climb up the stairs.

I took two steps at a time and rushed up as fast as I could, silently saying in my heart, "It's coming, it's coming."

I was afraid that if I didn't, I would be overtaken, I would be completely swallowed up, I would become insensitive.

I fell down the stairs, it wasn't serious, but it hurt, and it was a clearer realization that I was alive and I didn't want to stop.

I don't know what it will be like to stop, but I know that I don't want to be like that.

Ugly like Lu Qian, numb like adoptive parents, and willing to be mediocre like other classmates......

These are all things I don't want.

Phew, I don't care, I'm going to win today.

I rushed to the door, quickly opened it, and shouted into the room:

"I'm back!"

Then, without looking back, I rushed into the room, then closed the door with my hands behind my hand and locked it.

I sat down with my back against the wall, gasping for air.

Today, I won again.

I looked at the pink room, which seemed to be the only place in the whole world that still had color.

I don't know how long this life will last, I suddenly want to cry, but fortunately, I held back and quickly thought of something happy.

When I see Lu Qian in a few days, her face will definitely become ugly; The obscene physics teacher seems to have a little less hair; Playing a game tonight, the old lady wants to win ten in a row and then go to sleep......

Hey, what is it?

I looked down in confusion, trying to see the liquid dripping on my clothes, oh, it was my tears.

At that moment, I broke down and tears flowed out like broken threads.

I covered my mouth to keep myself from making a sound.

It's okay, it's okay, sometimes you have to vent like this.

There was a knock at the door, it was my adoptive mother.

"Xiaoxiao, what's wrong, come out for dinner!"

Unlike those TV dramas, my adoptive parents treated me well.

Because of this, when I was thirteen years old, after changing into new clothes, I saw a strange color in my adoptive mother's eyes - it was jealousy.

At that moment, I understood that even biological parents do not owe anything to their children, let alone adoptive parents.

They can do their part and raise me as an adult, but they are also independent people, so I shouldn't ask too much of them.

Later, I saw numbness in their eyes, and it grew stronger with each passing day.

Life was only left for them to do, and they began to spend a lot on me to get self-satisfaction.

I don't care, I'm just a little sad.

I lay on the bed and buried my head in the pillow so that my voice would be indistinct and I would not be able to hear the cry easily.

"Mom, I'm a little tired, let's sleep for a while, you just leave me some food, I'll wake up and eat by myself!"

The adoptive mother outside the door heard it and walked away.

I lay in bed and forced myself to sleep......

……

I don't know when I started, there was a pair of eyes in my dream.

I can't tell what kind of eyes they were.

I can't remember the color, size, shape, but I do know that it was a pair of smiling eyes.

Its owner kept smiling softly and looked at me, as if to say, "Zhou Xiaoxiao, what are you crying about, you are not alone, I am not there!" ”

When I opened my eyes, I saw a familiar ceiling.

At that moment, an indescribable melancholy hit my heart, and I almost couldn't breathe.

I took a candle out of a drawer and walked out the door to the dining room.

I lit the candle, put it on the table, picked up the bread on the table, and munched on it.

Raise your left hand and count the time as you stuff bread into your mouth.

Zero o'clock arrived.

I swallowed the bread in my mouth and whispered in a choked voice:

"Zhou Xiaoxiao, happy birthday!"

PS: Hahaha, I've let myself go.