But I didn't dare to speak, not because I was afraid, but I didn't know why. Husband, maybe it's you, I have you in my heart all the time, even if you hurt me so deeply, let me forget about you, at least at this moment, I'm really tired and need a moment of relaxation, but I won't give other men a chance, I love you, I began to be silent.

The other man seemed to be walking close to me, because I could feel his heavy breathing, and he said to me a little nervously, "Don't be nervous, I won't step on your feet." ”

I laughed again: "You're nervous yourself, and you're talking about me." ”

He smirked and began to grope around my waist, his hand was strong but not heavy, we started to dance, but as soon as we turned around, the two of them tripped over something at the same time, and fell heavily on an object, it should be a sofa, there was a sofa in such a small space, fortunately the effect of alcohol, I didn't feel pain.

When we both recovered from our surprise, we laughed again, but soon we were silent again, for he was now pressing on me. Husband, this is the second man after marriage besides you and I am so close, as a woman, on the one hand, from the heat of the body, on the other hand, from the imprisonment of the heart, I admit that the contradiction I did not take any action, until he suddenly pressed my lips, slipped the tip of his tongue into my mouth and sipped deeply, although when I entered the cabin, I made some psychological preparations, but when it really happened, I was still ashamed and shocked, will you be like this for the first time with other women? Have you thought of me? Husband, I really want to ask you, ask you a lot of questions.

Thinking of my own injury, I didn't want to hurt another woman myself, so I hurriedly pulled out my hand and pushed him by the shoulder, and said to him, "We're over, hurry up, okay?" "I wasn't too tough because I felt like it was just an accident, and he wasn't unintentional, and I wasn't completely unfeeling.

He probably felt rude and said to me apologetically, "Yes...... I'm sorry I ......."

His voice was low and sexy, his tone was eager and slightly timid, he wanted to explain, but he didn't know how to open his mouth to me, I also knew how men felt at this time, being stepped on the brakes must be psychologically and physically uncomfortable, I really felt sorry for him in my heart, I really wanted him to hold me like this. But I couldn't, I couldn't speak because of the heat and trembling of my body, and luckily he couldn't see my expression now, otherwise I would have been ashamed of myself.

I wanted to get up, I wanted to push him away, but I felt like I was drinking, and I was jumping around for a long time, and my whole body was weak, and second, I really didn't have the determination to push him away, so I tried to calm myself down and think about what was going to happen next.

Husband, can you hear my plea for help? I was losing my attention, I was losing consciousness.

I don't know how long I was silent, but in the dark, he began to stroke my hair, touching my bare arm from time to time, and this contact made my whole body tremble.

Because we couldn't see each other, I didn't say no because I was too shy.

Husband, I've never been so ambiguous with you, even if it was the first time we were in the cottage at home, I wasn't so nervous or helpless.

Husband, is it too late? My weak resistance was just a woman's reserved pretentiousness, and the excitement covered up the shyness, and I wanted to push his hand away but grabbed his neck without obeying the call.

We started kissing, and it turned out that my kissing was really bad, and that's why you don't like me, right? Husband!

Husband, my heart softened, maybe I was confused, in short, I didn't resist, I haven't been like this for a long time, the emptiness and loss every night, I also know clearly that the bottom line can no longer be broken, otherwise I will cross the wrong of a lifetime that cannot be turned back.

Husband, maybe, now I really have no reason to blame you for anything, some things can't go back.

Husband, I want to cry so much.

"I ......," he wanted to explain.

I don't want to hear it, in fact, it's not all his fault that things have come to this point, it's my repeated concessions that have made him, but I can't say that, I interrupted his constant explanation, and said to him: "I'm not ready, you know, it's ...... outside"

It seemed that he believed me, and the outside was also my psychological pressure from the beginning, and I didn't know when someone would suddenly come in. After tidying up, we knocked on the door, the consciousness was going out, everyone didn't seem to embarrass us, I was mentally prepared, and after going out, I didn't look at anyone's eyes, as if nothing had happened, and naturally played a few songs.

At two o'clock in the morning, everything was over, and he offered to drive me, but in order to refuse him, I excused myself and said that I lived nearby, and I could just walk over, so I didn't take a taxi or wait for him to reply, so I ran into the night.

Husband, it was the first time I walked on the street so late, and it was desolate less than two hundred meters away, and I didn't know where I was, and a few drunk men were walking towards me in the distance, and they began to say something unpleasant to me from a distance, I was so scared, I ran for my life, but I didn't know where to go.

Husband, are you home now? If you don't see me at home, will you worry about me? Husband, I'll be back soon, and although I don't know where this is, I'm not going to stop.

A car drove past me and stopped not far away, I was scared, husband, I was really scared and scared.

It was him, and he was the one who got out of the car, and he walked up to me, who was standing on the side of the road, and said gently: "You are walking so fast, this is the mountain, I don't believe you live here." ”

I didn't answer him, I just followed him into the car and drove towards the city, and we didn't say a word along the way, but every time I looked sideways, I felt that he was still in my body, and I didn't dare to continue thinking about it, because I was afraid that I would not be able to extricate myself......

Husband, I'm sorry, not only did I betray my body, but my heart also followed him......

It took me one night to write this long letter, and I dried all my tears, you didn't come back, and when you read this letter I was gone, goodbye to my dear husband!