Love is selfish and extremely selfish at the same time, or people are very complex creatures, they will use the most fanatical state to infinitely beautify the loved when they are in love, but once the eighteen-meter filter fades, the person who has been poured love by them will become worthless, and there will be no doubt about being thrown into the muddy garbage heap.

If one is to remain in a state of love all the time......

I'm afraid that it will be like in "Titanic", with love to be frozen to death in the Atlantic Ocean in winter, the biting cold wind and cold water, all the hot and sincere love will be buried, only the red in the blood is hot and hot, and the rest of the love can always make people cry, always make people willing to give, and always make people give that sincere and eager heart.

Chi Yu didn't think before, he also knew that he was an out-and-out bastard, a rotten person who had no saving value, he used to be innocent, cruel and vicious trampling on the true love of others, trampling on the hot sincerity of others, stepping on the heart and corpse/bone step by step on the flower road, until now it suddenly dawned on him, under his flowery broad avenue, buried under the red carpet are the beating sincerity of others.

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Chi Yu was very depressed, he didn't know how to save it, as if any words were so pale and powerless, any excuse for himself by the person who did the wrong thing was like a high-sounding, unrepentant justification, he didn't know how to seek forgiveness, and the pain of love and hate was tearing at his heart.

It was as if a steel knife was tearing his internal organs painfully, slashing his heart one by one, stabbing into the flesh one by one, and even the depths of the bone marrow were full of pain, like being crawled by moths all over his body, and the loneliness of a thousand holes under the bite.

But those that were filled in were only briefly buried with the soil of the fourteen pines, and when the heavy rain came, the deep pits that had been filled in would reappear again, with irrelievable pain, and they were born to death, and all the limbs and bones were nail prints that were pumped and pumped.

Chi Yu brushed his hair, closed his eyes in pain, and leaned back on the sofa, not knowing what he was thinking about writing or what he was doing.

In a trance, he thought, why hasn't Yin Qingdai come back yet...... Is it really not necessary to have him.

People will always know how to cherish after losing, this is the inferior nature of any creature called "man" in the world, many times he does not know how to change, he can only let him influence people's minds and ideas over and over again, repeat the mistakes over and over again, make mistakes over and over again, and turn over this stupid but difficult to change and avoid mistakes.

But Chi Yu didn't want to make any more mistakes, this was the second time he realized what kind of emotion it was to lose, the first time he was decadent for half a month, nesting himself in the sofa all day and doing nothing, relying on short videos and long videos, relying on novels and comics to divert his attention and pass the time, but then he didn't know what's wrong, as if any short-term happiness was just for a longer, more profound pain to sit and pave the way.

He thought that those would end, but he found that he seemed to be sick, with a terminal illness without a cure, and he would not stab him to death with a knife, but would follow the blood into his limbs and bones, eating away at people's minds little by little, and depriving him of the emotion called happiness little by little.

Chi Yu thought in the chaos, if he could, he would definitely ......

He must ......

What must he have done? He sighed.

What was he delusional about? Things have happened, he knows that his behavior is the most annoying afterthought, the child is dead, you come to milk, belated affection is cheaper than grass, Chi Yu feels that he is really cheap, the first 20 years are completely in vain, and I don't know what kind of connivance and pampering can raise him like this, I don't know what it means to be precious, and I can easily trample on other people's love animals/lives.

Now that the brute knows it's wrong, can it ...... Can you pity him, can you let him stand in the sun again, accept the sunshine with peace of mind, can you give him another chance, so that he is qualified to be with the girl who once regarded him as light, a chance to continue the front edge.

…… There is no need to continue the frontier, this kind of greedy idea that does not know what to do is really funny and ridiculous, Chi Yu secretly shook his head and smiled self-deprecatingly, how can Gu Ying's self-pity be mixed with wishful thinking?

It really shouldn't be...... To this day, he has not given up the selfish superiority in his heart, how can the habits he developed in the past 20 years be changed in just a few days? Say more, repent more. No matter how much you cry bitterly, you will have a smell of self-pity and self-touching.

In the eyes of the victims, it must be extremely annoying.

Chi Yu sighed, and in the endless pain, he frowned tightly, leaned on the green frog pillow on the sofa, and fell asleep unsteadily.

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Chi Delirium slept this time, but there were really few awake people present, Ji Yan and Su Xiaoxia both felt really bored, among so many people present, none of them were concentrating on watching the show, except for the Lu Wanzhi over there, when Chi Delirium went out and came back here, it was as if he had just bumped into a ghost, his face was pale, and the whole person exuded a decadent atmosphere from head to toe, as if he was going to fall down in the next second.

After coming back, he did a lot of strange performances, such as standing at the door and being silent for half a minute without speaking, such as frowning all the time after returning to his seat, I don't know what I was thinking, but the most strange thing is that Chi Yu, who had to come, actually fell asleep after thinking about it?

Sure enough, it is the son of a rich family, and they are so famous that they really can't understand what is going on in his head.

Su Xiaoxia was extremely puzzled in her heart, and doubts filled her heart, but she didn't say anything after all, she just didn't know where Yin Qingdai had gone if she hadn't come back yet?

But what about worrying? The base is strictly controlled at night, and will not let people out at all, Yin Qingdai's vigorous and kind temperament, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is a bright little sun in teaching and research, it is impossible to commit suicide because of such a little thing, at most emo will be resurrected after a few days.

When the time comes, throw out the pool and don't let him step into the base again.

The dog man who hurts people's hearts will have to pay the price, the prodigal son will not change this kind of high-sounding remarks, I don't know if Yin Qingdai will be willing to give Chi Yu a chance, anyway, he is unwilling, if he does something wrong, it is useful to apologize, and it is useful to repent, so what's the use of the police?

How to repay virtue with virtue? Su Xiaoxia was clear in her heart, even if she didn't know that Yin Qingdai and Chi Yu had been with her for so many years, this kind of distorted chaser, and the people who were fanatically chasing the light by her, all felt that what Chi Yu did a few days ago was a real/brute, how could a normal person do that kind of thing that lost his conscience and didn't have a bit of gentlemanly demeanor?

Chi Delirium's style is also worthy of being called a man?

Because of a little thing as big as a sesame seed, a man who bullies a woman is not worthy of being a man.

Su Xiaoxia thought resentfully, stretched out his hand, took out a piece of boneless fried chicken from the fried chicken box, wrapped it in sweet honey mustard sauce and put it in his mouth, the thermal insulation effect of the insulated box is very good, it has not completely cooled down after buying it for so long, it is still a gentle and soft crispy taste.

…… Food is the first driving force of people, and Su Xiaoxia, who added a few calories, instantly felt a lot more comfortable, and when he was in the crusade against Chi Delirium, most of the dissatisfaction in his heart was dissipated.

She glared at Chi Yu coldly and indifferently, and then continued to watch the show intently.

Because of these changes, I missed a lot of feature films, I really lost the watermelon and picked up the sesame seeds, and I lost a lot.