That's right, Li Xuyang really doesn't know about Xiaolan's past, but he doesn't need to understand. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info Now, Xiaolan has embarked on the path of "decadence", which she chose herself, if she didn't want to, even if someone forced her to choose suicide, she would not choose this path of no return.

"I grew up without a father or a mother and grew up in an orphanage. For as long as I can remember, I didn't know what it meant to be a dad and a mom. Xiaolan said, tears still flowing.

"Because of thinness, because of loneliness, because of introversion, I have become the object of ridicule or scolding by other children. I grew up being bullied every day, and I washed my face with tears every night. How I wish my mom and dad would show up at that time and come and borrow me and leave that place where no one is at all. But as the days went by, no one ever came to adopt me. ”

"Looking at the people who often bullied me, who were adopted one after another, and I stood in the dark and secretly saw all this, my heart hurt so much. I really told a person that I have no meaning to live except for being bullied, and I am really not as good as a dog. ”

Xiaolan's voice was a little hoarse and choked when she said this, but she continued, "Sometimes I wonder why my parents are so ruthless, since they gave birth to me, they refused to want me, and sent me to that 'hell on earth'. I hate the person who gave birth to me, I hate the orphanage, I hate the world, I hate everyone. ”

"Later, I grew up and learned a lot of things. I gradually adapted to the life of this society, so I made a lot of fox friends and dog friends, who said that they would protect me, love me, and not let others bully me, in fact, I all knew that they just wanted to sleep with me. Oh, human nature in this world is ugly, and people's hearts are even uglier. ”

"Alright. Li Xuyang interrupted Xiaolan to continue, and then asked, "What do you mean by this? Let me sympathize with you? Or do you want to tell me that you chose that industry because you were abandoned by this world to take revenge on society?"

"I..." Xiaolan wanted to defend, but after seeing Li Xuyang's expressionless face, all his words were swallowed into his stomach, so as to say, "I know I'm not your opponent, so whatever you want!"

After Xiaolan finished speaking, she closed her eyes, and then stood there quietly waiting for what Li Xuyang did to her. After Li Xuyang heard her words, he moved his steps, his body moved, Wu Qin behind him couldn't sit still anymore, stood up and stopped, "Forget it, no matter what, she is also a woman." ”

"Get out of the way. Li Xuyang said in a commanding tone to Wu Qin, who was blocking in front of him.

"Brother, can I beg you?" Wu Qin's brows furrowed, but his body didn't move.

"Get out of the way, don't make me say it a third time. Li Xuyang's voice this time was much louder than the last time, and it could be seen that he was a little angry.

Seeing that Li Xuyang was angry, Jiang Botong also stood up, then came to Wu Qin's side, tugged at his clothes with his hand, and said, "Don't you know his temper?

Under Jiang Botong's persuasion, Wu Qin still stood aside reluctantly. Opened a way for Li Xuyang. The quarrel just now had made Xiaolan open her eyes, but after seeing that Wu Qin's plea was ineffective, she still gave him a grateful look, and then closed her eyes again.

After Li Xuyang came to her, he just whispered a few words in her ear, the voice was very small, even Wu Qin, who was standing a meter away, didn't hear what they were talking about clearly, and he didn't even know what he was doing.

"Huh?" After Li Xuyang finished speaking, he left, continued to support Jiang Botong, and when Xiaolan passed by, he deliberately said, "Think about it yourself! ”

After Li Xuyang left, Wu Qin looked at his figure, and then came to Xiaolan's side, comforting, "Are you okay?"

Xiaolan ignored him, her current brain was full of the words Li Xuyang had just said, and even Jiang Botong in front of her was directly ignored by her, as if it didn't exist.

Seeing that he didn't pay attention to himself, and looked at Li Xuyang who was walking farther and farther, Jiang Botong sighed and said take care, and ran to chase Li Xuyang.

And Jiang Botong, who was walking in front, looked back at Xiaolan, then turned his head and asked Li Xuyang, "What did you do to her just now?"

Li Xuyang just shook his head with a smile and didn't answer.

Li Xuyang wanted to go home, but after thinking about it again, he decided not to go back. After recuperating in Handan for a few days, after Jiang Botong was able to walk completely, he went directly to Jincheng, Shanxi by car. He hates that kind of parting scene, especially now that his father is old, if his own son is not by his side and goes to a distant place, he will inevitably worry about him.

Since he was a child, Li Xuyang went to school outside for the first time, and every time his father sent it in person. After being sent to school, he watched his son's figure completely disappear in front of his eyes, or drowned in the crowd, until he was out of sight, and then he would leave. It was a great and wordless father's love, and Li Xuyang never knew that when he stepped into the school gate, there was a pair of reluctant eyes behind him who had been paying attention to him.

He also didn't know that the first time he went to the army, after he got in the car. There was a pair of eyes behind him that were always looking at the car, or at himself sitting in the car. Li Xuyang wants to finally go out to exercise himself, for so many years, he has been growing up under his father's care and care, this time everything has to rely on himself, and all decisions can be decided by himself.

But he ignored that after the car started, there was a man who chased the car for several miles, and did not give up until he was out of breath and could not catch up with the car. Standing on the side of the road like that, watching the car get farther and farther away from him, until it was out of his sight, he reluctantly turned around and walked home.

The home has two bedrooms, a hall, and is often used for a few plates and a few bowls. From the moment Li Xuyang left in the car, Li Yongan knew that from that day on, he would be alone.

Li Xuyang is greedy for fun, and every time it is past the time to eat, he will run back from outside dirty. As soon as he saw that he was covered in mud, Li Yongan would angrily scold him and tell him to wash and wash before he could eat. And Li Xuyang always complains about why every time he comes home, the rice is cold. He didn't know that the reason why the rice was cold was because after the meal was ready, Li Yongan had been waiting for him to come back.

After he came back, he took the dishes that were already cold, went back to the pot to heat them, and brought them out again for Li Xuyang to eat. Even so, Li Yongan can feel that it is the warmth of home, the feeling of home, and the taste of home. But all this left with Li Xuyang's departure, and Li Yongan became a lonely person.

Every time he finished cooking, Li Yongan would sit quietly at the table and wait. Maybe he was waiting for Li Xuyang to come back, maybe he was waiting for the food to be cold, and then he took it to heat up, maybe it was because of Li Xuyang that he got used to all this.

Li Yongan would get up at half past six every morning, and then go to cook Li Xuyang's favorite meals, and after they were done, they would all go to Li Xuyang's room, and then sort out the homework he threw on the ground last night and put it in his backpack. Then he woke up Li Xuyang, let him eat, and urged him to go to school.

But this time, after Li Yongan opened the room. What I saw was a neat quilt, and there was no homework thrown by Li Xuyang on the ground, and there were no plastic bags for some food, and the room became very quiet. There was no Li Xuyang who slept on the bed with a quilt, and everything seemed to have undergone earth-shaking changes, making Li Yongan unable to adapt for a while.

Li Yongan's daily work is to tie paper figures or wreaths in the store. If there is a business, they will help deliver goods to those who need it, and if they don't, they will sit alone at home. He rarely goes out, and because most of his home is funeral things, few people will visit his house, and his life is always his own.

Tonight, Li Yongan came to Li Xuyang's room again, usually after ten o'clock, to check Li Xuyang's room again. Check to see if the lights are turned off in his room, and if he sleeps under the quilt so that he doesn't catch a cold.

But this time, the room was open, but the quilt on the bed was neatly placed on the bed. After Li Yongan turned off the light, he shook his head and sighed, then turned off the light and closed the door of Li Xuyang's room by the way.

In a family, when there is only one person, it is empty in his brain or heart. No one talks to him, no one accompanies him, the only thing that is unique is the 35-inch color TV. The TV series was playing on the color TV, and Li Yongan's eyes were also staring at the TV series, but his mind was not on the TV.

He wondered where his son was now, what he was doing, what was in danger, and more importantly, when would he come back?

At this moment, on a bed in a hotel in Handan, Li Xuyang was resting his head with his hands on his head, looking at the ceiling with his eyes, and wondering if his father was asleep now, and whether his body was still so tough.

He is different from Jiang Botong, and he is also different from Wu Qin. They don't have any families, nor do they have wives or people to worry about, and Li Xuyang himself, at home dozens of miles away, has an elderly father, is he also missing, far away in the city, is he missing his son?

Jiang Botong had already fallen asleep in another bed, only Wu Qin was still lying on the sofa. I ate the junk food in my mouth, and watched the cartoons that were so naïve that children didn't even watch them.

Li Xuyang also thinks more about Wu Qin, who can live a carefree life, without all fetters, and everything is based on his own happiness, that's fine.