Taifu sighed, looked up at the roof of the car, and muttered, "But I don't know until I'm old...... People, in the end, they are just asking for three meals a day, raising their eyebrows, and having children and grandchildren. ”

When he was young, who did not have Lingyun's ambitions and lofty ambitions, even if he thought that he was not too much about fame and fortune, he also envied the position above tens of thousands of people under that person, not to mention, the word "emperor" represents the glory that no one can shake.

Seeing the king without kneeling, how many people can there be in the world?

Later, I realized that how much glory also means how much responsibility. The emperor, the emperor, under the glory that no one can match, it is also a responsibility that no one can bear. The merits of the emperor have their own posterity, but at present, the merits of the emperor belong to the emperor, and the fault of the emperor is the fault of the emperor.

"My mother...... said that I caught the Zhou banquet and caught the wolf's pen. My grandfather and father were so happy that they decided that my grandfather would teach me how to write. Taifu leaned back in his chair and talked about the past that had gradually blurred in his memory and was about to lose his grasp of the details, "At that time, I didn't even know how to speak, and I began to learn to hold a pen. When I could speak, I began to read and write, and I didn't even learn to walk, but I could hold a pen vividly...... My grandfather said that his eldest grandson was born to hold a pen......"

Gu Ci has never heard Taifu talk about these things, and maybe even Shi Huan has never heard of them. He bowed his head, "You are in Dacheng, and you are a treasure that has been irreplaceable for nearly a hundred years." Your essays and poems are enough to last forever. But the so-called God rewards food, but it is not the same...... It's you who spend more time and energy than anyone else. ”

God, you don't take food lightly.

Taifu smiled, his smile was a little tired, and he didn't pay much attention to this aspect, "It's a little right...... Actually, even I don't know if there is one. It's just that...... These days, I sometimes wonder if I would have had a different life if I hadn't caught that wolf's pen at that time......"

Why did you catch that wolf? Presumably no one will know the answer, no one knows why a baby who has just learned to crawl chose the pen in a pair of golden gleaming and chaotic objects representing all walks of life.

Perhaps, just because of the recent ......

But it did start a life of getting along with the "pen" day and night. Sometimes, even I don't know if there is a "fate" or not......

I don't know what to call casual under some careful study, and I will say whatever I want, but Gu Ci feels a little worried when I listen to it.

Taifu is repeatedly emphasizing one thing, he is old.

That's an old heart.

If he was just physically old, he could still be called Lao Ji Fu and his ambitions were thousands of miles, but now, Tai Fu's whole person looked tired, and his heart was ...... Old.

Come to think of it, it was the incident at Gu Yansheng's birthday banquet that made him age all of a sudden. When the court knelt down to threaten the emperor, this matter became a hurdle in his heart, and for this reason, he would rather write a letter to resign and stay away from the court.

Some things, although I have never regretted it, even if I try again, I will still make the same choice, but in the end it is against the belief that I have always been obsessed with in my heart. Gu Ci actually understood what Taifu didn't express.

He looked at the gate of Shi's house close at hand, and looked at the two lanterns swaying in the wind, which were the only bright color in the whole line of sight.

The sky was overcast and the rustling of leaves could be heard.

The wind is blowing.

He bowed his head, "You have worked hard for Dacheng for nearly a lifetime, and it is not bad to resign now, in the future, you will plant flowers and play chess in the house, stay away from those rights and wrongs, and it is also very good to live in the old age." ”

"There's still a lack of great-grandchildren." Taifu reminded solemnly.

Gu Ci didn't shy away, and nodded seriously, "Okay." It must be earlier than Brother Ruonan's. ”

Taifu instantly felt complete, imagining how flattering the doll born by the combination of these two children should be, he felt happy when he thought about it, and laughed, "Okay!" Good! All right...... Your children must be the most beautiful and the wisest minds...... If I can still walk, I will take him all over the mountains, rivers, lakes and seas, and see the earth, the earth, the earth, and the world! ”

Gu Ci hooked the corners of his mouth, he was not in a hurry, the little girl was still young...... It's just that the old man is obviously in a hurry, so it's ...... Let it be. He said, "I thought you would teach him to read and write first......

"No, no, no......" the old man shook his head again and again, emphasizing, "I will teach, but I don't want to teach him to read and write in this way...... I don't want him to know only its form, only its sound, but not its meaning. I want him to see the sky, understand the height of the sky, and then learn how to write the word 'heaven'; I want him to see the sea, understand the vastness of the sea, and then learn how to write the word 'sea'; I want him to see the vastness of the world, understand the suffering of all beings, and then learn how to write 'people' and 'life'......"

"Ah Ci...... I don't want him to follow our old path, I think he's free. Even if he eventually became an official, I think he really wants to do it, not for the sake of his father's expectations, nor for the sake of the family's longevity. ”

"Ah Ci, do you understand what I mean?"

Gu Ci was silent.

There were no words, but there was a voice in my heart shouting, and my chest was beating like a drum, and it was like the thunder of a summer afternoon, and the depression before a storm.

How can you not understand?

They are a group of people who seem to have a lot of "face", a group of people who can call the wind and rain, almost omnipotent, and people who can kill most of the lives in this world......

It looks like there is everything, in fact, there is no freedom, and there is no oneself.

held the wolf's pen, and thus started the life of the contemporary Confucian...... This is not an isolated case. When I didn't understand anything, I went to the arranged life, doing what I should do, becoming a parent, left and right...... Everyone is the same.

I don't feel so sad.

It's just that when decades have passed, looking back on the past years, will you feel that it is boring and tastes like chewing wax? Gu Ci didn't dare to ask. I only vaguely remember that the teacher and the teacher are also affectionate, so in the end, they are also lucky.

See, even love is lucky. Can...... Isn't it right to marry the one you admire?

Few people think about this because "everyone is like this". Freely? The price of freedom is so great...... If you accidentally lose all the plates, and the accumulation of several generations of ancestors is ruined, how can you go down to see your ancestors?

Thereupon...... Those heavy accumulations eventually become burdens.

Gu Ci closed his eyes and opened them again, with a smile in his eyes, looking a lot more relaxed, as if he had removed some heavy shackles.

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