11: Aster's Monologues

"So, do you still want to do it?" and the sauce is okay," Yui suddenly undressed and said softly with his shoulders and back, and blinked his right eye playfully.

“onechan!!!!” His worried face turned red all of a sudden.

Although Wei is not young anymore, and what should be developed has also developed, but she made such an action, it is like a child imitating a TV series, cute is cute, but there is no sense of temptation at all.

"No...... Forget it. And said weakly.

Yui suddenly pounced, hugged He, and said with a smile: "You're welcome, and sauce anata~!." ”

"Me too!" said with a grin.

"Well, thank you, worry, it's so warm. He who was hugged by the two of them whispered, a slight smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and the haze in his eyes was swept away.

If you have the chance, let's talk about it.

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That day

"Break up!" and said suddenly.

"yes, I see. And be happy. Shion smiled softly at Heying.

He silently picked up the bag containing his clothes and books, stood up and rushed out the door.

Yamanaka Shion likes the real pot and the most.

At first, I just thought that he was a smart, stable and responsible girl.,When I was in the student council in junior high school.,Helped me a lot.,It's a very reliable person.,I just treat her as a cute junior.,It's still in a school after high school.,A little happy.,But that's all.。

Before I fell in love with her, Manabe was a cute and reliable junior, a classmate of Lin, and had a good relationship with the light sound department, so that's all I had to say.

But when I was depraved, indulged in carnal desires, and anesthetized myself with alcohol, I always felt that everything was given up, music, dreams, and promises, none of which could be realized. The only thing left to do is to vent, vent all the depression in your heart, but no matter how many times you have intercourse, how many times you are drunk and unconscious, after you wake up, your heart is still so painful, and the emotions of condemnation, sadness and despair will emerge again.

At this time, the angel who appeared in front of me was He.

At first, I just wanted to tease her, hug her, talk to her with a mouth full of alcohol, and tell her to give up, stop caring about herself, and leave quickly. But the feeling of being cared for is not bad, and when she was about to leave, he involuntarily pulled her.

When talking to He, people don't know why it's calm, no matter which girl they're with, they don't feel it, even if it's alcohol, there's no such outskirts, but just talk to He, and get it. It's incredible.

And sit at the head of the bed and wipe my face wholeheartedly, ordinary people, send it home to be benevolent and righteous, why and still stay here to take care of people like me. I thought so, and I started to play tricks on her again.

It was probably at that time, when I was lying in bed and reopened my eyes from my slumber, that I fell in love with Manabe.

After soaking in the banquet for a long time, Yamanaka Aster also learned the way to tempt people, with what angle, what kind of eyes, and what kind of tone, which can arouse people's inner **. What kind of approach can make people more obedient and not resist your approach. Whether you're a man or a woman, you hate stench, you like pretty things, it's always the same.

So I pulled down my clothes, exposed my shoulders, stretched out my hands, and said, "Hold me." What kind of expression would she have, shy, annoyed, or would she turn and run away?

And at that time, and in response to me, I felt that maybe God still favored me, and I felt very happy.

I once again felt the warmth of my relatives, the kind of warmth that I had not seen for many years, and that night I talked to and said a lot, a lot of words that had been pressed in my heart for many years, and I listened to me quietly, I had always felt that it was something that I could never say in my life, and I said it all.

That night, I was redeemed.

Now that I think about it, it's not a joke, but I'm really longing for a hug. It is not the harmony that is tempted to fall into it, but the self. Seeing in bed that he didn't leave, but took care of his own harmony, from that moment on, Yamanaka Shion already liked harmony, and he couldn't help himself.

So I can't forgive it.,My worst physique.。

When he was found out and hugged other girls behind her back, their relationship had actually broken down. Although I later forgave myself and compromised with myself to let myself find someone else to satisfy my desires, such a day could not be maintained after all.

If you want to satisfy your sensual desires with others and get harmonious love, it's simply impossible.

Yes, it's impossible not to feel uncomfortable at the thought of someone you like having a relationship with someone else. But Yamanaka Shion is still wrong again and again.

Shion hated her physique very much, and at first she wanted to stop having contact with other people. But Kazuya has his own things to do, and his desires are too strong, and the pressure accumulated at work can't be vented, and he can't even sleep.

She is very loving and because of He, she cheered up, and it can be said that He saved her and there was nothing wrong.

It's really fun to be with He, and it's satisfying just to stay together, but when I'm not working alone, I'm always thinking about erotic things. I really want to be with Hug, I want to be with me all the time. But he has always been an assertive person, doing what he wants to do, pursuing his dreams, and studying hard for this.

She won't be selfish enough to bind and keep pestering her. If she works in the field and is not together for a few months, she can't let He stay by her side all the time.

But she couldn't control herself.

Judging by the results, she can do it as long as she is a beautiful girl. She really couldn't be worse. It's a matter of course to be dumped.

So when he broke up with the proposal, Aster was not too surprised. If she didn't do it simply, she would cause trouble to He, and she would continue to be injured, so she agreed directly.

wants to redeem it, wants to ask for forgiveness, even if she wants to be with him because of all her efforts, but because of her physique, she can't give up her music work and stay by He's side, and she came to the conclusion that they can't be happy together.

Yes, I've hurt him over and over again, and I can't trouble Kazu-chan anymore.

So Yamanaka Shion decided to let go, and she really agreed to break up with the proposal.

And will find their own happiness, in the final analysis, if it weren't for her drunkenness, everything wouldn't have happened, and his character would not be with girls, maybe he has found an honest and stable boy to date, and then get married and have children, and spend a happy and stable life. If you want to make the family very warm and happy, that kind of life is the most suitable for you.

Thinking about it, tears flowed uncontrollably from his eyes.

Yamanaka Aster hated herself incomparably.

Sure enough, on that day, after being drugged by those people, she was cursed.

Sure enough, God is really a bad heart, giving her hope again and again, and taking hope away from her again and again.

In her life, she will never get the love between people, the happiness of the family, that kind of gentleness, that kind of peace of mind, that kind of warmth, she will never have it again.

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"Shion, don't force yourself, you've been working hard, just keep it up. Looking at the aster who was a little overworked, Rui said with some worry.

"No, Rui, don't worry. That's what I want to do, and I have to get closer. Shion shook her head.

WORK!WORK!!WORK!!

Practice!Practice!!Practice!!

In order to forget these things, the only way to do serious work is to exude a stronger momentum than before, work harder, and work more seriously.

From day to night, when there is no work, it is used to practice music, and only after ten years of practicing day in and day out can you achieve something in music, and only in this way can you get peace.

She won't fall again, because she's made a peace deal.

She also doesn't anesthetize herself with alcohol, because that's what I've agreed with.

There is no way to overcome carnal desires, this is a disease, and it will only be stopped when you are old. But she doesn't like anyone else anymore.

is so bad at her, so she has to pursue music.

After losing and after, only music can save her.

So go for it.

She will become stronger, she will step on a higher stage, for the agreement with Kazu, for the agreement with Iwasawa, for the agreement with her grandmother, for her dreams, the rest of her life, she will live for music.

Yamanaka Shion decided so.