CHAPTER XV

"Oh, this girl is too perceptive." Yang Yi attributed Lisa's reading of Fu Buyi just now to Lisa's insight. "People can see at once that the old man still has a friendship with Pan Pan."

"That's right, high school goddess. That's right, old man. Kan Chuang agreed.

"What?" Lisa didn't expect to lead to such a paragraph.

Fu Buyi smiled. He's calm. It seems that he doesn't mind Lisa knowing about the high school goddess. Because, young, frivolous, too ignorant.

"It's not that I'm talking about you, old man," Kan Chuang is going to make fun of Fu Buyi again, "I was a crush in high school, and I didn't say anything, now I have a romantic confession." It's not a waste of youth. Is this friendship still there? ”

Fu Buyi didn't say he was, and he didn't say he wasn't. He also pretended to be once. He didn't answer directly. He said: "To deny youth is to deny the innocence of oneself."

"Well said. The old man has a level. The crowd applauded.

Fu Buyi nodded in agreement. It's really going to be a contingency. She wasn't a goddess the last time we met. Fu Buyi scolded himself in his heart. When the did I become such a hypocrisy? Could it be that he participated in a social event? I'm actually telling lies very sincerely and seriously. Could this be the result of attending social events? Alas, I'm also worldly. Well, today is a gathering of worldly people. However, Lisa is not included.

"Girl, you know what? I think back then, your master and my daughter-in-law were called our Xiangshi No. 1 High School Flower Shuangshu. Kan Chuang introduced.

"From the current appearance of the master and Sister Yang, it is not difficult to imagine the youthful demeanor of the school flower Shuangshu. But I was more deeply impressed by the excellence, temperament and personality charm of today's school flowers. Lisa praised.

"Oh, girl, I'm getting more and more fond of her. Hey, do you have a partner? Shall I introduce one? Kan Chuang said.

Fu Buyi doesn't like to hear this. Are you pretending to be old? Use you to pull the red line? Are you full?

"It's so good, how can it be so easy to find? Single. Pan Yan explained. In the previous paragraph, I still wanted to introduce her to the old man, but I regretted it, I don't think the old man is worthy of our girl. ”

, Fu Buyi doesn't like to listen to it anymore. What does it have to do with you whether you are worthy or not? You're not full, you're drinking too much. He began to scold Pan Yan in his heart.

It was clear that Pan Yan had drunk a little too much. She leaned the chair against Fu Buyi's chair, directly put her body on Fu Buyi's body, and then simply hugged Fu Buyi's neck. If it weren't for Fu Buyi's strength, he would have been hugged by her directly.

Fu Buyi was already extremely disgusted with Pan Yan.

"Oh, what's the situation? Will the old lover finally become married? Kan Chuang quipped.

"None of you are allowed to laugh. Lisa, you are not allowed to laugh. The master is not drunk and promiscuous. The master wants to get down to business. Pan Yan got serious.

"Old man, what about me, I've drunk too much. But I wasn't drunk. I'm not talking about alcohol. I think, today, I would like to talk to you from the bottom of my heart. Really old man, I sincerely want to talk to you. There are no outsiders today, right? What do I want to say? From that day you went to me, do you know what your first impression was on me, old man? After so many years, old man, you haven't grown. It's true. There is no growth. It's too far from what I imagined the old man to look like, too far. I was really, I was surprised. How can this be? It may be said that over the years, your experience and your experience are not enough for you to improve. But, one thing, I'm sure, I'm sure, you, old man, don't want to change yourself. Lao Kan Laoyang, such an excellent two people. You've been around them for so many years, and you haven't thought about becoming like them, and to put it bluntly, you just don't want to change yourself. Old man, I want to say, it's time to change yourself, it's not too late. It's true. ”

Humiliation, humiliation in front of Lisa. Fu Buyi's personality makes him basically never have an emotional outburst. So he didn't squeak.

"Oh, speaking of which," Kan Chuang quickly interjected. He was afraid that Fu Buyi would turn his face. He didn't dare to point out Fu Buyi's shortcomings so bluntly, he was afraid of hurting Fu Buyi's self-esteem. "The reason why Lao Fu doesn't want to change is that Lao Yang is used to it, and Lao Fu relies on Lao Yang for everything."

"Haha. I'm covering you, old man. Yang Yi also followed suit.

"Hey, I guessed it. When you were in school, you covered the old man, and you must still be covering it now. Pan Yan answered.

"Hey, students, what's next? Isn't it time to get nostalgic? Pan Yan proposed.

"Our generation is the most qualified for nostalgia. We have truly experienced the great changes of the times. There is so much to be nostalgic for. Yang Yi sighed.

"That's right. I suddenly remembered a theme - movies. At that time, due to various reasons, most foreign movies could not be released in cinemas. In the beginning, we had to rent videotapes. Later there was the VCD. We went to rent a disc again. Pan Yan said.

"That's right. I've seen it since I was a child. We had one of the most classic at that time, "Crazy Boy". I love it so much. Kan Chuang added.

"That's right. We girls love to watch it too. Although it had a negative impact on society at that time and for many years afterward. But it is undeniable that it is really the memory of our youth, it is a classic existence. Yang Yi added.

"Just the song "Friendship Years" in it, it is a must-order track for me and my daughter-in-law to go to KTV." Kan Chuang and Yang Yi both love to sing.

"Both of you? Coincidentally, then our nostalgic content today is to sing this song. Pan Yan proposed.

"Okay." Kan Chuangyang agreed.

"Old man, will you?" Pan Yan asked.

"No, it won't." Fu Buyi is not uninterested in this song, the key is that Pan Yan does not have the ability to pull him into the atmosphere she wants. Or Fu Buyi doesn't want to, doesn't want to resonate with them and blend together. All night, he didn't get into the mood of the party. He was even less interested in the nostalgia that Pan Yan proposed. Because a few days ago he had already experienced the beauty that nostalgia brought him. Nostalgic for "Slam Dunk" with Lisa, that's what he wants. That's what he thinks is beautiful. And this kind of beauty, how can others give him.

"It's okay, you can give us a beat, right? Lisa, don't be idle, let's beat together. Everybody's on board. I get up, the vanished time is scattered in the wind, and I sing......"

"The disappeared time is scattered in the wind, as if I can't remember to face it again, wandering days, you are accompanied, and there is a fate to reunite ......" Pan Yan Kan Chuangyang sang in unison. I have to say that all three of them are very good at singing. Unexpectedly, the three of them cooperated very tacitly. It's a perfect match. There are male and female voices, Pan Yan's high voice, and Kan Chuangyangyi's alto. The trio take turns vocalizing, backing vocals, and harmonies. They performed the song perfectly. Fu Buyi had to admit that this was the best version he had ever heard. The point is that the song is infused with the emotions of the trio. Fu Buyi likes to sing with emotion. In the chorus, the three of them are flushed. It was a manifestation of blood and blood. It was obvious that the bodies of the three of them were trembling slightly. In the melting mood.

Sing it. "Okay." Lisa was the first to applaud. The three of them laughed and applauded together.

The effect of alcohol made Pan Yan wrap her arms around Fu Buyi's neck again.

"It's not that I'm talking about you, old man, four classmates, but you don't participate. You say it's just you, who wants to play with you? Who can still play with you? ”

"I don't play games." Fu Buyi replied.

"Who's playing with you? Who's going to play with you? Does anyone play with you? You're right if you don't play. That's right. Pan Yan was speechless.

At the moment when Fu Buyi was about to break out.

"Mr. Fu, drink a glass of water." Lisa saw it and hurriedly gave Fu Buyi a look.

The party is finally over. The party is finally over.

Yang Yi promised to go home with Pan Yan. Kan Chuang called the driver to send the three of them.

"There are two more." Pan Yan thought of Lisa.

"Let the old man send it." Kan Chuangdao.

"yes. Leave them alone. Yang Yidao. It seems that these two people want to give Fu Buyi a chance.

"Oh." Pan Yan didn't say anything when she saw Lisa. She couldn't say anything. She raised her leg and prepared to get into the car. She drank too much tonight, and all at once her almost motherly affection for Lisa was infinitely magnified. She treats Lisa like her own child. At this time, she is like a mother worried about her adolescent daughter. Lisa came out to play for the first time, and it was so late that she was worried about Lisa's safety.

She retracted her leg from the car, turned her head, pointed at Fu Buyi with her finger, and said something that made everyone present feel inappropriate. "Old man, listen up, you dare to bully Lisa, I can't spare you. Be careful. ”

Fu Buyi finally broke out. He felt that this sentence was an insult to his personality and a trampling on his character. "Who the are you?" Directed at Pan Yan.

Fortunately, Pan Yan, who was already in the car, didn't hear this. Kan Chuangyangyi hurriedly gave Lisa a look.

Lisa willing. hurriedly said goodbye to the three of them, pulled Fu Buyi and walked away.

"Uh...... My master...... She drank too much, you know. Lisa explained.

Fu Buyi, who was still in anger, did not squeak.

"Old man, I approve of you, you know. For example, I once offered to invite you to my house. Then, I went to your house to make dumplings. Is that right? We also eat a lot and walk ......"

Fu Buyi didn't squeak again.

A gloomy and negative person will always think about the bad things. Then dwell on the pain that comes with the unhappiness.

At this time, the anger made Fu Buyi angry. He was thinking about the meeting. Today, Pan Yan is more like a parent. He is not easy and has not been recognized by the "parents", and his "relationship" with Lisa has not been recognized by the "parents". Pan Yan believes that he is not worthy of Lisa. Pan Yan believes that he is not good. Having said that, what Pan Yan said was the truth, and he was powerless to refute it. Pan Yan was like a boulder pressing on his originally humble heart. He couldn't bear it. The anger is gone. It turned into suffering. In front of Pan Yan, he was not qualified to be angry at all.

And the pain seems to be unable to break through the confines of the skin, and there is nowhere to release. It can only circulate, roll, and crash in the body. And the above movements create friction with the body. This friction has brought new pain. Fu Buyi collapsed.

Pain has friends. It called gloom. Gloomy climbed into Fu Buyi's heart. Gloomy has brothers. This time, gloom specifically brought its brother - inferiority. The inferiority complex that goes deep into the bone marrow slowly seeps out. He, this "Lisa's boyfriend", has low self-esteem. His face grew more and more ugly.

Lisa saw it.

"Old man, actually, my master and you are drinking, I thought about it at the time, if my words don't work, I will drink for you, and I will block for you. With me, no one can bully you, not even my master. Lisa nodded firmly.

Regardless of whether this statement is true or not, it is certain that it did not have the desired positive effect.

"You...... You're blocking it for me? Will you drink it for me? Fu Buyi was actually questioning. It's as if he doesn't believe in everything in the world anymore. Including Lisa.

"Hmm. Don't believe me? I'm okay with my drinks. Hey. ”

"Lisa, what made you ...... to me What about protectiveness? Fu Buyi felt that he was not even a man in front of Lisa at this time. He had been so eager to stand in front of her as Lisa's man.

"I said so. I'm here. You forgot? ”

"Are you there?"

"That's right. You forgot? ”

"You're there." Fu Buyi muttered to himself. It's all too familiar. Once from Yangyi. Yangyi is his dependence. Now, there are people who stand up and want to become his dependence. At this point, he understood. Why would someone always become his dependence? Why does he always need to rely on? Play. He didn't take responsibility. He is not responsible. He has no ability to do anything for himself, let alone for the people around him. He doesn't have that ability. On the contrary, Yang Yi and Lisa stood up when he was in need, they were capable, and they were responsible. This contrast made him feel inferior again.

Lisa continued to look for topics. "Old man, your face is not very good. You...... Drink like a fish? ”

"It's a bit much."

"So, shall we still take a walk?"

"Walking?"

"Well, it's okay to sober up. Now when my colleagues hear that I walk every day, they laugh at me and say that I have entered the ranks of the elderly ahead of schedule. Lisa wanted to make a joke and adjust.

"Elderly? Senior citizen? Yes, age, I, you, excellent, young......" Fu Buyi has no expression and no emotion. The words are spoken in a stiff tone.

"Ugh." Long, heavy, with a sigh. Fu Buyi seemed to spit out the last breath of this life.

The golden light in front of him was extinguished.

He "died". The age difference completely crushed Fu Buyi's last fight. Frustration, what else can you do but be depressed? The inferiority complex of his character, at this time, is completely exposed and magnified. Low self-esteem made him completely sober up from the so-called 'hot love'. Age. But what if you are the same age? At this time, Fu Buyi's eyes were a pool of stagnant water, a pile of dead ashes. The streetlights and neon suddenly dimmed until it was pitch black. Is there a power outage in the city? Why can't I see the road? Why can't I see the direction? I became blind.

"What's wrong with you, old man, did I say something wrong?" Lisa realized.

"I ...... I, the golden light, was gone, I couldn't see anything. ”

"Don't scare me, old man." Lisa was a little scared.

"Huh? Yes. "In a trance, the world is brighter. Fu Buyi saw the street lights, neon, vehicles, and the way home in front of him. He couldn't see the golden light on Lisa's body. He was scared. He was desperate. Tonight, he was really stimulated.

"Lisa, I'...... I want to go home. ”

"Seeing that you are in such a bad state, I am worried about you. Such an old man, you go to my house, I can take care of you. ”

"No, I want to go back to my own home." Fu Buyi rejected Lisa. He didn't want to accept the "dependence" that Lisa had given him.

"So? Then, I'll send you home. ”

"No, I can do it myself, it's fine." Fu Buyi refused again.

"It's really an old man. Then I'll help you get a taxi. Lisa flagged down a taxi. Master, are you going to Xiangshi? ”

"Go." The master replied.

Fu Buyi got into the car.

"Old man, tell me when you get home, report safety. I'll wait for you to call, as many nights as you want. ”

Fu Buyi didn't speak. As he closed the car door, he also closed the door on everything that Lisa wanted to give him at this time, or that had been given to him. At this point he wanted to refuse everything from Lisa. He just wants to go home and sleep.

After arriving home, Fu Buyi fell directly on the bed. He didn't worry about Lisa's arrival at home, Ann wasn't safe, he didn't want to think about it anymore. He just wants to sleep. Once, sleep was the only way for him to relieve pain and digest bad things. That's the only thing he can do.

The pain will sink deeper and deeper, and the pain at this time is more painful than it once was. Pain is mutating, just like a virus, which is stronger than it was before. The cruelest thing happened, and pain took control of his mind and ego. The pain at this time is forcing Fu Buyi to think about the pain he once had. He had to think about the past he didn't want to think about. The plot of the past, the same as it is now. The current plot is a repetition and reproduction of the plot of the past. The difference is that the heroine has changed. Once that ex, now Lisa. But the plot is the same, he thinks he is not capable of bearing a good relationship, and he takes the initiative to give up.

Sometimes, the more beautiful it is, the more you can't afford it, because, you don't deserve it. How Fu Buyi hoped that that beautiful relationship could heal him. But the point is that he can't get good feelings.

Why did the ancients say that virtue can carry things? Because the two are matched. Everything has to match. Therefore, he is not excellent, and he does not deserve to have a good relationship. Nor does it deserve to be good. Yes. That is true. At this time, he applied the idiom "closing the coffin" to him. He forgot exactly what it meant, but literally, it was apt. At this time, the bed is his coffin, and there is a coffin board on his head that is slowly covered, and his life is also decided.

Lisa sent a message. "Old man, are you home?"

Fu Buyi did not reply.

Half an hour passed.

"Old man, I'll get home safely and finish washing. Don't worry about me. What about you? I'm worried about you now, talk back. ”

Fu Buyi did not reply.

Half an hour passed. Lisa called. Fu Buyi had to take it.

"Old man, are you home?"

"I'm going to sleep."

"Hmm. Good. I was relieved. Good night. ”

Fu Buyi didn't say goodnight and hung up the phone. Lisa didn't mean anything to him anymore. This is also the foregone conclusion.