CHAPTER XIX

"Master, are you sure, aren't you going to tell me?" Lisa's seemingly relaxed words instantly turned into a key.

"Catwalks, light stands, arches, backdrops, silk flowers, suspended ceilings. I did the demolition, the demolition of the wedding scene. For the first time, I did manual work for the first time in my life to earn some living expenses. Five hours. One hundred and eighty dollars. The tone was stiff, unemotional, and did not infect the listener.

"Old man, I don't think that's enough...... I mean, there are a lot of people who are more ...... than this It's hard work. Perhaps, your ability to bear it is too ...... It's low. Lisa commented objectively.

"I bought two bottles of mineral water for one dollar. Sitting on the side of the road, I drank it all in one go. Smoked five more cigarettes. Basically, it's been relieved. Fu Buyi lit a cigarette.

"For the first time. Do you know what it means to be the first time? It is the beginning of your move into another state. I was almost forty years old at the time, and I didn't have any skills. If there were dreams and fantasies in my life before, they were all shattered at that moment, gone, never again. I've got to face it. When I sat on the side of the road and smoked, I felt like I was sitting in reality for the first time. I'm really facing reality. When I look at the streets, the vehicles, the pedestrians, when I look at the world, I feel the pressure of life for the first time. The stress of life can really bend people and make them breathless. Do you know what it can be like in the face of a harsh reality? The whole body is cold, the heart is cold, the heart is dark, and the sky is gray. It was a kind of desperation. The reality is really harsh. Youth, dreams, and love will all be defeated by reality. Even Xiao Liangzi's fantasy was defeated by reality. ”

Faced with memories, Fu Buyi was really painful.

Lisa didn't speak right away. She was thinking.

After a while, she used the most ritualistic gesture again. She put a hand on Fu Buyi's shoulder.

"I would say that the 'first' situation you just mentioned is just one of the things in your life, right? From childhood to adulthood, there are many 'firsts' like this, and some situations have happened N times. Over the years, for more than 40 years, you have had countless times of low self-esteem, lack of self-confidence, helplessness, powerlessness, gloom, depression, pain, and despair. So, you've become what you are. ”

"Hmm." Fu Buyi nodded. All right.

"Old man, I really feel more and more that we met too late. I should have been born more than ten years earlier and grew up with you, and you wouldn't be like this. Alas. Lisa pressed Fu Buyi's shoulder hard.

"Huh." Fu Buyi smiled bitterly. Many girls are reluctant to find immature boys, just because the time cost of growing up with him is too expensive. Because as women, their youth is more expensive and priceless. Lisa could say that, and it warmed him up again. But he was rational, and it wasn't worth it for Lisa to do it. So he smiled wryly.

"Old man, you said, after you have money, after you meet me, your current mental state and living state have become different from before? You're telling the truth. ”

"Yes. Truth. ”

"Hmm. So you say, from the current point of view, your previous experience, state, mood, these basically will not appear again in the future? ”

"It shouldn't be there."

"Well, that's good." Lisa grabbed an empty drink bottle. "To use an analogy, this empty drink bottle is like your brain. See? It's a little bigger, it can't hold too many things, right? Then old man, you said, you have stuffed all the unhappiness of more than 40 years into it, and you don't want to throw it away at all, you don't want to pour it out at all, so do you have a place to put something else? Your present, your future, and me, don't you want to put these three things in it? Where are you going to put us together? Lisa handed the drink bottle to Fu Buyi.

Fu Buyi took the empty bottle and looked at it over and over again. He entered the state of perceiving the world. He's perceiving the empty bottle, perceiving the brain it represents. The body is real, but the brain is abstract, including the thoughts, thinking, cognition, and knowledge in the mind, all of which are abstract. But Lisa concretized her brain into an empty bottle. It's good for his perception.

He was looking at his "brain". yes, as Lisa said, he saw it. It's all about his past. All kinds of unpleasant. One by one, all in it. This one was when I was five years old. This one is when I was ten years old, this is when I was twenty years old, and this one is when I was thirty years old...... and the inferiority, gloom, and pain that these unpleasant things bring him...... It's all in there. He really didn't want to throw it away. It seems that he does not have this function in his physical functions, or maybe he does not have this consciousness in his mind at all. Moreover, he is still filling his mind with those new unpleasant encounters.

There is a limit to everything. The body, the heart, and the brain all have volume. When you reach the limit and load too much, it will collapse and it will explode. Now, he feels like his "brain" has reached its limit. What happens if the "brain" explodes? Psychosis turned into psychosis? Sent to a psychiatric hospital? He didn't think it mattered. Because at this time he thought of something more important. Lisa。

Where's Lisa? She must be in his "head" too. His present, his future, it doesn't matter, but how can he not have Lisa in his "head"? He searched and searched, and he had to find Lisa. Alas, there are so many things inside. There are no gaps at all. He was in a hurry.

Finally found it. "Lisa" was squeezed into an inconspicuous corner at the bottom of the bottle. Only the head and one hand are exposed. Her expression was pained. She was so crushed by the stuff that she couldn't breathe. She's crying for help. She was begging Fu to save herself.

No. You can't do that to Lisa. Lisa is the most important thing. She's all I've had. The past can be lost, the present and the future can be discarded, I just want Lisa. My "brain" can only be used for Lisa. Fu Buyi was soberly aware of what he should do. But, it is undeniable that with Lisa, there is a natural present and a future. The three of them complement each other.

"Old man, if you don't have a place for me in your head and don't put me in it, I will be sad." Lisa made a grievance.

"No, it won't. There you are. It's all you. Fu Buyi also looked at each other with a smile.

"Hey, hey. That old man, when you feel the least good, do you think you are the least beautiful person in the world? ”

"Nope. I know that there are many people who are worse off than me. ”

"Hmm. Very good. Just now you talked about your experience, and you yourself admit that in the eyes of most people, these are nothing, right? I think I represent the majority of people's views. Your experience really isn't nothing. It's just that you take it too seriously. One of the things that people often say when they comfort and enlighten others is, look at who that person is, he is not as good as you. People also often use this comparison to gain a sense of solace and psychological balance. It may be that this practice is not shared by the mainstream consciousness. They will think that this is negative, and this is the spirit of Ah Q. But for you, Lao Fu, you don't even have the spirit of Ah Q. Now you have to do a Q first, build up your self-confidence, and then you can become positive little by little. Everything comes one step at a time. So sometimes, the first thing we have to do is look down with our eyes. Do you understand what I mean, old man? ”

"Hmm. Got it. This has to talk about a book I read. There is a word in the book that mentions 'a sense of overhead'. Those who stand on top of money and power, they look down on us, so they get psychological satisfaction. And we, ordinary people, because of our own conditions, we can't get it. So why have people loved to climb mountains since ancient times? In addition to enjoying the beautiful scenery, climbing high and looking far away, we will also get this sense of overlook, which can also bring us psychological satisfaction and physical and mental pleasure. ”

"Oh my God, old man, you pierced my heart. I haven't gotten that kind of overhead yet. I didn't pay attention to this problem when I climbed the mountain before. No, you're going to take me to climb the mountain. I'm going to look down too. Let's go and look down together. Hahahaha. ”

"Huh. All right. Fu Buyi smiled.

"Old man, it's still the same sentence, I'm here. So, then, I want to say......" Lisa changed her movement, and she put her hand on Fu Buyi's other shoulder, like a brother's shoulder. "Brother, it's time to say goodbye to the past."

Lisa is genuine and generous. However, Fu is not easy...... Blushed.

"Lisa, when you're married, will you still say to me, 'I'm here'?"

"Of course. My sister's promise is valid for life. Do you want your sister to swear an oath? ”

"No need. That's a big deal. ”

"Why don't you let me swear? To protect me? Afraid of thunder one day? ”

How many vows in the world have finally disappeared with the rolling thunder? Fu is not easy to believe in love, but not in vows.

Lisa withdrew her hand, looking serious. "Master, will you invite me to dinner?"

"Okay."

"Still, I want to say that you hired me with the money you earned today."

"What do you mean?"

"Haven't you ever done the work of breaking down a wedding scene before? You do it again today. Invite me with this money. What do you think? ”

"Huh? Alas...... "To be honest, Fu is not easy to be unwilling." He really didn't want to do this. Not only is he rich now, but the most important thing is that he will touch the bad things he once was.

"Old man, is it because I am a coquette, will you spoil me?" Lisa started to get bad.

"No...... No. I can't stand this. ”

"Hey, hey. Go for it. I'm waiting for you in the car. "Lisa's trick is called fighting poison with poison. The more you don't dare to face something, the more I have to let you face something. She firmly believed that Fu Buyi would do this for her sake. She also firmly believes that this trick is easy to use. In addition, exercise can also relax and relieve people's body and mind. Kill two birds with one stone.

Fu Buyi gritted his teeth. Just do it, and it's not like you haven't done it. Wedding companies really need people. He got on the job without any problems.

Fu Buyi has no habit of fitness. I don't usually exercise. After only a moment, he was tired. Panting for breath and sweating profusely. But he felt that it was not so much about pleasing Lisa as it was about seizing the opportunity. Lisa gave him the opportunity to confront his past. He understands Lisa. When he did this kind of work for the first time, he thought bitterly that even if he had the opportunity to get married again in the future, he would not want to have a wedding. But now the change in his mentality makes him feel that if he has the opportunity in the future, he can open a wedding company.

Lisa, who was sitting in the car, watched Fu Buyi drag her tired body, busy in and out, in and out. She was distressed. But she was happy. That's what she wants to see.

The workers who worked together were cursing. Damn, drive a Ferrari and do this job? Rich people are really fighting. Stinks.

About five hours later, Fu Buyi got his salary smoothly. Two hundred.

Sitting in the car, Fu Buyi wiped his sweat while handing the money to Lisa.

"Oh, hard work, old man, this is your hard-earned money, you can't waste it, I'll have to eat a lot in a while."

"That's such an exaggeration. Is it okay to have only sweat and no blood? But today the price is a little bigger. I rubbed several black lines on my white shoes, and my pants were also painted with paint, and I guess I couldn't get them off, and it cost me. ”

"What is this? Sister bought it for you. It's kind of today's ...... Reward. Well. ”

Fu Buyi just wanted to say no, but he understood the meaning of the reward. "Uh...... Well, it's all online anyway, it's cheap. ”

"I know it's online and it's cheap, so I said I'll buy it for you. Ha ha. ”

"Huh."

"By the way, old man, you can keep this empty bottle. It's your brain. ”

"Hmm." Fu is not easy to understand.

With the roaring sound of the engine, "As long as today is not worse than yesterday, and tomorrow is not as bad as today, it is good." Come on, old man. Lisa shouted.

Fu Buyi almost stepped on the accelerator to the end.

In the morning, Kan Chuang's phone woke up Fu Buyi: "Hahahaha, old Fu, old brother, old brother, old brother, Mr. Fu." Big business, big business, big project, big cake, here and forth. Hahahaha. Come to the company at three o'clock in the afternoon and meet and discuss in detail. Gotta come, must come. Hahahaha. ”

Exercise. Crazy, right? Is it crazy? Crazy to make money? There is no less money to be earned, and people are crazy. Exercise. Fu Buyi despised Kan Chuang.

Three o'clock in the afternoon. Fu Buyi came to the company on time. As soon as he entered the door, the secretary Xiao He looked at Fu Buyi with very complicated eyes. Motioned to him, Mr. Kan was waiting for him in the office. Fu is not easy to understand. Walked straight into Kan Chuang's office.

"Oh, old man, you're finally here. Why didn't you come earlier? Big business, big deals, big projects, big cakes, hahahaha. Kan Chuang couldn't hide the joy in his heart. No, not joy, it's ecstasy. The ecstasy that Fu Buyi had never seen before.

"What the hell is going on? I see your current state, if I send you to a mental hospital, I'm afraid that Yang Yi will blame me. If you don't send it, you'll make me die of sorrow. Fu Buyi was disdainful.

"Hahahaha. When the project was finished, I went to the psychiatric hospital by myself. Hahahaha. Come on, come on, sit down and say. The two of them sat down.

Kan Chuang stabilized his mood. lit a cigarette for Fu Buyi. I also ordered one.

"Uh...... Husband, we've been working together for five years, right? As for you, you should have a good understanding of the company's overall planning, business strategy, my personal ability, and the ability of the business team, right? ”

Fu Buyi nodded. Kan Chuang: This is paving the way for the rest of the words. He listened intently.

"Let's recap." Kan Chuang continued to pave the way. "As for me, in the past ten or twenty years, I have relied on my ability, my efforts, and I have done smoothly. I've amassed a certain amount of wealth, haven't I? Five years ago, I wanted to change careers to become an investment company. I brought you. You and I combined our savings to form this company. This industry is different from what I did before. The risk is too great. When I first arrived, I didn't want to be ambitious and expand blindly. I took it one step at a time, steadily. With the existing funds of you and me, it is enough to run the company. My original idea was that this year, the fifth year of the company, we would expand the scale, recruit some shareholders and capital to come in, and make the company bigger. Let's talk about the past five years. With the strength of me and my business team, our company's external investment projects are 100% right and 100% profitable, which is a fact, right? So, now there is an opportunity in front of our company, if we seize this opportunity. In the next few years, there will be no need for us to recruit externally, we can use the wealth brought by this opportunity to expand our own scale without the need for external funds, and that's it. ”

Fu Buyi nodded seriously. He was waiting for Kan Chuang to continue.