507 First article: Give me a reason to give up
readx;?“ You say I don't know you, do you give me a chance to understand? You have been so cold to me, you haven't let me communicate with you, how can I know why you rejected me. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 infoSuper fast and stable update novel ,。。 How many times have I asked you, but did you say that? And you said that I didn't help you when you were in trouble because you didn't need my help at all. ”
"Why don't you say it when I wait for you downstairs in your bedroom with a big bouquet of flowers every day!"
The latter words are even more classic, and when they heard Lu Wenyan say it, everyone was in an uproar.
And expressed appreciation for Lu Wenyan's actions.
Chu Yi also nodded, "Yes, we really don't know each other at all, originally I thought you were an upright, smart and kind person, but now, betting with feelings, and bullying a helpless old man, you have completely changed now." ”
The speed of this speech was slower at the beginning of the year, word by word, which poked her heart, and at the same time poked his heart.
These words should be the words in her heart, and these words should be the answers she has always wanted but didn't get.
The bet is true, so what's the matter with bullying the old man, I have the impression that I haven't done such a thing.
He had a good memory, and it wasn't difficult to remember everything that had happened before, so he quickly remembered what it was.
The first year of junior high school should be the old man who touched the porcelain.
Oh my God, it's because of this.
The mood relaxed instantly, and a shallow smile appeared faintly on Jun's face.
"You're just misunderstood, don't use sharp words to provoke me. He lowered his eyes and glanced at her, and his obsidian eyes instantly shone brightly.
Time passed like this, and soon it was the most important part - the ball.
Naturally, it was Mu Haoyan and his wife who started the dance, and in the melodious tune, Mu Haoyan's eyes with strong love were about to burn Tang Ling, and of course it also stimulated the single Wang present to tear the two of them.
Halfway through the lead dance, everyone also looked for their own dance partners and started their dance, only two people looked at each other from afar.
Lu Wenyan's eyes were starry, as if there was a flame burning, affectionate emerging, and thick tenderness rippling.
Chu Yi's eyes were moist and waveless, quietly staring at the man opposite her, silent.
Pei Hanxuan originally wanted to wait for them to dance before looking for his dance partner, but seeing them like this, he was really in a hurry, and finally simply pushed Lu Wenyan over, and raised his chin slightly towards Chu Yi, "Xiao Yanzi wants to dance with you, so you can follow him." ”
Wen Qing also shouted on the side, "On the first day of junior high school, use a dance to resolve the conflict between you." ”
Chu Yi didn't move, staring straight at the place where Lu Wenyan had just stayed.
Seeing this, Pei Hanxuan poked Lu Wenyan and winked at him.
Lu Wenyan looked over, his eyes were cold, and the warning in his eyes meant that Pei Han could certainly read it.
However, he still obeyed his heart's thoughts and stretched out his hand to Chu Yi, "Chu Yi, please dance, is it okay?"
The tone is earnest, and the affection in his eyes can't be resisted.
Chu Yi originally wanted to refuse, but it was already in the middle and late stages of the banquet, and she wanted to slip away, but after meeting his sincere eyes, she still relented.
Thinking about the painting that I snatched from him before, I did feel a little guilty, after all, that painting had nothing to do with me, she did it to solve the boring time, and when I thought about it, I felt that I was a little sorry for him.
So in his expectant eyes, she nodded.
Immediately, Pei Hanxuan and Wen Qing walked away, Lu Wenyan took Chu Yi's hand, his hot palm was close to her naked back, and his gentle and delicate gaze surrounded Chu Yi.
The atmosphere is good, the dance steps are also beautiful, but the dialogue between the two is not necessarily so good.
"You misunderstood me. Speaking again, Lu Wenyan is a nonsensical sentence.
The corners of Chu Yi's mouth hooked a sneer and replied, "I misunderstood you, I see is believing, do you refute that there is something wrong with my eyes?"
"Seeing is not necessarily true, if you have a good grasp of sight, angle, time, etc., things will become completely different. Lu Wenyan patiently explained with science, without any impatience on his face.
Chu Yi glared at him coldly, "So you mean that I didn't appear at the right time?"
Lu Wenyan suddenly had an urge to hold his forehead, what's wrong with the first day of junior high school today, he always likes to drill the horns.
"I didn't mean that, I ......"
"So what exactly do you mean now?"
It seems that today's first year of junior high school is a little excited, and she never interrupts others, and she interrupts him one after another.
Lu Wenyan took a deep breath and sighed helplessly: "You be quiet, can you listen to me well?"
Chu Yi nodded a little impatiently and disdainfully, "Okay, you say." She wanted to see what he could say.
"First of all, I made a bet with the fourth child when I was drunk that day, and secondly, the old man you saw that day wanted to blackmail money, and I was definitely not so stupid to give him the money. ”
Although Lu Wenyan explained so, there was still a fire burning in Chu Yi's heart, because he didn't explain the fact that he was at the bar that day.
She turned her head and took advantage of the spin to stomp on him mercilessly.
Lu Wenyan had a cold face, quietly endured, and understood something from her actions.
The first year of junior high school should have seen what she thought she thought, but those things were obviously her misunderstanding. Lu Wenyan tried hard to recall what else would make Chu Yi angry.
"If there is anything else you have misunderstood, you can tell it, and I will explain it to you. His tone was soft, and he looked earnestly into the eyes of the first year of junior high school.
Chu nodded, and said in a slightly angry tone: "Okay, you said I misunderstood, so what happened to you molesting women in the bar that day." ”
Lu Wenyan has only gone to the bar a handful of times, and the number of times he goes to the bar alone is even more pitiful, so when Chu Yi is talking about it, he understands it at once, and finally understands the reason why Chu Yi is really angry recently.
Lu Wenyan's gaze returned to that day, "That was really a misunderstanding, I was not in a good mood that day, so I went to the bar to drink, and then met a woman with stimulants, at that time I drank again, and my body was naturally a little hot, and my mind was a little unclear." ”
"That's all?" Chu Yi asked rhetorically, she didn't believe it, and he explained the problem clearly in just a few words.
Lu Wenyan nodded seriously, "Indeed, there are only a few, she is really excessive, I used the chemical weapons I carried with me to get her and left." ”
Chu Yi still didn't believe it, and squinted at him, "Is there really only so much?"
Lu Wenyan nodded solemnly, "Don't believe me, my heart for you hasn't changed for so many years, how can I not hold it because of a little confusion?"
After a pause, he continued, "You said you didn't know me, so I'll let you get to know me again now." ”
His eyes clearly reflected her delicate appearance, and the sincerity in his tone made him have to agree.
In the end, she still nodded, maybe she really misunderstood him, and when she stimulated him with words, her heart was also uncomfortable.
The luxurious and elegant crystal lamp projected a dim light, blurring the entire hall, and the beautiful face of the first year of junior high school was deeply imprinted on Lu Wenyan's heart.
He swallowed his saliva, and an impulse rose from his heart, he wanted to lean down and kiss the first year, but he didn't know if the first person would agree.
"On the first day of junior high school, can I kiss you?" she was as holy as a lotus flower, out of reach, but he wanted to pluck this beautiful lotus flower and hide it somewhere, so that he could only enjoy it.
Xu is environment at the moment is too wonderful, Chu Yi actually stared at his eyes, in a daze.
Lu Wenyan didn't see Chu Yi's reaction for a long time, so he thought that she should have agreed, and the kiss fell.
Just when he was about to fall, he was avoided by Chu Yi, and the kiss fell on her cheek again.
Lu Wenyan failed to kiss again, and was a little annoyed, which was clearly shown in his eyes.
When I saw him smile like this, my moist eyes instantly sharpened, "It turns out that this is your ultimate goal, then I advise you, you have found the wrong person." ”
Lu Wenyan moved his lips, dissatisfied and innocent: "I just want to kiss you." ”
Hearing this, Chu Yi stepped on him hard, and Lu Wenyan's brows furrowed in an instant, "Do you really think I'm one of those frivolous women? Let me tell you, even if I don't have love in my life, I can still live." ”
"I didn't mean that, it's because I love you so much that I have this urge. ”
Lu Wenyan suddenly had a feeling of powerlessness to explain, today he always seemed to be explaining, and it seemed that there were always various misunderstandings that he couldn't explain.
"It's your business that you love me, and I've never forced you to love me. ”
As soon as the words of the first year of junior high fell, the dance music ended, and the first day of junior high immediately broke free from Lu Wenyan and walked to the corner.
Lu Wenyan froze in place, looking at Chu Yi leaving him weakly, with endless loss in his heart.
He had already explained that he thought there would be a qualitative leap in their relationship, but he didn't expect it to return to square one again.
Origin, origin, so many years have passed, and he is still staying in the same place, you can see how much he hates the word origin!
Wen Qing had just come back from a dance, her breath was still a little unstable, and when she was close to the first year of junior high school, she keenly felt the low air pressure around her, and her face was cold.
Needless to say, it must be Lu Wenyan who provoked her again, and only when facing Lu Wenyan would her emotions change so much.
"What's the matter, why did Lu Wenyan provoke you again?" Wen Qing touched her arm, Chu Yi glanced at her coldly, and looked away again.
The first year of junior high is silent.
Wen Qing asked again, "What happened between you?"
Chu Yi was still silent, she now saw through Lu Wenyan, she looked serious on the surface, how good it was to her, how good it was, but how frivolous it was, she understood it now.
"Well, you can't just say everything, don't keep it in your heart, okay? ”
Wen Qing is helpless, Chu Yi has always been that kind of character, he puts anything in his heart, and he won't say it at all.
It's just that those who care about her will be more worried.
Lu Wenyan's eyes fell on her from afar, wanting to get closer and ask what was going on, but he couldn't move his steps and froze in place.
Chu Yi noticed his gaze and ignored it, and she couldn't stand Wen Qing's noise in her ears and chose to go to the bathroom.
She really couldn't get used to the atmosphere of the banquet, she just wanted to stay quiet for a while.
The face in the mirror was delicate and beautiful, and she was not sure if this was herself, let alone that heart, the heart that had wavered.
I didn't know why I was doing this before, but after hearing Lu Wenyan's explanation, her heart, which had been sour for a long time, was no longer sour.
Think about it, this is not the first time that she has let her emotions fluctuate because of him, if it continues like this, she knows that the consequences are unimaginable, so she must try her best to restrain her heart and let it not move.
Hatsuichi took a deep breath towards the mirror, and after adjusting his breath, he walked outside.
"Why. A leisurely voice came, and Chu Yi turned his head to meet his ink-like eyes, and suddenly his breath stagnated.
Lu Wenyan leaned against the wall, his hands around his chest, "Why, many times I obviously feel that there is progress between us, but why do you let it go back to the original point in the next second?"
He had been thinking about this question for a long time, and he had long wanted to question her personally, but he didn't speak until now.
Those ink-like eyes, at first glance, you can understand what he is thinking. She breathed deeply, her unwavering tone flowing slowly through the quiet space.
"I think our relationship is just a matter of teaching assistants and students, or at most friends with common interests. ”
Lu Wenyan's breath stagnated, and a kind of pain spread in his heart, "Do you mean to say that after so many years, we have all been in vain? If you have no intention of finding a boyfriend at all, then why didn't you say it earlier." ”
However, even if she said it at the beginning, the result must be like this, why bother in the first place, he will continue to love even if he knows now.
She turned her head away from looking at her heart-wrenching eyes, suppressing the pangish pain, "Some things are said in the morning and the result is the same, so why bother with it." ”
After that, she turned around and wanted to go outside, but when she walked by Lu Wenyan's side, he grabbed her arm, "Give me a reason." ”
The voice is softened and slowed down, which sounds sexy and beautiful to others, but it is painful to hear at the first time.
Hatsuichi slowly adjusted his breathing, then turned to smile at him, "At the beginning, I promised you because I thought you would give up soon, but after so many years, you are still persevering. I don't know if you insist because you love me, or if you feel like you love me because you're used to it. ”
"So I thought it would be better to end the relationship sooner. ”
"Wouldn't it have ended the relationship earlier. ”
"Wouldn't it have ended the relationship earlier. ”
After saying that sentence in the first year of junior high school, it has been echoing in Lu Wenyan's mind.
ended this relationship earlier, it was originally a relationship that should not have been continued, but it has continued to the present, and it really should not be continued, because her heart is like a rock and indestructible, so he should have let go a long time ago.
He let go of Chu Yi's hand dejectedly, watching her back disappear at the end in a dashing manner, he couldn't hide the loss in his heart.
The stars in the night sky were bright, but they became a blur in his eyes, and at some point, he walked away from the drunken banquet hall and onto the bustling street.
However, the more prosperous he is, the more pathetic he is.
What I once thought was right, and I insisted on it now, turned out to be all wrong.
He has always held the mentality that as long as he works hard, he can succeed, from his young years to his maturity today, but she is still the same as at the beginning.
Suddenly, he found himself ridiculous and pathetic.
Again and again disappointment could not extinguish the flame called hope, and he rejected him again and again, only as a must to succeed, and he tried to warm her with his fiery heart.
But after so many years, there is no sign of melting at all.
Under the dim street lamp, reflecting his helpless face, he suddenly wanted to get drunk.
At the end of the reception, everyone cut the cake together.
Chu Yi hid in the corner, his eyes fell on them, and the smile on the corner of his mouth was so gentle and charming, as if they were happy, and he was happy.
Wen Qing had a lot of trouble with them, how beautiful the smile was when she was playing, she actually envied Wen Qing sometimes, she dared to love and hate, and in the end she also succeeded in getting Li Fengyan's love.
And she was destined to be extraordinary from birth, she was destined to have no laughter from birth, only research.
She should have no love, but she met Lu Wenyan, the man who warmed her many times.
Somehow, Chu Yi thought of him again, and her heart was a strained pain, she pressed it down strongly, still looking at the frolicking crowd, revealing a warm and charming smile.
Others didn't find anything abnormal, it was someone else, if Wen Qing couldn't find the abnormality, then she would be a good friend of the first year of junior high school.
After saying apologies to Tang Ling, Wen Qing broke away from the atmosphere, sat on the right side of the first year of junior high school, and drank a glass of wine slowly.
"I can see the pain in your eyes, and I can also feel the changes in your mood, and it's all because of Lu Wenyan. She looked sideways at her, and Yoyo voiced her guess.
Chu Yi didn't want to dwell on this matter, so he turned his head and said in an inaudible voice: "Wen Qing, if you're a good friend, don't worry about it, I know what I'm doing." ”
As long as Lu Wenyan was mentioned, her heart was very uncomfortable, and she was not comfortable at all.
"Hey, I really don't understand why you're so entangled, Lu Wenyan's good, you don't know, why are you so entangled?" Wen Qing didn't understand her friend.
Maybe she didn't know Lu Wenyan before, but she can still see some clues these days.
The affection in Lu Wenyan's eyes is something that outsiders can see, and the most important thing is that he has persisted for so many years, even if he has always refused in the first year, he has moved forward bravely.
If it were her, Li Fengyan would be half as good as Lu Wenyan would be to the first year of junior high school, she would have been so moved that she would have pushed people away?
Chu put his hand around his legs, and his eyes became dull, "You won't understand." ”
Not all people who love each other can come together, and her rejection is a good thing for him, so even if it is painful, she must do it.
In life, there is always so much helplessness, and she believes that he will understand one day, and he will definitely find such a person who loves him and has a happy family.
The heart of a happy family suddenly tightened again.
Has she reached the point where the mention of him hurts?
Since Chu Yi didn't plan to mention Lu Wenyan again, Wen Qing had no choice but not to mention it, but she was an outsider after all, it was the relationship between them, and she could only comfort her at most.
"If you spend all your time giving up for decades, you will definitely regret it in the future. With that, she patted Chu Yi on the shoulder, planning to go out to take a breath.
-End of Chapter-