Of course, the concert was ruined, and I was retaliated against, and I lost a lot of jobs. The bald man also threatened to ban Aster, and it was not until the head office sent someone to mediate that the matter came to an end. After that, Yamanaka Shion didn't cry, didn't complain, didn't say anything. She knows that this is the cruelty of this industry, and this is the path she has chosen, so she will not complain about anything.

It's just that I work harder, and after work, I practice desperately, and I don't give myself a moment to be free, as long as I am free, the disgusting scene will emerge. But the more I try to forget, the more I can't forget.

Days like this went on until the moment she fell on stage. When she woke up again, she was already lying on the hospital bed, Rui beside her, Shion wanted to say something, but ...... Can't make a sound...... Desperately trying hard, but still couldn't make a sound, Zi Yuan looked at Rui with a complicated face, his face was full of confusion and fear,

Aphasia, which doctors say is caused by excessive fatigue and mental stimulation, requires a long period of rest, and the recovery period may take a week, months, or half a year...... One year ......

There are many things that you can't feel if you haven't experienced them. This time, Shion experienced Iwasawa's feelings at that time, and it was as if she was embraced by the malice of the world...... Shion was completely depressed, lived in the company's dormitory, and never came out again.

A senior in the same company who had a similar thing couldn't stand it, knocked open the door of Aster, took Aster out, went to a beauty salon, and then picked out clothes and forced Aster to put on, and finally pulled her to a strange and secret place in the car, in a luxurious hall, in a somewhat strange party, there were many people, but only women's parties, there were stars, models, celebrities, there was no shortage of people on TV, there were people dressed as students, there were also strong women in suits and leather shoes, and there were also expensive ladies。

The seniors took Shion to a place, in front of the stage with a bartender and a bar, where the women said hello to the seniors, and then their eyes were all fixed on Shion, looking her up and down, and some of them had an aggressive light in their eyes.

The senior took out the white medicine from the bag and put it into the red wine in front of the asters, shook the wine glass, and the white particles quickly dissolved in the red liquid.

"Drink it, drink it, your mood will be relaxed, rest assured, the people here are very discreet, and there are no disgusting men ...... you" said the senior as he handed the wine to Shion.

Shion looked at her seniors and glanced at everyone, she knew what it was, what place it was, and she guessed a rough idea, but she always felt that it was okay, so she picked up the wine glass and poured it down......

The senior pulled Shion and talked with the acquaintances, until the dinner was withdrawn, and after a while, the lights dimmed, and in the sound of unrestrained music, women and women writhed and rubbed their bodies with each other, kissing...... A burst of ** aura began to emanate from the surroundings. Shion was pulled and pushed into the crowd, embraced by everyone, kissed, caressed, and then let out a low sigh and was ushered into a room.

When she woke up again, she sat up from the edge of the bed in a daze, and the senior got up from behind Ziyuan, hugged Ziyuan and lay on Ziyuan's shoulder and asked, "Ziyuan, how do you feel?"

"Ah, senior...... The whole body seems to be relaxed...... "Yamanaka Shion, she can speak again."

"yes, you're just too nervous. So what do you want to do now? Do you want to go back?" asked the senior, hugging Shion.

"I want to do it again. Zi Yuan looked at the senior and whispered.

"You...... I guess my head is broken. The senior condescendingly held Shion's head, looked at her and said with a wicked smile, stretching his finger to Shion.

Aster opened her mouth and took it in her eyes in confusion......

"Shion, you're really amazing...... seniors smiled, it seems that she has found an interesting girl again......

The senior's hand hooked her tongue, and she pulled Shion and lay down on the bed......

"What? Do you want to do it? I'll join in. ”

"Shion, you are in such a good shape, and your skin is also very good, it is really tempting to make people take a bite. ”

The other women who had woken up also rushed to this side, and there was another burst of gasps in the room......

Again combined and twisted, the friction of the body, the sensation between body temperature and body temperature, the feeling of warmth and wetness. Yamanaka Shion felt a sense of contentment, and then she realized that she might be hopeless......

Want to see more...... This kid is funny to behave.

Want to see more...... The child's depraved expression.

Want to see more...... The child's weeping face.

Want to see more...... The child's sad and tangled look......

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I didn't know about it before...... It's such a happy thing to follow your heart and indulge in pleasure...... Yamanaka Aster she fell, no, maybe it's a relief for her, it's just that the mood that has been suppressed is just showing, but on the **, it has become irrepressible, and she betrayed Iwasawa. Yamanaka Shion has deteriorated after this time, she has fallen, she can no longer restrain herself, she has done a lot of things, she would never have done before, she touched things that she would never have touched before, and she is no longer a person who is simply for music. Since then, the aspirants who once looked down on the **, extramarital affairs, depraved, and addicted to illegal things looked at her with eyes and attitudes, telling her clearly: 'We are already one of the same kind. ’

Shion, she easily integrated into this circle......

Yamanaka Shion is not a good person, seniors, juniors, fans, and peers are just women with familiar faces, just people who meet for the first time, she brings them back to the room for the night, as long as they look at the right eye, it doesn't matter. Of course, in this vain and flashy industry, this is normal. Rui handled it very well, and it has not been publicized by the media so far.

Yamanaka Aster is a perverted woman who is bad to the end, lustful, cunning and weak, irritable and anxious, and her brain has become abnormal......

However, the irony is that the emptiness and fear of depravity afterwards, the guilt of violating the agreement between the original intention and Iwasawa, this feeling of entanglement and emptiness and dazedness, tormented her all the time, making her have to be more attentive and harder when practicing and working, learning more things, better techniques, and more inspiration for creation. Unknowingly, it has come to this point.

On the surface, the mountain asters are stricter than anyone else, but in fact, they are more depraved than anyone else, and they are swayed by crazy **, empty more than anyone else, more full of ** than anyone else, and crave love more than anyone else, but no one can believe it, only believe in themselves. Depressed, she is not close to people, even if she is regarded as a strange stranger, she is indifferent, and she will not have true friends.

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Rui, who left the ast room, didn't go far, but came to the balcony ventilation and lit a cigarette against the window, their relationship is not lovers, just a relationship of venting to each other, after Rui has his own girlfriend, this relationship continues. But it was this forbidden feeling that made Shion feel even more excited, and she was hopeless. Depressed feelings need to be vented, and I don't know when I got such a habit. Sometimes the pressure is so great that I can't sleep without venting.

In her eyes, Yamanaka Aster is a pitiful, pathetic person who can't let her go. But this kind of life can't last long, she meets the person she likes, her girlfriend wants a stable and happy life, and the job of running around is no longer suitable for her. After this tour, Rui was ready to transfer to Tokyo and no longer work as an agent. But if she was gone, how lonely would the lonely mountain aster be?

On this day, there was still a week left before the explosion of the plane on the day of the return mud bombardment.

Only when she is on the stage does she live like herself, so as long as there is a call, no matter how many times Encore is, she will not refuse, even if she wants to climb up, Ziyuan will do it. Aster wants to play forever under the light. It was her only salvation, and it would be nice to die on stage, she had thought so many times. But even if she stood on the world stage and was recognized, Yamanaka Shion's life was full of regrets, but all of this turned into nothing in the white light of the explosion.