"After high school, Liu Xing and I basically never saw each other again, and then I was admitted to the university, Liu Xing relied on the extra points of the national second-level swimmer to barely enter a garbage university, fate is so fair, but it is so ruthless. Xi Zhaoliu said to Li Mu with a wry smile.

"Later, we both graduated from college, and I heard that he came to Shanghai, which is why I came to Shanghai, and I hope to meet Liu Xing again and tell him that I miss him, and ask him if he wants me?"

"Until one day, God arranged for me and Liu Xing to meet again. A happy smile flashed across Xi Zhaoliu's face.

"I remember it was a Saturday afternoon, I was walking in the square, and suddenly I heard someone calling me, I looked up and saw Liu Xing standing in front of me, and I could see that he was very excited, and I couldn't believe that he really met me again. Xi Zhaoliu spoke a little faster, and said to Li Mu.

"'Liu Xing!'It's really you, long time no see. I almost jumped for joy. Xi Zhaoliu said excitedly.

"Liu Xing and I suddenly met after a long absence, old friends, and hugged each other. We hugged each other tightly, and each had a thousand words to say to each other, but neither of us was willing to speak first, just enjoying the warm embrace and the indescribable gratitude for this reunion arranged by God!" a wry smile drifted across Xi Zhaoliu's face.

"'Let's have dinner together in the evening, I'll have a treat, come and celebrate our reunion!' Now it's still a while before dinner, let's go to my house and sit down, catch up, my rented house is near here......' Liu Xing said to me. Xi Zhaoliu had a happy smile on his face.

"'Okay!' I replied. Xi Zhaoliu said.

"When I arrived at the rental house, Liu Xing let me into the house, I entered the house and closed the door, the furnishings in the house were very simple and clean. Liu Xing hugged me in his arms and became very excited, and said to me in a trembling voice that he missed me and didn't say anything else.

I didn't say anything, with tears to express the expectation of this sudden embrace and the acceptance of this strong love, I can't remember when this miss started, I only know that this miss is increasing day by day, becoming more and more heavy, in the days without Liu Xing, that sadness has turned into lovesick tears, often silently hanging on my cheeks. Xi Zhaoliu said with empty eyes.

"I feel the happiness that Liu Xing brought me with my heart, although I haven't seen it for a long time, I am still familiar with it, and I have never forgotten it, because my memory stays in the old memory, and the person who recalls it is not willing to live in reality. Xi Zhaoliu began to cry.

"Liu Xing, do you know?" I asked Liu Xing.

"'What do I know?' the second monk Liu Xingzhang was puzzled and asked me rhetorically. Xi Zhaoliu recounted to Li Mu calmly.

"You know, I've always liked you, and the older I get, the stronger that feeling becomes. When there was basically no news of you in the third year of junior high school, I felt very uncomfortable, but I had no choice, there was so much homework to do every day, my mother wouldn't let me go out to play, and I didn't know what to do, so I could only listen to my mother. I said to Liu Xing aggrievedly. Xi Zhaoliu said helplessly.

"'For so many years, I have been thinking about you, but you study so well, and I am so naughty, I sometimes dare not approach you, for fear of delaying your study, for fear that you will 'amicly' let me go away, then I have no face, now I don't have to face books and parents anymore...... 'Liu Xing said to me as if relieved. Xi Zhaoliu looked into the distance and said to Li Mu.

In this way, two people who have been separated for a long time tell their loyalty and pour out their thoughts for many years. There is sadness in the lightheartedness, no one can resist, no one can escape. Xi Zhaoliu turned to look up at the sky and said.

"'I won't run, you kid don't want to get rid of me this time, I'm a 'dog skin plaster' sticking to you, you have to be mentally prepared in advance. I said to Liu Xing in a car. Xi Zhaoliu said.

Liu Xing let go of me, looked at me affectionately, and didn't say a word, and at this time for Liu Xing, there was really nothing to say, Liu Xing lowered his head and kissed me gently, I was like a little sheep, my head shrank slightly down, I looked a little pitiful, blinking, I seemed to understand everything, but I seemed to be an ignorant "girl" , I don't understand anything, it seems that all this is what I want to have, but it is what I resist, in my mind, there is no right or wrong anyway, only the Liu Xing in front of me who fascinates me. I've missed a hug, and I've been waiting for ten years, and I don't want to miss it again because I don't want to wait another ten years. Xi Zhaoliu said to Li Mu with some emotion.

"Li Mu, do you believe it? There are many things in life that are destined, maybe the reunion at one moment is for the separation of the next moment......" Xi Zhaoliu said to Li Mu with a gloomy expression.

"Yes, what is destined to happen in life, it will happen. Li Mu gave Xi Zhaoliu an affirmative answer, instead of agreeing.

Later, I asked Liu Xing, how did he come to Shanghai to develop? He gave me the answer that he had systematically learned to swim in college, and had won several championships in swimming competitions at or above the provincial level. Xi Zhaoliu continued to say to Li Mu.

"We haven't been separated since that meeting, and then we lived together, and we still got up together, went to work together, and ......played together like we did when we were children," Xi Zhaoliu said happily to Li Mu.

Li Mu could also feel how happy Xi Zhaoliu and Liu Xing were together, and how much Xi Zhaoliu missed his Liu Xing now.

"Liu Xing's family arranged a blind date for him, he had a showdown with his family in order to be with me, and told his family that he liked boys and didn't want to get married, Liu Xing was scolded by his father and didn't let him go back, in fact, he broke off the father-son relationship, and even more so he didn't tell Liu Xing when the phone at home was changed!" Xi Zhaoliu said to Li Mu with some despair.

"How could his parents be like that, it's not his fault. Li Mu said to Xi Zhaoliu with some excitement and anger.

"At that time, Liu Xing was very helpless, hugged me and cried for half a night, kept asking me why I was like this, he was very helpless and very sad, but I couldn't help, I really saw it in my eyes and hurt in my heart. Xi Zhaoliu's eyes were extremely hollow and said to Li Mu.

"Later, it was my turn, and the family also arranged for me to go on a blind date, I agreed, and soon determined the marriage date, although I knew that this was a wordless injury to Liu Xing, but as soon as I thought of the fate of Liu Xing after confessing to the family, I retreated, I didn't dare to refuse, although I loved Liu Xing deeply, but I didn't have the courage to pull my relationship with Liu Xing to the light to see people, I was afraid of being laughed at, afraid of being seen clearly, so I obediently listened to the arrangement of the family. This decision of mine broke Liu Xing's heart, Liu Xing felt that the world had abandoned him, and he had nothing to be nostalgic for, he chose to commit suicide by jumping off the building on my wedding day, he jumped off the building and died, and my heart went with him......" Xi Zhaoliu did not have a trace of expression on his face, and said slowly to Li Mu.

"He chose to jump off the building, he didn't even give me a chance to rescue, I loved him thousands of times in my life, but I didn't love him once, but he left me, leaving me with endless sadness, and didn't even give me a chance to say sorry, so that I could live in the world, dodge, and suffer from feelings, so that I couldn't live every moment. I hate him, I hate him for leaving me alone, I hate him for not giving me a chance to apologize and turn life into death......" Xi Zhaoliu said this, crying out loud, crying so sadly, so broken, so helpless.

"The police took out a suicide note in his left jacket pocket and asked me to help him take care of the funeral, don't tell his parents, don't leave the ashes in the sea, and put 20,000 yuan in the right pocket, which means to use it to take care of the aftermath......" Xi Zhaoliu calmed down a little and continued to say to Li Mu.

"He didn't even leave me his ashes after he died, I didn't even have a chance to go to the grave to pay respects to him, and he refused to forgive me until he died. He blocked all his retreats, but the way out was blocked by me without mercy, Liu Xing was trapped inside, he couldn't go back, he couldn't get out, I killed him with my own hands, I should suffer such pain. Xi Zhaoliu held his head and said to Li Mu painfully.