Bai Xiao'e clearly remembers that when she was pregnant with Xiaowu, she was afraid of being discovered by the villagers, and the cat did not step out of the house for more than nine months, and was able to give birth smoothly at home after being carefully taken care of by her mother.

The family was stunned when they knew that Bai Xiao'e was pregnant, and later suggested that the child be killed, but the family found that Bai Xiao'e was more than five months pregnant when she was pregnant, and the doctor said that the fetus was too big, and if it was beaten, the life of an adult might be in danger. Bai Xiao'e's mother felt sorry for her daughter, and blamed her daughter for being pregnant and didn't tell her, she should bear it alone, she shouldn't wrap her stomach in a cloth all the time, fortunately it didn't cause danger, and she was afraid to think about it. And Bai Xiao'e has been thinking that Shen Meigen will come back to marry her in a few days, what if she takes the child away, and Shen Meigen knows that she has beaten his flesh and blood and ignores herself? I always give myself a few more days in my head, so that it is a few months, from the beginning of pregnancy, waiting, waiting for a few days, waiting until the belly gets bigger day by day, too big to be bigger, the child is born, the belly becomes smaller, and I still haven't waited for the person who married me to come back, but my age is no longer allowed to wait, a year after Shen Meigen left, Bai Xiao'e was introduced and married a man who was twenty years older than herself, the man's surname was Zhu, and his nickname was "slow half a beat" , in his forties, he hasn't started a family yet, not because his family is poor and can't afford to marry, but because he injured his brain in an accident when he was ten years old, resulting in a little sluggish reaction, and he can't do any work, no one wants to marry him, so he is still an "errand boy" in his forties! After being introduced by the matchmaker, I met Bai Xiao'e, and the old couple of the Zhu family thought that the Zhu family could finally inherit the lineage, and I heard the matchmaker say that this Bai Xiao'e is still a big girl with yellow flowers, because her vision is too high, she has never met the object she likes, so she has been delayed again and again, and she has not married until now, no matter how good a woman is, no one wants it when she is old, especially in the countryside. Bai Xiao'e has not even come to the door to propose marriage from the beginning of the matchmaker to the present, but Bai Xiao'e's parents are in a hurry, afraid that such a big girl will not be able to marry and leave the family, and now someone finally comes to the door to propose, this cola has broken the old couple of the Bai family, staring at the matchmaker, I am afraid that this family business will be in the soup again, this matter, not only the Bai family is happy, but also the Zhu family is also happy, and the matchmaker sent the 100,000 yuan bride price to the Bai family first, the normal 80,000 yuan is enough, considering the actual situation of their children, they gave an extra 20,000, the purpose is to hope that the Bai family will agree quickly, but the old couple of the Zhu family have a heart disease, if the money can shake the heart of the Bai family, agreed to this family business, don't say give 20,000 more, even if it is 200,000, the old couple of the Zhu family will not say a word "no", as long as this family business can be successful, how can the Zhu family agree, at first Bai Xiao'e was very determined not to marry Shen Meigen, and then she didn't see Shen Meigen come back, Bai Xiao'e had the heart to find Shen Meigen, but she didn't know anything else except that her sweetheart was called Shen Meigen Shanghainese, how could she find it? It's not realistic to go to Shanghai to find someone in the vast crowd, and for a country girl who can't even guarantee to go to the market in the town every time, she doesn't know where Shanghai is, let alone go to such a strange place to find someone who is not familiar with it, so in the end, she had to give up and decided to raise her and Shen Meigen's children well, and then decided to marry "Slow Half Beat", marrying this man who is no more familiar to Bai Xiao'e than Shen Meigen.

"There's nothing wrong with marrying Zhu Xiuhao, so many bride prices are easy to get, you can use this money to raise Xiao Wu to grow up! Take the bride price to you, I don't want anything with your father, and besides, the Zhu Xiu you want to marry is just a dullness caused by traumatic brain injury, which is different from a fool, that is, it does not delay normal life, and it will not affect the next generation, people have their duty, there is such a son in the family, and four cows, such a big group of ducks, these will not be yours in the future!" Bai Xiao'e's mother enlightened Bai Xiao'e, and Bai Xiao'e later figured it out for the sake of Xiao Wu, and agreed to marry "Slow Half Beat", and soon Bai Xiao'e married the "Slow Half Beat" who she didn't know at all, and this wedding can't be defined by "happiness", it can only be described as "necessary". I wish the family very satisfied with this daughter-in-law, because they didn't find out the fact that Bai Xiao'e was already the mother of a child, and thought that Bai Xiao'e was really a big girl with yellow flowers. Bai Xiao'e didn't feel uncomfortable, because this half-disabled man wanted her to take care of it, she and Shen Meigen's children wanted her to take care of them, and the old couple of the Zhu family wanted her to take care of them, she silently took them all down, what else could she do if she didn't bear them silently? The burden of life overwhelmed her, how could she still have the leisure to complain or nag! She only worked hard and worked hard to make money, she planted a lot of land, raised a lot of livestock, and went to pick up garbage whenever she was free, and the money she got in exchange for picking up garbage was given to her brother and daughter-in-law as child support for the little life that raised her and Shen Meigen.

Although 200 yuan can't feed a child, the milk is enough, you don't need to buy milk powder, you don't need to buy diapers, instead of a homespun ring, 200 is enough. Her in-laws and sister-in-law usually help take care of the children, and she just needs to get the money every month, Bai Xiaozhan's money-obsessed wife narrowed her eyes into a slit of happiness when she thought of this, how could she not want to take such a advantage! It was because of the advantage that she agreed to take the child for Bai Xiao'e.

Bai Xiao'e's parents did not fulfill their promise before marriage and gave Bai Xiao'e the bride price, on the contrary, her parents slowly gave Bai Xiao'e the bride price money to the wedding family, and gave it to their only son Bai Xiaozhan, Bai Xiao'e didn't have the heart to fight, thinking that as long as her brother's family could raise their children, they could do it! With Bai Xiao'e's own strength, there is no way to feed this little life, rather than giving it to others to raise, it is better to put it with his younger brother, because his brother's home is also in the county seat, and it is not far from Bai Xiao'e's current home, Bai Xiao'e can visit Xiaowu at any time, wash and take care of it.

In Bai Xiao'e's world, it turned out that the most important man was Shen Meigen, and later there was another Xiao Wu, Xiao Wu is the crystallization of her love with Shen Meigen, and it is the continuation of love, she doesn't blame Shen Meigen for not coming back to marry her, she believes that this is all fate, not Shen Meigen's malicious abandonment, it is a blow arranged for her by God, no matter how hard it is, she has to grit her teeth and get through, because she wants to see her lover again, ask him why this is, why don't you come back and marry herself?

Bai Xiao'e also wants to take Xiao Wu to her side, after all, she is his biological mother, he is her biological son, Bai Xiao'e has the obligation to raise Xiao Wu, but in any case, Bai Xiao'e must not take Xiao Wu over, because she can't give him a stable life, at least in today's society, children born out of wedlock are not accepted and will be bullied. Bai Xiao'e would rather endure the torment of not being able to recognize each other every day when her mother and son see each other, rather than see the tragic scene of her son being bullied by others. Xiao Wu is in Bai Xiaozhan's house, although he does not have the love of his biological parents, but he has the warmth of his relatives, although he does not have complete parental affection, but it is better than coming to himself and facing "slow half a beat" every day. She is willing to bear all the pain, and she does not want her own flesh and blood to be damaged in the slightest. I'd rather not stay for love, but also for family affection. Only to survive and fight, not to shed tears for hardship, when she wasted her youth day by day in waiting, it was the child in her belly who gave her the courage to live; she married "Slow Half Beat", and the daughters born to her and "Slow Half Beat" are all of Bai Xiao'e, for a fresh life, Bai Xiao'e vowed to live tenaciously.

The children were playing the game of "Prince and Princess" in the yard, and they were having a lot of fun and getting carried away. Bai Xiao'e's children are "princes" and "princesses", but she is not a "queen", she doesn't care that she is not a "queen", what she cares about is that her children don't have to live a good life, but they must be happy.

She looked at the child at play, and her thoughts once again swept through her brain, knocking over the five-flavor bottle, losing her eyes, and wetting her placket.

The children were so mad that the "princesses" went back to sleep one by one, leaving only the "prince" sitting in the yard, staring blankly at the old woman in the house.

"What's wrong Xiao Wu?" Bai Xiao'e saw that Xiao Wu had something on her mind, and walked up to Xiao Wu very caringly and asked.

"Auntie, I have something to tell you, and I'm afraid that you won't be able to accept scolding me, but I don't have anyone else to say, I'm going crazy. Xiao Wu said timidly to Bai Xiao'e.

"Say it, Xiao Wu, my aunt promises not to scold you. Bai Xiao'e feels sorry for her child, when the child is older, she thinks about many things in her heart, and she is less careless, and her ability to distinguish between right and wrong is poor, Xiao Wu can trust herself and is willing to open her heart to her, an old woman, no matter what happens, she has no reason to scold him, or even blame, because he is her son, he is her biological flesh and blood who has not fulfilled her maintenance obligations for a day, she wants to help him, and she has no shirk responsibility to help him.

"Auntie, I'...... I...... Oh, I won't say it!" Xiao Wu stopped talking.

Bai Xiao'e heard Xiao Wu so difficult to speak, and thought in her heart that something big must have happened, how old Bai Xiao'e didn't know, her intuition told her that it must be not small, and her mother's love drove her to ask Xiao Wu what happened.

"Auntie, I like boys!And I fell in love with a boy......" Xiao Wu finally mustered up the courage to confess to the only relative in this world who made him feel warm, the secret he had buried in his heart for a long time and had never told anyone, and he wanted the only relative in this world who was good to him to share his happiness and joy.

Bai Xiao'e was shocked, she definitely didn't expect such a thing, the shock far exceeded the fact that she knew that Shen Meigen would not come back to marry her, she didn't know what to do for a while, how much she hoped that Shen Meigen could be by her side, help her think about what to do? But there was no one around! Bai Xiao'e was silent, fell into a rare silence in this life, when she saw Xiao Wu's slightly lowered head, remorseful expression and evasive eyes, her heart was bleeding, she felt helpless, Desperate, she wanted to cry without tears, she really wanted to go to God and ask why he did this to her, why was he so cruel to her? But when she saw this Xiao Wu in front of her, who was caught in deep self-blame and guilt, she had the courage and reason to face it calmly.

"I don't understand your emotional world, but I know that there is no right or wrong in feelings, men love women, that's a thunderous idea, that's natural, no one can change it. But I think that men love women and men love men, their starting point is the same, they are all for happiness, for happiness, if you feel happy, then be bold to love, aunt can't do anything else, support you can still do it!" At that time, Bai Xiao'e thought of half of her life, everything that happened to Bai Xiao'e did not break the convention, and she drew a normal trajectory according to the normal track, but despite this, what did she get?! "No", how could you marry this "slow half-beat" who has been married for 20 years but hasn't even said 20 words! I acted according to the old principles and didn't see much happiness, and my life was not easy. Thinking of this, she will support Xiao Wu. When the child is happy, she is happy. Simple thinking, great moves.

Xiao Wu was very happy, he didn't expect his aunt to be so reasonable, he won his aunt's support so easily, even if Bai Xiao'e opposed Xiao Wu and Li Mu's relationship, Xiao Wu would not be separated from Li Mu, but that would affect Xiao Wu's mood, at least during this winter vacation, when he saw his aunt again, he would feel very embarrassed.

Xiao Wu gushed stories to Bai Xiao'e, telling the stories that happened between him and Li Mu, from acquaintance to acquaintance, about studying hard together, about winning scholarships together, about Li Mu helping him participate in the singer competition, and about how Li Mu protected himself. Xiao Wu spoke eloquently, as if he had become a storyteller, and Bai Xiao'e was the one who listened to books, Xiao Wu's words and words reflected Li Mu's goodness, his love for Li Mu, the happiness of falling in love, turned into a smile on Xiao Wu's face, and that smile was like the story of Xiao Wu and Li Mu, so real, so close in front of him.

Bai Xiao'e suddenly understood what the real "Pure Spring Water" was: a man's "pure spring water" does not necessarily have to be braided, leaving braids like herself failed to keep his beloved and happiness. She is very glad that her son's emotional world is simple and rich, just like her lover's painting, although the lines are simple, but colorful, although she doesn't understand, she still feels that Shen Meigen's painting is extremely beautiful!

Xiao Wu talked to his heart's content, Bai Xiao'e listened affectionately, when Xiao Wu realized the existence of time, it was almost eleven o'clock, Xiao Wu got up and went back, no longer speaking, because he couldn't finish the story between him and Li Mu in one night, how could he tell the story between him and Li Mu in one night?

Bai Xiao'e looked at the back of Xiao Wu leaving, she couldn't say what she felt in her heart, this child is so well-behaved, sensible, smart, handsome, he has been loved by few people since he was a child, but he is better than ordinary children, why do you want him to have such a flaw as liking men? She can't understand why God created things, why should she always leave some regrets. Bai Xiao'e can only calmly accept the fact that Xiao Wu confessed to her that Xiao Wu likes men, what can she do if she doesn't accept it? People always demand perfection, so they always feel that they are not perfect, although some things are perfect enough, people are still demanding, so they will have regrets at all times. As a mother, she has nothing to say about Xiao Wu's choice, because she doesn't understand her son's emotional world, and she can't interfere, but it is true that she wants her son to be happy and happy. Thinking that her son was happy to associate with Li Mu, what else did she have to worry about!

Li Mu is at home, and he has nothing to do, except for missing Xiao Wu, just to make his eldest nephew happy. The child is two years old, white and fat, walking is not very steady, a few steps and a head, even if he falls, he does not cry, he gets up and continues to walk, no one wants to help, he is not very fluent in speaking, he jumps out word by word, when the adults communicate with him, he has to guess what he is talking about, whenever he sees Mrs. Wang shouting "come", Mrs. Wang is not to mention how happy, saying that she is ten years younger, no one will doubt it!

Time passed like this, minute by minute, the villain became an adult, the adult became an old man, the old man became ash, this is the law of nature, which contains too much willingness and unwillingness, this is life, turn over and turn over, over and over again, everyone repeats such a game, knowing that only death awaits them at the end, just a wisp of smoke that dissipates the red dust, but people are still happy to do it, trying to do everything they can to try to break free from the arrangement of fate, but in the end they failed to do so, or obediently turned into ashes, put into the wooden box of hatred for a lifetime。 People are like this, whether it is a lifetime of hard work or resentment, in the end, all they get in exchange for a box of gray, or there is pride, or regret, they all smile in the black and white photos on the box. The only thing left is a faint miss of the dead by the living, but no matter how much you miss it, you can't give color to the photo, so life is short, longing is long, love is eternal, for people who love each other, a lifetime of love is definitely not enough, it must be born and lived, and the sea must be dry. The relationship between Li Mu and Xiao Wu is the same, without the embellishment of words, but with incomparable lace, if they are separated, then no one will survive, and they will definitely kill two lives.

Zip it up and re-embark on the old road, this day is the day when Xiao Wu returns to school, and only Bai Xiao'e sends Xiao Wu to school. Every time, Bai Xiao'e sent Xiao Wu back to school, told a lot of them, nagged a lot, and handed Xiao Wu 500 yuan, every time he had to give it, Xiao Wu didn't want it every time, the mother and daughter cried into tears every time, and every time Bai Xiao'e watched until she could no longer see the long-distance bus.

Li Mu is much simpler, no one asks when he comes back, no one sends him when he leaves, and the whole people all the way are free to come and go, carrying suitcases, pulling suitcases, and not taking anything with him, because he didn't bring anything back in the first place. Li Mu clearly remembers that when he just came back from vacation, his two living treasure sisters and elder brothers kept screaming, pestering themselves and not letting go, annoying Li Mu, but not more than three days, after the sisters' enthusiasm for his brother faded, they were annoyed with Li Mu, and ran away when they saw him, for fear that he would delay their time to play, after all, they were only two ten-year-old children. And what makes Li Mu happiest is his parents, never ask Li Mu what happened in school, anyway, you don't have enough money to spend, just make a call, the next day the bank goes to work, and the money is allowed to be sent to Li Mu's card, never delayed, when Li Mu came back, his mother only asked:

"Tired, wash and sleep. ”

When it was time to leave, my mother said to Li Mu again:

"I don't have the money to call, so I'll send you back. "Not a word more, as if it wasn't biological. But it's okay, at least it's better than those parents who nag all day long, Li Mu actually wants to come softly like this, go gently, you don't disturb me, I won't bother you.

Li Mu was about to start the internship when he returned to school this time, and he said hello to Wang Fude, who had already helped contact a company that accepted Li Mu's internship, the largest advertising company in Shanghai - "Chuanghuang" advertising design company. The reason why Li Mu chose to come to Shanghai for an internship is because he and Xiao Wu have already discussed that they will come to Shanghai for development after graduation. Li Mu originally wanted to find an internship place near the school, so that he could stay with Xiao Wu again, but he thought that sooner or later he would have to separate, after all, Xiao Wu was only a junior, and he was already a senior, so he finally decided to go to Shanghai for an internship.