When all the hustle and bustle ends, it brings endless emptiness and loneliness.

Chen Tianhao was lying on the sofa tiredly, full of alcohol. Originally, he hated this smell the most, but now he indulged himself and didn't take care of it.

His heart was turned upside down, as uncomfortable as the first time he was drunk. Only lonely people will remember.

Yes, I got drunk for the first time, I was 16 years old, and I haven't graduated from junior high school yet.

That day he met his biological mother for the first time. The first and last time.

He clearly remembered that it was raining lightly that day, and the spring was still cold.

Originally, he had asked his friend Wu Tong to play with him, and of course, his younger brother was always indispensable by his side. This younger brother Chen Tianyu, who is always glued to his side, but is only one year younger than her.

But his father stopped him very seriously and took him to the hospital to see a dying woman.

This woman is really beautiful, and even with her empty eyes, you can still feel the charm of her former style. A sense of foreboding, after all, was affirmed by his father's words. "This is your real mother." Chen Tianhao stood in front of her, and saw her two lines of tears, her pale face, and her beautiful eyes no longer brightened. Maybe the blood relationship or the scene was too strong, or maybe he couldn't bear it, he finally swallowed back what he wanted to ask. He held the woman's hands tightly. Only then did she find out that she was blind.

She explained a few words in a weak voice, and then closed her eyes and never opened them again, no matter how Chen Tianhao called.

"Your father is the love of my life," she said. If you love someone, you want to give for them. So if separation is a fulfillment, I never regret it, and I hope you don't hate him in the future. Everything is my decision. "Breathing air is undoubtedly a luxury for her." My biggest regret is that I didn't grow up with you. ”

Tears blurred Chen Tianhao's perception, and she only remembered that she finally took a big breath with her mouth and exhaled a sentence, "I love you!" "Then there was no more sound.

Many years later, Chen Tianhao still doesn't know whether the last sentence was for him, or for the man who rejected her, abandoned her, and failed her.

At the entrance of the hospital, he asked his father why?

But his father never said a word, and walked away without looking back.

Before leaving, his father said, "I will handle your mother's funeral, you don't have to attend." ”

Chen Tianhao naturally knew that as his biological son, he didn't have to go to the funeral, and as his former beloved, he wouldn't go. His father was just worried that the appearance of this woman would give the media an opportunity to affect his career. This stupid woman who gave birth to him finally didn't have it before and after her death.

Chen Tianhao doesn't remember how he got home that day. I just remember drinking a lot. It was the first time he had drunk alcohol. The taste of wine is not pleasant. He was just sad, hesitant, and overwhelmed.

Later, Chen Tianhao finally knew his life experience from his father's words and from the mouth of his uncle. The father and mother were married for less than a year. Due to business needs, his father soon divorced and married his current wife.

His own mother divorced him while pregnant and gave birth to him, leaving him to his father, who never appeared again.

He also finally knew why the woman he called Mommy had two faces. In his father's absence, she was always very cold; When his father was around, he was very tolerant and enthusiastic. Of course, the end result is that he always has to be trained. Even if his brother did something wrong, he would be scolded. Even when others praised him for being calm and rational, he was reprimanded by his father for being scheming towards his family.

After a few weeks, Chen Tianhao finally came to his senses, and he knew that he shouldn't go on like this. This home, emotionless and full of deception, he can't stay any longer. He quickly adjusted his pace. In high school, he did not choose an aristocratic school, but chose a high school that he was admitted to through his own ability.

Because of this, he and his father had a big fight. His father, of course, couldn't understand why his eldest son would go to grassroots school. He did not choose an aristocratic school in preparation for leaving his father. A strong alliance between the nobles will not help him flee from the nobles' downfall. And he needs to get a source of livelihood through his own efforts. Of course, in order to let his stepmother let her guard down. He decided to hide his plans and dissatisfaction for the time being, and his academic performance was naturally unsatisfactory. When no one pays attention or cares, he is secretly accumulating strength.

Accumulation is always for those who are prepared.

When everyone thought that the eldest son of the Chen family had a whim to go to the grassroots school, and there were even rumors that the eldest son of the Chen family was tired of seeing the noble temperament of aristocratic women and went to the grassroots school to find a pure girl, he had already made a lot of plans for the future.

Human growth is in a moment, and this moment is a change.

There is loneliness, there is loneliness, because no one understands him, no one supports him.

Sometimes he is also very irritable and worried that he will not be able to persevere. At this time, he met the first sight. "If life is only as it first sees", then he is willing to let go of everything and let go of hatred just to be with her. Once he had already thought about it, let go, let go of everything, and not ask for justice, just afraid that she would be hurt, and in the future, he would only earn their world for her, and not let her be snubbed by the so-called wealthy family, but at this time, she chose to leave.

With the pain of falling out of love, he built a wall of hatred, and Chen Tianhao locked himself firmly inside.

Deliberately not thinking about it, not looking at any news related to her, all these years, he has stubbornly hated her, but he doesn't want to shake the hatred in his heart and the unfinished business again.

But the moment I met her, it was all over. As long as the first sight says, "I still love you," he will let go of everything. But this woman has long forgotten the feeling of first love, no, she remembers, Chen Tianhao threw away the wine glass in his hand fiercely, she not only remembered, but also compared it with the current relationship.

For so many years, when he was most sad, hesitant, and helpless, he had never blasphemed his first love, and all the scandals were just plays, and she could actually use her first love to write a novel, if she hadn't experienced a happier relationship, it would never have been possible. "Sweeter than first love", thinking of this name, Chen Tianhao felt extremely disgusting and ironic.

Chen Tianhao never thought of letting Chujian love this relationship like him and protect it, but he couldn't forgive it anyway when he took it out to show off and compare.

When I was a freshman in high school, I was a beautiful, quiet girl at first sight. Come to school quietly every day; Attend classes quietly and quietly; Share your thoughts in peace.

When Chen Tianhao saw her for the first time, he naturally remembered Xu Zhimo's poem, "Gently I go, just as I come gently; I beckoned softly, and made a cloud of the western sky. ......" He had whistled to see Hatsumi coming from afar, and read the poem as she passed him, and she actually stopped, listened to him read the whole poem, and then smiled softly, "Thank you." The melancholy feelings in the poem melted into her laughter, and at the same time, Chen Tianhao's mischievous and mocking smile melted away.

Many girls, when they hear Chen Tianhao's whistle and see him, they will stay away. Because, in their eyes, he is a bad boy.

It was their first meeting, and he remembered the girl, the girl's curved eyebrows, big bright eyes, and sweet smile.

Later, his academic performance was too poor, and the class formed a mutual help group. The first time I saw Xueba, I was in a group with Chen Tianhao, a scumbag. Their contact has gradually increased. She's always so quiet. In the process of their discussion and study, with Chen Tianhao, the so-called poor student, she never despised it at all, nor did she refuse, as if everything was going naturally.

She is very innocent and beautiful. Growing up in the aristocracy, he was actually aesthetically fatigued. So, the first sight gave her a bright feeling.

He remembers one time he saw Hatsumi playing in the water. The water from the faucet dripped on her fingertips. She just quietly, quietly, with her fingertips to catch the droplets, drop by drop. At first sight, the side face is soft and calm, sometimes focused, sometimes smiling. She was so quiet, as if everything in the world had nothing to do with her. There was only this drop of water in her eyes and heart. At that moment, he was really deeply attracted to her. Chen Tianhao has never seen such a picture, the picture is too quiet and beautiful, but his heart is moving.

She's a very empathetic girl. Whether it's when explaining the topic, or helping in life. He was always so quiet, warm, like a spring breeze. With nostalgia for the past, Chen Tianhao fell asleep deeply.