I have endured these tears in my heart for too long, too long.

So much so that every time I breathed, my heartbeat was tinged with heart-rending pain.

During this time, when I bid farewell to my parents, sent my brother away, and found him, my strings that had been tight were completely loosened.

Later, I fell ill.

In my dreams, I saw a lot of old people who didn't have time to say goodbye, and I said a lot of things.

But the dream will eventually wake up.

It's just that Zhou Gong took pity on me and made the decision to send me a sweet dream.

(Zhou Gong: refers to the person in charge of dreaming, the person who interprets dreams.) ）

When we woke up, we began to plan and analyze the current situation.

We really don't have a chance to win.

The countries that are good friends are thousands of miles away, and it is possible to help each other in peacetime.

But in the current state, they don't attack, but they won't save each other.

The city is already in chaos, and the border passes will not be peaceful.

The streets are full of refugees.

High-ranking officials die to the death, and those who surrender to the enemy surrender to the enemy.

At present, we can only endure until they manage the city well, relax their guard, and kill the remnants of the old department of the liaison.

Otherwise, we will be moths to the fire and bring about our own destruction.

We can't afford to gamble and we can't afford to lose.

This forbearance is a long time.

In the first year, I kept myself busy, calmed myself, sobered myself, and turned myself into "a person who is greedy for life and afraid of death." ”

From time to time, I also think of those old people, as well as Mama, Brother.

I don't know if they're safe or not.

And, Brother, it's time for his ninth birthday soon.

I don't know how tall he has grown.

Time flies, and some of the pain is just covered up and never healed.

It's Chinese New Year's Eve.

My days of great pain.

At this time, at the mouth of the seemingly silent alley, one door after another quietly opened, and every household squatted silently at the intersection at ten midnight, guarding a brazier to pay tribute to the deceased.

A breeze takes away the fireworks, and also takes away everyone's thoughts and attachments.

I sat on the side of the street and looked at the bright moon in the sky.

God, do you know that people here are suffering?

Your people are filled with sorrow in their hearts.

They pray to you and ask you for help.

Did you hear that?

It occurred to me that I couldn't hear me, God.

They have always liked to call these sufferings providence and fate.

I vaguely saw a person running over and shouting, "Coriander."

I squinted my eyes and looked at it for a long time, "Lin, no, it's Ah Jue." ”

Lin Jue squatted down and looked at me: "Don't walk around, I'll be worried."

I nodded, "Okay." ”

"Let's go, I'll carry you back."

I thought to myself, if there is anyone in the world who cares about me, he is the only one left.

He was the only one left.

I leaned on his back and asked, "Ah Jue, are we all dead?" ”

Obviously, he understood what I meant.

(Here, it refers to the death of identity.) The princess becomes a commoner. When the princess found the male protagonist, the male protagonist was in the mansion and had already prepared his fake corpse, otherwise he would not have been picked up by the princess. ）

"Huh? Well, died on that day. You are coriander, and I am Ah Jue. ”

My arms hugged him tightly, "Ah Jue, we're going to make it, right!" You'll always be there, right? ”

"Yes, I'll be with you."

The two of us warmed each other and kept each other company on this cold winter day.

Our plans are well organized.

The current situation is also much more stable than before, and some official eunuchs who escaped death are also secretly contacting.

Everything is moving in a good direction.