In the blink of an eye, those pasts, love and hate, and hatred are like smoke drifting away in an instant.

I sighed softly, and the hot tea in my hand gradually cooled.

When I drank a sip of tea, it was cold and painful.

I looked at Mama and said, "Mama, do you know?"

"That was the first time I felt like I was wrong."

"Couldn't be more wrong."

"I'm not sad that my brother imprisoned me, nor am I sad that my brother was tempting me."

"I wonder what I've been doing all these years?"

"Many of the decisions I made, even the decisions I thought I were right, turned out to be putting everyone in danger step by step."

"Earlier, he shouldn't have been allowed to be a soldier, he shouldn't have been allowed to come back, or even the border."

"So that he will not die because of the people who paid for him."

"Covered in filth, under the weight of crimes."

"No one knew he was the son of the late Prime Minister."

"He is beautiful, Zhilan Yushu, he used to be the sunniest young man in the capital."

"Even if he becomes a general, he will never be an underdog."

"His future is on the battlefield, and he shouldn't stop here for me."

"And Brother, I never knew what he was thinking."

"I didn't even know that he was resentful of me most of the time."

"What I think of as love is charity in his eyes, and it is a reward for gratitude."

"Mama, tell me how much I failed."

"All these decades have been wrong."

"And him, he doesn't deserve to die."

"Do you know when was the last time I saw him?"

"It's the winter solstice!"

"I remember that day there was a fine snow in the sky from the morning."

"I still remember a palace maid who said that next year must be a good year."

"yes, it's been a good year."

It's a pity that he's gone.

I looked out the window.

The charcoal fire behind him crackled.

Start thinking back to what happened that day?

But it's been too long.

Long time coming.

I, all, can't remember.

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The first year of the Liang Kingdom.

Winter solstice.

Counting the nine cold winter months, the old people in the distance are looking forward to the return date.

The weather is getting colder day by day.

My old illness makes me afraid of winter, and it is extremely difficult.

I walked out of the hall step by step in a fox fur, and looked at the square courtyard in front of me by the dim sunlight.

Huamei pond, pebble paving, glazed tiles, pink walls, food and clothing are still the best.

It looks like nothing has changed, but everything has changed.

I was under house arrest and my every move was monitored.

It's funny to say.

I suddenly felt like a bird that had been carefully raised.

Locked in a delicate and luxurious cage, it is for people to enjoy and amuse.

He has a beautiful and prosperous life, but he can't be free, so he can only look up at the sky like a slap in the face and imagine the future.

I think if he (Bai Yu) was here, he would probably pat me on the head and say I was stupid.

I was worried about the border every day, but no definite news came.

It was as if there had never been such a man in the world, and his army of 700,000.

After a long time, the court continued to question, and Ah Di could only suppress and not mention it.

I was worried all day long, wondering if they would be okay outside the gate.

There are no winter clothes there, and there is plenty of food and grass.

But when I think about it, there's no news, and that's the best news.

Now is the critical juncture of the attack, even if they want to deal with it, they will definitely not pick this time.