The past

At night when the lights are on, the streets and alleys are drunk and golden, and the noisy and lively shops and crowds, the believers who are looking forward to their dreams, vent the ill-fated sorrows of life, and are still lost in the wrong way of finding the value of their lives.

I followed the coastline all the way to the west, the fine sand under my feet gently wrapped around my smooth feet, the vast and boundless sea, and the occasional breeze pushed the sea water to caress my bare ankles, like a lover's pity caressing, but it left me with its cold body temperature. Look up at the silky night sky, where the stars are barely visible, and the lights of the city have been obscured from their sparkle.

I'm not a sentimental person, I don't like to play sad tones everywhere, but my life can no longer be colorful, and today may be my last memory in the world.

In fact, I don't remember how old I was, how many years I lived, how many people I met, how many things I went through...... In these many springs, summers, autumns and winters, I always remember that he is the only one, but fate is like to play tricks on children who play serious games, yes, games, I think, this is about me and his game, and then in the game I seriously do everything well, but I lose a lot, and he casually waved his hand to win the success, a big victory. He remembers many things, many people, many feelings, but only pushed me thousands of miles away, to him, I was humble almost down to the dust, double harvest his heart, pious in front of him, but never in exchange for his sincerity, I am not afraid of the vicissitudes of time, not afraid of being hurt by him, but still can not melt his iron heart, such a self is really stupid, once free and easy, once proud, once longed for a beautiful dream, have flown with time, in a blink of an eye into a cloud of smoke, empty of a dream.

"I don't know what to do, I go deep, the living can die, and the dead can live. Scold! What am I in your eyes? "I sigh! It's that I'm too entangled.

In this life, people always have to go through, hurt, only to know how to turn back, only to know how to see themselves clearly, is that I can't run, not that I can't force it, always greedy for the beauty of the first meeting, I don't know that everything is just a cage woven by myself, I can't trap the other party, but I am deeply bound by myself. Now I want to peel off this layer of fetters with my own hands, as if tearing my heart apart...

"What if... I didn't fall in love with you first, would our ending be different" I put my hands on my chest, lucked my dantian, hollowed out all my tens of thousands of years of cultivation, gathered a crystal bead in the palm of my hand, and then clenched it and crushed it... The star-like powder was swept up by the sea breeze and scattered into the air, shining and dazzling, making the dead night sky draw a beautiful galaxy...

I felt life passing from my body little by little, my soul began to turmoil, my feet fell backwards weakly, lying on the soft sand, my eyes began to drift, as if I saw him running towards me, shouting "Nian'er..."

"Again... See..."Never again