The plane climbed to an altitude of 10,000 meters, and the sea of clouds churned under the porthole; Above the sea of clouds, the sky is infinitely high; The monotonous roar of the engine is drowsy. On top of this red dust, Yuzhu is lost between the past and the present.

If life had a choice, Yuzhu would not choose her current self. Her beauty did not bring her practical benefits, on the contrary, it brought her endless troubles and pain.

When she was in middle school, Yuzhu's biggest headache was that on the way to and from school, there were always bad boys following her, making all kinds of strange little movements to get her attention, and Yuzhu came home in fear or walked into the classroom; During recess exercises, there are often bad boys who deliberately push and shove around her, intentionally or unintentionally hit her, or deliberately block the way in front of her. This happened again and again, and then the teacher allowed her to do exercises without recess.

While her classmates were bouncing around the playground in the sun, she was left alone in the dark classroom.

It's a feeling of inferiority, abandonment.

If life can be chosen, Yuzhu will not choose her current self, and will be criticized and talked about by people with bad intentions.

The suicide of an English teacher once caused a sensation in the whole city of Thuan An, and there were many discussions and malicious suspicions from the outside world, and some people even added fuel to the fire that the teacher raped the students and so on. But Yuzhu herself knows that the handsome, erudite, sought-after English teacher who has returned from overseas is innocent. Every time I called her to the office, I only guided her to study her deficiencies and corrected her mistakes in learning methods; Maybe the teacher likes her very much, but she has never said a word excessive, without the slightest excess, the teacher's eyes looking at Yuzhu are concerned, clear and bright. It was many years later that Yuzhu figured out that it was not so much that the English teacher died because of her, but that he was killed by the jealousy of the world. It's just that people who don't know the truth dump the blame on her with bad intentions.

Compared with the local English teacher who is a monk for a day and is now learning and selling, he is too good, too knowledgeable, and his aura is too dazzling. Mu Xiu will be destroyed by the forest wind, and the ancestor has long predicted his fate. He posed a real threat to the interests of some people, so he said that the three of them became tigers, which was to ruin his reputation and cause the school to suspend his classes.

What does it mean that a teacher has been suspended?

His suicide was the result of the superposition of multiple factors: a hopeless teacher-student relationship; the shattering of beautiful ideals, the bleak and hopeless future; His deep hatred for the viciousness of the world was a factor in his absence.

This world, which is extremely hypocritical, advocates beauty, praises beauty, admires beauty, and flaunts beauty on the surface, but in fact, it can't see beauty, and ruthlessly stifles all beauty in its bones. In the face of profit and greed, human beings are no different from the cannibalistic lions of the African savannah.

When Pei Xiaojun was beaten, Yuzhu was walking on the way out of school with her head down. She heard a cry of pain, Yuzhu turned her head and saw Yu Chenglong holding a wooden stick in his hand, directing his accomplices to beat Pei Xiaojun lying in the ditch, the stick was raised and fell, and a miserable cry came, Yuzhu trembled all over, and sped up to go home.

The next day, between classes, Feng Zhi told her that Pei Xiaojun followed her and was beaten miserably by Yu Chenglong.

Yuzhu bowed her head and said nothing, what does this have to do with her.

Lu Chenggang's duel with Yu Jackie Chan staged a serial drama, Lu Chenggang entered the labor camp, Yu Jackie Chan became a waste, and all the news came from Fengzhi. Yuzhu doesn't comment, all this happens, develops, and ends have nothing to do with her.

Lu Chenggang's second framing was also purely unjust.

After Lu Chenggang returned from the labor camp, he concentrated on running the Phoenix Mountain Farm, and a year later, the farm had a scale, and Lu Chenggang organized a class reunion. Feng Zhi and Yu Zhu were both invited, and Lu Chenggang learned about Yu Zhu's situation from Feng Zhi and was indignant at Tang Yingjie's actions. The family background of the second generation of his official and his love for Yuzhu in his bones made him contempt and hatred for Tang Yingjie.

In fact, he just sent seasonal vegetables to Yuzhu and Fengzhi, and every time he arrived at Yuzhu's house, he put down the dishes and left, and he didn't even sit on the sofa in the living room. Lu Chenggang was very sober at the time, it was impossible for him and Yuzhu to be completely a friendship between classmates.

At that time, Lu Chenggang's real goddess was Feng Zhi, Feng Zhi had a long crush on Lu Chenggang, and their relationship was heating up, and to this day, there is nowhere to explain all this, power and violence have always been done whatever they want, and there is no need to explain.

Tang Yingjie first brought down Lu Chenggang's father, and soon Lu Chenggang became a drug crime out of nothing and was convicted of a felony.

What made Yuzhu sad the most was Zhong Hua, who succumbed to violence so easily, and only wanted to protect himself when the crisis came, which made Yuzhu desperate.

Zhong Hua is timid, or compared with Lu Chenggang, he is more sophisticated, and it is human instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, which is beyond reproach. Yuzhu has no right to ask Zhong Hua to be like Lu Chenggang and would rather be broken than broken. But Yuzhu can ask herself to do so, so she then decisively commits suicide by poisoning, and she fights violence with her death. Don't you just want to possess? I ruined everything, I had the freedom to die.

This is the motive for Yuzhu's suicide.

That policeman Yang Maolin is a simple scholar, and Xiao Yuzhu is two years old. After graduating from the police academy, he worked in the township police station for more than three years, and was transferred to the criminal investigation brigade of the Municipal Public Security Bureau as a scout because of his excellent work. He was introduced to Yuzhu by a colleague, and at that time, Yuzhu and Zhong Hua had just broken up for more than half a year, and the two had a good impression of each other when they met for the first time. But Yuzhu clearly told him the reason for the frustration of the previous relationship, and asked him to consider it carefully.

Yang Maolin is a scholar, he believes in justice and the rule of law, and he doesn't believe that Tang Yingjie can cover the sky with one hand.

During that time, Tang Yingjie often stopped at the school gate in the name of picking up his son, approaching Yuzhu and taking the initiative to talk.

Yang Maolin and Tang Yingjie occasionally met at the gate of the school, and the two looked at each other coldly. Someone once persuaded Yang Maolin, the woman surnamed Tang took a fancy to it, you had better retreat, you can't afford to provoke it.

Yang Maolin knew that there were tigers in the mountains, and he preferred to go to the tiger mountains, he was on guard against danger, and he carried a pistol with him. However, one day, the bureau suddenly announced that from now on, the police will hand over their weapons after work.

That day, Yang Maolin picked up Yuzhu from school and went home, and not far from the school, he was shot by a black bear and broke his right knee joint.

It was the third day after the notice was issued.

More than a dozen eyewitnesses testified that the black bear was intentionally injured, but the court rejected it and still gave the black bear a light sentence for the crime of accidentally injuring and maiming the black bear, and the black bear only stayed inside for a few months before being released on bail.

After Yang Maolin was injured, he realized how strong Tang Yingjie's power was and what was the purpose of collecting guns in the bureau. Because Yang Maolin is a well-known sharpshooter in the province, he won the second place in the province's rapid-fire pistol competition. If there had been a gun in hand at the time, the three black bears were no match for him.

Yang Maolin couldn't swallow this breath, and after recovering from his injuries, he made ten kilograms of mine explosives and planned to assassinate Tang Yingjie, and the two died together. Yuzhu resolutely opposed it after knowing it, and Yuzhu said: The wicked have their own wicked people, and it is not worth it for you to die with him.

In the end, the two were forced to break up.

What kind of heart can withstand this blow, Yuzhu quit her job, was imprisoned at home, and lived like a year.

Women all over the world dream that they are as beautiful as flowers, and they will fall into the city with a smile, and then they will fall into the country with a smile. And the history of mankind cruelly proves that all women in cities and countries will not die well, let alone be happy and happy. All legends, operas, and novels are made up by later generations for some purpose.

Xi Shi is the first of the four beauties in China, she shoulders a special mission, was given to King Wu as a gift by the King of Yue, King Wu indulged in wine after Xi Shi, misled the country and the people, and was finally destroyed by the Yue Kingdom, this story is very beautiful, very tragic, Xi Shi was beautified by later generations to become a national hero dedicated to the country, famous, Xi Shi and Fan Li live in seclusion in the West Lake, leisurely, happy.

The story is either that the ruling clique encourages the people to die for their country for their own benefit; Either the literati made up nonsense for the sake of the story to be beautiful and beautiful.

Is it possible for a woman to be given as a gift to a stranger, and to force a smile and temptation to wrap King Wu under her pomegranate skirt to achieve the purpose of misleading the country and the people? King Wu has never seen a woman like that? Will King Wu be so mediocre? This kind of story concept is purely a small insight of the storyteller's market woman, which won a round of applause and collected a few pennies to buy rice.

Yuzhu University is a history major, and the historical fact is: Xi Shi was used as a gift to the king of Wu There is indeed a historical fact, that is the king of Yue in order to please the king of Wu, in order to save his life, to win time, and then lie down to taste the courage, accumulate strength, when the time comes, raise an army against Wu. After the state of Wu broke the city, Xi Shi and all the concubines of King Wu were drowned in the Shen River.

The other three beauties: Yang Yuhuan was in the limelight for a while, and the Anhe Rebellion was broken by Ma Wei by hanging; Minchan first served Wang Yun, then Dong Zhuo, and then Lu Bu, and after changing hands several times, she was beheaded by Cao Cao on the charge of being a red face and causing trouble; It is said that at that time, Cao Cao also coveted the beauty of Diao Chan, and the strategist saw through the mystery and said to Cao Cao: "The public forgot Dong Zhuo, Lu Bu's funeral?" ”

Cao Cao endured the pain of cutting his love, and immediately launched the gate to cut off his head.

Wang Zhaojun is both talented and beautiful, but he was refrigerated in the deep palace by the painter Mao Yanshou, and later married a desert alien, but he was actually given as a gift. After remarrying several times, the wind and rain drifted away, and finally played the piano to the moon, lonely and desolate.

When future generations relished their stories, did anyone care about their hearts and their happiness? They're just tools.

There was once a woman who declared: I'd rather cry in a BMW than laugh on a bicycle. This is a typical brainless, small family's insight. There may be many women who dream of marrying into a wealthy family and are eager to live a luxurious life in a wealthy family.

Yuzhu doesn't envy the wealthy, the wealthy have grievances, and they are cheating, in addition to the surface scenery, who knows the blood and tears and hatred behind it, that is not the life she wants.

If life had a choice, Yuzhu would not choose her current self. She will choose an ordinary, dignified, and durable jade bead, smart, and hard-working; Self-reliant, elegant as an orchid.

Yuzhu was born in a scholarly family, and her parents are well-educated, and they are both teachers who teach and educate people. Yuzhu inherited her father's high-minded, stubborn qualities, intelligent nature, elegant and vulgar.

Yuzhu wants a life like her parents, dependent on each other, in the same boat through thick and thin, a well-off family, self-reliant, not thrifty, and not wasteful; The two know each other and love each other, their ears and temples grind, occasionally quarrel, and get a little stingy, and then there is always one person who compromises, and finally the rain passes and the sky is clear, and life goes on. In my spare time, a book, a pot of tea, a song, watching the sunrise and sunset rain in the sky, appreciating the flowers before the court from spring to autumn, tasting the sweet and sour taste of life, and being a pure and indifferent idle person.

Yuzhu's hope for life is very simple, and she can't get such a simple life. Women should not be too beautiful, it is all troubles to be outstanding.

Yuzhu can't choose life, but she can choose today, although all choices are full of unknowns, as the white-haired old lady said, this is the process of growth.

The flight attendant gently reminded on the radio: "Gentlemen, ladies please buckle up and put away the table, the plane will soon land at Shenzhen Bao'an International Airport." ”