In June, the self-study room in the library was not open, and after school, Zhao Hui did not go to the library to study, she studied at home every day until late, and the next morning she went to school very early to study.

Time passed day by day, one morning, Pan Haoming did not come to school, Zhao Hui felt empty in her heart, and a female classmate whispered: "Zhao Hui why don't you go to see Pan Haoming!" How could he not come to school to study! Zhao Hui listened and didn't say anything. After eating at noon, Zhao Hui decided to go to Pan Haoming in the afternoon.

Zhao Hui didn't go to school in the afternoon, she rode a bicycle, and unconsciously came to the community where Pan Haoming's family lived, she came to the downstairs of their house, put the bicycle, and went upstairs. Zhao Hui came to the door of Pan Haoming's house and knocked on the door, Pan Haoming's mother came to open the door, Zhao Hui asked softly: "Auntie, is Pan Haoming at home?" Pan Haoming's mother said: "At home! Come on in! He's sleeping. Zhao Hui entered the house, Pan Haoming's father and mother were there, she followed her aunt to the bedroom to the north, and the aunt called: "Haoming, your classmate is here." Pan Haoming opened his sleepy eyes, sat up from the bed, and said, "Sit down!" Zhao Hui sat down and said, "You didn't go to school in the morning, I'll come to see you, are you sick?" Pan Haoming smiled and said, "I'm not sick." ”

They sat for a while, and Pan Haoming said to Zhao Hui: "Go out for a walk, I still have to go to the Qunyi Museum today." Zhao Hui said "um", stood up, and walked to the living room with Pan Haoming, Zhao Hui said to Pan Haoming's father and mother: "Uncle and aunt, you are here, I am leaving." Uncle and aunt said "oh" and said, "I will come to play often in the future!" Zhao Hui smiled and agreed. Poon Haoming said to his father and mother: "I have something to do when I go out. So they hurried out the door and went downstairs.

Outside, the sky was drizzling, they got on their bicycles, rode slowly, and when they arrived at the central lane of Jiefang Street, Pan Haoming said to Zhao Hui: "I want to have a key." Saying that, he got out of the car, and Zhao Hui also got down. They came to a key-matching stall on the side of the road, Pan Haoming took out a key and handed it to the old man with a key, saying, "Uncle, give me a key." The old man took the key, looked at it, put it on the machine with the key, and after a while, he handed the two keys to Pan Haoming, Pan Haoming took the key, paid the money, said "thank you", and they left.

Zhao Hui and Pan Haoming crossed the road, came to the door of the Qunyi Museum, put the bicycle, Pan Haoming smiled and said to Zhao Hui, "Let's go upstairs." When they arrived on the second floor, they came to the window of the studio, the door was locked, and Zhao Hui said, "Why didn't you open the door?" Pan Haoming said: "Now that the exam is over, the teacher will not come to the studio." They walked around the balcony and then went downstairs and walked out of the Qunyi Pavilion.

They came out into the street, the rain was still falling, the ground was already wet, and the cool, moist air was refreshing. Pan Haoming smiled and said to Zhao Hui: "There is a calligraphy and painting exhibition in the exhibition hall today, let's go and have a look." Zhao Hui smiled and said, "Hmm! That's great! Let's go! ”

They came to the exhibition hall together, because it was raining and because it was not a weekend, there were very few people. The hall is half an art exhibition and half a projection exhibition. In the projection exhibition, there is a photo of "She Huo" and a photo of "Xi Gu", these two photos attracted them, and they stood there and looked at it for a while. When they watched the projection of "Xi Gu", Pan Haoming smiled and said: "Look, "Xi Gu", the first prize. Zhao Hui was a little angry when she saw him so fascinated, Pan Haoming saw it and couldn't help laughing. Zhao Hui thought: I am angry and he still laughs, which shows that he still cares about me, if I am not angry, maybe he will continue to talk about it one by one. They looked at it for a while, and then they came out.

They rode their bikes all the way to the door of the Institute of Science and Technology and stopped. Pan Haoming was tired and squatted down, Zhao Hui stood there, and they didn't speak. After staying for a while, Zhao Hui asked, "Are you hungry?" Let's go eat noodles! He said, "Not hungry!" I'm not going to eat noodles! Let's go to my friend's studio. Zhao Hui asked curiously, "Is the studio far away from here?" Pan Haoming said: "Not far. ”

They got on their bicycles, came to a neighborhood near the east gate, stopped in front of a building, they entered a unit, Pan Haoming knocked on a door, but no one opened the door, he said: "It's not a coincidence, there is no one in their house today." They came out, and Pan Haoming said, "Wait a minute!" Zhao Hui said "um". They waited downstairs for a while, but no one came, so they left.

Raining, they rode their bikes through a wet alley to the road. Poon and Zhao Hui rode west for a while, got off in front of a building under construction, and parked their bikes on the side of the road. Pan Haoming squatted down in front of the building, and Zhao Hui also squatted down, and neither of them spoke. Zhao Hui thought: I've always wanted to say "I love you", but I don't know how to say it. After a while, Zhao Hui mustered up the courage to say, "Pan Haoming, I want to ask you, is there a place for me in your heart?" Pan Haoming said categorically: "No, not at all." When Zhao Hui heard this, tears flowed silently, and she thought to herself: Why is he like this? There was no place for me in his heart. Zhao Hui whispered: "Pan Haoming, I love you, I fall in love with you." Pan Haoming said angrily: "Do you think I am cheating on you? If you love me, do you have to love you? Zhao Hui replied: "That's not it, love can't be forced." Pan Haoming said: "Yes, love cannot be forced. Zhao Hui asked, "Why don't you love me?" Poon replied: "I fell in love with a girl when I was in junior high school, and we went to school together, got out of school together, and often went to the dance hall to dance. There were a few boys in the class who liked her, and those boys often got into fights with me, and she dropped out of school because of this. Zhao Hui asked, "Did she drop out of school?" Pan Haoming replied: "Yes! She dropped out of school because of me, and I always loved her in my heart. Zhao Hui asked, "How is that girl now?" Pan Haoming said: "She went to work. Zhao Hui asked, "Does she still love you?" Pan Haoming said: "I don't know, she often drinks outside. Zhao Hui was silent, and after a while, she whispered, "The problem now is that I'm already in love with you." Poon said: "You should put your mind on studying, and now learning is the main thing." Zhao Hui said sadly: "However, what I have in mind is you." Pan Haoming said: "Why are you like this? I really want to beat you up and leave. When Zhao Hui heard this, she was very strange, and thought to herself: There is such a thing, I love him so much, but he wants to beat me. I was scared in my heart, afraid that he would really beat me, afraid that the consequences would be unimaginable. Actually, I don't care at all that he wants to beat me, but he doesn't love me, but it makes me more uncomfortable than being beaten, I'm so desperate, he doesn't love me, why is he so cruel? Zhao Hui looked at the cars on the highway in front of her speeding forward, and really hoped that the wheels of the cars would take her life away. Zhao Hui thought that Pan Haoming said that he wanted to beat her, and she was so scared that she gave up the idea of suicide.

Pan Haoming asked again: "Besides me, haven't you ever liked other boys?" Zhao Hui listened and said: "I also liked a boy when I was in junior high school, we were admitted to high school together, I studied liberal arts, he studied science, but after graduation, they all fell off the list, I was afraid of affecting his learning, and I re-enrolled in Yixin Middle School cram school, and he was not in the same school anymore." Pan Haoming said: "He must still be thinking about you in his heart!" Zhao Hui said, "I don't know." Pan Haoming said: "We all have to study hard and put our minds on studying. Zhao Hui said: "I know, I will work hard to do it." ”

After a while, the rain stopped. Zhao Hui said sincerely: "You must go to school tomorrow." Pan Haoming lowered his head and said, "Hmm! What am I doing if I don't go to school? Zhao Hui looked at Pan Haoming and said, "I'm going home." Pan Haoming said, "I'll send you." Zhao Hui shook her head and said, "No, I'll go back myself." They pushed their bikes, said "goodbye" to each other, and rode home on their bikes.

The next morning, Zhao Hui woke up from her sleep in a daze, reading Pan Haoming's name in her mouth, and found that this day was no longer what it used to be. Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes, and she wished that nothing had happened and that she would continue to dream about herself. Although yesterday's incident happened, she still loves Pan Haoming in her heart, she doesn't want to lose him, she wants to end her life.

At this time, there was a cough from his father in the yard, and Zhao Hui thought: Can I reconsider, can I face Pan Haoming again, love should be tolerant, he does not belong to me. I still have to study hard, not only about my children's personal affairs, but also about my own future......

Zhao Hui got up, she made up her mind to study hard, she came to school very early, and when she saw Pan Haoming also coming, they looked at each other and smiled.

One day at noon, after Zhao Hui finished eating, she came to the kitchen, heated the stainless steel round plate she usually played with, and then put it on the word "Hao" on her arm and wrist and scalded it. She thought: in a few days, this word will be gone.

In the afternoon, she came to school, and she was very careful when she studied, covering her sleeves to her wrists when she flipped through books and when she was writing, because she was afraid that people would see the secrets on her arms and wrists.

In the period before the college entrance examination, the school was often closed, and the teacher asked the students to review on their own, and they could move freely, go to the playground to study, or go out to the park to study.

One morning, Zhang Yanling asked Zhao Hui to go out to review together, they sat in the shade of the playground to recite history, and inadvertently Zhang Yanling saw that Zhao Hui's arm and wrist were injured, so she said: "Your arm is injured, is it burned?" Zhao Hui said, "Well! Accidentally burned. Zhang Yanling said: "You should be careful when you eat, don't eat more soy sauce and chili, you will get better." Zhao Hui listened and said, "Oh, I don't know if I can't eat soy sauce and chili peppers!" ”

After a few days, the scald on Zhao Hui's arm ulcerated, and after a while, her injury slowly healed.

The college entrance examination is finally coming, Zhao Hui is taking the exam in the examination room of Yinchuan No. 1 Middle School, she is very used to taking the college entrance examination at her alma mater, but she has not met her classmates in high school. Overall, she felt that her performance in the exam was not very satisfactory.