Chapter 1090: Self-esteem is in trouble

Yu Renshu had a lot of dreams in her coma, and one of the dreams left a deep impression on her, because she returned to the carefree days in her dreams, the time she spent in school at that time, that is really nostalgic, she doesn't need to face all kinds of tedious things in life every day, she only needs to do what she wants to do in the dormitory, and the student time is always happy, if she can, spend her whole life like this, it would be great.

But Yu Renshu's subconscious also understands that this kind of life has long passed, since the end has come, the whole world has been chaotic, there is no comfortable life in this world, and she also needs to run around every day to survive.

Eventually, when Yu Renshu woke up, she realized that she seemed to be in a hospital room, surrounded by white-lime rooms that had been painted, with blue curtains hanging at the window, and the breeze blowing slightly swayed the curtains, and outside the window was a beautiful view.

"Where am I? Am I not supposed to be in Southtown? Yu Renshu couldn't help but ask.

Yu Renshu raised her right hand to see the timing, but when she wanted to move her right hand, she found that her right arm had become empty, and then she remembered that her arm had been bitten off during the previous battle, and now she had lost her right hand.

Soon the door was pushed open, Qian Mingya walked in with Yu Hongxiu, and saw that her daughter had woken up, which was a relief, and then came over and comforted: "During this time, you hurry up and recuperate, let your body recover as soon as possible, as long as you can recover your body, then everything will be fine." ”

Yu Renshu couldn't help but say: "But our family doesn't have a lot of money itself, if we stay hospitalized, my family will definitely not be able to afford it!" ”

Yu Hongxiu then said to her mother: "It's okay, Dad said, no matter what kind of price it is, it's no problem, the hospital here doesn't dare to charge us, all the money is recorded in the Fengshen Palace, and it will be settled at the end of the year!" ”

"How many times have I told you, don't call dad when you see a man casually, don't you remember?" Yu Renshu said to her daughter.

Yu Hongxiu said aggrievedly: "I obviously didn't say anything wrong, it's really what my father said!" ”

Qian Mingya then said: "Girl, during the time you were in a coma, we found our uncle, it was Shen Feng, he took us to live in the city, and now you have also woken up, he said that he will let us go to live in the Fengshen Palace, you have woken up now, just to learn the good news!" ”

"What? Why are you doing this? Yu Renshu became angry when she heard this, and finally struggled to get up from the bed, as if to get out of here.

"Where are you going?" Qian Mingya hurriedly asked.

Yu Renshu replied: "I'm leaving, I don't want to see Shen Feng at all now, not at all!" I'm getting out of here now! ”

Qian Mingya then persuaded: "It's okay, my uncle said that he would protect us, and he didn't dislike you, our lives will get better after we stay here, why do you want to leave?" ”

"You don't understand, I always wanted to see him in the past, but now I definitely can't, especially the way I look now, if I see him, I can't accept it!" Yu Renshu said angrily, then stood up and put on her shoes with her left hand.

At this moment, Shen Feng also heard that Yu Renshu had woken up, so he rushed over, walked into the room and said, "Doctor, are you awake?" Your body hasn't fully recovered, so let's lie down on the bed and rest for a while, and I won't stop you from doing anything you want to do when your body is completely recovered! ”

Yu Renshu saw Shen Feng appear in front of her, this is the person she has been thinking about for a long time, if she had seen Shen Feng before, she would be very, very moved, but at this time, she burst into tears in an instant, and then tried to turn her head away and no longer looked at Shen Feng.

Shen Feng closed the door of the ward with his backhand, and then said seriously: "I have seen you before, but after seeing other men around you, I didn't appear in front of you, and then I left, and then I found out that it was your friend, everything was my misunderstanding, in short, Hongxiu is my daughter, I will take your family to live in the Fengshen Palace, you don't have to work hard outside anymore!" ”

Yu Renshu didn't say anything, just turned her head and gave Shen Feng a sideways and backward perspective, not even letting Shen Feng see her current expression.

Qian Mingya also persuaded: "Actually, I don't know what kind of contradictions have occurred between the two of you, but in my opinion, even if there was something that could not be said, now that so many years have passed at this time, it is time to say things clearly, there is no need to keep the words in your heart, which will embarrass yourself." ”

Shen Feng also nodded and said, "If you are blaming me for not going to you for so many years, can you really fight?" Because I really didn't fulfill the responsibilities of a father and husband, I haven't regarded you as my family for so many years, but now, your body is like this, even if you fight, it will be very difficult, since you are no longer suitable for living outside, then come to my side, I promise to take good care of you in the future! ”

After Shen Feng said this, Yu Renshu suddenly said: "No, I have never blamed you, because I didn't reveal a little bit of news to you, you don't know how you can show care about my news." The reason why I don't want to see you is because I can't get past this level in my heart! ”

Shen Feng slowly walked to Yu Renshu's side and asked, "Is it because you didn't say goodbye at the beginning?" Actually, I didn't pay attention to this matter, although I really couldn't accept the fact that you left me for a while, but then I also figured it out, you may have a better choice, and it's time for me to let go, but now I know that you may have a lot of hardships. ”

Yu Renshu was silent for a moment, and then explained: "I didn't say goodbye before because someone wanted to use me to divide your power, the chief official of Rongcheng at that time was still Xue Mingli, this guy looked down on the civil forces, so he liked to divide and disintegrate the people below, they threatened me with my mother and asked me to leave you, and I left later, but this is not the reason why I don't want to see you, I have other ideas." ”

Only then did Shen Feng understand Yu Renshu's reason for leaving her, if she left her for her mother, there was nothing wrong with it, but now, why was she still like this?

"Then why don't you want to pick me up? Is it because you don't think I'm worthy of you, so you don't want to meet me? Shen Feng then asked.

In the past few days, Shen Feng has already investigated clearly, Yu Hongxiu is his daughter, and the paternity test also supports this, but Shen Feng has not told Chang Jianyi about this matter, and if she wants to know about it, she still needs a suitable time.

Yu Renshu was silent for a while, and then said, "Mom, go out with the red embroidery!" ”

Qian Mingya then hugged Yu Hongxiu, walked out of the ward, and said to Yu Hongxiu: "Your parents have something to whisper, you can't disturb them now!" ”

After the two of them left the room, only Shen Feng and Yu Renshu were left in the room, and now Yu Renshu finally said what was in her heart: "Shen Feng, in the previous time, I had actually imagined the picture of the two of us reuniting, but not here, but in other places!" Have a suitable time to find a picturesque place. I am gorgeously dressed, you are handsome and chic, at this time, no matter what kind of heart you have, I can tell you! ”

Shen Feng then said: "It's no problem to say anything now, I will definitely listen patiently, and you don't need to dress up carefully, because you are beautiful, the same as ten years ago!" ”

Yu Renshu shook her head and said, "No, it's different. At this time, I am in trouble, I want to solve the troubles around me, and I even need you to make a move, so that I can achieve my goal, which is not appropriate, not suitable at all! It's as if I'm a liability, and I'm just showing up to drag you down, and I'm not worthy of you right now! ”

"Don't talk nonsense, how can there be anything worthy and unworthy of love?" Shen Feng said unhappily.

"That's not right! Some! Yu Renshu turned her head to look at Shen Feng, her face was already full of tears at this time, and then she said seriously: "If I wanted to come to you, then I could have done so 10 years ago, but I don't want to return to you like this, I want to have an identity worthy of you, I don't want to become a woman who comes and goes at a moment's notice, I want an identity that can be around you without inferiority, when facing you, I can joke with you directly, and get along with you like a lover, Instead of becoming your vassal! I'm an independent woman, I don't want to accept your pity, it's not love, it's just one-sided helping and being helped! ”

Yu Renshu said so much in one breath, and was able to say all the words in her heart, and it was only at this time that Shen Feng understood what she was thinking in her heart.

Yu Renshu is a very arrogant woman, so at this time, her self-esteem does not allow her to easily return to Shen Feng's side, because in this way, she is like a vassal, like a gift to Shen Feng's side, she wants to be as independent and equal as possible in front of Shen Feng.

So Shen Feng could only say: "I have never looked down on you, on the contrary, I still have a feeling of being ashamed of myself, I feel that I am not worthy of you, you should understand, you have a high education, you know a lot of knowledge, you are very beautiful, and you have done a lot of research......

"These are all in the past, and the former excellence can no longer cover up my current downfall!" Yu Renshu couldn't help but say: "Now the identity gap between us is very big, I hope I can hold my head high and be confident when facing you, but now I can't do it, so I don't dare to see you, what I'm afraid of is that when I see you, you are high, and I am already a woman who is not worthy of you!" ”