"You don't want me, what am I doing here? Like you said, I'm that cheap? ”

Zhao Pingjin didn't scold her: "It's still the same sentence, you are casual, it has nothing to do with me." ”

"It's okay, it's okay, we're okay and I don't know how many times."

"Let's take the test farther, the farther the better." He said inexplicably.

"Why listen to you, isn't it okay?"

Zhao Pingjin glanced at her, as if he was tired of arguing with her like this, and he walked out again.

Xu He didn't stop him, watching him walk out of the bedroom and out of the apartment, the electronic door lock rang, and it was completely quiet.

Xu He didn't shed tears, she even looked at the empty house and smiled.

She knows what it's like when she's sick, so she doesn't bother with Zhao Pingjin, and she doesn't get angry.

Because she didn't believe what he said, she didn't believe a word.

That year, Xu He was about to step into his twenty-four years old.

Like every college graduate, she successfully completed the defense and graduated successfully, but others cried and laughed and said goodbye to classmates and friends, endless graduation photos, endless classmates, Xu He was extremely lonely in that lively sadness.

She ended up taking a few photos of her bachelor's gown downstairs in her dormitory and in front of the big rock of the school motto.

There are also other graduates or elementary school brothers who asked her to make a film together.

Xu He politely refused.

She still couldn't wait for Zhao Pingjin in the end.

It wasn't until it got dark that she left school and took a taxi back to her apartment.

Her things had almost been packed, and Xu He looked at the two boxes, one large and one small.

She really hates the feeling of moving around, but she still doesn't have a home of her own.

Speaking of home, Xu He suddenly thought of the Xu family's original old house, which Zhao Pingjin bought back for her, and wrote her name.

It is the only place in the world that completely belongs to Xu He.

Xu He left the apartment the next morning and went straight back to his hometown.

The yard was cleaned up, and the hibiscus planted by my father bloomed exceptionally well this year.

Xu He's heart was unprecedentedly calm, and she walked through every corner and room of the courtyard.

Although it has changed hands, some traces of the past can still be found.

This feeling makes people feel relaxed and at ease.

Xu He is like returning to his youth, lying in the room where he slept when he was a child, and when he opened his eyes in the morning, he seemed to be able to hear Xu Liyong's forever smiling voice.

She gradually felt uncomfortable, got up and ate breakfast, and went to Xu Liyong's cemetery.

Xu He sat in front of Xu Liyong's tomb until dusk.

She couldn't remember how many times she cried, and she couldn't remember telling her father how many grievances she had suffered over the years.

These words seem to be only for the deceased, so that he will not feel bored and numb to them.

Just like Xianglin's sister-in-law, no matter how pitiful you are, if you talk too much, others will not empathize at all.

"You don't want me anymore, throw me and Meow Meow like this, you're good, you go to live your birthday quietly, haven't you thought about what I should do?"

Xu He wiped Xu Liyong's photo over and over again with his sleeve: "Now he doesn't want me anymore, it's useless for me to do anything, and even I myself am beginning to doubt, is he really tired of me, or is there another reason, Dad, it's really hard for people to live, if it weren't for Meow Meow, I really want to go to you......"

"Dad, you say, do I still have to insist like this? If it's just wishful thinking on my part, what's the point of persevering. ”

"Dad, can you tell me if you have a spirit in the sky, does Zhao Pingjin really dislike me and don't want me anymore......

Xu He lowered his head lightly and pressed his face against the cold tombstone.

The green pines are silent, and the mountain breeze is quiet.

Xu He wiped the tears from Xu Liyong's photo, and when the last ray of light was almost swallowed up, she supported her knees and slowly stood up.

Chinese medicine is applied every day, but it has no effect.

Xu He simply abandoned it.

On the seventh day after returning to my hometown, my period was a week late.

Xu He thought to himself, he was really stupid and ridiculous.

is such a broken body, and he is still dreaming of giving birth to children.

Even if he was disheartened to the extreme, he was still cautious with the last bit of hope, hoping that there would be a complete turnaround with him.

Maybe it was because of a heavy rain before, maybe it was because she was in a bad mood and her body was not worried, this time she came to menstruation, she was in a terrible pain, and the painkillers were even completely useless.

She lay in bed all day, and only when the most uncomfortable wave of pain had passed, did she get up and cook herself a little porridge.

It's been so long since I've been back, and I haven't heard from me at all.

His heart is really ruthless.

Xu He thought of the previous month, the two of them got along with each other, bit by bit, and his heart was indescribably uncomfortable.

He was in the hotel on a business trip that day, and he forced himself to call his husband, why?

Is it just a pleasure in bed, or is it just a momentary whim?

Xu He was tired and didn't want to speculate about it anymore.

My hometown is a small town with a very slow pace of life.

Xu He deliberately arranged her life very full, cooking, cleaning up the yard, raising flowers, reviewing, taking online classes, and even going for a night run in the nearby People's Park after dinner, just to make herself extremely busy and tired, and she could fall asleep in bed at night.