Monday, March 21

When I wake up in the morning, my mood is like this gloomy day. I was absent-minded all morning, and when I returned to my accommodation, my roommate asked me if I had caused trouble with anyone. I said that I didn't mess with others, I just messed with myself. Since yesterday, my face has always been heavy, and people can of course tell at a glance that I have something on my mind. Yes, I have something on my mind, it's heavy, and it makes me tired. I always wonder how much foreign debt my parents have to owe to build a house! When people reach middle age, they still have to worry about the house, and they have been busy for half their lives, just for that resting house. However, I am afraid that this long-cherished wish will not be fulfilled, and the three houses built by my parents belong to the three of our brothers. Once you have built it, where will you live? Like a grandfather, like a grandfather, he has never had a spacious and bright new house in his twilight years, and he is still crowded in a narrow tiled house. Parents have worked hard all their lives, just to pave the way ahead for their children, and I don't know how many bitter tears our parents have buried under our feet.

I'm more dissatisfied with my brother, who has been working outside for so many years and hasn't earned any money. When I go home, I always get angry with my parents. I know that after graduating from primary school, he will not have too many ideals, and even if he is afraid, he will have been prematurely killed by reality. In any case, when you grow up, you have to have the courage to bear the burden of the family and help your parents.

I'm conflicted. I don't know whether to study hard to get into a good university and bring them a tearful smile, or to plunge into real life as soon as possible to help them relieve some of their burden.

At the age of 20, I am still cultivating on the road to study, and if I am admitted to university, I will have to practice for another four years. At that time, in the face of Ben 50's parents, what kind of face should I look at them? The lonely back of my parents came to mind, and I felt a heart-wrenching pain in my heart. How I long for me to be able to bear the storm with them, and how I hope that my parents can enjoy happiness as soon as possible. The cruelty of reality has always been like this, and tears are always pale and powerless in front of it.

I'm not in the mood to study anymore. I stole a bit of responsibility from my home that I couldn't take on yet. I was really tired and depressed. The whole day was spent in this depressed heart, and there was more pity. Another day, but I spent all of my time in this depressed heart, and I had more regrets in my heart. My parents, who are suffering at home, want me to study hard and live better in the future, and don't ask me for anything in return. Heart-wrenching pain in my heart. I should study hard and live the rest of my life hard, just to have a clear conscience. But, I'm so scared I can't.

It's late at night, standing in the corner of the backlit wall, looking at the thick night, I really want to cry. Tears have been stored for a long time, and too much. Like a dead night, it calmed my heart. Be strong, study hard, and bring more joy to your parents with a little bit of your own suffering. Now, stop thinking about those things and turn it into motivation for yourself to move forward and let yourself run forward as hard as you can.

The quiet night will pass, and the stars will have a time to rest.