4.1 Friday

I thought it was a joke played by God, and the results of the joint entrance examination came down, and the class ranked 33, which was two places better than last time. I know that I haven't studied seriously in the past month, and I have no whereabouts, which is really beyond my expectations. Before the grades came down, I had already given up on myself, I had already started to be decadent, and I was indifferent to all the exams and results. But this time, when I saw the report card, my heart also began to wake up and I began to reflect. I found that hope was not far away.

Now, what I am faced with is acknowledging my own weakness. Surprisingly poor English and math. The total score of the two subjects was only more than 70 points, which was very sad. Now, the only thing I can do is to seize all the time to make up for my shortcomings. You can't let yourself be immersed in sadness and melancholy, you must quickly stand up and continue to work hard. Trying to think about what you have is what motivates you to move forward. If you miss the sun, you can't cry, and you will miss the moon and the stars. No matter what, don't give up easily, if you give up, you will not succeed, only persistence can be successful.

There are still more than a dozen people missing in the class, and what they believe is: the college entrance examination is only two months, and they may not be able to pass the college entrance examination if they work hard, and they are still guilty, so it is better to run away. Yes, I thought the same way the other day, because by this time, the end has been decided, and I will not insist on it anymore. Now, I want to say: wrong! Completely wrong, learning is not for others, but for ourselves. Don't just focus on grades, but ask yourself if you've really learned. Yes, it's painful to hold on to what you've given up, but what about after that? Instead of letting regret accompany you in the future, it is better to work hard now, regain your dreams, fight for them little by little, and don't think about whether your dreams will come true, all you need is to go step by step, and walk steadily. Look at the scenery and walk, no longer follow the crowd, and be true to yourself.

You don't have to learn with the mentality of proving yin to others, but you have to show yourself that you are not cowardly and timid. No matter how strong the wind and rain are, don't be afraid, defeat is still glorious, and challenging yourself is the most important.

I no longer disturb my mentality for some trivial things in the outside world, I know what I should do now, and I am very happy to have a clear goal. There is a shortage of people in the class, so if it is quiet, you can study with peace of mind. It's no longer the same as before, just sitting still. In the future, it doesn't matter if I fail, all I want is the process, the result is not perfect, dedication is perfection.

For today, I feel very happy, because I have lived a full life, there is no escape, there is no waste, two months, as long as every day is very fulfilling, then, the conclusion of the third year of high school will also be perfect.

Now, I'm optimistic and confident, as long as I stick to it. The journey is not about the length, but about the scenery you see along the way.