Tuesday, May 24

This kind of environment has no meaning for me, except for wasting time and giving me a lot of feelings, it can no longer stimulate my motivation to study and struggle.

I spent the whole noon indifferently, according to the rules of life, until it was close to two o'clock in the afternoon, and I didn't want to live like this anymore. I suddenly decided to go to Xinhua Bookstore to read a book, and I would rather skip class to read a book than listen to the noisy sound of those characters who have no feeling of it.

A man took a bus to the library far away in the city center. The bus is driving slowly, and you can enjoy the old and new buildings around you. I'm in a much better mood. When school hours came, I also went to the bookstore. I went in and went straight to the second floor. The purpose of this trip is twofold, one is to check the processing method of the photo, I found it, the program is not complicated, I can still understand a little. I spent another hour on the second floor, read some other books, and then went downstairs to find another book. This is recommended by a classmate, "1988-I want to talk to the world", Han Han's. I read 55 pages of this book, and because time did not allow, I was a little tired from standing. In the meantime, I saw some passages, I couldn't hide my happiness, smiled alone, put the book down, pushed the door open and left, and came back to read it when I had time.

I walked back for a full forty minutes, but I didn't feel very tired. The route back is not the one you came from, and the scenery you see is naturally different. When I see some people, I feel an indescribable joy. The fresh and sunny face makes people feel a lot more nostalgic. Back at the residence, the roommate jokingly said that school was over, what did you learn today?

After eating, don't go to school.

Why don't you go to class anymore and still go to self-study? Maybe it's a personal favorite. After all, there are many differences between night and daytime, and the scenery at night is more suitable for me. Sitting alone in this lonely class, I don't like to use other words to describe the self-study class, and a person will inevitably trigger some feelings.

I also want to talk to the world. What to talk about? Talking about ideals, nothingness; Talking about reality, cruelty; Talking about life is boring. Whose fault is it? Who is it that makes each other so confused? Before I even stepped into society, I already realized that this was a big world, and I was in it, and I was nothing.

I really want to see the sea, and I really want to carry a bag and taste the hardships of travel for the first time.

I don't have a clue, and I always get back to the starting point very quickly. really grew up, and the circle became cramped, and it soon went around. If you want to go out and break through, you will be able to do what you want in the near future. Thinking about it, I can see it, and I am more calm about the rest of the days.

Outside the school, I feel that everything is gloomy, and the mood is naturally gloomy and cheerful. But when I went back to school, I was immediately depressed again. Happiness is to be more sorrowful. Immediately adjust your mindset and eliminate sorrow.

I still feel that my sorrow makes me very real, and I don't want to share this beautiful sorrow of youth with anyone, everyone's sorrow is different, even if it is triggered by the same thing, the inner feeling is also different.

This flowering season, there are always a lot of flowers blooming and failing, and there may be a lot of anecdotes of youth without ending.