When he was in college, Chen Wenhai fell ill due to being overly depressed. After falling ill, under the guidance of his classmates, Chen Wenhai treated the disease with an optimistic attitude and gradually recovered. However, a serious illness has caused him to suffer a great loss of vitality, and it is impossible to fully recover his body in a short period of time. From illness to complete recovery, Chen Wenhai experienced a marathon human growth run, in which Chen Wenhai not only had to fight against the disease itself, but also had to fight to the death against all kinds of people in society.

There is a reason why Chen Wenhai's physical condition is so bad, but people can only make various judgments about the causes of this state of affairs based on hearsay and their own life experience, and such judgments are often far from the real situation.

Some people attribute Chen Wenhai's illness to the loss of love, so they pay special attention to his marriage problems, and they intentionally or unintentionally urge Chen Wenhai's parents to solve their son's marriage problems as soon as possible, which is originally well-intentioned, however, because their judgment is fundamentally wrong, therefore, their actions have put Chen Wenhai into an extremely embarrassing state of life, and the more active they are on this issue, the more disgusted Chen Wenhai becomes.

In order to get rid of the entanglement between his mother and some people on his marriage issue, Chen Wenhai had to chase Zhang Xuemei. Why? Because although Zhang Xuemei is very beautiful, however, she doesn't like Chen Wenhai very much, thinks that Chen Wenhai and her are not the same person, and asks him to give up the pursuit of herself, and Chen Wenhai insists that her health is too poor and she needs a beautiful and gentle girl like Zhang Xuemei to take care of herself in life, so there was a conflict between them.

Of course, Zhang Xuemei's injuries again and again also made Chen Wenhai disheartened, however, Zhang Xuemei's heart was very soft, and she couldn't bear to see Chen Wenhai sink in pain, so she reconciled with him again and again, and each time she reconciled, she rekindled the flame of love in his heart.

Under the double torture of physical and mental, Chen Wenhai was depressed, suffered from insomnia for a long time, and ate very little. In order to avoid a complete collapse of his body, Chen Wenhai not only paid attention to rest, but also used honey, milk powder, malt milk essence and other nutritional products to nourish the body.

Originally, Chen Wenhai did this completely out of disobedience, however, some people didn't understand it, and slandered him even more viciously, calling him a "scoundrel" and a "demon king of the world"! In the eyes of these people, Chen Wenhai is a shameless guy who doesn't learn anything, doesn't seek progress, and messes around all day long!

Alas, how hard it is for man to live!

Once, when Hu Zhanyong saw Chen Wenhai drinking milk again, he said to him:

"You don't eat well all the time, can you get better just by drinking milk?"

"It's not that I don't want to eat properly, it's that I can't eat at all!"

"Why can't I eat it?"

"No appetite."

"Why do you have no appetite?"

"How can I have an appetite for insomnia?"

"I think the reason why you have insomnia is because you think too much! Can't you think a little less? ”

"I want to think less about it, but I have too many troubles to calm down!"

"You have insomnia, do you miss your wife?" Hu Zhanyong joked with him.

"I don't want a wife! Besides, my wife can't just think about it! Now no one understands me, even Zhang Xuemei doesn't talk to me all day long! You say that colleagues don't talk to each other all day, like strangers, how boring is that! ”

"Who told you to yell in the office that day? If I had changed, I wouldn't have paid attention to you! ”

"Am I willing to yell like that? Even you don't understand me! ”

"I don't understand! What's so good about Zhang Xuemei, isn't she just pretty? Is it worth it for you to find her dead and alive? ”

"Huh? So you think so too! Chen Wenhai was surprised, "You think I only went to her because she was beautiful!" You don't understand love at all! ”

"What love is not love! Isn't that what love is all about? ”

"You treat love like this, no wonder some people say that we are the Beat Generation!" Chen Wenhai said sadly: "Now that many young people have lost their faith, don't believe in anyone, and live in a state of confusion all day long, is there still any meaning in such a life?" ”

"That's the way the current social trend is, can you change it?"

"Now, it is true that many people have problems with their beliefs, they no longer believe in Marxism-Leninism, and they yearn for the bourgeois way of life in the West!"

"Westerners are indeed better off than we are!"

"What's the use of just yearning? We should use our hard-working hands to create a happy and beautiful life! Isn't the purpose of our country's reform and opening up now so that our people can live a happy and beautiful life? ”

"You look like a politician!"

"Whether it was when I was in the queue, as a worker, or when I was in college, people spoke of me like this, and some even joked with me that I was a Marxist-Leninist theoretician! I have read several Marxist-Leninist books and am a firm believer in Marxism-Leninism! ”

"Do you still believe in Marxism-Leninism?"

"Now that many people no longer believe in Marxism-Leninism, I have wavered on the issue of faith! However, I believe that people should still have faith in life, otherwise, life will lose its meaning! Chen Wenhai stared at Hu Zhanyong's face, "Are you willing to live a life without meaning in life?" ”

"I don't think as deeply as you think, all I want is to live one day at a time!"

"This kind of life is too meaningless, isn't it?"

"I don't want to live too tired, I just want to live a relaxed and chic life! You see how chic Westerners live! ”

"You are saying this from the position of the bourgeoisie!"

"The pursuit of a better life is the common aspiration of mankind!"

The next day, Wang Xiulan said to Chen Wenhai:

"I really didn't see that you were so interested in politics!"

"You only know now? Hu Zhanyong told you, right? ”

"Hu Zhanyong and I are both academics, and neither of us is very interested in politics."

"I think you should also care about politics as a scholar."

"Politics is of little use to us!"

"You can't say that! Don't forget, we're all teachers now! ”

"Do teachers have to care about politics?"

"Can a teacher who doesn't care about politics be a good teacher? If we teachers don't care about politics, can we accomplish the important task of educating people? Teaching and educating people is a unity, and we cannot separate them! ”

"You're about to become an educator!"

"I hope to be an educator in the future!"

"Then you should work hard!"

At this time, Qu Ying came over. He said to Chen Wenhai:

"Who wouldn't be an empty ideologue? Some people can't even teach books well, and only talk about it, so what is the use of such educators to the people? ”

"It's not realistic to expect a new teacher to teach well, right? It is understandable that some teachers fail to teach well for a while due to various specific reasons. ”

"Don't excuse yourself and shirk responsibility!"

"You can't say that about me, can you? Concrete analysis of specific problems is the living soul of Marxism! ”

After the principal left, Wang Xiulan said to Chen Wenhai:

"You are so bold that you dare to confront the school leaders in person!"

"How is this a collision? I'm convincing with reason! ”

"But the headmaster doesn't think so! If you are so leaderless, you will suffer a big loss in the future! ”

"You're saying he'll get revenge on me later?"

"He already has an opinion on you and Zhang Xuemei's issue, and if you dare to refute his point of view in person, he will rectify you even more!"

"Do you want me to be obedient like Zhang Xuemei?"

Revised March 9, 2022