During my time in prison, I thought about it a lot.

I remember that when I first met Yulan, I was at my adoptive father's house in Jizhou. I was only 10 years old, and I had just experienced the loss of my parents, and I cried all day and night. At that time, I didn't have such a thorough view of life and death, but I only knew that in the future, I would be alone.

Suddenly one day, a little girl pushed open my door.

Those eyes were childish, but they showed sadness the moment they saw me. It looks like the kind of timid and scared person, and when he saw me with tears in his eyes, he just said tremblingly, "I'm also an orphan, don't cry, the lord and the lady are so worried about you!" ”

I looked at her, and I was a little embarrassed, but she immediately lowered her head, and her hands were tightly tugging on her skirt, looking very nervous.

Later, I learned that her name was Yulan, and she was a year younger than me. She was abandoned at the door of her adoptive father's house at birth, and her adoptive father adopted her.

With similar ages and similar backgrounds, we quickly became good sisters. Although, she always called me Miss. But in my heart, I never saw her as a subordinate. She's just my sister.

And those times, looking back now, for us, can't go back!

I can only sigh, the world is hot and cold.

And my murder of the prince has been delayed again and again.

Liuyun has never been able to order my execution, and in his heart, he still can't do it.

I don't know how under the double pressure of the Han family and the imperial court, he managed to remain indifferent for a whole month. Now that I have confessed my guilt, the will of punishment is long overdue. But this month has passed, and there is still no sound.

Today, an uninvited guest came to the cell, and he had not been seen for a long time, and he still looked the same as before, unchanged. He just stood outside the cell and frowned at me without saying a word, and I didn't say anything.

I remember that I promised him not to return to Liuyun's side, but I still chose to come back.

Ziqian finally showed a bitter smile, but it was an ugly look that was worse than crying, "I already knew that your kindness would be carefree in the palace." As I said, you are not fit to live in the palace. However, you love the emperor, no matter how far you run away or how long you run, you still can't escape him! ”

I laughed miserably, how could I not understand his words. Even I myself thought that life in the palace was not for me, but I still chose to re-enter the palace for the sake of Liuyun. Because I know that I still miss him, and I still can't let go of him.

But I can only say that I brought it on myself, and it has nothing to do with others.

"Sister! Brother only wishes you peace, your safety is more important than anything else..."He smiled wryly and stared at me in a daze, his eyes sad.

I shook my head and looked up at him, "Did the emperor ask you to come?" ”

He was startled, then lowered his eyes, acquiescing to my words.

"If you still treat me as your sister, please go back and tell the emperor that Zhen Luo will bear the crime of murdering the prince alone." When I said this, I was indifferent.

Ziqian's expression suddenly darkened, "Zhen Luo, you still don't seem to understand, how big is this crime?" ”

I laughed self-deprecatingly, "I know very well how culpable this is!" Even if it's death..."

"You're not going to die!" He stopped me from talking loudly, and then turned to sighing, "King Ding'an, I would rather give up my life to save you, and I can do the same." ”

With a stunned expression, I stared at him stupidly, "What did you say?" You said that Haoxuan gave up his life in order to save me? ”

He raised his head and paused for a while, "Zhen Luo, what I am saying to you now is not to provoke the relationship between you and the emperor, but just to let you know that in addition to King Ding'an, you also have my brother who regards you as the most important person." ”

I stared at him dumbfounded, not uttering.

"Even if King Ding'an rebels, the emperor can't execute him. Because King Ding'an has a gold medal from the emperor in his hand, no matter what he does wrong in the future, he can only be punished, not punished. His words were soft, but sad.

I looked at him incredulously for a long time before I uttered a sentence, "Why?" Will the emperor give Haoxuan this gold medal for avoiding death? Isn't the emperor afraid that Haoxuan will use this gold medal to do something to hurt Liuyun? ”

He showed a very helpless smile, "Because, that gold medal for avoiding death was promised by the emperor to King Ding'an, as long as King Ding'an abides by his duty and does not compete with the emperor for the throne, even if Liuyun becomes the emperor, he can't kill him!" His tone was a little low.

I looked at him and shook my head in disbelief, "You mean to say..."

"The palms and backs of the hands are full of meat, even if the emperor liked Liuyun as the prince and abandoned the king of Ding'an, he must not want them to kill each other. He asked King Ding'an to swear in front of his ancestors that he would not have the heart of rebellion in this life, and he would be the king of Ding'an. But he was also worried that Liuyun would cut him down, so he gave him the gold medal. Because, the open and secret battles between emperors are ruthless. As soon as he spoke, a fact immediately surged into my mind, but I couldn't believe it.

We were all silent, the sour feeling eroded my heart, and I asked him in a trembling voice: "Haoxuan, has he never rebelled?" All of these were planned by Liuyun? Including, the matter of Mobei was also planned by you and Liuyun? ”

He buried his head and couldn't answer for a long time. After a long time, he raised his head and only said deeply, "I'm sorry!" ”

"Haha..."I sneered, my eyes filled with moisture, "I finally understand why you repeatedly prevent me from returning to Liuyun's side, because Liuyun didn't just use me to restrict Haoxuan from the beginning, but also to use me to get rid of Haoxuan. I also finally understood why Liuyun assigned Haoxuan to Mobei on the fifth day of my marriage to Haoxuan. I understand better why you deliberately provoked the king of Mobei in Mobei, just to lure Haoxuan forward. I also understand that the reason why Liuyun took me to Mobei is nothing more than to let Haoxuan understand that I am now his side princess, and I also need to bear his sins! ”

I've never laughed so out of shape and ridiculously, since the day I returned to the palace, I've been used by Liuyun as a tool to get rid of Haoxuan.

Haoxuan, the reason why he committed suicide by taking poison was entirely because of me.

On that day, Liuyun announced that he had entered the palace, what did they talk about? I want to know, I have to know!

Why, let Haoxuan make a decision so quickly.

He exchanged his death for my life.

There has never been a moment in my life when I want to live like I do now. Because, I owe Haoxuan too much, really too much.

Now that I put these things together, I finally figured it out. The emperor's love is only so superficial and so heartbreaking.

Ziqian kept frowning at me and asked me in a daze, "Isn't it, at this moment, do you want to live?" ”

I looked at him with teary eyes, "I want to see Liuyun, I want to see Liuyun now!" ”

He hesitated and didn't answer me.

My emotions instantly lost control, and I shouted to him again: "I want to see the emperor, I want to see the emperor now." You take me to him, I'm going to ask him, I'm going to ask him, I'm going to ask him, I want him to say it to me personally! ”

The flicker on his face made me see that if I wasn't at the moment of life and death, he would never have told me about these things.

"Ziqian, you take me to see him, if he can admit these to me personally, I promise you, I will leave the palace and have nothing to do with him from now on." spoke to him hurriedly, although it was a deception, but he still couldn't see it.

He looked at me suddenly, and after a long time, he asked me, "Are you really, going to leave the palace?" Does it also mean that you are willing to live? ”

I nodded, very heavily.

He sighed again, "Your Majesty, you must be very disappointed in me!" I'll take you to him! ”

Finally, calming the dark tide in my heart, I watched him tell the jailer to open the cell door, and quietly followed him to the Zhaoren Hall.

On the way, I stared sideways at him and asked myself why, under these handsome skins, there was such a reckless approach.

Liuyun is, and now Ziqian is the same.

The stupidest thing is still me, I have been played by these people again and again.

The Zhaoren Hall was dimly lit, but it was unusually quiet. The wind in the night washed away my haggard feeling of the past month.

When Gonggong Yu saw me and Ziqian arrive at Zhaoren Palace, he was stunned, but he didn't speak, and retreated to the side very interestingly.

The red door of Zhaoren Hall was closed, and Ziqian said very calmly, "You go in!" The emperor has been anxious about you recently! ”

I just listened to him, and as soon as he finished speaking, I stretched out my hand and pushed open the door of the temple.

The sound of the door pushing the door disturbed Liuyun, who was meditating in front of the window, and the moment he turned around and saw me, he stood in place in shock, unable to utter a word.

In the middle of the ring, he suddenly turned around, his eyes flashed with joy, and he quickly rushed forward and encircled me in his arms, "Zhen Luo..." This call made me almost think that he had never used me.

I pushed him away resolutely, and he looked at me in confusion.

I turned my back and said to him coldly, "There are some things I want you to tell me personally!" ”

He slowly walked around to me, but asked me, "Zhen Luo, who brought you into the palace?" You're not..."

I still sneered, and replied with two words very simply, "Ziqian!" ”

Liuyun's body was stunned, his eyes were sharp and profound, "He? What did he say to you? ”

I raised my eyes to look at him, not for a moment as determined as this time, "Liuyun, I want you to tell me in person, from the day I enter the palace with you again, do you just want me to stay by your side?" Or is there some other purpose? Is there any other reason besides using me to restrict Haoxuan? ”

He was stunned with a lot of helplessness, and his eyes looked away from me, ethereal.

The look in his eyes already told me the answer. But I still want to hear him say it to me in person!

"You say! I want you to explain everything to me! Liuyun, between us, is there still pure love! There are no conspiracies and rights involved. "My voice was so deep that I couldn't even see a hint of emotion.

He slowly closed his eyes, his brow twisted into a straight line, and I knew that he was fighting against himself.

We faced each other like this, and I asked him, "Are you not ready to say to me?" Do you want to hide from me forever? ”

He still hadn't opened his eyes, and the heartache suddenly rose. I sneered and slowly turned around, ready to leave.

At the moment when he stretched out his hand to open the door of the temple, his voice came from behind him: "Zhen Luo, I said!" I'll tell you all! ”