The green poplar flew and rained overnight, the raindrops were frightening, and the heart was earnest.

In my waiting, two and a half years passed slowly, and there was only half a year left before the three years I promised Zhuangzi.

I sat on the edge of my bed all night, and the sound of wind and rain outside kept me quiet.

In the past six months, the country has reached a war agreement with the surrounding small countries, which is what I am most worried about. Because at any moment, they will attack the Min country.

I don't know what Liuyun is doing now, and whether he has the ability to deal with Zhuangzi.

Now he still calls him Liuyun, and he almost forgets his real name, Rong Chenxuan.

Now he still calls him Zhuangzi, but he always remembers his real name, Zhuang Jing.

When the sky was clear, the dazzling light entered my eyes through the bead curtain, and I felt a slight tingling sensation, so I naturally reached out to cover the light. Another night, I sat all night, but I didn't think about anything, I sat all night.

I got up and went over and opened the door, and suddenly I had an ominous premonition, and my heart was beating very hard.

I stood in front of the door of the dormitory for a long time, unable to suppress the uneasiness in my heart.

Whether or not, just think about it yourself.

Something's going to happen.

As I expected, Siyu hurriedly appeared in the courtyard outside the hall, gasping for breath, and a kind of fear was written on his face. I know her character all too well, and she would never be so flustered unless it was a matter of great urgency.

My heart was even more disturbed by her presence, but I would not show it on my face, because, over the years, I have learned to face everything calmly, and it has also made me understand how important it is to be calm.

She hurried up to me, a little incoherent, "Song Liu, what to do, what to do... What are we going to do with the two of us..."

Listening to her words, I could roughly guess what was going on.

For more than two years, I stayed in the Yuchu Palace, never stepped out of the palace gate half a step, even the concubine went to the queen mother every morning to greet the morning greetings did not observe, Zhuangzi also rarely came, sometimes two or three months did not see him, maybe he, really for the will to unify the world with a full attitude.

In this palace, except for Queen Wu Xue and Lady Zixi, who have some hatred for me, I have always gotten along well with other people in the palace.

Nowadays, Zixi is also in-depth and simple, and rarely gets along with others.

And Wu Xue is still grounded.

What should the two of us do in Siyu's mouth is the best proof of my guess.

Is it really, going to war?

Seeing that I didn't react, she said anxiously again, "Song Liu... What's wrong with you today, you seem to be absent-minded, do you know..."I didn't let her continue, but gagged her mouth with my hand, and smiled at her softly, but my heart was extremely bitter, "Time flies so fast, it's time to fight, right?" ”

Siyu was stunned and looked at me in astonishment, "You... You know it all? ”

I shook my head slightly and closed my eyes, "It's a matter of time, but it's just a little overwhelming." Could it be that in this world, we have to fight and kill, and we have to sacrifice the lives of others to be unified? ”

She lowered her eyebrows, her eyebrows locked deeply, and she muttered to me for a long time, "Song Liu, will you stand on the emperor's side?" "I know who the emperor is in her mouth, but I can't go against my heart, because I will only stand on the side of Liuyun.

"I know that although you stayed by the emperor's side, your heart never left." She suddenly said something that surprised me, and I looked up at the sky that I couldn't open my eyes to, and I didn't speak.

Actually, I didn't know what to say to her.

"On the sixteenth of next month, the emperor will go on an expedition, and this battle is still unavoidable." Siyu's tone returned to calm, but I heard a little uneasiness, and my eyes fell back on her, only then did I react to what she said, "What do you say, the sixteenth of next month?" ”

She bowed her head silently, I didn't expect things to be so fast, next month sixteen, it will be less than a month, Zhuangzi and him, they are all ready for war.

I didn't have time to think about it, I picked up the lotus foot and ran, and in two and a half years, I stepped out of the palace gate of the Yoga Palace for the first time.

The Chengyang Hall is still the same as it was two years ago, except that there are a few more unfamiliar faces, and without mercy, two guards blocked me from the hall.

I was shocked, and then I changed to a serious look, and my tone was not polite, "Presumptuous, don't you know who this palace is?" ”

The guards glanced at each other, and then looked at me suspiciously, the women who can call themselves "this palace" in the palace are not low, and they don't want to offend people, so they just look at me and don't speak. But he didn't let me get out, and let me enter the temple.

"You—" I spat out these two words heavily, and was stopped by a voice behind me, "You two still haven't made amends to Concubine Liu." "Looking back, it was a man I had never seen before, but looking at his outfit, I knew that he was a royal guard, but I wondered how he would know who I was if I had never seen him.

This Zhuangzi seems to have changed a lot of people.

He walked up to me, bowed slightly and said very respectfully, "The minister asks Concubine Liu to say goodbye." ”

I gathered up Fang Cai's angry expression and replied very respectfully, "You don't have to be polite. ”

His face is very delicate, which makes him not look very old, maybe not big, but with a bit of an insurmountable temperament, "Does Niangniang want to see the emperor?" I nodded, "Please pass it on to you." ”

He nodded and entered the temple.

After a while, he slowly withdrew from the hall, "Niangniang, please!" ”

The moment I entered the temple gate, I suddenly felt a panic.

When Zhuangzi saw me, he immediately got up from his seat and walked towards me, with a hint of a smile on the corner of his mouth, "For more than two years, you haven't taken a step out of the Yu Palace, what's the matter today, you actually came to the Chengyang Palace." ”

I smiled back at him, "I'm bored, so I want to come out for a walk." ”

His smile gradually retracted, until there was no longer a trace of a smile on his face, which surprised me, "You came to see me, but for the sixteenth of next month?" ”

I didn't avoid his question, but nodded naturally, "On the sixteenth of next month, do you really want to send troops to Minguo?" ”

"Song Liu, this is my only wish for many years, so this time, it is imperative. The Min side can't hold it anymore, and on the sixteenth of next month, our two countries will fight at the junction. I don't know how long this battle will last, and I can't wait any longer, because the days you stay with me are only half a year left. "I didn't expect him to remember the time so clearly, yes! Half a year later, I was able to leave and live the life I wanted.

I was silent for a moment, and then I spoke without hesitation: "On the sixteenth of next month, take me with you!" ”

He was immediately stunned by my words, stared at me in a daze for a long time and couldn't say a word, so I cautiously pursed my lips again, with a deep request, "Take me with you!" ”

Halfway through, he asked me, "You want me to take you with you?" Do you know how dangerous the battlefield is? The voice was low, but it did not lose the majesty of a king.

I bowed my head and said in an unusually calm tone, "Of course I know that the battlefield is dangerous, but I still want you to take me with me. ”

"Give me a reason!" He spat out these words softly, and the impulse I want to see Liuyun at this moment cannot be explained in a sentence or two. But I can't tell him my true purpose, because I don't know if it will have a bad effect on Liuyun.

We fell silent together, so quiet that we could only hear each other's breathing, sometimes rapid, sometimes calm.

When he tried to purse his lips again, I said, "No reason! ”

After he exhaled deeply, he smiled, "Song Liu, in your heart, there has always been that person, I am not a person who can't think, do you want to go out with me so much, also to see him?" Can you tell me what his identity is? Is it a general? Is it a soldier? Or what princely aristocracy? ”

I didn't guess that he would ask me such a sentence, but this sentence made my heart run with a sour feeling, my eyes suddenly moistened, but I couldn't hold back a tear, I haven't cried for many years, and I still remember the year I lost my child.

Xu saw that there was something wrong with my eyes, Zhuangzi closed his eyes and replied helplessly, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked you this, if it can make you feel good and make you happy, I will do anything." That person has been in your heart for so many years, and I really want to meet him. ”

A pair of eyes that didn't want to cry, but they couldn't help it at this moment. In the years since I left Liuyun, I have always allowed myself to live strongly, except for the pain of losing my child, which made me taste the pain of liver and intestines, and there is nothing after that, which can still touch my heart.

This time, Zhuangzi didn't comfort me again, just kept sighing. It's not that I don't know what he thinks in his heart, and it's not that I can't appreciate his kindness to me, it's just that love and emotion can't be confused.

"Good! I'll take you with me! You promised me that you would stay with me for three years, and even if there was one last day, I would want you to be by my side. He finally dropped this sentence and walked away with his sleeves stucked, the first time I saw Zhuangzi so angry, and the first time I saw him so breathless in front of me.

It's not good in my heart, but I admit that I'm selfish.

I hadn't seen Liuyun for nearly four years, but any memory of him in my mind was very clear. Over the years, my hatred for him seems to be slowly fading with time, and my thoughts about him have become more and more profound. Perhaps, he is a part of my heart that can never be separated, I want to hate, I can't hate, I want to love, but I dare not love.

On the sixteenth of next month, if I can really see him, whether it will be fortunate or unfortunate for me, I dare not guess, and I have no ability to guess.

Because at that time, everything on the battlefield cannot be described in my current words and mood. I just want to see him, very simply. But I know better than anyone else that I can see him, and I must not let him see me.

The face seemed to be slid by the cold liquid, and once again, I realized what it means to miss.

After all these years, have we all changed?

At least I've changed, Liuyun!