The evening rain is bleak, and the jade furnace is smoking.

Dreams, this time is full of thoughts. I was very worried, and I went all the way east.

Half a year ago, I didn't think much about believing the words of the man named Liuyun, and explained to him where my family lived, and then returned to Suzhou with my mother. He said he would come to me in three months and give me an answer, but now half a year has passed, and there has been no news. It was as if I felt like a fool, waiting here stupidly in order to know what had happened.

Time passed, and I looked confident on the surface, but in fact, in my heart, I had long lost my score. Maybe he had forgotten about it, or maybe he didn't take it to heart at all.

The rain outside the window finally stopped, and when I looked up, there was a layer of white fog outside, like a fairyland.

But I couldn't do it, even though I thought of a thousand situations.

Just as I was still thinking about whether Liuyun would give me an answer, my mother hurriedly pushed open the door of my boudoir, her voice was very anxious, and there was a little fear, "Yan'er, Yan'er..."

I stood up from the wooden chair in surprise, and looked at my mother wiping her tears with a silk handkerchief, as if I had suffered some great grievance, "Mother, what's wrong with you?" Is Dad arguing with you? ”

She raised her eyes and looked at me silently, the tears became more and more fierce, her voice trembled, but she looked weak, "I hope that your father will fight with me, so that I can also put my mind at ease, Yan'er, my Yan'er..."

I was amazed by her actions, because my mother had never been like this in front of me, and she looked more like she was afraid of something.

"Mother, what's wrong with you?" I pulled myself out of her arms and asked softly.

Her jade hand brushed my hair, and her eyes looked at me with tears in her eyes, "Why do I always lose my daughter, I lost my sweetness back then, and I felt that I didn't have the courage to live anymore, until you appeared, so that my mother saw hope again, and now, all this is going to end, Yan'er, how can my mother let go." ”

"Mother?" I still didn't understand the meaning of her words, but I felt strange, "Your words made my daughter so scared." What the hell is going on to say such a thing to your daughter? ”

My mother didn't answer my words, and the sobs became louder and louder, which made me panic immediately. I was about to continue to ask, when my father's sigh came from outside the door, and he looked at my mother and me helplessly. I just haven't seen him overnight, and my father seems to be several years older. I've never seen helplessness on my father's face, what happened to him and his mother? Could it be that something big happened in the family, or something wrong with Yang's father's business? At this time, I can only think of this, and I can only think of this.

"Dad, there's something wrong at home, right?" I opened my mouth.

Dad's head gradually lowered, "Yan'er, last evening, Dad..."

"Daddy, tell me about it! No matter what, my daughter can accept it! I spit out this sentence very calmly, his head was raised suddenly, he frowned and looked at me several times, and finally said: "Dad has never been an official in his life, but he is afraid that he will fall into that whirlpool and violate his duty as a man." Officialdom is like a battlefield, how can my father tolerate those corrupt officials and corrupt officials abandoning the people! If this is the case, how can Dad let his family into those places! But Dad, now he can't stop it, and he can't stop it. Yan'er, the palace is also an unfathomable place! How can you tell your father to send you in with confidence! ”

Dad's words were very painful, but they shocked me in every way. But I still understood what he said, what he wanted to say to me was that the court and harem were like battlefields, in fact, I knew all this. Because they are all places in charge of the emperor, everyone fights with each other, and in order to get more trust and favor from the emperor, everyone will do their best to fight, even if the final outcome is not good.

But what I don't understand is, why did my father say that he wanted to send me to that place? This doesn't seem to have anything to do with our family.

The mother's sobbing finally turned into hiding her face and crying, and her father has always been a look that has not changed since entering the door.

I didn't dare to ask more questions, for fear that my questions would cause them more sadness. After slowly analyzing my father's words, I got an answer from them, and asked calmly: "What do you mean, am I going to enter the palace?" ”

My mother immediately stopped crying, and looked at me with blurred tears and didn't answer, while my father sighed and didn't say a word. I know, I'm asking the right question. Even if they didn't answer me anything, I knew I was going to the palace.

I once heard that every year in the palace, unmarried women are selected into the palace as slaves and maids. I have also heard that when you enter the palace gate, don't think about it in this life. These are naturally things that parents who love their daughters can't accept. But what can the people do? Because I've also heard people say what happened to the family after the protest. In fact, entering the palace is not terrible for me, because as long as the palace maid does her own thing and obeys the words of the masters, she will die in peace. Don't tear your family apart or even get put to death for your own sake.

Thinking of this, I smiled flatly, even though I knew that I was smiling desolantly. The two old men in front of me, although they are not my biological parents, treat me like my own daughter. I can't put them in danger, so I have to go to the palace. What can you do as a slave or a slave? As long as the people you care about are safe, what's the matter?

I gradually lowered my head, and kept looking at my weak slender jade hands, and after a long time, I said: "Dad, mother, you don't have to be too sad and sad, enter the palace!" The daughter admits it, being a slave and a maid, it is nothing to the daughter, I just hope that the two of you can be happy, so that the daughter will be very happy even if she has a hard time in the palace. ”

My mother trembled her hands and hugged me into her arms again and patted me on the back, her tears wet the placket on my shoulders, "My mother hopes that you will be a slave, at least you don't have to worry about others framing you." My Yan'er, but you didn't enter the palace as a slave or a maidservant, the holy decree was written very clearly, the emperor has made you Zhaoyi, father and mother, what I am afraid of is a place like the harem where women fight openly and secretly, how can you live calmly and steadily. ”

Suddenly, my mind suddenly went blank, Zhaoyi? Isn't this the title of the concubine? Ranked after the queen and princess, it is the third in the harem. How could the emperor make such a canonical decree to me, I have never seen the emperor, let alone anything else. What's going on with all this?

I don't know what's going on, and others are even more confused. These, probably only after I enter the palace, will be understood.

Know? Really? It is unknown whether they will fall into the place where only women fight, and live a life in a daze.

Liuyun's answer, I'm afraid I won't be able to know it in my life.

Because of that decree, I was powerless to resist, and neither was my father and mother. I am destined to live in the future, and in the past, I could only drift away with the wind.

Very unwilling, but unable to change. I suddenly felt that life was like a play sung on the stage, and at the end, it was all predestined.

Half a month later, I got into the carriage sent from the palace. The moment I said goodbye to my father, I didn't have a single tear in my tears, maybe it was half a month, I have learned to face and accept. It's funny, what else can I do but accept?

This time, my canonization caused a stir in Anyang City. I also vaguely learned from the palace people who were sent to pick me up that their emperor had never canonized other women among the people. Even since Concubine Chen left, the emperor has not been close to the harem concubines, so that now, the emperor still has no children under his knees. Therefore, my entry into the palace will definitely cause a dispute of tongues among everyone, with good intentions, and of course, there are also malicious ones.

I also heard that the queen once gave birth to a son for the emperor, and was canonized as a prince at the age of one, but was poisoned by other concubines, which also proves that the harem is a place of hidden danger. Whether I can survive in such an environment is still unknown.

Zhaoyi, such a glorious title that others seem, is a channel close to death for me. I don't think I have the skills to protect myself.

But I really don't understand why I became Zhaoyi in a daze. I couldn't figure out why I was sitting in the carriage so calmly.

Perhaps, I'm numb.

Before I could enjoy the scenery of the palace, I was hurriedly welcomed into the Changle Palace, a very quiet and ordinary palace. There are not too many dazzling decorations and stability, but it makes me feel a lot more relieved, and I don't have the anxiety and worry of the past.

Everything came so fast as a dream that I couldn't get used to it.

There was no reward, and not too many people came to congratulate me, and my canonization seemed a little deserted, and there was a feeling of abandonment.

But this is not necessarily bad.

There were only two palace maids guarding the palace, and they did not say a word from the moment I stepped into the palace door, and when I first entered the palace, there was no one I knew by my side, which made me feel very nervous and uneasy. But my mother told me many times when I left the house that I should be cautious in my words and deeds in the palace, and it was best not to speak until I had to do so. Therefore I sat straight in the middle of the temple, and said nothing.

This makes me wonder, is this like the scene of the emperor canonizing a Zhaoyi? Why is there no even the most basic prostration? And I, from the time I entered the palace in the early morning to the setting sun now, I have not seen the emperor.

I felt very sore all over, and I gradually complained in my heart, muttering to myself: "What Zhaoyi, I feel like a living bodhisattva who is being offered." What is the broken palace, except that these buildings are a little more gorgeous, a little bigger, and a little more people, they are not as good as my house! I don't know if the emperor has eaten too much and has nothing to do, and he has never seen Miss Ben, so he issued such a canonization decree, and the people in the palace are all nervous and abnormal..."Just as I was reading hard, I was stopped by a familiar and majestic voice, "Miss Lin Yan's words made me feel a little..."

Stunned, I bounced up from my seat, and the soreness disappeared without a trace. Seeing the man who called himself "I" slowly emerging from behind the curtain, a hesitation that could not be suppressed burned in my heart.