At this point, my whole heart was hanging on the verge of collapse, and my breathing became more and more uncomfortable. The blood that kept spilling from his mouth stained the placket of his chest red, as if I saw Haoxuan die in my arms, I was terrified, I was afraid that something like that would happen to me again.

I held his head in both hands, pretended to be strong and said to him, "Hold on, I'll go to the Imperial Doctor!" But he just grabbed my hand tightly and shook his head at me, "No... Don't go... Let's go! Take the jade pendant, leave the palace quickly, and walk as far as possible..."He put the jade dragon carved jade in the palm of my hand, and the jade pendant that had been dyed red with blood was shocking.

"Zhuangzi, why, why, you are obviously injured, why do you have to hide it from anyone, why..."I cried, I couldn't control myself anymore.

He smiled, even if he smiled so forcefully, "Song Liu, I can't do it." But I can't die, I can't die without being sure you're safe! When the person sent by the queen mother told me that you were in the palace, I knew that unless I came back unharmed, the queen mother and even the entire court would not let you go. Song Liu, I've been holding on for so long, but I really can't hold on at the moment. Before I die, get out of here! He who goes far will never come back. ”

"You can't die, you can't die..."

His hands stained with his own blood were raised high, caressing my cheeks, and the tears that fell from the corners of his eyes were full of reluctance, "Liu'er, please allow me to call you Liu'er." I bowed my head, and his weak voice sounded again, "There is always death in life, I hope you don't lose the courage to live because of the departure of others." I'm sorry, I killed your child back then, that's because I'm afraid that you will not fall in love with me if you have a child. Even if I knew, you would never fall in love with me. But I still made an unforgivable sin. I hope you can forgive me. ”

I nodded, then leaned my warm cheek against his pale face, "I hated you, I hated you, I wanted to kill you." But I still can't hurt you. Zhuangzi, I will always remember the Zhuangzi who always protects me behind me, the Zhuangzi who is like a relative to me. Today, that's all in the past. What you have to do now is to survive, to survive. I can't afford to lose someone important in my life anymore. ”

He frowned slightly, and there was too much emotion in his eyes, but he didn't want me to see his uncomfortable appearance, so he turned his face to the side, "You have to promise me to live well." Whatever happens, be sure to take care of it... Live..."

I finally understood why he behaved so strangely today, and even more so that he did not object to my proposal to leave, and when I said that I would leave tonight, he even said that he wanted to negotiate political affairs with the minister tonight, and he could not send me, but he was reluctant to give up at the gate of the palace.

Because he already knew he couldn't do it, he wanted me to leave early.

Not only to protect me, but also to not want me to feel guilty.

I know all of this, I know everything...

"I'm going to ask for a doctor, I can't let you die!" We got up from the ground, lifted the lotus foot and prepared to run to the Tai Hospital, but he grabbed my heel, "You can't go, if you must go, go to the city gate!" Liu'er, at this moment, you still don't understand my worries? Even if the Imperial Doctor comes, so what? Still can't save me, my own body, I know it very well. Didn't you say you wanted to accompany Liuyun? Are you willing to die here? ”

I couldn't stop trembling violently, and suddenly turned around and squatted down to hug him, "I'm unwilling, I'm unwilling, in the end, I hurt you..."

He reached out to wipe away my tears, but no matter how he wiped them, the tears still flowed, "Don't cry! I don't want you to cry for me! Liu'er, you know what? From the first time I saw you, I decided that you were the one I wanted to protect in this life. Even if I only have my last breath, I will not let you be hurt in the slightest. Please don't be too cruel to me and let me leave with regrets. ”

With the pungent smell of blood, his strength was slowly dissipating, and his body became heavier and heavier, "Liu'er, promise me to live." ”

I was afraid to promise others, because after I promised Haoxuan, he left me. I didn't want to say yes, because it meant his farewell. I admit that I was cowardly, and I was never strong.

Sometimes, I'd rather be a drifter, and I'll pass things when they've passed, no longer thinking about them, no more thinking about them, and not suffering myself.

Seeing that I didn't move, he sat up with the last of his strength and dragged my shoulders with both hands, "You promise me to live well." ”

Lowering my eyebrows, I shook my head and kept shaking my head, "Then you promise me first and survive!" ”

After a pause, he hugged me violently, rubbing my hair lightly with his hand, his breath was faintly strong, "Liu'er, take the jade dragon carving jade and go!" The world of the country, the country of Min, all let go! Live the life you want, a happy life... If you don't promise me, even if I die, my soul will not be reconciled, let alone be well! ”

I buried my head in his shoulders and let myself cry weakly, I had never made a decision so hard, or I couldn't make a decision at all.

"I still have a breath in it, you go! Remember you said that Liuyun will always live in your heart, I hope, I can too! He showed a desolate smile, a touch of bitterness on his pale face, leaning over my ear and whispering, "The corridor is an inch of lovesickness, the moon is lonely, the back lamp and the moon are in the shade, it has been ten years of traces and ten years of heart." ”

"Your Majesty!" A mournful and desolate voice shook me, and I saw Wu Xue rushing over in a hurry, pushing me away, while I hugged Zhuangzi tightly, and from her face, I saw despair and guilt.

Zhuangzi pushed her away, with disgust in his eyes, "I haven't left any of the killers you sent, and I won't blame you again." From now on, you will no longer be my queen! ”

This sentence shocked me like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, I looked at Wu Xue and asked her word by word: "Is it the killer you sent?" It's you? ”

Her vicious eyes turned to stare at me, and she laughed a few times wildly, but she was desolate, "Yes! It's me! Because I hate you for always appearing between me and the emperor. I hate that you get too much love from the emperor, and I hate that every time you appear, it will bring me misfortune. So, I'm going to kill you, I'm going to kill you! ”

I didn't expect that those killers were actually sent by her. It turned out that the person she was going to kill was me!

I took a few steps back in a daze, and Zhuangzi returned to his usual majesty and roared, "Shut up! I have never loved you, and if it weren't for your father's power and his mother's decree to make you queen, I would never have come close to you. You have a vicious heart and have done many bad things, you know in your own heart that I never want to see you in the future, even if he is ***, I will never allow you to be buried in the same mausoleum with me. Get out, get out! ”

The tears in Wu Xue's eyes suddenly stopped, her desperate gaze became dull, and she looked up at the sky and smiled miserably, revealing unprecedented desolation and grief in her laughter. Her delicate and trembling body slowly turned over, and she took a heavy step... muttered in his mouth, "Am I wrong?" Am I wrong? Is it wrong to love someone? Ha ha... Don't even let me accompany you to death, Your Majesty, your heart is really poisonous! It's so poisonous..."Her slowly departing back was so lonely that it made me feel sad.

With a dull sound, Zhuangzi spat out a mouthful of blood again, and I rushed forward to help him up, trying to talk to him, but I couldn't spit out a word.

"Liu'er, let's go! With the love of convection clouds, with my blessings, let's go! He struggled to spit out the words and reached out to push me away, "I will take this breath until no one can find you..."

I held the bloody jade dragon carved jade tightly in the palm of my hand, what happiness, what resentment, what grievances between each other, all slowly dissipated like smoke, and what was left was an ordinary heart.

The red blood in his eyes flooded the whole socket, it was not a hateful look, but a worried and expectant look, at that time, my mood was as calm as water, looking at him for a long, long time, I want to remember him, I don't know if there will be a chance to see each other again after this separation, in fact, I know very well in my heart that it will be goodbye.

He was very uncomfortable, and he didn't know how many painful wounds he had on his body, but in front of me, he always pretended to be strong, why couldn't I promise him? Why can't you do what he says? With the love of Convection Cloud, and his blessings, how about living well?

The last time, and the first time, I took the initiative to hug him, leaning into his ear, and I said to him with sobs: "I promise you, I will live well, live well, I promise you... I will..."

He breathed a sigh of relief and smiled, as if at this moment, everything was settled, "If you promise me, you will definitely abide by it, Liu'er, if there is an afterlife, I will still choose to know you... Let's go... Let's go..."

I slowly let go of him, stood up and slowly stepped back, his eyes were hazy, he was still smiling at me, and that smile was very satisfied. The moment I turned around, I saw the tears flowing from the corners of his eyes, like the smile, drawing a scene on his cheek that I will never forget.

As soon as I started, I tried to run forward, in the direction of the city gate, and I did not dare to stop, because once I stopped, I could not go any further.

Heartache mixed with bitterness, I know that what we have is a lifelong friendship.

The mood of wanting to speak has been dreamed, and the spring mountain is still seen in the mirror.

Fang regretted that he was really hasty in the past, and waited to see it.

Huanpei should only return to the moon, what does it mean to send to the world.

How many residual red wax tears and when will they dry?

When I rode out of Jiayu City, I glanced back at the city, and all I could see was Zhuangzi's face.

With that grief, I returned to Taoyuan Village, and the moment I rushed into the house, I cried loudly.

Ask Cang Tian, why do the people around me always leave one by one, and why in the end, I am still alone.

That night I cried from dawn to dawn, and from dawn to dawn, until I was exhausted.

Actually, I'm exhausted for a long time.

When I stopped crying, I realized that there were no tears in my eyes.

In the end, it's still empty.

I asked myself, what is left around me?

Nothing, everything...

On the seventh day of the seventh month of the tenth year of Qianfeng, Di and Dizhuang Jing died.

On the same day, Empress Wu Xue hanged herself.

When I heard the news, I had no emotions but peace of mind.

What flashed in front of me was the scene from the past.

I walked under the tree, crouched down and brushed over the land where Zhuangzi had once walked, and it was here that I saved him on that snowy winter ten years ago. From the day he woke up, he had me in his heart. And I, to this day, only regard him as a friend.

I risked my life to pick Midhara for him, and in a flash, the days passed so quickly in the blink of an eye. Ten years! There can be several decades in life!

I love Liuyun deeply, and Wu Xue loves Zhuangzi deeply, but she did not express her love for him in the best way, but embarked on a wrong path. She hates me to the core, and I can understand that. She tried to kill me again and again, and I can understand that. But what I can't understand is that just because I can't get the love of Zhuangzi, I have to change my kind heart? Because she, like Yulan, is the same as Siyu, even if Siyu finally restores her original heart, I still can't understand it.

The punishment that Zhuangzi gave her was undoubtedly the most deadly, and even if she died, she did not want to be with her. This is like putting her to death.

Perhaps, for a woman who is alive and suffering, death is a relief.

What's the difference between this and when I lost the clouds.

Twelve years ago, when I was fifteen years old, I entered the palace with hatred. At that time, there was nothing else in my mind except the bloody night of the Mid-Autumn Festival five years ago.

Eleven years ago, I fell in love with Liuyun. At that time, there was no conspiracy, no exploitation, and no harm between us. What you have is a simple love for each other.

Nine years ago, I lost Haoxuan. This was another pain after my family was wiped out, and it was the first time I realized that there were people in my life who loved me so much.

Eight years ago, I lost Xiyun and Yulan. These are the only two sisters in my life, my dearest ones, and in the end, they didn't get out of each other's way.

Seven years ago, I became the concubine of Zhuangzi with my child in Liuyun. However, the child did not survive after all, and I lost myself for a while.

Three years ago, I returned to Liuyun. Persecution, amnesia, blindness, regaining memory, regaining vision, everything, like a dream.

A year ago, I lost Liuyun. At that moment, my sky was completely dark, I couldn't survive, I really couldn't survive. That heart-rending tormented me every moment, and I relied on hatred to get down...

Now, Zhuangzi has been lost again. Painfully guilty, our acquaintance was like a mistake. It's the only thing I can do for him.

I want to cry but I don't have tears, and I don't have anyone around me anymore to lose. It's just because there is no one around me anymore.

All I can remember are the relatives, friends and loved ones who have passed through my life.

And those, the past that will never be forgotten, happiness, sweetness, resentment, pain...

Looking back, I can only smile, I have to live well, forget the unhappy, and start again!

In September of the first year of Jinghong, the country of Yu died and had no heirs to succeed to the throne, and there was a miserable scene of a country without a king, and caused turmoil in the imperial court. All capable ministers are ready to move, eyeing the throne and wanting to replace him.

In November of the first year of Jinghong, Emperor Min Xuan worshiped Zhang Ziqian as the general of Zhennan and personally led an army of 500,000 troops, all the way to the south Lianlian forced the army stationed in Liupan Mountain to retreat.

In March of the second year of Jinghong, Emperor Min Xuan saw that the current situation of the imperial court was a good opportunity to attack, and sent 300,000 troops again.

In May of the second year of Jinghong, the army of Min captured Jiayu City.

In July of the second year of Jinghong, a year after the death of Emperor Zhuang Jing, the kingdom of Yu was destroyed.

In August of the second year of Jinghong, Emperor Min Xuan sent troops to attack the surrounding small countries.

In December of the second year of Jinghong, various countries surrendered to the Min State.

In February of the third year of Jinghong, Emperor Min Xuan unified the world and changed the name of the country to the Western Zhou Dynasty.

Years of war have come to an end. The world of Liuyun is still unified after all, and Jing Xuan has completed the sustenance that Liuyun gave him.

Everything, the dust settled.

Naturally, this is a matter of course, because I have said it a long time ago. Whether it is the country of Min or the country of Qi, or even the whole world, it will have nothing to do with me. My life is no longer tied to these things that have nothing to do with me, ordinary happiness is the destination of the rest of my life.

The peach blossoms in Taoyuan Village are blooming, which reminds me of the phrase "the peach is dying, scorching its bloom", which is so gorgeous in today's Antai country and peaceful life.

This is the beauty that Liuyun and I and Zhuangzi want to see most in this life.

Now, I'm the only one who can appreciate it.

I am in the sea of flowers, and the peach blossoms all over the mountains are blooming in the sunshine of spring and March.

The first half of my life has become a thing of the past, and what makes me sigh is the sentence, "This situation can be recalled, but it was already clear at the time." ”

I buried the jade dragon carved jade under a peach tree, and every year when the flowers bloomed, Zhuangzi could see it.

He once said that he hoped that when the flowers bloomed in Taoyuan Village, I could take him to enjoy the beautiful scenery. Now, I can't do that. I can only bury my friendship with Zhuangzi and the jade dragon carved jade deep here.

Gently covered with soil, I smiled lightly, that kind of state of mind, I can't express it in words, I can't explain it in words. Because, for any of us, it is an eternity.

A gust of spring breeze blows, and the peach tree sprinkles layers of petals one after another, and the petals dance with the breeze, and the beauty is intoxicating in mid-air. And I couldn't help but dance the dance that my mother taught me more than ten years ago.

"Song Liu!" A soft call made me stop all movements, because this voice was not unfamiliar to me, it was Zixi, Zhuangzi's Purple Lady.

Looking back, she was standing three paces away from me with a baby in her arms, smiling as differently than she had been. I saw happiness in her face.

"Purple Creek?" I called her, with a hint of surprise and a hint of doubt.

She looked around and smiled more and more, "The emperor once said that this place is his favorite place in his life. So, with our children, I decided to settle here. Unexpectedly, you are here too. ”

When I heard our children, I was a little excited, "Your children? I took two steps forward and looked at her infant baby, "This is Zhuangzi's child, right?" ”

She bowed her head and smiled undiminishedly, "Yes, our child, called Yijing." After the emperor's death, I was disheartened and decided to end my life by the river where we met, but I was rescued by a fisherman, and then I realized that I was pregnant. This is the only one left to me by him, and I have decided to live with our only one. ”

I couldn't help but burst into tears, looking at the sleeping baby, as if I saw Zeng Shi's Zhuangzi, "Thank you!" "I thank her, thank her for leaving the blood of Zhuangzi, thank her for giving Zhuangzi a new life.

There was more depth between her eyebrows, less sorrow, "I now look at the past as dull, and suddenly realize that life is so capricious." What you have, you lose. What is cherished will also disappear. In fact, as long as you are happy, it is more important than anything else. ”

"Do you hate me?" I asked.

She shook her head slightly, "I don't hate you, because hating someone is really harder than loving someone." I'd rather love everyone than hate anyone anymore. That's what I can do for Yijing! When he grows up, I will tell him what a wonderful man his father was. ”

At that time, I didn't want to cry anymore, and I smiled more than anyone else.

It turns out that after letting go of everything, you can really make a person have a better future.

It can also make a person, Phoenix Nirvana.

I left the house in Taoyuan Village to Zixi, and I also rest assured that Zhuangzi was left to Zixi, just because the uniqueness in her heart.

I can't help but sigh at this.

One generation and one pair in a lifetime, fighting for two souls.

Nowadays, the prosperity of Anyang City has not been seen for many years, the world is unified, the country and the people are safe, the people are boiling, singing and dancing, and the street is always a thriving scene. Liuyun said that Jing Xuan would be a good emperor, and I saw it, and he did a good job.

The thatched huts in the suburbs still stand here. The peach tree was planted for me by Liuyun, and now, even if the flowers are withering, it still makes me feel beautiful, perhaps, it is because Liuyun has always been in my heart, so I think the things he left me are the most beautiful!

It doesn't matter if the flowers are gone, next year, the year after next I can still see that in the future, there will be decades left, I will be with them, just like Liuyun will always be with me. It doesn't matter if people are gone, in the future, in this life, there will be a lifetime to miss, and they will always be with me.

In the blink of an eye, the years have passed, and two years have passed in a flash. Only two months have passed since his thirtieth birthday, and he has ushered in the season of recovery of all things and the blooming of peach blossoms.

This year's peach blossoms are blooming more and more vividly than in previous years.

Recently, the weather has been excellent, and I played that familiar tune in the peach blossom yard. Back then, when I was in Zichen Palace, I played this song, and it was the only one Liuyun had ever heard. I'm used to living without him. In fact, after people leave, we can't do much but nostalgia.

I miss him and every day we spent together.

I miss every bit of our past, because these are enough for me to look forward to a happy life.

In the evening, when night fell, the wind rose, and a figure appeared under the peach tree with a rustling sound, and when I looked up, a man appeared at the bottom of my eyes, only one glance, with a throbbing mood, the eyes that had not shed tears for several years were instantly moist, and the tears overflowing from the corners of the eyes dripped down the cheeks...

He was stunned, a little surprised, and his gaze rested on my face in astonishment. He opened his mouth, but he hid his words between his lips and tongue.

I slowly stood up and faced him, frowning slightly, the name that held me all my life, but I never could shout it.

Speechless, Twilight flushed each other's cheeks.

In the sunset, he turned away, looked back at me again, and the warm smile was similar to the peach blossom on the top of his head, and he stretched out his hand to point at me, and then pointed at himself, "We, did we know each other before?" ”