Ding Yan's hand holding the wine glass trembled slightly, and he almost spilled the wine.

He really didn't expect such an answer.

"Why?"

Lin Yudong took a big sip of wine, swallowed hard, took a deep breath, and then began to speak.

"That morning, just after dawn, I was in my room, getting up to read English, and suddenly I heard a scream outside, it was my mother's voice."

"I was so frightened that I hurriedly opened the door and went out to look, but I happened to see my mother jumping from the window, I was stupid, my mind was blank, my body felt like it was frozen, the blood all over my body was cold, my body couldn't move, and my ears were buzzing."

"It took me a few seconds to regain my strength, and I ran to the window to look down, not only my mother, but even my father was lying on the ground downstairs, bleeding a lot, and I realized that my father had jumped before my mother, and the scream that my mother made should have been scared when she saw my father jumping down."

"As soon as my legs were weak, I sat directly on the ground, and I didn't think of being sad or anything, but I didn't understand, why did my dad and my mom both jump off the building? This question kept wandering around my head, and I thought desperately, as if I couldn't live without thinking it through. ”

"Until two minutes later, my brother came out and asked me, 'Brother, what's wrong?' I looked at him, and I couldn't say a word, he came over, looked downstairs, shouted for Mom, Dad, Mom, and ran out, and went downstairs. ”

At this time, my tears suddenly flowed, and this flow could not be stopped, and that great sadness, like the feeling of drowning, was particularly depressing, and I couldn't breathe. I experienced this feeling once before, that is, when I was in the first year of junior high school, I was greedy for fun, and I fell behind a lot of courses, and I was like a fool, and I didn't know how to be in a hurry, but after the exam, I took a look and was fifth from the bottom of the class. ”

"I didn't fall into the top three in elementary school, but I went to junior high school, and I was fifth from the bottom in the exam, and I felt that the sky was falling, and I didn't know how to explain to my parents when I went home, so I found a place to hide outside, and I didn't go home until it was dark for a long time."

"It was the first time in my life that I felt great sadness, helplessness, panic, and fear, and later, when my parents jumped off the building, I felt this way again, but this time, it was much stronger than that time."

Lin Yudong glanced at Ding Yan deeply, "Do you know, at that time, what I thought in my heart was that there would be no parents in the future, what should I do if it was their funeral, and also, no one will make money for me and my brother in the future, how should we live?" ”

"I don't know why, how I was struggling with this kind of question at the time, but I did think so. Later, with the help of relatives, the funeral was completed, everything was settled, and my brother and I returned to the empty house, and my brother asked me, brother, what are we going to eat at night? It was only then that I realized that I no longer had parents. ”

"From that day on, I learned to cook, I used to wash clothes, bed sheets, and quilts by myself, and I regularly paid electricity, water, property fees, and heating bills, and I began to be the master of the house, like an adult, to support the family."

"It was also from that time that I decided that after graduating from high school, I would not go to college, and I would work to earn money for my younger brother to go to college, after all, the family did not have much savings. Although my grades are much better than my brother's, and even though I am only one year older than him, I am an older brother, and I have to look like an older brother. ”