This night, Zhang Xiaoqi felt that she had shed all the tears of her life, and she cried indulgently for a long, long time, until she could no longer shed tears.

Late at night, she lay in bed, staring at her dry eyes, unable to sleep for a long time.

The baby in the belly is very quiet at this time, probably asleep. It is said that mother and son are connected, she cried for so long just now, the baby must have felt uneasy, right?

She stroked him slowly with her hand and whispered, "Baby, I'm sorry, Mommy surprised you, right?" Mom is bad, mom is a bad mom. ”

After a pause, she continued faintly: "Mom can do too little and too little for you, Mom can only owe you, you must be dissatisfied, because you owe too much, too much, too much to repay in this life." Mom knew that she was wrong, but this mistake was something that Mom couldn't make up for. In the past, my mother was always proud, proud to think that she could solve everything by her own strength, proud not to owe anyone anything, but today, my mother finally understands that these self-righteous pride are just pathetic conceit, stupidity. It was also today that my mother realized what a selfish person she was. But baby, don't hate your mother, because hating someone will be very tiring and tiring, your mother doesn't want you to work so hard, your mother wants you to be happy, and you will always live a happy life. Mom has been punished, Mom owes you a lot of debt, and I will carry this debt for the rest of my life, and I will never be freed.

Baby, in a few days, you're going to leave your mother, forget about it, and never remember that you once had a selfish, irresponsible mother.

You will have a new mom who will love you very much and love you very much, and you will also have a dad who hurts you a lot and your mom assures you that he will be a good dad. You will have a very happy home, you will grow up happily in this home, and your father and mother will give you a lot of things that your mother can't give you. Baby, promise your mother, you must live a happy and happy life, this is your mother's only wish, you are a good child, you will definitely satisfy your mother, right? ”

He will be happy, he will be happy.

Like a drowning man grabbing a lifebuoy, Xiaoqi clung to the thought.

They must be very eager to have this child, and they have spent so much effort, aren't they all for this child? They will definitely love him very much, and he will be cared for in the best, after all, he is the blood and blood of that family, his biological child.

Xiaoqi's eyes showed that tall figure, and she believed that she felt that he must be a good father.

What about Mom? Must be a good mother, right?

Xiaoqi's heart began to hurt again, she knew that no matter how much she deceived herself, it was useless, God was destined to punish her, because she selfishly brought a small life into this world, and abandoned him ruthlessly, no reason could make up for the mistakes she made, she owed the most unworthy debt, this debt will be pressed on her heart, and she will never get rid of it.

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"Have you thought about it? Things may not be as simple as you think. Maybe one day, you will regret your decision today. ”

"From the moment I signed the contract, I decided that I would never regret it."

What a ridiculous and pathetic self-righteousness, the bitter fruit of brewing is so hard to swallow.

You knew this was going to happen, didn't you? You know everything.

That's why you said that, and you left me that Xiang Lian.

On the last night, when all was at peace, they lay side by side on the big bed that had witnessed the only five nights of their lives, and the two men had not spoken for a long time, neither of them knowing what to say.

It was the man who couldn't bear this oppressive silence first, he jumped up, got dressed, then sat down on the edge of the bed, looked down at her and said: "Today is the last day, and when we walk out of this gate, we will be like passers-by on the street, even if we pass by, we will never know each other again." But for you, things are far from being as simple as you think, so I have to give you one thing, for yourself and for ......, you must accept it. ”

As he spoke, he took out a box from his purse and put it in Xiaoqi's hand.

"This is a piece of Xiang Lian, don't be in a hurry to refuse. This Xiang Lian, I ordered a total of two, the two are exactly the same, the only difference is that your pendant is engraved with a capital English letter, "M". Another pendant of Xiang Lian is also engraved with a capital English letter, which is "B". When this child is born, I will put Xiang Lian engraved with the letter "B" on it for him, and that Xiang Lian will always be by his side. If one day, you see the identical Xiang Lian, you will know who he is. ”

With that, he stood up and walked away without looking back.

Xiaoqi turned on the bedside lamp and took out the Xiang Lian from under the pillow.

A simple style but very delicate workmanship of white gold necklace, heart-shaped buckles are set around a ring, the rings are connected, there is a heart-shaped platinum pendant in the middle of the necklace, and the smooth pendant surface shines dazzling white light in the light.

Xiaoqi held Xiang Lian up in front of him, and a capital English letter "M" was clearly engraved in the middle of the heart.

The white light flashing from the letters stung Xiaoqi's eyes, this great, sacred title is given to those mothers who have worked hard and selflessly dedicated, am I worthy? I don't deserve it.

Regret it?

Xiaoqi closed his eyes, and the answer was yes.

If you were to turn back the clock and make a choice, what would you choose?

After a long time, Xiaoqi opened his eyes, and the answer was yes.

In this life, I am destined to go to hell.