Chapter 42: Breaking Up
Bamboo Grove Villa, a luxury resort on the outskirts of the city. Located halfway up the West Mountain, small villas with white walls and red roofs are built against the mountain, extending upwards layer by layer. On both sides of the villa are dense bamboo forests, and even in the villa, around the villas, there are tall green bamboos.
Ji Siming stood on the second-floor balcony of one of the villas against the mountain wind, quietly looking at the layers of red roofs below, and the sound of the wind blowing bamboo leaves in his ears.
Right now, it is the critical period when the Chengxi Science and Technology Industrial Park has just broken ground, but he took He Xiao to this quiet luxury villa for the weekend, because there are more important things to solve than engineering.
On the day of the groundbreaking ceremony, the engagement banquet mentioned by Tong En made things even more urgent. Although, at that time, he did not continue to ask Tong En who told her that he was going to be engaged to He Xiao, but from Tong En's surprised expression, Ji Siming had already guessed eight or nine points.
In this matter of He Xiao, Ji Siming was already very remorseful. Long before he met Tong En, he had already decided to break up with He Xiao, but because he was busy with the bidding matter, he never found a suitable time to formally talk to He Xiao. He Xiao's abnormal behavior at the annual meeting that night completely alerted him, and because of this, he didn't want to talk to He Xiao about breaking up hastily. After all, they have been together for two years, and Ji Siming has deeper feelings for He Xiao than for other women, so there is more of an extra worry.
If they had broken up a year ago, he wouldn't have the same concerns as he does now. At that time, He Xiao was independent and confident, and he did not rely too much on the relationship between them. Now, especially recently, she has become very dependent on him, neurotic, and lacking self-confidence. Thinking of this, Ji Siming was full of regret, he had never maintained a relationship with any woman for more than half a year before, he just didn't want this to happen. However, He Xiao, because of her uniqueness, her coquettishness, and her sexiness, let her stay by her side for two whole years, which is too long, long enough to make things qualitatively mutate. However, his feelings for He Xiao have not undergone a qualitative mutation, which Ji Siming knows very well in his heart.
He Xiao finally packed up the miscellaneous things he brought and walked to the balcony.
Ji Siming has taken her to this bamboo forest villa several times before, and each time, she likes to sit on the balcony the most, set up an easel, and paint the mountains and bamboo forests at sunset, because that is the most beautiful time here.
This time, she was very happy at first, Ji Siming has been so busy recently, and he took time to take her to spend the weekend, He Xiao was very satisfied, and she even planned to tell him the secret that had been hidden in her heart. However, after only half a day here, she felt the changes in Ji Siming. What a smart girl He Xiao was, she immediately realized the true purpose of Ji Siming bringing her here.
For two days, she endured the frying pain in her heart, pretending to follow Ji Siming to climb mountains, ride horses, and soak in hot springs without realizing it, and coldly watched the guilt in Ji Siming's heart when facing her. Until this morning, she had already begun to pack her things, and Ji Siming had not spoken. He Xiao suddenly had a glimmer of hope in her heart, hoping that Ji Siming still loved her, hoping that Ji Siming would not be willing to part with her, if so, she would tell her the secret in her heart, and then tell him that she retracted what she said before, she loved him, and she wanted to marry him.
He Xiao walked behind Ji Siming, reached out to wrap his arms around his waist, pressed his face against his hard back, and silently felt his powerful heartbeat.
Ji Siming held He Xiao's two hands crossed on his chest, and made up his mind to say, "He Xiao, let's break up." ”
He Xiao's body stiffened, she slowly let go of the hands that were holding Ji Siming, gently pulled back, raised her head, and her body left his body.
She took two steps forward and stood beside Ji Siming, and didn't speak for a long time. Ji Siming didn't speak again, he was giving He Xiao time.
For a long time, He Xiao thought that she was about to become a fossil, so she struggled to speak: "Is it because of Tong En?" ”
"It's not." Ji Siming's tone was calm but resolute.
He Xiao's heart felt numb, accompanied by a sharp tingling pain.
"Why?"
"It's because of myself. I once said to you that I am a man who does not marry. ”
"I also said that I would not ask you for marriage." My heart hurts even more.
Ji Siming turned his body to face He Xiao.
"He Xiao, you have always been a sensible girl, you should understand that there will be no result between us. Two years is too long for a relationship that will eventually come to fruition, and I don't want to hurt you, do you understand? ”
You've hurt me. You're right, two years is too long, everything that should have happened has already happened, you have hurt me, Ji Siming, there is no way to stop it. I love you, Ji Siming, don't leave me.
He Xiao screamed in her heart, and her proud heart made her unable to say a word.
"He Xiao, you are so young, you should have a better future and a normal life. Find someone who truly loves you, get married, have children, and live the life a woman should live. ”
Yes, I want to get married, have children, and live a normal life that a woman should live. But I just want to marry you and have children with you, Ji Siming, do you really not know?
He Xiao's heart was broken, broken into grains of sand, and he couldn't put it back together.
He Xiaomulan's expression made Ji Siming feel very guilty, he had been thinking about these words for two days, and he couldn't bear to say them. He also knew that the words were too pale, too cold, to appease a wounded woman. But that's all he can say, he doesn't want to deceive her. He could have used the same method he used to end a lover's relationship to solve their relationship, but for He Xiao, in addition to financial compensation, he always felt that he owed her something.
"He Xiao, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry I shouldn't have let you stay with me for so long. I'm not a good man, but I really don't want to hurt you, because you've always been so independent, so open-minded, and sometimes I think you're more free and easy than me when it comes to marriage. He Xiao, I really hope you can live a happier life. ”
Liars, hypocrites, liars. He Xiao opened his mouth, his throat so dry that he could barely speak.
"What about Tong En? How long are you going to be with her? ”
Ji Siming sighed, women, when a woman gets into the tip of the horns, ten cows can't pull it back.
"I've already said it before, it's not because of Tong En. Even without Tong En, we still have to break up. He Xiao, you should know that today's events are destined to happen from the day we exchange conditions. Ji Siming lost his patience, he didn't want to go around in circles anymore.
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"Ji Siming, I'm going to be your girlfriend."
"I never wanted a girlfriend, I only had a lover."
"Then I'll be your lover."
"Be my lover? Then you have to think about it, I am a man who does not marry. ”
"I'm a woman who doesn't get married."
"Then tell me, what are the conditions? You can casually mention it now, and you won't have a chance in the future. ”
"There is only one condition, I want independent personal space and full freedom."
"Deal."
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The past is vivid, the innate pride, the ignorance of youth, and now they are gone. But the oath is still there, has everything really not changed? Is it really that simple?
"If it weren't for Tong En, you wouldn't have broken up with me." He Xiao raised his eyes and looked into Ji Siming's eyes.
"I know that your former lover has never been by your side for more than half a year. But, we've been together for two years, how do you explain that? Two years, you've never got tired of me, I'm a woman, I know. You've never liked another woman in two years, and I know that. I'm different from them, am I? I'm different from other women to you, am I? But since you have Tong En, since you have worked with Dawson, you have changed. On that day, it was the day I attended the annual meeting, you looked at Tong En's eyes, do you think I can't see it? You're in love with her, why don't you admit it? ”
Facing He Xiao's excited expression, Ji Siming became more calm.
"Yes, you're right. I admit that I like Tong En, but not love. The word love does not exist in my Ji Siming's dictionary, I have never loved anyone, and I do not believe that there is true love in the world. You're right, you're different from other women in my eyes, because I like you, that's why I've been living with you for two years, but I don't love you, so I can't give you the life you want, marriage, family, children, these will never appear in my life, I don't like this, and I don't need this. That's why we have to break up, and it has nothing to do with whether I like it or not. ”
Doesn't it matter? Does it really matter? If Tong En didn't show up, you would continue to be with me, even if there is no love, we can still be together, right? If it weren't for Tong En, you would always like me, and even without love, we could still be together. I just want to be with you, I don't want marriage, I don't want love, can I? Can?
He Xiao cried bitterly in his heart.
On the way down the mountain, He Xiao didn't say a word.
Ji Siming drove the car and looked at her sideways from time to time. He Xiao sat next to the driver's seat, looking at the scenery outside the car window, quiet like a sleeping baby. Ji Siming was a little worried in his heart, and he frowned in annoyance. However, for this kind of result, he has already been mentally prepared, time, let time dilute everything.