Chapter 39: Am I the Sun?

"If you are fated, you will naturally meet, even if you can't see each other in the future, it doesn't matter, if it's someone you don't want to forget, it will always stay in our memory, so we haven't lost the person we care about!" Qin Yu replied to her.

"Brother Yu, her departure reminded me of a few classmates who had a good relationship with me in junior high school. When we graduated, we said we would keep in touch often. But now, some people have even changed the buckle and number, and they haven't told me. Yes, I don't even know where people are going now! I think about them sometimes. But even though I managed to get in touch with them, I found that I could never go back to the past. It seems that they all have new friends and new lives, and we seem to be just passers-by to each other! Xiao Ran touched the scene and said with some sadness.

Maybe the more introverted people are, the stronger their feelings! Because such a person doesn't care about many people, once he takes people to heart, he may remember them for a lifetime, even if others may not even remember her (him) shadow in the future.

Obviously, Xiao Ranran is such a person!

"It's okay, just think about them, let's move on after thinking about it, we will meet other people in the future, and we will have other friends. Those friends who are lost in time, just let them go. As long as we love ourselves well and be our lover, we will not be lonely, and we will have a lot of beautiful expectations in the future! Qin Yu comforted her gently.

"Well, Brother Yu, we all have to love ourselves well! In the future, you are not allowed to secretly hide and cry, let alone smoke. It's okay if your uncle and aunt treat you badly, I'll always be there! If you are depressed again and you can't control your emotions well, just tell me, I'll go to the doctor with you, and I'll buy you medicine. If you can't sleep, I can tell you a philosophical story on the phone, anyway, we have a network of relatives and friends, so I don't feel sorry for the phone bill! Xiao Ranran was curious why he hid and cried and smoked. So I asked him. Qin Yu told her everything, and he usually wouldn't lie to her.

It turned out that Qin Yu was brought up by his grandmother when he was young. His parents were not educated, so they hid from family planning and went to work in other provinces, and threw him to his grandmother when he was one year old. Later, his parents had a younger sibling. Because his parents haven't lived with him for a long time, they don't have any feelings for him. After his grandmother passed away, his parents only paid him living expenses regularly, and they never came home to see him. Only every year during the Chinese New Year, he would take the car to reunite with his parents. But he didn't feel love. He cried before because his parents forgot to pay him living expenses, and he reminded him, but he was scolded by the two.

So when he came back in this life, he didn't take the initiative to contact his parents again, nor did he ask the two for money, but used the savings left by his grandmother. In his last life, he used this money to go to college. But now, he is not worried about money, after all, he knows so many things in the future, as long as he is willing, it is no exaggeration to say, maybe at that time, he knows some of those numbers that will win the lottery. It's just that he doesn't want to get something for nothing, after all, what he gets without hard work, even if for him, is achievable, but he also feels that it is empty after all!

It's hard to live again, and he just wants to do his best to be himself. As for the great ideals that will change the world and create the future, he will not touch them. After all, those things are too ethereal for a little person like him. He just wants to be himself down-to-earth!

Because no one can be sure if the world will become a better place because of it; But what is certain is that if you do your best, the world will not get worse!

"Of course, I won't be bothered by my parents' affairs anymore. I'm already connected, and since I don't have feelings, then I'll let them go, and I'll let myself go. "Now Qin Yu no longer has the obsession of the previous life, since his parents can't give him love, he loves himself and then loves others, and the sky won't fall anyway!

"Brother Yu, come, pull Gougou." The two had already arrived at the subway station, and Xiao Ranran also got off Qin Yu's back.

I got on the subway and changed to a bus halfway.

"Brother Yu, let's go change the words on the cup after school in the evening." On the bus, Xiao Ranran said suddenly.

"Okay, when you say you're going, we'll go." Qin Yu looked at her face and replied.

"Brother Yu, what do you say we changed it to?"

"I listen to you, we can change it as you like."

"Brother Yu, I want to carve a small sun on the cup, and then write your name!"

"Am I the sun?" Qin Yu felt warm in his heart.

"Brother Yu, do you know? Before you showed up with me, I was always bullied, I was so scared, so painful, and I even thought that being a good person was a mistake I still wanted to make myself a bad person, just to protect myself! But I found that I was so stupid and stupid that I couldn't even learn to be a bad person! Therefore, I also thought about leaving this world that I longed for, but I was worried that my parents would be reluctant to let me go and be sad, so I didn't dare, I felt so cowardly, I felt that the sky was gray all day long! But since you've been with me, I'm not afraid. With you, I am no longer alone in this huge universe, and I am not afraid of loneliness; With you, I can rest assured to be a warm person, not afraid that I will become a bad person; With you, I feel that my little heart is bulging, and I am becoming more and more courageous; With you, I am no longer afraid of all the dark things in this world that I can't understand. So, you are my sun and keep me warm!"

"Of course, then I will also carve a sun, and then write your name, because you are my whole world!"

"Uh-huh. Brother Yu, did you say that we will become bad people in the future? I'm afraid I'm going to be a bad guy in the future! I will also be very worried, worried that the good people in this world have become bad in order to protect themselves, so our earth will not be beautiful, but I like to be with all the good things! ”

"Don't worry, you won't be bad. If it is said that in this world, good people can only protect themselves if they become bad, then it is enough for me to be a 'bad person' in the future, and you must live in the sun forever! In the future, you will protect the world, and I will protect you!"

Two idealists, expressing their love for the world, discuss their own worldview.

"Well, Brother Yu, thank you. I..., I...,"

Qin Yu saw that her face was a little red, and guessed what she wanted to say, but she was embarrassed to say it, so she leaned her head over lightly and said the three words she wanted to say to herself in her ear. Xiao Ranran replied a little shyly: "Me too, Brother Yu." Then she reached out and grabbed his hand.

When I arrived at school, it was almost time for class. The two hurriedly entered the classroom and saw Lao Li standing on the podium, holding a few sheets of paper, smiling!