At three o'clock in the morning, deep in the valley of the winding mountain road.

Jiang Yang and Si Mu gathered around the bonfire, and both of them were silent.

The sky was raining again, and it was cold on me.

"If I say that I don't have the ability to tell the truth from the false, would you believe it?"

After a long time, Si Mu suddenly looked up at Jiang Yang.

Jiang Yang glanced at Si Mu and nodded: "Letter." ”

Then the two men fell silent again.

In just two hours, Si Mu said a lot, and Jiang Yang has been listening.

The topic started from the appearance of Si Mu.

Si Mu said that in addition to her own appearance, she couldn't correctly judge everything around her, including everyone except her father.

The environment in which he grew up made Si Mu have no one to talk to.

She said that others have a mother who can say a lot of things, but she doesn't.

Everyone is flattering, and what they say is what she likes to hear, including her father Si Hai.

Over time, she became numb to the praise around her, and she was also numb to the people around her.

I can't tell the truth from the false, and I can't tell the difference between right and wrong.

Her world is distorted, and so is her worldview.

Si Mu said that she sometimes felt that there were several of herself, and there were occasional strange influences in front of her, and there were strange voices in her head, always encouraging her to do something out of the ordinary.

She was very depressed and uncomfortable.

When Jiang Yang said that she was not good-looking, Si Mu felt a sense of pleasure, like a life-saving straw.

Si Mu said a lot, and at the end she asked, "Third Dad, I said this, can you understand?" ”

Jiang Yang moved the bonfire and nodded: "I understand." ”

Si Mu said: "I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said that I had a precursor to schizophrenia. ”

Jiang Yang looked at the bonfire and didn't speak.

Si Mu continued: "I hid from my dad and took a lot of medicine, and it was quite controllable during the day, but at night, those strange sounds would keep appearing in my ears. I need alcohol, a lot of stimulation to get those sounds to go away. ”

"Third Dad, I said so, do you believe it?"

Si Mu looked at Jiang Yang and said with a serious face.

Jiang Yang nodded: "Letter." ”

Si Mu was puzzled: "Why do you believe me so much?" ”

Jiang Yang said: "There is no reason, I believe you when you say that you are a psychopath." ”

Si Mu said seriously: "I'm not joking. ”

Jiang Yang threw some firewood into the fire: "I'm not joking with you. What you just said is indeed very similar to a schizophrenic patient. ”

Si Mu looked at Jiang Yang in surprise: "You also know about this disease?" ”

"Yes."

Jiang Yang leaned on the scrap car, stared at the bonfire and said: "In the world of schizophrenia, whether it is hearing, vision and hallucination, it is different from others, and there will be very strange things that often appear in your ears, in your heart, and within the scope of your vision. ”

Si Mu sat up from the ground: "That's right." ”

Jiang Yang said: "I once read a news article in country M, about a schizophrenic patient who bites a passerby to death and then devours the internal organs. The scene of the incident was very bloody, and even those policemen had a psychological shadow. ”

"Later, when the patient was questioned, the schizophrenic patient said that all kinds of strange images and words appeared in his mind at that time, his body was not controlled, and he could not remember exactly what he had done."

The slight sound of raindrops sounded on the scrap car, and it was pitch black except for a firelight.

Si Mu was a little frightened when he heard this, and hugged his shoulders: "Third father, I'm ...... Will I also eat people in the future? ”

Jiang Yang shook his head: "I don't know, every schizophrenic patient has a different seizure, and I don't know what kind of situation you have." ”

Si Mu swallowed his saliva and curled up to the side with his shoulders hugged.

Jiang Yang glanced at Si Mu and continued: "I used to be idle, analyzed mental and psychological diseases, and found that these patients have a common characteristic. ”

Si Mu was curious: "What characteristics?" ”

Jiang Yang didn't answer Si Mu's question, but asked: "Have you ever thought about a question, in ancient times, or a few decades ago, when everyone couldn't even eat and starved every day, why didn't there or rarely appear that kind of people with mental and inner diseases?" ”

Si Mu shook his head slightly: "I haven't thought about it, why?" ”

Jiang Yang looked at Si Mu and said: "Because at that time, people were thinking about how to survive, how to fill their stomachs so that they wouldn't starve to death, and they didn't have time to think about more things, so they didn't talk about depression and schizophrenia." ”

Si Mu was slightly stunned: "What do you mean?" ”

Jiang Yang said seriously: "In my opinion, the cause of your illness has been found." ”

Si Mu's face was full of doubts.

Jiang Yang said: "You are idle, and you are idle." ”

"It's also schizophrenic, I think you're cerebellar dysplasia and fragmented."

Jiang Yang muttered, lit a cigarette and said: "Find a way to enrich yourself and make your life sunny, in this world, nothing is more important than your own beliefs." ”

"Faith?"

Si Mu looked at Jiang Yang suspiciously.

Jiang Yang spat out a puff of smoke and nodded: "Yes, faith." A mother suddenly loses her child, and it is the collapse of faith that makes her crazy. A person loses hope for life and the future, and it is also the collapse of faith that makes him depressed and infected with mental illness. Whether mentally or spiritually, if you want to be healthy, you must have strong and strong beliefs. ”

"This is a demon, no one can save you, only yourself."

Jiang Yang turned his head to look at Si Mu: "You can not listen to anyone, but you have to establish the correct three views." World view, outlook on life, values. You need to have the ability to judge right and wrong, so that you can become stronger, rather than judging yourself from what others say. ”

"I can understand all of what you just said, because I can understand what people who grow up in that environment are going through every day."

Jiang Yang smoked a cigarette and said in a low voice: "God has given you something, then there will be something missing." For example, you don't have a childhood like everyone else, you have never felt sincere, and you don't have a close friend. ”

"But it's your own life."

Jiang Yang looked at Si Mu: "I don't know what kind of disease schizophrenia is, I don't know how to overcome it, and I don't know what kind of pain you are experiencing." But what I can tell you is that a person who is strong in spirit and has absolute conviction cannot be defeated by demons. ”

"Fall will only make you a slave to the demons of your heart."

"So you have to take action and make your life fuller."

Jiang Yang picked up the last firewood and threw it into the fire, and said softly.

Si Mu felt that it made sense, nodded slightly, and looked at Jiang Yang expectantly: "Third Dad, I think what you said makes sense." But what is the need to do to act and enrich? For example? ”

Jiang Yang took another puff of cigarette, picked up the Swiss knife on the ground and handed it to Si Mu.

"For example, we don't have much firewood now, so let's chop some of it."

“……”

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