At night, the courtyard was already a little cold, and the moths under the eaves fluttered around the dim light. Jian Yi actually had a sense of being separated from the world in this distraction.

There was some pain in her heart inexplicably, and she came back to her senses after a short period of distraction, and listened to Fan Xiaoxi chattering endlessly about today's bits and pieces with a smile.

It was already past ten o'clock when she left, and Jian Yi did not go into the house, but still sat in the courtyard. She felt dazed, as if she had been abandoned by the world. So lonely, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know the meaning of my existence.

She had drunk herself after so much time, and when Zhou Qi found her, she had fallen asleep on the sofa, and the smell of alcohol smelled.

Even though more than half a year had passed, he knew that she had never come out of Peng Tongyuan's death. She never spoke of him, and for so long, she had never been to his graveyard. Self-deluded thinking that if you don't face it, everything will remain the same.

Zhou Qi picked her up from the sofa, probably insecure, and she clung to his clothes. After the car accident, she was very thin and thin, and she could feel the bones in her arms.

Placing her on the bed, his fingers ran over her eyebrows inch by inch. Under the light, her face flushed with wine, and she was quietly less gloomy.

He unconsciously recalled her before, her smile was bright, and it was easy for people to drown in. Now, she is rarely seen smiling like that anymore, and she is often cold and gloomy.

Zhou Qi's heart ached, covered the quilt for her, and went outside to smoke.

Jian Yi excused herself to be busy, and she hadn't seen the old lady for more than half a year, and she rarely took the initiative to call back even on the phone. I don't know how her father appeased the old lady, but the old lady didn't notice anything unusual. I only told her not to work too hard and to pay attention to rest.

Early this morning, Jian Yi received a call from Aunt Qing. Aunt Qing chattered about this year's bumper harvest, and asked Jian Yi if she would go back on National Day, she hadn't seen her for a long time.

Probably afraid that the old lady would find out the clues, Jian Yi was afraid of seeing her, but she also missed her. After hesitating for a long time, she finally said that she was not sure, and if she didn't have to go on a business trip at that time, she would go back.

Aunt Qing was somewhat disappointed, but she was looking forward to it. She talked a lot more than usual, hesitated for a while, and still said, "Ah Yi, your father may be getting married." Grandma means that she wants you to come back and see you. ”

Jian Yi couldn't help but be stunned at this moment, she didn't expect that Aunt Qing called her to talk about it. But her parents have been divorced for so long, her mother is about to give birth, and it seems natural for her father to remarry.

Jian Yi's heart was empty at this moment, and she stood blankly for a while, she nodded in response, saying that she would try her best to rush back.

After hanging up the phone, she didn't know what she was feeling in her heart for a while, so she stood dumbfounded. From now on, she will probably really be a homeless person.

When Zhou Qi came back in the evening, Jian Yi was still painting in the yard. In the twilight quadrangle, her figure seems to merge with her surroundings.

Although she didn't speak, Zhou Qi still sensed her low mood. He didn't bother her, and went into the house. The kitchen was deserted, there was no fire, and he didn't even know if she had eaten today.

He was going to order takeout, but in the end he didn't, and he started to get busy in the kitchen. When he finished cooking, when she went out, Jian Yi was still sitting in front of the drawing board, the painting had been wasted, and she was in a daze, and she didn't even notice when he approached.

"Let's eat." Zhou Qi's voice was low and deep, and she put away her drawing board.

The two sat at the table, Jian Yi lowered his head and drank the soup in the bowl, lowered his head slightly, and a delicate face was hidden in the shadows.

Zhou Qi glanced at her and asked, "Feeling bad?" ”

Jian Yi didn't answer his words, and Zhou Qi didn't ask again, what he wanted to know, even if she didn't say it, he would be able to find out quickly.

"Why did you drink last night?" After a moment, he looked at Jian Yi and asked again. His gaze stayed on her, as if he couldn't wait for her to answer.

Jian Yi was stared at by him very uncomfortable, and said lightly: "I can't sleep." After she finished speaking, a sarcasm appeared on the corner of her lips, and she said, "Even if I am a sinner, I should have my own freedom, right?" ”

"You've always been free." Zhou Qi retracted his gaze and began to eat his own food.

Jian Yi was a little embarrassed and snorted. For the rest of the day, she kept silent, and after eating, she didn't stay in the living room for long, and went back to her room to take a shower.

National Day is coming in the blink of an eye, and Jian Yi is very clear, even if she stays alone in the small courtyard every day, her actions seem to be uncontrollable. But without Zhou Qi's permission, she couldn't go anywhere.

So on this morning, when Zhou Qi was about to go out to work, she suddenly said: "Aunt Qing called and asked me to go back on National Day." ”

She was willing to go out, so she naturally wouldn't agree, so she paused and said, "Okay, I'll send you over when the time comes." ”

Jane refused without thinking about it, and said, "No, I want to go back by myself, just let the driver send me." "She knew that they would never let her drive back by herself like she was.

Zhou Qi didn't insist, and nodded in response.

In the afternoon, Fan Xiaoxi came over and brought a lot of snacks such as fruit, milk tea, popcorn, etc. Her crush has made new progress, and she shares it with Jane.

Today's Jian Yi is absent-minded, and I don't know how much I listened. When she was in a state of interest, she suddenly asked, "How did you feel when your father and my mother got married?" ”

Fan Xiaoxi sighed, a little dazed. She quickly captured the point of Jian Yi's words, and asked cautiously, "Is your father planning to remarry?" ”

Jian Yi didn't answer her words, but she already knew the answer. Although my father has been married for so long, the mood at that time is still deeply engraved in my memory.

The smile on her face faded, she lowered her head, and said, "I'm sad, I feel like I've been abandoned." Aunt Lan has always been very kind to me, but now, I often feel that home is no longer home. ”

The two of them were like two wounded young beasts, comforting each other and licking their wounds. This is probably the reason why she has not been shielded from her world by Jane since the car accident.

She could fully feel Jian Yi's sadness and the loneliness of being abandoned, she was just getting better, but it still didn't delay her father from starting a new family, and her mother had a child of her own. Where do they have a home?