Chapter 3 Gains and Losses
It is useless to do anything, and all actions are in vain. But it doesn't hurt for me, because I haven't done anything before. I once heard someone say, "The turtle lives long because it doesn't do anything." This sentence is particularly convincing to me, because I am no different from a turtle, Yin Yin has never done anything, but I have lived a long life. Perhaps it was God's anger at me for not accomplishing anything—to see someone important close to me leave, whether it was a friend or my wife.
The sun looks much newer today than it was yesterday, perhaps because of my psychology, but I know that it is indeed younger than yesterday, and it will be younger than the cloudy day. I look at the sun, how long has it been since then? If it continues, maybe I will be able to see my wife again, and more than just my wife ... As I thought so, I suddenly looked up and saw my grandson sitting on the ground playing. If this continues, will the grandchildren one day become unborn? Whatever the outcome, I don't think I can make any changes, so instead of thinking about what can't be changed, let me escape for a while.
The grandson's dog died today, and the mother and son cried very sadly, and the sad breath did not dissipate until lunch, and the delicious meal became unpalatable. Because I hate to see others sad, let alone my cherished loved ones. But I wasn't as depressed as they were, and I didn't cry. Looking at the grave that my grandson had built for his dog, I felt a sense of happiness and hope. Because it will come back to life on a cloudy day, it may be a tragic parting for the two of them, but for me it is a reunion after a long time, and when I think about it, I feel much better. So I decided to go to bed early.
The next day, as I expected, my grandson was playing with the dog. I also got out of bed excitedly and hugged the dog that had been with me for a long time. My grandson was startled, but when he saw me laughing, he quickly laughed too. I asked him why he was laughing, and he said, "It's been a long time since I've seen grandpa so happy, and he's usually lifeless." ”
It was as if I had found something very important that I had lost, and the joy spread through my breast. Perhaps, as my grandson said, I have some hope for life, and life has some vitality in my eyes.
"Mom, I really want to buy it." "Didn't grandpa say yesterday that he didn't want to have animals at home, so you can ask for it." The mother and son are so noisy. I remembered that when my grandson wanted to have a dog, I was against it, and if there was a dog at home, it was not only noisy, but also troublesome, and it smelled, and it was unknown whether my grandson would be interested in it for a few days, but I am not worried now, because I know that these things will not happen. Thinking like this, my grandson came to me quietly, squirming and shaking. After looking down for a while, he was finally ready to speak, but before he could speak, I interrupted him: "You want to buy a dog, right?" Then buy it, but take care of it yourself, I won't take care of it for you. Hearing my words, my grandson was both incredulous and excited, "Thank you, grandpa, I thought it would definitely not work if you said it so firmly yesterday." I'll tell my dad to buy it now," and ran away excitedly. I smiled and watched him leave. Just as I was about to take a nap, I glanced at the balcony, where yesterday there were sprouts of fresh green, but today there is nothing.
When I got up the next day, the dog was gone, and my grandson ran over excitedly and said to me, "Grandpa, I want to buy a pet dog, I saw it with my dad yesterday, it was very cute." I replied, "No, there is an animal in the house that is not good in all aspects, it is very noisy, and it smells。。。。。。 After listening to my words, my grandson went out crying. I'm sorry for that, but I don't want to lose it again.
It is useless to do anything, and all actions are in vain. Even if time were to be reversed, I would eventually gain and lose everything.