The two things I love in this life are snow and the moon. Because I think these two are the holiest things in the world, and every time I see them, they always cleanse my soul, but now I can't accept them from the heart, and the reason for this is that I can't accept them from the heart. Maybe it's because of the guilt, I'm not as pure as I used to be, and now every time I see it, I will avoid it, for fear that my black stain will stain them.

I am guilty, but I am not condemned, because even God will never punish me, you must know that there are many people in the world who have sinned more than me, and human beings are like that. Every time I tell myself this, I feel relieved.

I still didn't dare to stay at home, and every time I looked inside, it felt empty, as if there should be toys there, and there should be a child playing with toys. This feeling is very torturous, and if you stay, you will drive yourself crazy because of depression. At one point, I wanted to kill myself, saying to myself why I had to endure this, that it would be a relief for me to die of old age. But I didn't do that, after all, it wasn't that there was no hope at all, and I clung to the last bit of hope and waited for the day when I would see my wife, so as not to collapse.

I wanted to see my wife again, even at the cost of such great pain. In my eyes, my wife is like the snow and the moon, a kind of salvation for me, an existence that has cleansed my soul, so her death has caused irreparable results for me. If all of my current nihilistic emotions are due to the death of my wife, then I think that her resurrection will surely revive me at the same time.

The wind blew softly, and the touch made me feel like I was alive. But at the same time, this sense of nothingness seems to be dead, can dead people also have a sense of touch? Who knows, I don't care about that. If a person does not realize that he is alive, he certainly does not feel that he is dead.

On the day of my wife's accident, I was still sleeping in the morning, and she went out to play with friends, and left me with only one sentence: "I'm going to play at the paper ring house, and I may come back late." Today's weather forecast is snow, so you should wear thick clothes when you go out. I didn't answer her when I was sleepy, so she went out. And that became the last thing we said.

The weather is getting colder by the day, and I know that spring is almost over and winter is coming. Time is always the same, whether you're ready or not, it doesn't stop. It may also be that I am too willful, I used to look forward to it, but now it is about to come true, but I am more and more afraid. I couldn't face my wife's death that day, and although she would have been resurrected and everything would have been okay fundamentally, I had to face it now. But on the bright side, if we do it all over again, we might be able to stop this from happening. It didn't work, but at least I'd feel better.

Looking at the increasingly gloomy atmosphere in the house, you can know that the day is indeed coming soon.

Finally, a few days later, the morning woke up to the funeral being completely ready, after everything had been prepared. I'm ready to nail the coffin board. They asked me to take one last look at her, and I shuddered all over, after so many years of separation, it was still a miracle like going back in time to make us meet. I stepped forward, and her face appeared in my field of vision, and although she was actually very old, I couldn't tell that she was this age. Probably so excited that I almost forgot that there was someone next to me, and I said, "Wait for me, we'll see each other again soon." The people who couldn't understand what I meant froze and realized that something was wrong with what I said, and I became nervous. My son suddenly hugged me tightly and cried, "Dad, you can't do stupid things!" Mom can't come back, and I don't want to lose you anymore. "Even though it was winter and we were all dressed thickly, he hugged me so tightly that I could even feel his pounding heartbeat. I suddenly felt extremely warm, this is family affection. Don't worry, child, when your mother comes back, we can still be together happily as before. So I said, "Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere, how can I leave you?" The two big men hugged each other like this, but no one laughed, because everyone knew what the occasion was.

"I'm going to play at the Paper Ring House, and I may come back late. Today's weather forecast is snow, so you should wear thick clothes when you go out. "I woke up from my sleep without any sleep. I sat up suddenly, it was her, it was her, it was none other than her. I wanted to hug her excitedly. But before that time, I held back my excitement for the time being. I have to find a way to stop this, but he's going to go to his girlfriend's house to play, and I can't say that I'll go with him, if it's a normal outing with friends. So I'm going to let her go first. "Well, you stay safe on the road." I said so. She looked surprised at first, then smiled again, said nothing, and left.

I'm going to wait for her at that place another night and stop her. So I waited there for a long time. She was trying to save a little girl who was hit by a car. I know, the child came to thank her, and I remember her face. I'm going to save them both at the same time. I don't want to be a hero, I just don't want to see a tragedy happen in front of my eyes. When the time came, but she didn't arrive, I was puzzled and couldn't understand. So when he looked up, he saw the little girl from afar. Determined to save the little girl first, I deliberately pretended to have inconvenient legs, and the girl came to help me, and I took the opportunity to help her, and the car drove by, because the girl was not running, so it was safe, and after thanking the girl, she jumped and walked away.

At this time, I couldn't hear the details of a phone call on my mobile phone, but I only knew that the taxi she was in had been in an accident. My eyes went dark. Why? Weird, right? Why is this happening. As I ran wildly, I called Paper Ring and asked her what the hell was going on and why she was taking a taxi.

"Why take a taxi? What's wrong, did something happen? So excited!?" Answer me! "When she said to leave, you told her to pay attention to safety on the road, and you didn't want to walk back to worry about you。。。。。。" I stopped, fell to my knees, laughed maniacally, and felt like no one was around. "It's okay, everything will be fine on a cloudy day. Everything will be fine in the future. ”