Chapter 464: Those Who Were Once Great (Medium)
Kayla frowned deeply as the agents flew out in the air, looked at Alfred's face, and asked him, "Don't you wonder who that person is?" ”
Alfred shook his head and said, "I'm just an old housekeeper, and the big things that are about to happen in this world have nothing to do with me. ”
"What do you mean by that?"
Kayla walked over to Alfred's side and looked at him, and after saying that, Alfred looked a little tired.
If it were an ordinary old man, Kayla might think that he was tired, after all, thinking and talking are very energy-consuming, but Alfred is still very strong, although he is no longer young, Kayla has no doubt that he will not be able to beat the old butler at all.
"Valeria, you asked me in your previous letter what I think of your future plans for life, and in my reply, I didn't mention it, not because I don't have an opinion, but because I'm afraid you don't want to hear my opinion......"
Kayla tilted her head, not understanding what Alfred meant by this, she thought for a moment, and then said:
"Are you worried that I won't take your advice? It's okay, I think everything is a matter of listening, and even if some of the advice doesn't go as I expected, I'm happy to use it as a reference and thank the people who gave me the advice......
"That's why you've been able to improve so quickly, but again, it's why you don't want to listen to my advice."
Kayla thought that Alfred was still worried that she would not accept the advice, she walked up to Alfred, looked him in the eye and said, "Oh, Mr. Pennyworth, you really don't need to worry about that, I have always regarded you as my teacher and godfather......"
“…… My advice is to bring your family to the U.S. as soon as possible, then find another job, and spend the rest of your life in peace, and don't talk about your status in the first half of your life, not to anyone. ”
Kayla's brow furrowed slowly, and the frequency of her chest began to rise and fall faster, and it was obvious that she was getting a little angry, but she still asked as patiently as she could, "Why?" ”
Without waiting for Alfred to answer, Kayla couldn't help it, she said, "How can I betray my career?" How can I betray my ideals? The shores of Lake Baikal are my hometown, and I will return there eventually. ”
The more she spoke, the more excited she became, and the thought of her hometown made her more emotional, and she said in a trembling tone:
"Yes, I know, most people don't have a good impression of Siberia, that it's a land of permafrost......"
"But it is also a child in the arms of the Great Mother, and Lake Baikal is the pearl on her forehead, the teardrops in the corners of her eyes, which is my hometown, where I was born and where I will die."
"Calm down, Valeria, I didn't deny it, that's why I say that you probably don't like to hear my advice."
"You've got to tell me why, right? Alfred, how else would you make me take this ridiculous suggestion? ”
Alfred sighed, and he said:
"Decades ago, I was as passionate and full of ideals as you......"
"Even, until I completed the task of shipping the list as instructed, I was intoxicated by the beautiful vision of what could be achieved in a great cause......"
"But it all ended with one of my decisions."
"What's that?"
"As I recall, I mentioned that after hiding the list, I did not go directly back to the UK to find my superiors and contacts, but to Moscow."
Kayla frowned, and she said, "I wanted to ask before, it should be illegal to go directly to Moscow, right?" Even if I were a Soviet, I couldn't do that easily. ”
"Yes, but I didn't have a choice, because I knew that only scientists in Moscow could possibly solve that monster's egg."
"The process of getting that egg from the owl was extremely difficult, and in the process, we saw many things that ordinary people did not see, and I realized that some dark force may be threatening the world, and we must find a way to stop it."
"At that time, I felt that the crisis was imminent, and the regulations were not so important in comparison, so I found a way to come to Moscow."
"And then?"
"I'm arrested...... Of course, this is not unexpected, after all, I broke the law, but after that, ......"
Alfred sighed, then said:
"At that time, Philby had already returned to Moscow, and he vouched for me, and Moscow decided not to pursue me for violating the regulations."
"But when I told them all this, their first reaction was not to deal with that monster egg and that mysterious dark force to keep the people of the world safe, they understood this as a new weapon developed by the United States......"
"They asked me for the detailed parameters of this weapon, hoping to get more detailed information, and I repeatedly stressed to them the danger of that thing, and the fact that we must solve it and eliminate the hidden danger for all of humanity."
"But I was disappointed by the answer I received."
"The person in charge of communication with me told me that in order to make sure that this newly developed weapon would not be used by the United States against them, they would send other agents to investigate the matter."
"And if it's just an uncontrolled, unexploited monster, then it's the United States that suffers first, and they're happy to see it happen."
Kayla was a little silent, the stories seemed to be lightly written from Alfred's mouth, but she could relate to the disappointment and anger.
"In fact, I tried to convince myself at that time, for example, that the financial situation of the Soviet Union at that time was also relatively worrying, and I could not invest heavily in an illusory project, for example, it may be that I did not get more conclusive evidence to prove the danger of that thing......"
"Or, I want to...... Perhaps, in the final analysis, no one is obligated to save all mankind. ”
Kayla could hear Alfred's voice choke a little, especially as he spat out his last words, and the crisp sound of something breaking in that old, hoarse voice reached Kayla's ears as well, making her feel suffocated.
"But what really disappointed me was that I was assassinated on my way out of Moscow."
"At the time, I thought it must be an American spy lurking in Moscow who wanted to kill me, and they almost succeeded, and the man who did it was very powerful, and two bullets hit my calf and chest respectively."
"I narrowly escaped my life, but just as I was recovering from my injuries and was about to investigate the matter, I found out that the person who did it was not an American spy, but a ...... Own. ”
Kayla's eyes widened, and she said, "How is that possible??" Why should they ......"
"Because the monster egg I know, as well as the information of the dark Ones, once it is disseminated, it may greatly shake the confidence of the army, and they don't want me to go out and spread panic......"
Alfred closed his eyes and said:
"Once upon a time, we walked on a path that we would never be afraid of, and when we wanted to go forward, we didn't have to go around the mountain, and the mountain would go around us out of fear."
"It all ended at the moment when we began to hesitate."
"Perhaps, it is true that no one in this world is obliged to save the whole world, all this is just an unrealistic fantasy, but when we give up this fantasy, we give up everything."
Kayla saw that the ravines on Alfred's face were trembling, and he suddenly realized that the butler's old age did not seem to come from physical decay, but more like the decadence and exhaustion of the spirit that had collapsed and rebuilt.
Kayla suddenly understands that Alfred did not give up this profession because of his relationship with Bruce, but rather because after he gave up his beliefs, Bruce became his only spiritual sustenance.
Thinking like this, Kayla suddenly said with some anxiety, "Wait, Alfred, Benjamin got your information earlier, and it records your previous resume......"
"If, as you said, you didn't actually develop Wayne Jr. into a member of the organization, and he doesn't even know about your past, then you need to hurry up and destroy that information!"
"Come with me, I'll take you to that room!"
Alfred looked at Kayla with some surprise in his eyes and said, "I thought you would berate me for making up stories, or that I would be dissatisfied with me deliberately smearing her......"
"You're not that kind of person."
Kayla's forward movement stopped, she turned, hesitated in place for a moment, looked back at Alfred, and said:
"In a difficult situation, people like you and Philby are under unimaginable pressure to turn the tide, and you have indeed done it."
"When you are dying, you can say: 'My whole life and all my energies have been devoted to the most magnificent cause in the world, the struggle for the liberation of mankind.'" ”
Kayla paused, and said in a trembling tone:
"Perhaps, all mankind will not be liberated......"
"Alfred......" Kayla looked into Alfred's eyes and asked, "...... But will you regret what you once did? ”
Alfred also looked Kayla in the eye, and he was silent for a moment, then slowly shook his head.
Kayla turned her back to him, paused, and stepped forward again.
Her voice echoed through the room, like an actor trying to finish the last line of a play as the curtain fell.
"I don't regret it either."