On January 19, 2022, a newcomer writer named Yumu Burning Rope opened the starting point writer assistant and uploaded about 10,000 words of content.

As of January 19, 2023, the book has been released for one year!!!

On the occasion of the Chinese New Year and the first anniversary of this book, you must be curious to know the details of the author's creation, so I will share with you what preparations I made before writing this book......

The answer is that no preparation has been done at all.

I also know that you must be wondering, how did you construct the idea of this book in the early stages of creation?

The answer is that there is no idea at all.

I just wanted to see if the writer's assistant at the starting point was good!!!

Why have you already written almost 4 million words?!!!!!!

What the hell am I doing now?!!!!!!!

I don't know if you've ever heard of a famous theory called "Throw your hat over the wall first".

Sort of that means that if you don't feel like you're determined to do something, throw your hat across the wall first, and then you have to climb over the wall to get it back.

The author threw his hat across the Himalayas.

When I opened the book, I wrote 10,000 words in three hours, I was really very chic, and a year later, in order to fill the hole, scratching my ears and scratching my cheeks, I didn't finish writing 2,000 words in four hours, and I was really embarrassed.

Digging a pit is cool for a while, filling the pit crematorium!!!

Every day at two o'clock in the middle of the night, when I dream back, I have to ask myself who gave me the courage to start a long story without writing an outline??!!

I think, you may never have seen any starting point writer show regret in the anniversary summary of his first book.

Why did you add so many settings in the first place?!!!! WhyWhy?!!!

In order to give me a brain pump at that time, I added the settings casually, and round out a reasonable explanation of the origin, psychology and behavior, especially the part of the behavioral motivation, which I have almost turned over!!!

Why should I write the system?!!!

Why do I need to add an umbrella?!!!!!!

Why am I writing about the autism spectrum!!!!!!

Why is it more difficult to write a comic fandom than to write an essay?!!!

Ahh!!!!h

Alright, thank you for listening to my rants, and now let's get down to business.

First of all, the author's own evaluation of this book is that it is okay overall, but there are also many dissatisfactions.

80% of these dissatisfaction points come from, why didn't I think about it at the time, and uploaded the text without writing an outline.

So why didn't I write an outline at the time?!!!!!

Due to the structure and setting problems in the early stage of the article, it took too much pen and ink to make up for the loopholes, which also led to the fact that the more elaborate and fast-paced unit short drama I originally conceived was a bit unrealizable.

If you want to write a unit short drama, you need to strengthen the details, weaken the main line, and enhance the sense of substitution in each short story, but because many of the previous settings were added casually when I wrote the text, I had to spend a lot of time explaining what was going on.

When it comes to this part, the author is like in prison, on the one hand, he is in a hurry, and on the other hand, he is full of regret for his youth and frivolity.

Because the pressure of filling the pit is really great, the author takes too much care when unfolding some plots, and cannot create heartily.

And because the emotional pressure of the author will be reflected in the text, the content level of this part is not satisfactory, and these authors are aware of it.

Many readers will find that their long suggestions have been deleted, some of which may have been swallowed by the starting point, or deleted by the assistant, but many of them were deleted by the author himself.

Or there are a lot of reviews, and it's not bad, he just said a fact, such as a certain part of the plot is written like shit.

When the author saw this evaluation, he didn't feel angry, but he had a very ridiculous feeling, as if someone finally recognized the goods.

So why did I delete these reviews?

This brings us back to the first question, why on earth do I want to open a book?

I'm just trying to see if the writer assistant client at the starting point is good or not.

The answer is that it really doesn't work!!!

I reply to these comments in the background of the writer's assistant, and the person who replied to the comment is not visible to the reply reminder, and the same is true for the likes I click.

Unless, I open the reading client at the starting point, find your comment from the vast sea of chapters, and then reply, you can see the reminder.

The problem is that some of the chapters where the opinions appear are already chapters from a long time ago, and I don't know where he appears when I look at the sentence that you commented.

However, you have worked so hard to write for such a long time, and your comments are very pertinent, I don't give feedback, I always feel ashamed.

So, my little brain has an idea, as long as I delete the comment, you can see the prompt that your comment has been deleted, which means that you can know that I have read your comment.

Am I a genius?

Well, in fact, it was because there were some big holes before, which made the author feel very hopeless, and in the middle of writing this book, the author's anxiety disorder once reached the point where he needed to use medication.

During that period, my mental state was not very normal, and when I saw all the comments with more than three lines, I would feel that they were scolding me, so I deleted them all, and for a while I even indiscriminately strafed all the comments, and squatted in the author's background to mechanically delete the comments for three hours.

I think the probability of accidentally hurting the praise is half and half, if you find that your long review has been deleted, it may be the product of the author going crazy in the middle of the night without taking medicine.

I was wrong, I will take medicine well in the future, I am very sorry for the readers who were deleted or injured by mistake, the author will try to minimize the number of times he goes crazy in the future.

Of course, there are some comments that you write that are too long, and it may be swallowed by the starting point, which is not something that the author can control, if you do feel that your suggestions are very pertinent and useful to the author, you can join the group, and then knock on the window to contact me.

On the Internet, the reviews of this book are generally mixed.

But there's a very interesting phenomenon, half of them say that I write like a piece of shit in the first 30 chapters, and the other half say that I write like a piece of shit after 30 chapters.

This is not the product of a simple web duality, but represents two types of readers.

Although there is no outline in the previous part, and the overall plot is relatively thin, taking the route of traditional linear online texts, there is not much room for writing, but the pace is fast and refreshing, which is more suitable for readers who are used to fast-paced reading.

In the second half, when the author begins to reorganize the plot and tries to write a unit drama instead, such readers may feel that the pace becomes sluggish, mixed with too much meaningless description and lyricism related to the progress of the plot.

Readers who like to watch the second half may appreciate the author's pen power and writing, and at the same time, the acceptance of unit drama narratives is also relatively high, so they will feel that the protagonist in front of him frequently switches worlds, and it is a little thin to be an emotionless plot driving tool.

There are different genres to say which the author prefers, and the author would be comfortable if the whole book was unfolded in the way of the first 30 chapters.

As someone who used to be proficient in some cool article websites, I don't need to think about writing a single-line narrative, fast-paced, and full of a lot of cool points.

Those cool point construction methods, as if engraved in my genes, I once held this knife, in some websites, to fight their way out of the encirclement, and achieved good results.

If the second method is adopted, the time and energy required is completely different, and most of the author's outline and sub-outline are the main plot and character settings.

All the call back, and the ambush and the foreshadowing, the use of certain repetitive sentences, the repetitive reactions of certain characters, and the progressive reactions that you see in the text are all recorded in the author's mind.

On the one hand, my brain has to bear the work of very trivial recording, on the other hand, I have to bear a lot of emotional pressure to improve the plot.

In some previous episodes, the author said that he was drinking, but he really drank.

And the degree of drinking may be more serious than you think, especially the part about Gotham, which is in many cases in the prelude to being unconscious.

Many people may find Batman's transformation process in this book very interesting, because it is actually the author's recovery process.

Most of the paranoia, stubbornness, and confusion in the first half are produced under the paralyzing effect of alcohol, while most of the reason, persistence, and sudden thinking in the later period are written under the effect of sufficient drugs.

For a long time, I didn't know what I was doing.

Some people may think that I am forced by life to make money, but I am not.

My family situation is okay, there is no family pressure, no siblings, no complicated interpersonal relationships, the money I earn from work and writing before is enough for me to live a very chic life in a city where prices are comparable to those of first-tier cities.

So, what the hell am I doing? Why am I making myself so miserable? Why choose the most thankless path between easy and difficult?

I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, and when I got up and thought about it, I found that there were two words densely packed in the cracks - "love".

You may feel a little numb, but in fact, all authors who work on long-form novels will not make enough money to buy medicine if they are not supported by love and creative passion when they are creating.

The premise is to create seriously, not to write like I used to.

In fact, I have carefully analyzed that the vast majority of the source of my anxiety is that I know that this is a book that is no longer destined to be perfect, just like Schiller, the protagonist of this book, was born with an almost incurable mental illness.

However, a very important manifestation of anxiety disorders is the perfectionist tendency, which is commonly known as obsessive-compulsive disorder.

For a while, I sat at the table and looked at the bottles on the table, as if there was another me sitting across from me.

That I am incomplete, no matter what method I use, I can no longer become perfect, like this book, and like many people's life experiences.

She kept saying to me that if you continued, it would only add to the pain of everybody, just like those who were born with mental illness but came into this world.

Others are reluctant to let him die, but he can't live well.

There will be a voice inside you urging you to make a decision that should be extreme, but she tells you that it is decisive and judgmental.

So why didn't I make this decision at the time?

Because I tossed and turned, thought about it, and still felt reluctant.

Many people may know that my practice on a certain website is no longer updated for various reasons, and when I made this decision, I had a very strong sense of guilt, not for the readers, but for the characters in the book.

I put a lot of effort into portraying them so vividly, and every action they took in the plot was done by themselves in my head, not by me controlling them.

And once I decided not to work on this book anymore, it meant that my children died and would never come back.

I don't want to go through this feeling again.

This is the most important reason why this book has been able to stumble to where it is today, and there is no one.

After all, in a situation where the mental state is not normal, it is difficult for you to make me think rationally about the gains and losses.

The only emotions that struck me were more extreme, including my love for every character in the book.

In recent times, many people may not understand the portrayal of greed, but in fact, this is a portrayal of the author's heart.

In order to be able to continue to shape these superheroes I love, and give everyone the best ending, I have to write if I can't write it, and I have to write it even if I can't go down, even if my mental state is irrepressibly slipping, I still have to write.

And to ask, how did the author recover from this disease......

Do you think I will say that it is because of you?

Well, I know that if you say this, you must be able to deceive some people who are moved, after all, the book review area of this book is always haunted from time to time by some little fools who are deceived by the plot.

However, as an author dedicated to popular science psychology and psychiatry, I must tell you that the main reason for my condition to improve is the adequate amount of medication, and there is no other answer.

I have also seen a lot of comments in the comment section that share their inner trauma or want to seek psychological counseling from the author.

But first of all, the author is not licensed, so it is impossible to give you any treatment advice, all I can do is tell you, don't be afraid to go to the doctor.

Some people think that this is drug abuse, which is outrageous, but in fact, it may be that the problems that you think only exist in the psychological and emotional aspects have already affected the physiology, but the mood is too low, so that you ignore this, and the early treatment and medicine will open the door to a new world.

Of course, we have to admit that the development of psychology in China is still not perfect, and the distinction between psychologists, psychological counselors, and psychiatrists is not obvious enough, resulting in many people being deceived.

The author repeats that the vast majority of so-called counselors do not have the right to prescribe, he is not a doctor and cannot treat diseases, but he can comfort you.

The psychiatrist has the authority to prescribe and can also be responsible for reassuring you.

Psychiatric doctors have the right to prescribe and may or may not be able to comfort you, and some doctors are only responsible for diagnosing mental illnesses and are not responsible for "talking" in the traditional sense.

So, don't expect a counselor to prescribe medication for you, and don't go to the psychiatric department, grab a random doctor and let him comfort you.

The correct process is to find a psychiatric registration in a regular hospital and follow the process for examination and diagnosis.

If the doctor determines that you don't need medication and you still feel bad, go to a professional counselor and listen to him.

And if you judge that you need to use medication, then you must follow the doctor's instructions, rather than thinking that as long as you listen to the psychiatrist, the disease will disappear naturally.

And most of the mental illness reactions I describe in my book come from what I have seen with my own eyes.

And the purpose of writing this content is to hope that everyone will not demonize mental illness, it is the same as ordinary diseases, it has causes, symptoms, pathologies, can be treated, can be cured.

At the same time, I also hope that everyone has enough patience for patients with mental illness, especially those with long course or congenital diseases, these people are really painful.

The autism spectrum of Schiller, the protagonist of this book, is a very typical innate mental problem whose cause is not yet fully understood, and there is currently no very scientific and complete cure.

Of course, not being able to be completely cured does not mean that it cannot be cured in stages, if you start to conduct an online screening from the people you know and the people you know, you will find that the number of children on the spectrum will be much more than you imagined.

But they're just like ordinary people. Living in this society, just certain behaviors may produce some abnormalities.

If you notice something unusual in your life, or find a reaction like some of the details described in this article, please don't make a fuss and don't be overly concerned, it's just an ordinary person.

Of course, in the end, I must thank the readers, although medicine is the main reason for my cure, but the biggest difference between psychological and spiritual problems and other diseases is that it requires a better environment for recovery.

For a long time, the reason why I recovered quickly was because, whenever I opened the book review area, it was like entering a group of praises, and there were many people who praised me with a kind of firmness that made me feel lost.

It's a little bit of a fix for me.

I don't know why they are so determined, why they are able to find so many shining points in their doomed works, and even deserve so many words from them to praise me.

It made me feel like "is this a normal person?" "Feelings.

Patients with anxiety disorders are like swimming desperately in a sea of nothingness all the time, trying to swim forward desperately, not wanting to drown, and knowing that the boat will not come.

If the ocean in which the average anxiety patient lives is an ocean of nothingness and confusion, then the author is lost in the ocean of praise.

You may think. The moment the comment was sent, after the release of his emotional value, he disappeared into thin air, but in fact, he did not.

I can figure out the psychology of every person's post through every sentence and every word, and feel this emotion more deeply than you.

This ability has brought disaster to me, and it is precisely because of my strong ability to empathize that I have been plagued by mental illness without any major blows and a happy family.

And at this time, it became my ship.

If there really was a tower in my mindspace, the drug would just glue it back together, but you, all the readers of this book, all your subscriptions, comments, and likes, paint it to the perfection that I have always wanted to get but could not get.

Although I know that nothing in this world is perfect, people with anxiety disorders are originally looking for illusions.

And the reason why they can't be cured is that in the cruel reality of society, most of the time, they can't even get an illusion.

I am very fortunate that all the readers, with their every action, weave a utopia.

As long as I click on the writer's assistant, I can put aside all my worries and look at the many imperfect people in this world, and my heart will be shaken by every word of the imperfect works I have created.

So, on the occasion of the first anniversary, I would like to solemnly thank all the readers of this book, including those who may not have the money to read the original version, or who have posted suggestions for this book on other social platforms.

Thank you, my medicine.

In addition, I would like to thank all the readers and friends who have rewarded this book.

I really can't imagine how you feel to spend extra money on a book subscription when you pay for it?!!

This kind of behavior of yours has shocked me much more than the money you have rewarded.

Of course. There are also people who have really given me a little bit of a monetary shock, such as the 45 alliance leaders so far in this book.

O Alliance Leader! Friends! 1,000 yuan for an alliance leader!!

Whenever I think about it, I feel that my current state of life is probably just because I haven't seen the world.

And what makes me feel like I've never seen the world is the current one of the book's Silver Alliance, Kratias, and one of the Silver Alliance, Sain.

How can there be two silver alliances in this book?!!!

I didn't even write an outline when I opened the book!!!

…… Why didn't I write an outline when I opened the book?!

In addition, when the first Silver League Kratias boss appeared, I had just finished 20,000 days, and my mental state was relatively poor at that time, so I didn't have a single chapter or special thanks, I'm really sorry!

And then there'!! Dust Boss Eternal God!! The First Silver Alliance!! Banners on the whole site!! Thank you very much!!

As I said before, after the appearance of the Silver Alliance, there will be additions, but because after the full liberalization, the author has to commute three hours a day to work, so I really can't finish writing.

So, the big guy can wait for me to be free, add more, or directly click on the stalk, what you order, I will write.

The number of words is uncertain, depending on the complexity of the plot, you can write CP, but there is basically no way to rub the content, because the review is not given, and some sensitive topics are the same.

Of course,Given that I'm a fandom,So,This kind of customization,There may not be much room for appreciation.,But I'll definitely write it carefully.,I'll definitely write the outline in advance.。

…… So why didn't I write an outline in advance?!!!!

Well, on the occasion of the first anniversary, and the Spring Festival, I wish all readers and friends a prosperous Year of the Rabbit!

Happy Chinese New Year!

…… Why didn't I write an outline in advance?!!!!