"Morgan ......"

Russell muttered.

He chewed on the name, feeling the bitterness seep into his throat like chewing the peel of an orange.

Of course, he remembered the name......

Morgan is the first friend of Ultramarine.

That is, the small glaze...... In other words, it is the girlfriend of "Blue Song Robin".

It is also the reason why the blue song robin has become a "little glass".

Before, Russell had vaguely felt that Morgan might sink deeper in the darkness than Xiao Liuli...... Russell didn't really feel this at the time.

In other words, Morgan's contact with Russell diminished the depth and darkness he felt.

Until now.

When Russell saw this suicide note, which was written in a few words, he felt as if his heart had become heavy.

He was silent for a moment, then almost instinctively, gently touching his finger to his forehead.

Accompanied by ultramarine flames flying like butterflies, "ultramarine" sitting on the bed becomes "hairdresser".

The barber stared at the void in front of him in a daze, and curled up his legs as if he felt the cold.

He reached out and carefully touched the void, gently stroking the words that remained in the air, only reflected at the bottom of his pupils.

The blue-haired youth didn't say a word.

Very mixed emotions piled up in the bottom of my heart, and finally gave rise to a very heavy and slow sigh.

It's like mourning, or lamenting.

It seems to be angry, but it also seems to be relieved.

Countless emotions were stirred together in this way, and finally became a complex emotion based on bitterness, and he couldn't taste any ingredients.

"How can it be so ......?"

The barber muttered under his breath.

It's just that from Xiao Liuli's memory, I have a glimpse of her past and past for a moment.

But he didn't actually experience his life with Morgan...... There is not even a complete memory.

But the emotions that are surging in my heart at this moment seem so real......

His pupils were a little moist, but no tears flowed in the end.

Trying to escape the abruptness and sadness that welled up in his heart, the barber reached out and tried to take off his mask.

But when his fingertips touched his forehead, he didn't take off the mask.

The mask was glued to the face.

Russell was stunned for a moment.

Because of the momentary distraction, the sadness became less intense.

Russell tried to remove the mask again—this time without any hindrance.

“…… What's the situation? ”

This has never been the case.

But Russell vaguely grasped a certain key.

"It's not just about playing ...... And do you have to learn to act? ”

He muttered under his breath.

If you really think of the person you play as yourself, the mask ...... Maybe you won't be able to take it off.

Although it may be a little far ahead.

But Russell subconsciously began to think......

Suppose one day, you fall and become a demon.

What kind of demon will it become?

But in the end, such worries lasted only half a morning.

- because Russell soon realized that this was not too far in his mind.

Because when Russell arrived at the company, he began to conduct routine inspections twice a month.

It turned out that something really happened.

"Red four blue five...... You've got to be careful, Ultramarine. ”

Looking at the report handed over by Russell, Delphinium frowned: "Obviously nothing has happened recently...... But your redshift has gone up another level. The first time your blue shift rose as fast as the red shift, it seems that the rapid growth period of your blue shift has arrived. You'll have to restrain your desires. ”

"I started with red, two, blue and four before, and they all rose synchronously......"

Russell tried to quibble.

But the delphinium is clearly not so easy to fool: "That's the special case.

"Two months ago, you got to the red-three-blue-five. And in the past two months, your blueshift stats have not increased...... But your redshift value has been increased by one level.

"Whether it's a blue shift or a red shift, level 6 is a hurdle. If your blueshift value doesn't increase, I'm afraid you'll only be one step away from swelling. ”

Russell knew what the delphinium meant, so he was silent.

The blueshift value is quite difficult to improve...... Because he symbolizes the "maturity" of a person.

The more people who can control themselves, the more they know what path they are on, and the less confused they are, the higher the blueshift value. And the fifth-level blue shift is the limit of the average human being.

To reach level 6, you need to climb over the "Wall of the Zodiac".

Crossing this wall, one is no longer a "boring mortal", but has a certain "transcendent divinity".

The way they perceive the world is no longer the same as that of ordinary people...... From this point of view, all psionics who have reached level 5 or above and level 6 are actually crazy people in some sense.

This is also the reason why when the demon hatches, it will reach the sixth level of red shift.

If Red Shift crosses this wall before Blue Shift reaches level six, he will degenerate into a demon.

Only the crazy and twisted like the inferior...... After experiencing his distorted childhood and crying hysterically, he repeatedly smashed and reshaped his personality in order to directly reach the sixth level of Blue Shift when he awakened his spiritual energy.

In other words, if you want to have a sixth-level blue shift, you have to have the level of mind of an inferior person when you first awakened.

Russell always felt ...... At least now, I still can't seem to do it.

It's always a line off.

His originally overly weak desires gradually raised his head......

People who originally didn't want anything and didn't want anything extravagant were gradually awakened to their desires.

He began to want to change something. And this desire grew stronger with what he experienced.

But Russell's rationality in controlling this desire is still not enough.

- Sure enough, I'm a lazy dog.

Russell hung his head.

Occasionally, he would think that if his roommates from his previous life came to this world with him, he might become a great person...... That kind of monster-like self-discipline is put into this world, and it is a blue shift that breaks through the sky. Even if the emotions get out of control, the psionic energy will not get out of control.

I'm so envious.

It would be nice if I could follow the big guys.

But no.

He had to step up...... Because the person who is relied on becomes himself.

He's a "hero".

Russell, who was always dependent on others, wanted to be a pillar for others.

It's like a young father who has not yet left the category of "child" and already has his own children.

After the initial excitement, excitement, and triumph subsided, there was confusion and timidity.

…… Can I really do it well?

"I used to think that my greatest strength was rationality."

Russell lowered his head and stared at the tiles, muttering softly, "But now it seems...... Sure enough, it's still not enough. ”

If he's strong enough.

If he's reliable enough...... He should have been strongly involved in Morgan's life.

Obviously, he was vaguely aware of what kind of dangerous work the other party was engaged in, but he still thought that "it shouldn't be a big problem" and "after all, it's already like this".

- This is a sign that I am not mature enough.

Russell used the misfortunes of others as a hammer to beat himself.

"Hey......"

Seeing Russell inexplicably caught in some kind of emotion, Delphinium couldn't help but sigh.

Red Shift suddenly went up one level, something must have happened......

But she didn't ask Russell what was going on.

Although she knew that if she asked, Russell would definitely answer.

However, Delphinium also knew in her heart that Russell was not the kind of character who would always hold his heart and longed for a tree hole to confide in.

At this time, he probably just needs a hug.

So Delphinium thought so, and walked over and hugged Russell gently.