Chapter 13: Not God
Russell's slender fingers tapped Discord on the armrest of the chair.
He stared at the flower touch and thought for a long time.
"βthat's not right."
Russell suddenly spoke, "You're not actively looking for demons......
"You're actively inducing others to become demons, aren't you?"
Hearing this, Flower Touch's eyes widened.
She looked at Russell with an incredulous gaze, and the air was silent for a moment.
ββ¦β¦ Why did you suddenly think that? β
She couldn't help but be curious, and asked softly, "Did you guess?" β
"Yes, there is a part."
Russell admitted, "But for now, I'm pretty much sure of it......"
"How did you guess?"
"It's simple. My blueshift should be more than a level higher than my redshift, but I was almost out of control in my hallucination. It can't be a created illusion, unless you know myself better than I do. I guess I'm really on the verge of losing control...... Either my redshift is strengthened to the point where it's almost out of control, or my blueshift is weakened.
"It was like I was actually in a dream, as if my brain wasn't working. Even the mind is limited because of this, so I don't realize that something is wrong.
"But now that I think about it......"
Russell said in a deep voice, "You said a lot before. Roughly speaking, demons forcibly control the body and damage the human soul...... But if you take the initiative to let the demon control the body, it won't. So you think it's not the demons that are in problem, it's the strength of the human soul.
"I'm pretty sure I was close to losing control. I even had a memory that vanished out of thin air...... I forgot some of my dreams, but I still remember the moment I was awake.
"It was fear, confusion, impatience, deep delusion β it didn't match what I saw in the last scene.
"The memory of the front is so clear, but the back suddenly disappears. I can only think that it was the demon, or my body's protective mechanism, that made me forget what I shouldn't have seen. And before that, if it weren't for the chip given to me by the minister, I would have lost control and turned into a demon as early as the end of last month.
"But you say so conclusively that I won't get out of control. From that sentence, I realized that something was wrong.
"You're not trying to deceive me, but you really don't think it's out of control...... In other words, you don't think it's wrong for another personality with the same memory to control your body, it's the fragility of human beings, the inability to press the other person back after letting the demon escape. Therefore, you also don't think that the demon's desire to control the host's body is based on malice.
It doesn't matter, everyone has a different perception. Especially if you are a professional...... It is very normal for professionals to see things differently than the masses.
"But you can't bring it up out of thin air. As you call the 'Battal Principle', what you know, what you think, will also affect your words.
"Push it back...... You must have remembered some demon's behavior of manipulating the host at that time, and wanted to subconsciously refute it, so you faintly shifted from the 'first generation demon' to the topic of 'what motive the demon is based on to manipulate humans'.
"And Bad Day and I have both managed to work with our own demons. Of course, you know about it, and it's impossible to revisit it. In other words, you subconsciously think that in my moral outlook, that thing is even more unacceptable than 'working with the devil'.
"βSo, I judge that this demon was made by you. Either you induce it, or you culture it manually. β
Russell said slowly.
The underside of his pupils burned with a faintly visible grayish-white fire...... Like a glowing mirror, Hana's wide-eyed expression of disbelief is imprinted on it.
Soon, the consternation on Hua Touch's face suddenly shattered.
Like a blooming lily, a beautiful and pure smile bloomed on her face.
"It's amazing...... Such far-fetched reasoning logic, such remarkable insight. β
Hua Touch exclaimed, and her voice suddenly became a little lower: "I know why Bad Sun and Lu Shou value you so much, with your learning ability, maybe you can really change the world." β
The girlish innocence on her face dissipated without warning.
What emerged from her face was the "invisible arrogance" of the elves, a rather ladylike and distant polite smile.
No matter how lazy she is now, how disgusted she is with those kindred...... She also considers herself an elf.
In essence, it is a very different existence from the short-lived species.
"Just listen to me say the 'Battal Principle' and it will be applied to me right away. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the logic of my statement, every sentence is correct. But you can tell what I'm thinking from the topic I chose and the timing of the switch......
"You reminded me of someone."
Hana's tone became calm and solemn.
"Who?"
"The chairman of your Tianen Group, Ms. Sailun."
Hua Touch said slowly: "When it comes to controlling people's hearts, even among the elves, you can be regarded as the best."
"I'm really curious, why didn't anyone invite you to be an elf? Could it be that the specifications of being an elf are already so high now? Then we're going to be scared of old things. β
"It's reasonable not to invite me."
The corners of Russell's mouth rose slightly: "I don't show any talent beyond 'reasonable' performance...... Of course, I didn't know there was such a thing as an elven transformation ritual at the time. Just to avoid the jealousy and suspicion of the superiors.
"Although I scored first or second in my grade in every exam, I never went too far ahead of the big team. I try to keep my average score high enough to allow most people to pass the mark, and there are some subjects that have lower scores than others. Singing and painting are my shortcomings and weaknesses, and there is an inconsequential weakness that can make me more grounded.
"A genius who is far above everyone else is hard to like. At that point, even jealousy is difficult, but it turns into worship and respect. And with respect comes alienation...... Reverence is the farthest distance from understanding. And what I want to do is let people know about me. β
"But what's the point?"
Hua Touch questioned: "It is meaningless to get the approval and favor of metrics. As soon as they graduate, they will quickly forget about you, and no matter how close their relationship with you is, they will quickly become estranged, and even if they miss you, it is impossible to ruin their lives now.
"They weren't in the same world as you from the very beginning...... Don't you think it's arrogant for you to do this? β
It's not acting.
Flower Touch obviously really didn't understand what Russell was going to do.
Because she is the kind of lonely genius who hates people and the public the most and chooses to live alone.
"You use 'love' as a means, but I see it as an end. I want people to love me, not as a temporary disguise, but as a lifelong idea. Of course, I can also make people hate me, fear me, and respect me...... But I choose to make people love me. Because all I want is love, and that's what I want. β
Russell said softly, "You think that the existence of demons is harmless, and the psionics who have been replaced by demons have just survived in a different way and have not died...... It is not my intention to argue with you about the definition of professionalism.
"But what I do know is that these 'demon-possessed' are killing innocent people who have no grudge against them.
"It's not revenge, it's not resentment...... It's not because my heart is overflowing with emotions that can't be relieved. It's a casual killing.
"The devil will even think it's a relief, a gift, a game...... And after the demon hatches completely, it will definitely let a large number of innocent people around it be devoured.
From the very beginning, demons and humans were different beings.
"It's not that humans can't die...... I've killed people myself. But I believe that any death should have a meaning and a result. Even if it is a murder by an unbearable person, at least there should be a motive - killing or even cannibalism without any motive or psychological pressure, this kind of behavior is unacceptable to me.
"For me, that's the outlier. It is not human, it is not the same kind, it is a natural disaster, it is a disaster...... It's the so-called 'devil'.
"And your study of demons consumes not only the will of the psykers, but also the lives of innocents...... Stop it, Miss Flower Touch. β
Russell said seriously: "Otherwise, even as a colleague and fellow practitioner, I will come to stop you." β
"Even if my research is my research, the ultimate beneficiary may be you short-lived species?"
Hua Touch asked with interest: "At most, I will use about a few hundred or thousands of people as materials, but what I have researched can save tens of millions of people...... There is even a high probability that you will be able to enter eternal life together, is that also considered a sin? β
"You and I are not gods, and we have no right to dispose of some people to give to others."
Russell shook his head: "If you have to sacrifice thousands of innocent people to give others eternal life." It was also a sinful eternal life β even if it was just having to sacrifice an innocent child to save the world, I would have thought that there was no need for such a world to be saved.
"Once that kind of eternal life is accepted, humanity may not accept the trade of sacrificing tens of thousands of people in exchange for power; After that, hundreds of thousands of people could be sacrificed in exchange for peace, and a civil war could even be set off at the expense of millions...... Once the bottom line is broken, it will only keep slipping. β
The young man with cat ears sighed.
His eyes were complicated, and his voice became a little low: "For example, me...... After I have killed people, I can no longer face up to the dangers of 'killing'. I would subconsciously think 'that's nothing' and that my share of the bottom line has been broken.
"All I can do is let the innocents live their part of morality as a matter of course β something that can't be done without someone to help them. It's like a little glass, it's like Morgan.
ββ¦β¦ It's very hard to be a good person. It's really hard.
"I just want to help them."