I am the eldest princess of Dongchen Kingdom, and I have several brothers in front of me, but I don't have a sister yet.

I grew up in the favor of my father and mother, and I was a smart and clever princess born with a golden key in my mouth.

My elder brothers all held me in the palm of their hands, and I didn't have to worry about anything from childhood to adulthood.

But everything changed when I was eight years old, and my mother gave birth to another son.

The mother concubine put all her thoughts on her son, and she only had that son in her eyes, spoiling him to heaven and snubbing me.

My father still likes me very much, because I like him very much, and he loves my mother.

So I was more inclined to me and my brother, and as my brother grew up, my older brothers didn't like me as much as they used to.

Their relationship became more and more strained, even to the point of sabre-rattling, and my older brother and younger brothers wanted to be emperor.

I've been living a miserable life ever since, and I've been the jewel of everyone's hand, but not since.

I'm the eldest princess, but I'm not the only princess, and one or two princesses are born every year after me.

There are many princesses in the palace, and the brothers have their own sisters, and the favor of the father and the emperor must be dispersed.

Especially my mother, her eyes are all her sons, and there is no such daughter as me.

Fortunately, I'm a lucky person, I have a childhood sweetheart, and my cousin is called Cui Ruilu.

He is the son of our imperial aunt and the cousin of all of us, and he has often come to the palace to play with me since he was a child.

After everyone abandoned me one after another, he still treated me well in the past, which made me feel less lost.

When I was thirteen years old, he begged my father to marry the two of us, and he gladly agreed.

And my father also promised me that as long as we got married, he would give me a princess's mansion.

But when my mother found out about this, my mother was furious.

Say that you have to marry me to General Chu, who is an important minister of the imperial court.

I hadn't seen him, let alone known him, so I didn't want to marry, and my mother forced me.

I wanted to go to my father to complain, but by then, my father was already very disappointed in my mother.

He was even more strict with my five-year-old brother, who was still very fond of him until he was three.

My mother cried, made trouble and hanged herself, but my father ignored them, so I didn't dare to sue again.

The mother concubine forced each other with death, and in the end I compromised and agreed to marry General Chu.

I thought my cousin was going to fight for it, or tell my father or something, but he didn't.

He didn't force me, anyway, the holy decree hadn't been made yet, When I nodded and agreed to marry General Chu.

My cousin took a wife quickly, and I was also in the palace to be married, and my mother wouldn't let me leave the palace.

My cousin never went to the palace to look for me again, maybe he entered the palace every day, but he didn't play with me anymore.

The court struggle was brutal, and the road to power was full of bloodshed.

As the mother concubine in the power struggle, she even denied her six relatives, was ruthless, and her hands were covered with blood.

For the sake of power, she can attack anyone, including her own flesh and blood, and forcibly dismantle my "happiness".

When I was fifteen years old, I married General Chu on the orders of my mother, and two years ago, my cousin had married and now had a son.

When I was not married to General Chu, I missed my cousin day and night, and I felt that I loved him more and more.

It may be a rebellious heart, or it may be the pain of not being able to love, anyway, it is more "loving him" than before.

After I got married, I didn't love my cousin anymore, not that I fell in love with the general.

It's because I found that my cousin was as gentle with his wife as he was with me.

If what you give me is the same as what you give to someone else, then I don't want it.

Love should be unique and not something that can be replaced by anyone.

After the wind has passed through the year, some thoughts are the moonlit night of the spring river, and it is a boat of dreams pressing the galaxy.

Although I don't like my cousin anymore, I don't fall in love with General Chu either.

After we got married, we treated each other with respect, and the following year, our first son was born.

In the following third year, my second son was born again, and my husband guards Yazhou all the year round.

We don't have much time together, and I'm happy to relax, take my two sons, and take care of the general's mansion.

Sometimes I wonder how I can live like a floating cloud, where I can fill my ears with Buddha music in the air.

The surging scriptures, and overlooking the red dust, the prosperity of the world is in the eyes, and the love of the world is stunning.

It's not that I don't covet the red dust, or the dust is not over, but my heart is like still water.

More often, it is the wonderful land of the Buddha who has realized the "smile of the flowers".

In all appearances, right and wrong, I feel the kind of detachment and indifference, quiet and open-minded leisure.

So, in the fifth year of our marriage, I took it upon myself to help my husband take his cousin as a concubine.

My husband looked at me in disbelief, and then, without saying a word, he went into their new house.

He proved by his actions that he did what I said, but his disappointed eyes pierced my heart fiercely.

The heart that was originally like a stagnant water rippled in an instant, and I became angry with my subordinates for the first time.

Later, his cousin became pregnant, so she wanted to be pampered and coquettish, and deliberately made things difficult for me.

My husband said to her coldly, "Do you want to die? Princesses dare to offend? ”

His cousin instantly lost his confidence and cried heartbreakingly, but our husband would not coax her.

I helped him take a concubine, and he angrily got married to his cousin and made his cousin pregnant with a child.

Before they had a round house, I was also pregnant with a daughter, and it was because I was pregnant that I helped him take a concubine.

Ever since my husband took a concubine, I have refused him access to my room, and he has the backbone to refrain from coming in.

So I threw and stumbled, and when he saw me stumble, he never went into his cousin's house again.

He didn't enter my house, so naturally I didn't let him in, so he stayed at the border for a few years.

All his patience is spent on me, and I am not wood, how can I not feel it!

In my relationship, I don't really want much, it's just a heart that can favor me.

The best thing about the relationship, isn't it because it's me, so all his special treatment is only given to me?

As the saying goes, good love is that after identifying a person, all the good is only given to that person.

My husband did it, but unfortunately I realized it too late, and at that time, I realized that my husband loved me so much.

But there is already a third man between us, even though he has not been home for many years.

Although my resentment towards him has not dissipated, I am usually very patient with my two sons and daughters.

Years later, when he came back, we didn't hug him, and I didn't give him a good look.

I also asked him to get angry, and when he was eating, he threw the dishes and chopsticks, and the fall made a crackling sound.

From time to time, Yin Yang said in a strange manner: "You went to find your cousin, why are you looking for me?" ”

But he didn't get angry, and grinned: "Are you jealous?" Do you finally regret it? ”

"I just regretted it, I didn't know what love was at that time, how did I know it would be like this?"

I yelled at him and cried, the first time I cried.

General Chu looked at me with wide eyes, and the meaning of that look was, you don't understand love?

Don't you love your surname Cui, and you love it to death?

I exploded in an instant, "I'm so young, how do I know what love is, he is my cousin, he said to marry me, and I agreed." ”

The husband hugged me: "Okay, you are still young and don't know how to love, it is the husband and I are not good, I didn't teach you well." ”

I:......

It's all right!

He loved me humbly, but unfortunately I knew it too late, and I didn't understand it until ten years after we got married.

We talked to each other, and to me, he was always a clear love, a sincere liking, and a blatant favoritism.

That night, I really tasted the joy of being a woman, and I was happy physically and mentally......

I was twenty-five years old, and in the ten years before that, I had two sons and a daughter.

It was my responsibility to have a son, and I didn't have any other thoughts or feelings.

They were all born five years ago, and I helped him take a concubine in five years, and we didn't get together.

And he stayed alone at the border for five years, and when we met again, we became true lovers.

Ever since we had a long talk, he knew I was in love with him too, and he happily took our nine-year-old son in circles.

His cousin's eyes were red with anger, and he became more and more demonic, I am a proud princess.

Since she was a child, she was raised by everyone, where can she be wild, so I want to divorce her.

That cousin is also a big temperament, and he actually crashed to death!

My heart was very weak, but my husband patiently comforted me and said to me gently.

"It's okay to die like this, she is innocent of her death, she wants to die herself, wouldn't it be good if she was willing to leave our general's mansion?

But she wants to come out and die, you can't be blamed for this, you don't blame yourself. ”

My husband said to his cousin's corpse, "Go with confidence, I will give you a beautiful funeral." ”

As I listened to his gentle words, I felt even more guilty.

When the cousin died, her son became a loner, and his father didn't hurt, but his mother who hurt him was gone.

So I passed him into my name, and we loved each other and loved each other with great affection.

Although the husband still has to be stationed in Yazhou, he will come back once or twice a year.

I never tried to go back again for five years, and I was happy for the next few years.

For my sake, my husband obeyed my mother and younger brother, and helped him win over courtiers to help him ascend to the throne.

My eldest brother has just sat on the throne, and I have been named the eldest princess, and the scenery has been infinite for a few years.

My husband listened to my mother's concubine and took my little brother who was only thirteen years old to the battlefield.

We lived happily ever after a few more years, but unfortunately by providence, my sixteen-year-old daughter died suddenly.

She didn't get married yet, so she died like this, I was in pain, and my husband was also in great pain.

Our husband and wife have been in love for many years, and we already have a heart, and we know what it means with one look.

We know why our daughter died, and my eldest brother knew when he was five years old that he instigated my mother to force me to marry another.

Although our husband and wife love each other deeply, I will not forgive him for his selfishness and self-interest.

Because my eldest brother has never respected me.

I don't like his willfulness, which is why I become more and more estranged from him, until we finally become strangers.

And he doesn't know how to cherish it, my husband has done his best for him, and he has mutilated my daughter.

He thought that our husband and wife would not know, so he killed our daughter regardless of family affection.

When my husband saw that I was really miserable, he gave my eldest son Zhang Luo's relatives.

My eldest son married my cousin's daughter, and my cousin insisted on giving her off to my son.

My husband is worried that he doesn't know which lady to find to be his daughter-in-law, and he is happy to see his cousin so attentive.

So my daughter-in-law, Jin Niang, got married.

A pampered lady, although she has no brains, she is still angry.

The next year after entering the door, he helped us give birth to a big fat grandson, and my husband helped him name Chu Lixuan.

Although Jin Niang has no scheming, she has a good point, that is, she obeys me.

She treats others badly, but she respects her husband and me.

As my eldest grandson grew up, I grew thinner and thinner, because the gap between me and my eldest brother was getting bigger and bigger.

My husband and I were walking on thin ice, and when I really wanted to unload my armor and return to the field, the Nanban came to attack again.

My husband, my two sons, and some of my grandchildren were all lost in that battle......

My eldest grandson also did not return home for two years after that battle, and finally defeated the Nanban for the last time.

However, my eldest grandson is also crippled, and my eldest brother wants to take this opportunity to exile our Chu family.

And I wanted to retreat to the mountains and forests as early as 20 years ago, and my sister and brother still know each other.

Our Chu family has an heirloom Baoyu Pei, which is given to the eldest daughter-in-law of the past dynasties, and Jin Niang is hairy.

Therefore, I have not given it to her, when my eldest grandson has set the eldest lady of the Prime Minister's Mansion, Jiang Bilian.

I gave her a token directly, because I was very satisfied with her, her piano, chess, calligraphy and painting ranked first in the capital, and her beauty ranked first.

However, when I got married, the Prime Minister's Mansion changed a fool to my grandson, and the Prime Minister was above 10,000 people under him, and it was when the scenery was unlimited.

And our Houfu has been defeated, and we have become exiles, and we are not qualified to reason with the Prime Minister's Mansion.

I can only suffer a dumb loss, yo roar, who knows, our family got a baby granddaughter-in-law.

People are both civil and military, and their medical skills are even more against the sky, taking us out of the capital and getting better and better.

We didn't have a good time, I lived younger and younger, and I was worried about my poor health.

Later, my family Xinxin was very well conditioned, and a group of old guys learned square dance from her every day.

Happy like a fairy, eat well, play well, have what you want, but it's a pity that my husband is gone.

My cousin wrote to me several times and again about how much he loved me, and I wrote back to him in the words of my granddaughter-in-law, scumbag roll calf.

And my eldest brother is in a state of panic all day long, and all this is his own doing.

My eldest grandson and Xinxin husband and wife trapped him in the capital and let him move around his one-third of an acre.

I don't want to give him another chance, and I won't give him any more chances.

The last time I saw him, I was the Empress Dowager of the Xuanyan Dynasty, and he was the Emperor of Dongchen Kingdom.

Undoubtedly, I am glamorous, he is embarrassed, and we are relatively speechless.

I took my little brother with him and his beloved, and made my eldest brother so angry that he vomited blood.

Because he has a price to pay.

He killed my daughter.

I will never let him go!

"You're not waiting for us to die for you, are you? All of this is your own fault, you never care about family affection, but you still want to reciprocate? ”

We raised our eyebrows and left, leaving him alone in the wind and roaring......

I lived for many more years, my great-grandchildren have grown up, my life is worth it, I passed away with a smile and no regrets.

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