Listening to Cao Zhiqiang's assurance, Zhu Lin was not the slightest happy, but sighed softly, closed his eyes again, and lay on Cao Zhiqiang's chest.

"Zhiqiang, I don't know if you believe it or not, in fact, I don't mean to continue to be a star at all now."

After a short pause, Zhu Lin continued to murmur: "Seriously, at the beginning, I hooked up with you, it was really not simple, more than that, I wanted to climb your big tree so that I could give myself more opportunities."

The reason is that at that time, I really wanted to be a good actor, a well-known actor, maybe like you said, I wanted to be a big star.

As for why you think so, you may be unwilling.

When I was very young, everyone praised me for being beautiful and smart, and I participated in a lot of activities during my school years.

What kind of school dance activities, singing activities, I am basically a representative.

So when I was very young, I loved the feeling of being watched on stage.

It's just that my parents always wanted me to go to work step by step, and didn't want me to be an actor, and I was powerless to resist at that time, so I could only follow their wishes, go to school, graduate, and work step by step.

However, the work at the institute is too boring.

There, all day long is drinking tea, reading the newspaper and chatting about family routines, and I don't care if you look beautiful or not.

On the contrary, if you are beautiful, you are an isolated existence.

Therefore, my life in the institute was actually not happy, and I wanted to change my life for a long time.

An accident, I became an actor once, although it was only a supporting role, but it ignited my enthusiasm.

For the first time, I realized that being an actor and acting out different lives was so fun and so fun.

So I resolutely applied for Nortel's short-term training course, went to learn acting, and drilled everywhere, hoping to find an opportunity to film.

It's a pity that because my parents, my husband, and all my relatives and friends around me don't support me, I can only find a way out by myself.

But because I studied acting and often drank and ate with some people in the entertainment industry, my husband became more and more dissatisfied with me, and our conflicts became more and more and more serious, and our relationship became worse and worse.

Coupled with the fact that I have never had children, my husband, no, ex-husband, has been ridiculed, and eventually, after a big argument, we parted ways completely and became strangers.

It's just that at that time, for many reasons, we didn't get divorced, after all, the impact of divorce was too great, and he and I couldn't afford it at that time.

So, the two of us maintained the name of ostensibly husband and wife, and then ignored each other, sharing the same room but not the same bed.

However, although I paid so much for filming, I ended up too late in the industry.

In terms of age, I can't compare to those girls in their early twenties.

In terms of qualifications, I can't compare to those professional actors who have acted in dramas for many years.

I'm a middle-aged woman who became a monk halfway through and just came out of a short-term training class, but in fact, the acting path is very narrow.

Fortunately, I am still beautiful enough, and I am also very suitable for acting in some dramas like technicians and intellectuals, and a deputy director of the Emei factory is optimistic about me, which gives me more hope.

However, although I joined the Emei factory, the reality poured cold water on me.

After I joined Emei Factory, I realized that even if I joined the film studio and became a full-time actor, I would not be able to shoot at any time, and I still had to wait for the notice and the opportunity.

Although because the deputy director was optimistic about me, not long after I joined Emei Factory, he filmed a "Legend of Liyuan" and asked me to be the heroine, but the response to this drama was not very good.

Then, maybe because the response to that drama was not very good, I continued to be treated coldly, and there were no new dramas for me to film.

This kind of waiting day is terrible, because many actors just wait, wait, wait, wait, and finally wait until they enter the cold palace and become unknown.

I'm thirty years old, unlike those young people who can afford to wait.

They can wait slowly, I can't wait any longer.

The more time passes, the narrower my acting path becomes, and I don't want to just wait passively.

So I went back to Beijing and contacted a group of friends I met when I was studying at Nortel, hoping that they could give me a chance to film, even if it was a TV series.

Sure enough, the connections I had made before worked, and Director Mi quickly gave me a chance to shoot a TV series with only three episodes, called "The Crooked Stone Path".

It was a feature film, in which I played the heroine Qin Xiaowan, a young woman who loves literature.

At that time, the actor who played with me was a newcomer who was newer than me, but his acting skills were okay and he was very talented. ”

"Wait." Cao Zhiqiang suddenly interrupted, "Who is the actor you are talking about?" ”

Zhu Lin said softly: "His name is Zhang Guoli, a newcomer to the Art Troupe of the Railway Bureau. ”

Immediately afterwards, Zhu Lin opened his eyes and smiled slightly: "What, are you jealous?" Don't worry, although it's a romance movie, I don't have any intimate scenes with him in it. ”

Cao Zhiqiang blinked and sneered: "What's the matter, I didn't mean that, I was just purely curious about the actor."

After all, you also said that he has good acting skills and is very talented, so I wondered if I would poach him to my film studio. ”

"Duplicity!" Zhu Lin glanced at Cao Zhiqiang.

Cao Zhiqiang touched his nose, and then said, "You continue, I'll listen." ”

Zhu Lin flattened his mouth, and actually said coquettishly: "The atmosphere has been ruined by you, what else are you talking about?" ”

Cao Zhiqiang smiled: "It's okay, you should tell the story." It's good to tell me about your past as if someone else were telling me, I like to hear it. ”

After a slight pause, Cao Zhiqiang said: "Speaking of which, although we have known each other for so long and even have children, I don't know much about your past, so I want to make up for the lessons, which can be regarded as making up for the dead." ”

"What's the matter, the heart is empty? Guilty? Zhu Lin squinted at Cao Zhiqiang.

Cao Zhiqiang nodded: "It's a little." ”

Zhu Lin smiled at this time, and then hugged Cao Zhiqiang very happily, and said with a smile: "You have a conscience!" ”

After a while, Zhu Lin continued to say softly: "Well, after filming that TV series, it is said that the response after the broadcast was not bad, so it didn't take long for Director Xu to take the initiative to find me and wanted to ask me to make a musical." ”

"Director Xu?" Cao Zhiqiang subconsciously asked, "You said Xu Qingdong?" ”

"Yes, that's him." Zhu Lin looked up and smiled, "He wants to shoot the first musical TV series in China, he takes a fancy to me and wants me to be the heroine."

However, although he is a director, he lacks funds, so he looks for investment everywhere and then ......"

"And then it found me?" Cao Zhiqiang smiled.

"yes!" Zhu Lin smiled and nodded, "Originally, he wanted to beat you, a local tyrant, but in the end, his skills were not enough, and his musical TV series was not filmed, but even he took me with you." ”

"Hey, hey." Cao Zhiqiang smiled.

But soon, Cao Zhiqiang frowned: "Wait, what kind of director did you say before, he took the initiative to ask you to make a TV series, he, he didn't make any special requests to you, right?" ”

Zhu Lin immediately teased: "I knew you were going to ask that." ”

Immediately afterwards, Zhu Lin explained: "Don't worry, Director Mi is my former colleague from Emei Factory and the lover of my eldest sister."

When I was in Emei Factory, I got a lot of help from this eldest sister.

That "Crooked Stone Path" is Director Mi's first TV series, and because he has a good relationship with me, he asked me to be the heroine.

Therefore, I have no selfish relationship with that Director Mi, after all, in private, I always call him brother-in-law.

How could he have any other thoughts about me in this relationship?

Don't think of directors as bad, okay?

It's not a director, it's as shameless as you! ”

Cao Zhiqiang touched his nose again in embarrassment: "What, I'm not you...... Ahem, forget it, don't talk about that.

However, who is the good big sister you are talking about? ”

"She's so much more famous than I am." Zhu Lin smiled, "Pan Hong, have you heard of it?" ”

"Pan Hong?" Cao Zhiqiang raised his eyebrows, "You mean, the Pan Hong who played Du Shi Niang?" ”

"Yes, that's her!" Zhu Lin smiled and nodded.

As soon as he heard this, Cao Zhiqiang knew who it was.

After all, when it comes to Pan Hong, who plays Du Shi Niang in China, it seems to be just that.

Compared with the little-known Zhu Lin, Pan Hong's fame in China at this time is not much worse, not to mention a household name.

Even Liu Xiaoqing, who has been more popular recently, is not as good as Pan Hong in terms of fame and popularity at this time.

Of course, if this is the case, then indeed, the husband of the big star Pan Hong is unlikely to go to the unspoken rules of Zhu Lin.

"It turned out to be her." Cao Zhiqiang nodded, "Since you have this sisterhood relationship with Pan Hong, I will wait for you later, do you want to try to dig her up from Emei Factory?" ”

"You're greedy." Zhu Lin squinted at Cao Zhiqiang, "What's the matter, it's not enough to have me, and you still want to bring disaster to Sister Pan?"

Wait, you don't have a special love for married women, do you? ”

Cao Zhiqiang immediately said: "How can you slander people's innocence out of thin air? How can I possibly like a married woman? I am purely optimistic about Pan Hong's acting skills.

Just like I'm optimistic about what you said, Zhang Guoli.

As the director of the film studio, I look at this issue from the perspective of Aicai.

Don't think about it!

After all, with you, I'm already a headache, and I don't want to provoke other actresses. ”

"Really?" Zhu Lin asked with a skeptical expression.

Cao Zhiqiang sighed: "That must be true!" You must also see that although I am not a good person, I am not the kind of person who does things and then turns around and lifts his pants and does not admit it.

Once you have to be responsible, how troublesome it is.

Just like now, do you know how hard I have worked and how much I owe in order to make you have a good baby?

Otherwise, can you be Mrs. Kuo in Xiangjiang?

Do you know your current life, if you really say it, how many women will envy it to death? ”

As soon as he heard this, Zhu Lin was silent, put his face on Cao Zhiqiang's chest again, and said after a while: "Yes, I know that you have done a lot for me, I, I shouldn't expect more, I should be content." ”

Cao Zhiqiang patted Zhu Lin on the shoulder: "Sister Zhu, don't think too much." I said, this is what I should do. After all, no matter what, you followed me, and you conceived a child for me, so I can't abandon you.

What's more, I'm a very greedy person, as long as it's a woman who follows me, unless she herself has to leave me, I won't take the initiative to let go. ”

After a slight pause, Cao Zhiqiang continued to sigh and said, "Sister Zhu, although you may feel a little shameless when you say that, I still have to say it."

Actually, it's not that I don't want to give you a name, and it's not that I dislike you for being married and older than me.

The reason why I can't marry you and can't give you a righteous and bright name is not that I don't want to, but that I can't!

I really have a lot of grievances, really a lot of grievances that I can't tell you.

I don't want to talk about the present, even in the future, my marriage may not be up to me.

So, even if I like you no matter how much I like you, I can only sneak around with you like this.

In order to make up for my regrets, I can only try to compensate you materially and careerly.

Of course, if you can't mind, I can't help either.

I just want you to know that it's not that I don't like you, it's not that I don't love you, and it's not that I don't want to be responsible for you.

But I really don't have a choice! ”

Zhu Lin was stunned for a moment, then looked up at Cao Zhiqiang with a painful look on his face, and frowned: "Zhiqiang, you don't have to be like this, I didn't blame you."

But when you say that, I'm curious.

You're not a parent...... Uh, are they all gone?

It seems that you only have one sister, and she is also married, and it depends on your relationship that you are transferred back.

Well, I'm not forcing you, I'm not mocking you, I'm just talking about things.

In other words, can't you be the master of your marriage?

In your case, who else can control your marriage? ”

As soon as he heard this, Cao Zhiqiang, who had a big explosion of acting skills, looked up to the sky and sighed: "Sister Zhu, I seem to be free, but in fact, I have never been free."

No, I should say that since I started to get rich, I can't help myself.

My marriage, and even my life, is no longer under my control. ”

Zhu Lin simply straightened up and looked at Cao Zhiqiang with a frown: "What the hell is going on?" Who's manipulating you? Who can force you to do something you don't want to do? ”

Cao Zhiqiang simply closed his eyes: "Of course, you and I can't afford to offend, that kind of big leader!" ”

"Great leader?" Zhu Lin thought for a while, "You mean, the retired Xu Lao, who has the grace of knowing you?" ”

"Nope." Cao Zhiqiang shook his head, then lowered his head, looked at Zhu Lin, and said with a serious face, "He is just a retired old man, how can he control me, he is a more powerful, higher, and bigger official than him." ”

"Elder Xu is already a minister." Zhu Lin frowned and said, "Older than him...... Hiss! ”

Thinking of this, Zhu Lin looked at Cao Zhiqiang with wide eyes: "Zhiqiang, you, who have you offended?" ”

Cao Zhiqiang smiled slightly: "Don't worry, it's not me who offended, it's a big man who has taken a fancy to me and wants me to serve him, and I'm willing to serve him."

That's all I can say, and nothing else.

Of course, other people's words may not know what I mean by this, and they will only think that I am playing tricks.

But you're different.

You're a smart man, you know what I mean, right? ”

Zhu Lin covered his mouth in surprise, and then let go of his hand, and said in a low voice: "You mean, you are actually, yes, underground ...... now"

"Shh Cao Zhiqiang suddenly became familiar with the index finger of his right hand and made a silent gesture.

"Don't say it." Cao Zhiqiang's face was serious, "Just know it in your heart." ”

After a slight pause, Cao Zhiqiang deliberately looked around, and then lowered his voice and said, "I have violated discipline by saying this."

However, I can trust you, and I really don't want you to misunderstand me and take your anger out on your children.

So, I want you to understand that I don't give you a name, I don't give you a complete home, it's not that I don't love you, but because I love you deeply.

It's just that, compared to everyone, I can only give up my small family. ”

Speaking of this, Cao Zhiqiang raised his head with a resolute expression:

"Our country is now in ruins, and the international situation is sinister and abnormal.

Imperialism will not die, and internal and external troubles are becoming more and more severe.

Without the rise of a great power, how can there be happiness for small people?

Therefore, for the sake of the country's strength, even if I sacrifice my reputation and feelings, what is there to regret and fear. ”

Speaking of this, Cao Zhiqiang turned his head and looked at Zhu Lin, who was stunned on the spot: "Sister Zhu, you are a smart person, so although I can't tell you some things, I can give you two choices now."

The first option is to continue as it is now, when I am my underground lover.

With this choice, you can continue to stay with me, first, to help me defile myself, and at the same time to help me cover and become my comrade and comrade-in-arms.

But then you need to know more secrets, get involved in more secret events, and maybe accept the organization's arrangements to be a real multi-faceted person, just like me.

Such a choice, the future of you, may also have a certain danger, you must always be vigilant.

The second option, when you don't know anything, then take the opportunity to cut me off.

With this choice, you won't be able to continue to be with me in the future, and everyone will be like strangers in the future, forgetting each other.

Of course, I will give you a sum of money privately, so that you can live with your children without worry, and you will not delay in continuing to marry.

In other words, if you choose the second option, we will never get along, and it will never matter again.

In this way, you have nothing to do with me, and the future will be much safer.

Which of these two choices do you choose? ”