"Brother Fan, is this a poem you wrote?"

"Yes."

"It's too ......"

"Isn't it too badly written?"

Seeing the expressions of the two, Chen Fan didn't care, and said, "No way, the strength doesn't allow it." ”

"Brother Fan, you are smashing Sister Ye's field."

Bai Doudou said to Chen Fan with a smile.

Just mentioned that Ye Zi served as the president of the Hangzhou Association.

And her main merit is the study of modern poetry.

That's good.

Chen Fan directly came to a poem that people couldn't look at directly.

"Yes, Doudou, your brother Fan just wants to smash your Sister Ye's field. You say, what should I do? ”

"Throw him to the West Lake and feed the fish."

"Poof......

Chen Fan was amused by Bai Doudou: "Doudou, why are you so cruel." ”

"Brother Fan, who told you to tease us. Well, you have to write a song for us seriously. ”

"Didn't you say it, I also want to make a serious song, but my strength doesn't allow it."

"I'm going to strangle you."

Bai Doudou pretended to pinch Chen Fan's neck.

Chen Fan was naturally joking and said: "Stop, stop, I'm afraid of you, I really have a good modern poem here." I didn't write it, though. ”

Modern poetry Chen Fan naturally knows.

Although the level is not particularly high, it is at least much better than this song "Praise for the Dialogue".

But.

No matter how good it is.

It can't be compared to the classics of its previous life.

Among these classics in his previous life, the first modern poet that Chen Fan thought of was Haizi.

"When it comes to modern poetry, I think of a poet named Haizi."

"Haizi?"

White Beanie looked at the leaves.

Ye Zi shook his head: "It doesn't seem to have too many imprints." ”

"It's fine."

Chen Fan shook his head: "Maybe he doesn't know it." However, the modern poems he wrote were very romantic. ”

This romance conquered almost all readers who have read Haizi's poetry.

And as long as you have read Haizi's poems.

So.

It is impossible to forget him for the rest of your life.

But.

It all has to start with Haizi's experience.

Chen Fan said: "Haizi is not called Haizi, Haizi is just a pen name for him, his original name is Zha Haisheng, born in 1964, born in a peasant family in Hui Province. At that time, Haizi was born in a very poor place, so poor that no one in their village had ever made a train. And Haizi was the first person in the village to take the train, why was Haizi able to take the train, it turned out that Haizi was admitted to Peking University after studying. ”

"Yes, Haizi is a scholar in the eyes of others, and he is also a scholar among scholars. Because the average candidate wants to go to university, he is generally 18 years old, and the genius may be 17 years old, but Haizi was admitted to the law department of Peking University at the age of 15. So, with the hope of the whole village, Haizi came to Beishi. In those days, modern poetry was constantly evolving. Many representative modern poets have appeared in Peking University, and Haizi, who has literary feelings, has also been exposed to modern poetry in the academic atmosphere of Peking University. ”

After coming into contact with modern poetry, Haizi was extremely infatuated with this kind of free-spirited modern poetry. Haizi, who studied at Peking University, also participated in the creation of modern poetry. However, Haizi's poems are different from those of others. Although modern poetry is free and unrestrained, it should not completely conform to the rhythm of ancient poetry. However, Haizi's poems are still different from many people's. The difference here is mainly that Haizi writes very long poems. How long is it, almost the same length as a piece of prose, or even longer than a piece ......of prose."

So for a long time, Haizi's poems were not cared for. Later, he even met a senior in the poetry world. As a new poet, Hai Zi admires this predecessor very much, and this senior also said to Hai Zi, you have a great talent for writing poetry. But not long after, he saw in some other poetry magazines that this senior wrote a poem complaining about him. ”

It's a fun experience.

The former Chen Fan.

A lot of times when we tell stories, we tell history, and we talk about those characters from ancient times.

But now.

Chen Fan seems to be talking about modern poets.

This makes the white beans and leaves feel extremely fresh to hear.

After all, Bai Doudou is not in the poetry circle, so he may not feel anything about it.

But since Ye Zi became the president of the Hangzhou Association, she doesn't say anything about the people in the circle, everyone knows it.

But at least.

has a name and a surname, and she really knows everything.

But she really didn't know this poet called Haizi, or "Cha Haisheng".

Of course.

If it's a normal situation, don't know.

There are so many poets in China, and you can't know all of them.

And now that the culture is so developed, everyone's education level is getting higher and higher.

Many of my friends who are not professional poets can also write some commendable works.

Good-looking romance

But the leaves know.

It's not that simple.

If he just writes generally commendable works, Chen Fan will not be able to focus on it.

But despite this, Haizi still loves his poems as always, and has been writing a series of poems. In 1983, Haizi graduated from Peking University. Before graduating, Haizi went to an intermediate court for an internship. It was supposed to be a good internship opportunity, and if all went well, after Haizi's internship, he would enter the judicial field. Moreover, Haizi is still a scholar of Peking University, with such a perfect diploma, coupled with the identity of a scholar, his future will be bright. ”

"It's just that after an internship at this intermediate court, one thing touched him. He was involved in a divorce case at the time, and the case was originally very simple. The husband cheats, but the wife does not agree to the divorce. According to the previous judgment and the existing legal support, this case will not grant a divorce. However, the man's background was a bit big, and in the end, the court decided to leave. This case touched Hai Zi a lot, which also made Hai Zi feel extremely confused. He didn't know, what was the purpose of studying law at Peking University in the previous years? In the end, Haizi did not enter the judicial field, he entered the University of Political Science and Law to teach. ”

This is actually understandable.

When your beliefs are destroyed, you may not continue your efforts.

In this way, it is better to be a teacher.

At least.

In the ivory tower, he looked a little more ideal.

However, Haizi, who entered the University of Political Science and Law to teach, did not teach law, but aesthetics. For this, Haizi did not refuse. Although he studied law, he was happy to teach aesthetics. Because his favorite poems are about all things beautiful. As a result, he often reads his own poems in class. The students also liked Haizi because they felt that the teacher was about the same age as them, but he was very talented. ”

"One winter in 1984, at a poetry reading at the school's Stardust Poetry Club. Haizi was strongly urged by a group of students to read a poem of her own. The name of the poem is "History". ”

[BC we are too small

We are too old after the Common Era

No one has ever seen it

That was a truly beautiful smile

But I still raised my hand and knocked on the door

Brought hieroglyphs

Scattered all over the place]

I have to say.

Haizi is indeed a poetic genius.

Although this poem is not one of Haizi's well-known masterpieces.

Even if this poem is nothing to Haizi.

But compared with other poems, Haizi's poem is still extremely superior.

"We were too young B.C., and we were too old after A.D....... Not bad, not bad. ”

"Doudou, I'll just say it, your brother Fan is not honest, he always likes to hide his hand."

The leaf beside him nodded slightly.

At the same time.

Chen Fan's explanation attracted the attention of a group of West Lake tourists.

When it was found out that it was Chen Fan.

There are more tourists who come to Chen Fan's side.

Perhaps the poet is the most handsome in the world, otherwise, after the young and talented Hai Zi recited this poem, a female student from the University of Political Science and Law took the initiative to chat with Hai Zi. Later, they soon fell in love. It was only two years later that the relationship ended. As for the reason, it turned out that the female students were from a family of high-ranking intellectuals. Although Haizi is indeed very talented, although it is true that he is young and teaches at the University of Political Science and Law. But a family like theirs is destined to be unable to climb high. The lovelorn Haizi was extremely sad, and Haizi turned this sadness into infinite grief and indignation and wrote it into the poem. ”

"It's just that sometimes, whether the poetry is well written or not, whether someone can appreciate it or not is not just in school. The school is a very desirable place, and he may not have much utilitarianism. But when it comes to the real world. The poetry world has also become a circle. Haizi doesn't know why, but his poetry has been constantly criticized by a group of poets. Even at the writers' association meeting that year, some people also listed Haizi's two crimes. Some people say that Haizi wants to engage in neo-romanticism, as well as [write long poems]...... Haizi defended himself. In his poems, he writes that I am always compelled to write long poems, out of the call of some great element. But this kind of mysterious and mysterious justification could not be recognized by his peers, so Haizi became a marginal figure in the poetry world at that time. ”

Sometimes.

The poet has a lot of misfortunes.

The same goes for Haizi.

This made Haizi feel very sad, but he didn't know how to do it. All of a sudden, he felt as if he had returned to the scene of his internship in the Intermediate Court, which made him feel extremely resistant, but he didn't know how to resist. As a result, he became very dull. Until one day, his friend [Xichuan] spent half a year crossing the desert, through the grassland, to the frontier, and wrote a famous poem "Looking up at the starry sky in Hargai", although I don't think this poem is well written. I even think that this poem is not as good as the "History" written by Haizi, but for Haizi, who was denied by countless people at the time, he was very envious. So he studied the poem, and later he felt that what made Nishikawa create such a masterpiece had something to do with his travels. So, Haizi is also ready to start traveling west......"

Then, in the summer of 1986, Haizi took the train all the way to the west. This trip to the west greatly broadened Haizi's horizons, and he also wrote a lot of poems during this trip to the west. And in these poems, Haizi writes that my dream bears the fruit of happiness on the plateau at an altitude of 4,000 meters, which is my dream, my own fruit. This made Haizi very excited, so he had a second trip to Xixu......"

"But alas. The second trip to the west didn't look perfect, although Haizi felt that he had gained a lot from the second trip. But in fact, on his second trip, Haizi encountered many things that he couldn't understand, or couldn't explain at all. At the same time, he was fooled and began to practice qigong. Later, he saw many religious experiences on the way to the west, which shocked him greatly. After returning home, Haizi went against the norm and no longer taught students aesthetics, but studied religion with them. ”

Qigong is such a thing as really illusory.

But in those days, many people were convinced of it.

It's not just Haizi.

There are also some high-level figures.

I don't know if it's because of the illegal practice, or if Haizi himself is in poor health.

After returning from the second trip to Xixu, Haizi often vomited blood. Even, there was a series of auditory hallucinations, hallucinations.

And in March 1989, Haizi met his first girlfriend again.

It was still the girl from the University of Political Science and Law who took the initiative to chat with Haizi at that time.

But the girl was already married and told him that she was going to the United States.

The whole meeting girl was very cold to Haizi.

After this meeting, Haizi's condition and auditory hallucinations became more serious.

On the 24th of this month, at night, colleagues were woken up by Haizi's yelling "I'm no longer alive", and everyone ran to care, but he only said, "I'm sorry, I disturbed you, I had a nightmare just now." Early the next morning, Haizi went out with a series of classic books, dressed neatly, and set off from Xueyuan Road to Shanhaiguan. The people who saw him on the road joked, is Haizi going on a blind date?

Just after saying that, no one saw him again that day. A day later, on March 26, his friend saw Haizi for the last time. No one could know that Haizi quietly committed suicide by lying on the rails in Shanhaiguan. This year, Haizi was 25 years old. And next to Hai Zi's suicide, everyone found Hai Zi's suicide note, which read: My suicide has nothing to do with anyone. ”

Although Haizi is one of Chen Fan's favorite modern poets.

But when it comes to Haizi's life, he is a tragedy.

"25 years old."

"Haizi."

Some tourists next to him were also infected by this atmosphere and looked a little sad.

Ye Zi also sighed, and then said: "Chen Fan, do Haizi have any other poems?" ”

"Yes."

Chen Fan nodded: "Two months before Hai Zi committed suicide, Hai Zi wrote a poem, this poem is called "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms". ”

[From tomorrow, be a happy person.]

Feed the horses, chop wood, and travel the world

From tomorrow, care about food and vegetables

I have a house facing the sea and spring is blooming

From tomorrow onwards, we will communicate with each and every one of our loved ones

Tell them about my happiness

The blissful lightning told me

I'm going to tell everybody

Give every river and every mountain a warm name

Stranger, I bless you too

May you have a bright future

May you have a lover and eventually become married

May you be blessed on earth

I just want to face the sea and bloom in spring......]

Undoubtedly.

The name of this poem is extremely sunny and extremely warm.

Hear the name of the song.

At first the leaves are a little strange.

How could a poet who wrote so sunny and so warm commit suicide two months later?

And when he listened to the poem recited by Chen Fan, Ye Zi didn't understand it even more.

But.

When he seriously understood the word "tomorrow" in this poem, Ye Zi nodded secretly.

But Chen Fan is not over.

He still said: "Facing the sea, spring flowers blooming"...... It is one of Haizi's masterpieces. And Haizi also wrote another poem, "September". This poem was written by Haizi during his first trip to the west. Later, there was a composer named Zhang Huisheng, who was moved by this "September", so he personally composed the music for "September". ”

While saying.

Chen Fan made a tune, and then sang.

[A field of wildflowers on the grassland that witnessed the death of the gods.]

The wind that is far away is farther away than the far away

My piano whimpered, and my tears were gone

I return this far land to the grassland

One is called the horse's head and the other is called the horse's tail......]

The singing is melodious and tactful, as if there are endless words.

But.

I don't know why.

Later, Zhang Huisheng, like Haizi, committed suicide.

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