I was born in the era of the highest status of the scholar clan, and the Zhao family is not only a scholar clan, I even have a title in my family, and there is a smart and capable eldest brother who is in the top of the family, and my life should have been Zhilan Yushu, born in the court steps.

But I didn't expect to be born at the wrong time, caught up with Jia Hou's chaotic government, the Great Jin Dynasty was shaky, Jia Hou didn't want to see our brothers work together, and was afraid that we would twist into a rope against her, so I kept provoking the relationship between our brothers.

But I don't want to have some words that I can't take back once they are exported, and over time, I will inevitably wonder if the other party is pretending to be a show, and what I say is actually from my heart, so my relationship with my eldest brother is getting worse day by day.

I think I'm excellent, but maybe because my eldest brother is too dazzling, everyone can only see him, but not me, maybe I'm jealous of my eldest brother from my heart! Especially when my eldest brother used to insult me in public, maybe the seeds of resentment had already been planted at that time.

Later, the eldest brother's only son died, but the grandson was stupid, and the eldest brother had no successor, so I had no choice but to pass the title to my son.

I have always been jealous of my eldest brother and resentful of my eldest brother, but I am also convinced of my eldest brother, I am self-aware and know that I am inferior to him everywhere, but I didn't expect that in the end, my son lived longer than his son, and my grandson was smarter than his grandson, and I felt that I had finally moved back.

However, the situation is changing too fast, the eldest brother is willing to die in order to protect the family, at that moment my heart is complicated, I don't know if one day I face such a situation, can I also sacrifice my life like the eldest brother, can I do better than the eldest brother.

After the death of the eldest brother, Luoyang was caught off guard at a speed, Zhao Ji took Wang and others to escort the eldest brother's coffin back to his hometown, but lost the coffin of the Wang mother and son and the eldest brother halfway, and his family came back without a full beard and tail, at that moment I thought I was extremely disappointed in this son, but I don't know, there will be countless more disappointments later.

I thought my grandson could be better than my eldest grandson's, but my eldest grandson's grandson may not be smart, but he has a very smart granddaughter, but my son and grandson are really stupid.

In a short period of time, Hanzhang not only won the five counties of Yuzhou, but also cultivated his own descendant Zhao family's army, repelled the Huns, and came to Luoyang to rescue.

However, now Luoyang is full of devastation, the emperor no longer wants to stay here, he wants to move the capital, Hanzhang does not want him to continue to stay here, in order to make the emperor feel at ease, my son and I will follow Yanzhou as hostages.

Before leaving, Hanzhang wanted to seek justice for himself and Erlang, she forced me to kill Wu, I was a little sad and disappointed, but then she came to intercede with me, but I was even more disappointed, I was disappointed that my grandson was too far behind Hanzhang.

At this time, I really understood the helplessness of my eldest brother before his death, and his mood when he scolded me, he may not look down on me, nor to humiliate me, he really hates iron and steel, he is really worried that there will be no successor! Just like I do now.

Yan Zhi couldn't find anyone who could serve as the patriarch, so Han Zhang proposed Zhao Ming to be the patriarch several times, but this was something I couldn't accept.

I went to Yanzhou, on the one hand, as a hostage, to buy Hanzhang enough time to develop, and on the other hand, I tried my best to mediate and maintain a good relationship between her and the emperor.

When the summer solstice sacrificed to the sky, Hanzhang said that I would intermittently sue for illness and want to take me home, I could see that she was sincere, but I was already such an old bone, and it was useless to go back alive.

I originally wanted her to take my unsuccessful son back, so as to save his life, but then the accident always came unexpectedly, and the Hun army was overwhelmed, and no one could leave at this moment.

Yanzhou fell at an incredible speed, I was captured with the emperor, for the sake of the common people of the world, for the sake of the people, in order not to let the Jin army be threatened, I advised the emperor to commit suicide, because as a loyal minister, I cannot kill the king.

I think I've finally come to this day, and I want to be as good as my big brother did.

However, I overestimated the emperor's courage and backbone, he didn't dare to commit suicide, so it was over, but it didn't take long for Hanzhang to defeat Pingyang and capture Liu Yuan's youngest son Liu Yi.

And Liu Cong killed all the other brothers, and wanted to force Hanzhang to kill Liu Yi, and sent poisoned wine to the emperor, this time I finally persuaded the emperor to drink the poisoned wine, and I also drank the poisoned wine, from now on, no one will become a burden to Hanzhang, she will avenge us, she will regain the lost ground, because she is the granddaughter of the eldest brother!

And I can finally be as good as my eldest brother did, and live up to my family and country in this life.