Chapter 18: Before We Begin
After this illness, Jin Yan has a deeper understanding of the combination of work and rest, and also has a new self-reflection on herself, for work assignment, the combination of work and rest. She almost knelt down to what Guan Yulan had told her before, and she was honest and didn't deceive her.
Therefore, the closer she got to the press conference, the less nervous she became. Originally, for projects like theirs, the foundation was solid in the early stage, and the simulation was successful in the middle stage, but in the later stage, it was completely based on the previous completion and meticulousness. Fang Jinyan is not nervous, maybe there is also a sudden menstrual visit, so she has no strength to be nervous. This is also the characteristic of her, and the moment before the big event, she thinks there is no need to be nervous.
The night before the press conference, Fang Jinyan was on the beach of the venue, standing there alone with the sea breeze and closing her eyes. The people from E-LAN were still on the sidelines, and she happened to be idle, standing aside to rest.
Suddenly, a voice sounded beside him: "What are you doing alone?" ”
She turned her head and saw that it was Qin Moru, and replied relaxedly: "I'm closing my eyes to recuperate." ”
"You're not nervous?"
"When I think I've tried hard, what is the result, as if there is no need to be nervous?" After saying that, she smiled at him.
"Why? You should be okay now, right? Qin Moru looked at her and seemed to be in a good mood although she was a little weak, so she still asked uneasily.
"I'm fine, it's not a stomach ache, it's just a little afraid of the cold, so I wear more." She glanced at the already set up field behind her with some playfulness, and continued, "Right now, you might be nervous. ”
"Well, that makes sense." After listening to this, Qin Moru also stood aside, blowing the sea breeze together.
Fang Jinyan glanced at him, then looked at the busy appearance of the others behind him, turned his head and asked, "Are you done?" ”
"Not yet, but it's coming soon. Do you want to eat with them later? Qin Moru asked rhetorically.
Thinking that he was a little uncomfortable today, and he had to continue to arrive at the scene on a cloudy day, he refused: "No." I'll go back to the office later. Let me do the easiest job today. On a cloudy day, everyone has to come early in the morning and go home early to rest. When you're done, I'll be able to go. After that, Jin Yan said secretly: "Moreover, I am not familiar with many other people in your company. ”
"Are you still afraid of this?" Qin Moru asked with interest.
"Afraid, afraid. Recognize life. Jin Yan nodded and smiled. Suddenly, I remembered thinking about Qin Moru's kindness before, so I asked, "But Qin Moru, why have you always been so good to everyone?" I seem to remember that when we used to go to class together, you often seemed to invite everyone to dinner together, and you really invited people every time. ”
Qin Moru smiled: "It turns out that you remember, why didn't you remember before." ”
"Memories are also something to be remembered slowly." Indeed, after synchronizing him with Ethan in his memory, the fragments of memories began to slowly appear in his mind, and they could be strung together into fragments, but they were all just fragments.
"I used to like to play, but I wasn't very sensible, probably because I was more funny when I talked, so I always played with everyone." Mo Ru's thoughts returned to that time period back then, and Yun said lightly.
"Well, remember you were very active at the time. Don't you feel sorry for not being in touch? Jin Yan turned her head to look at him, looking at his side face.
"Nope. I just went out and occasionally sent a message to ask about the latest situation, but after all, everyone went to different countries and different cities, and there were also those who did not choose to go abroad in the end. He said calmly.
If time is stretched into a line, in the small half of their lives, this time has indeed only occupied a small point. Life is passing by in a hurry, fate gathers and fate is extinguished, and at that time, everyone thought that everyone would disperse.
"Well, I probably went to the United States for a few months to take classes, so I don't remember much."
"Well, you're the least caring about people at that time, anyway. I guess there were some people you didn't remember at the time. Qin Moru raised her eyebrows and looked at her.
"Me? If you don't know it, you don't remember that much. Jin Yan smiled, even now, she is not very familiar.
"But when we were going to get together, you were going to attend."
"The party is because I don't have anything to do in the first place. I don't have any friends in that city, so if you say go, just go. The teacher is also there, and the teacher spoke, and I think I should go. ”
"You're giving face to the teacher, so boring?" He looked at her a little speechlessly.
"You're boring! I liked the teacher at the time, and I always thought he was very easy-going and responsible. Jin Yan smiled and slapped him on the shoulder, and then said thoughtfully: "Actually, the first time I worked overtime, it was because I was bored, and it was not as hard as the boss said at the time, because of serious efforts, I was not harsh." But then I think about it, it's the boss who is right. After saying that, he smiled to himself. After a short pause, Jin Yan continued to speak: "Actually, I'm quite bored. ”
"Well, sort of." After saying that, he also echoed and smiled. Sure enough, Fang Jinyan smiled and hit him again.
"Hey! - She said that she could say this kind of thing, but when he said it, it felt strange, and she remembered something, and said: "Do you remember that the teacher always laughed at our English names to explain the pronunciation of words?" Why are you called Ethan? That's the question I wanted to ask back then. ”
"Then why are you called Ethel?"
"Because when I was in elementary school, my English teacher gave me a very popular name, and then I thought that this one was relatively rare, so I changed it."
"Well, I'm pretty much the same. It's just that I later found out that there are still quite a few people named Ethan. ”
"Hahaha...... Right. I met several of them when I was in college. Jin Yan said with a smile.
"Actually, you have such a good memory, do you occasionally feel troubled?" Jinyan has always felt that it is not a good thing to have a good memory, if there is nothing special to care about since childhood, but what if there is? What if there's a memory he doesn't want to remember? If you always remember it, how much it hurts.
“……”
Qin Moru felt a momentary touch in his heart. I probably didn't expect that from such a point of view, someone would always say that they envy his memory, or want to use his talent. But he did remember many things from childhood to adulthood, and he didn't do it deliberately, so from the perspective of memory, it won't bother; But if it's something else......
"It's fine. After all, it doesn't take much effort to remember this. ”
"Hmm. That's good. ”
The two of them chatted like this, and it can be regarded as harmony.
At this time, Joanna, who was standing on the side of the stage in the distance, looked at a pair of men and women standing on the beach, laughing with each other, the women occasionally slapped each other playfully, the color of the sunset was still so shining, the sparkling waves on the sea, and the silence was filled with laughter. With his eyes closed, he lowered his head in disappointment, turned to the other side of the stage, and stopped looking at the scene.